Actor, is it a joke?

The film kicked off amidst the noise of the scene.

At dusk, the afterglow poured into the half-open French windows. Between the parted curtains, there was a silhouette of a middle-aged man sitting on the balcony. There were a few tufts of gray hair in the man's disheveled hair. His mind was a little tired. Take the old acoustic guitar and hum softly.

This is Bai Ge, who is pretending to be vicissitudes of life. In the movie, his name is Pei Yan.

Accompanied by the slow rhythm of the guitar, it was a melody without lyrics. The man lowered his eyes, strummed the strings absently, and hummed intermittently.

The hoarse and lazy human voice is amplified countless times by the high-end audio equipment in the VIP auditorium. This casual melody sounds rough and monotonous at first glance, but it seems to have a natural magic power, the long-preserved vicissitudes and sad nostalgia bit by bit The point penetrated, and easily touched the heartstrings of countless people, making the audience in the venue quickly quiet down.

The man continued to hum, and the camera turned from his calm face to the tea table beside him, where a group photo was placed.In the photo are two men and a woman, each face is full of youthful vigor and a touch of greenness.

Xu Chengdu recognized at a glance that there were Bai Ge and An Mu when they were young, and there was also a boy with gloomy eyebrows.

Next to the photo was a gold medal composer's trophy, with Pei Yan's name engraved on the base of the trophy.

The camera flickered twice, and the humming stopped abruptly.

Followed by a series of reverse fast shots, the audience only had time to see the high-rise buildings turned into low bungalows, the wide road narrowed and narrowed, the itinerant vendors on both sides of the market began to gather, and the clothes people wore were retrograde. Back to 20 years ago.

Twenty years ago, girls still wore little white skirts with double ponytails, and boys carried army green messenger bags and liked to tuck their T-shirts into their outer pants.

The same melody continued to be hummed, only this time, it became cheerful and lively.

This is an old city with hutong culture. Three children of average age, Pei Yan, Gao Xin, and Fu Miaomiao, the only girl in the courtyard, grew up playing together in the courtyard.From kindergarten to junior high school, from ignorance to gradual understanding of personnel affairs, they are inseparable and inseparable.

The story unfolds among these three young people, starting from the moment when the girl slowly transforms from an ugly duckling into a white swan.

Fu Miaomiao became the number one goddess in the country.

Admirers often block her door when going to and from school, but because she is always followed by two followers, these admirers often do not have the opportunity to confess their feelings.

Pei Yan and Gao Xin, who grew up with Fu Miaomiao in crotch-open pants and had long noses, never paid attention to her subtle changes.It wasn't until that day when a boy from the same school shouted Fu Miaomiao, "I like you" on the flag-raising platform with a loudspeaker, that the two finally realized where they were different.

With the heightening of her figure, Pei Yan appeared sunny and handsome, and she often walked with Fu Miaomiao, handsome men and beautiful women, the pictures were particularly harmonious, and rumors that the two were dating soon spread.Out of the vanity of getting the most beautiful girl in the school, Pei Yan turned a blind eye to the scandal, let it ferment, and never seriously clarified it.

He often discusses with his good buddy Gao Xin, if one day he really pursues Fu Miaomiao, will the other party agree.

Compared with the other two friends, Gao Xin is obviously more restrained and reserved. Most of the time, he rests his chin on his hands, quietly watching the two of them spoof and frolick.When asked about his opinion, he just smiled and was noncommittal.

Only this time, there was a bitter taste in his faint smile.

Later, the false rumors became true. Fu Miaomiao confessed to Pei Yan, and Pei Yan agreed.Just in my last year of middle school.

This was the first time in Pei Yan's life that he missed Gao Xin.

Then the college entrance examination came, Pei Yan and Gao Xin were admitted to the same northern university, while Fu Miaomiao went to the dreamed-for southern water town.

At this point in the story, it seems to coincide with the youth of most people. The plainness reveals the truth, and the truth has the throbbing of youth that cannot be hidden.

In college, Pei Yan and Fu Miaomiao have never broken contact, they often talk on the phone, and their relationship has always been stable.Pei Yan's university life has always been orderly, the only change is that his good buddy Gao Xin's popularity has suddenly increased.

The reason is that he sings well.

Pei Yan is in the composition department, and Gao Xin is in the pop music department.

Pei Yan can write beautiful songs, and Gao Xin can perform the songs he writes at a high level.

The two hit it off and formed a group, one in front of the stage, one behind the scenes, one accompanist, and one vocalist. They stick together every day to create and communicate, and they go to bars to sing or perform on the street when they have time.The group's reputation is also getting higher and higher, gathering some diehard fans, and even some record companies have started to talk about cooperation intentions.

Their combined name is Xinhuo.

Seeing this, the auditorium began to whisper, and Xu Chengdu turned his head to listen.

"No way... why do I feel that this direction is not right?"

"You feel the same way? Tell me I'm not alone."

"Fuck, is this a movie about how different genders love each other?"

"Wait... It's not that this is Director Jiang's relationship history..."

"Oh my god, if this is the case, the door of this cabinet may not be able to be pressed!"

Xu Chengdu also had some guesses in his heart, he cast a questioning look at Baige who was concentrating on watching the movie, Baige raised his eyebrows slightly, signaling him to look down patiently.

During the third year of the film, Gao Xin contracted a problem of alcoholism.

Pei Yan couldn't find anyone, and Pei Yan, who didn't think about food and drink, was in no mood to call Fu Miaomiao. The two had a big fight and broke up unhappy.Afterwards, he received a call from his friend, saying that he had seen Gao Xin in the bar. The friend hesitated, and Pei Yan had a bad feeling.

When he arrived at the bar that he had never heard of, he happened to see Gao Xin being carried out by a man.

Then he saw a scene so frightening that his three views collapsed, the man kissed Gao Xin forcibly!

After the shock, his anger consumed his rationality. He rushed up angrily, grabbed the man by the collar and punched him.

This is a major event, Xu Chengdu looked at Pei Yan who was screaming ferociously in the movie, and then looked at the calm and elegant Bai Ge beside him, it was difficult to connect the two together.The actor's acting skills are fully displayed at this moment.

After a lot of punching and kicking, both sides were defeated, and Gao Xin, who was blowing the cold wind, regained a little sanity temporarily from the intoxication.

"Pei Yan, what are you doing!" He stepped forward and pulled the two apart.

Pei Yan was out of breath, wiped the blood from her mouth, pointed at Gao Xin's face, and cursed, "Why do you still have the guts to ask me? What are you fooling around with these days? Hugging and kissing a man! Really him The mother's nausea is killing me!"

These words touched Gao Xin's sore spot. His delicate face turned red and white, and he poked his neck and said, "I just like kissing men, what's wrong? Did I kiss you?"

"You!" Pei Yan was obviously very angry, "Did you bewitched by you!"

"Yes, I'm bewitched." Gao Xin first pushed Pei Yan, and then suddenly bullied him with his fists clenched.

There was a gasp in the audience.

Baige coughed lightly, and reminded the stunned Xu Chengdu in a low voice, "This is a substitute, do you know about the kiss substitute?"

Xu Chengdu didn't hear what he said at all, he just nodded dully, his mind was full of... Baige made a gay movie?He, he... he himself is... what is he trying to do?Coming out?There was an inexplicable chill on the back of his spine.

Lips met lips, and that kiss ruined the friendship between two good friends for more than ten years.

Gao Xin didn't go to class anymore, and began to hide from Pei Yan all day long.

During this period, Pei Yan began to learn about the homosexual group through various channels. He had the original intention of pulling his friends out of the quagmire, but in the end he ran away.Because he found that this is not a disease, nor is it evil, it is innate.

And he faintly began to feel some things, for example, Gao Xin would often stare at him and smile, for example, Gao Xin once tampered with his lyrics without authorization, changing the "she" in the draft to "he", for example, Gao Xin later told Fu Miao Miao is getting more and more distant.

These details all point to one thing, one terrible thing.

Pei Yan began to blame herself, feeling that Gao Xin had been hurt by her words, but he couldn't find anyone.

Gao Xin dropped out of school without saying a word. He wrote a letter to Pei Yan, saying that he had a crush on Pei Yan since he was a child, and that his feelings were too strong for him to stay by his side, and he would not disturb him and Fu Miao. wonderful.

It's just that he didn't know that Pei Yan and Fu Miaomiao officially broke up on the same day he dropped out of school.

This is the second time in Pei Yan's life that he has missed Gao Xin.

Later, Pei Yan became a well-known gold medal composer in the showbiz circle and gained fame.

By chance, he attended a high-end bar party and met Gao Xin, who was a resident singer, again. He took a stage name, A Yan.

Ah Yan sang the song written by Pei Yan back then, with unforgettable old feelings on the brows and corners of his eyes, which burned Pei Yan's eyes who were watching from afar.

Reunited after a long absence, they got drunk and slept in the same bed, but nothing happened.

Afterwards, with curiosity, Pei Yan began to approach Gao Xin. For some reason, Gao Xin's whole body, from hair to toes, attracted him at this moment. He was eager to get to know this person comprehensively.

Soon, like ordinary couples, they began to take steps.

But even faster was the speed of the paparazzi. A photo of them hugging intimately was photographed and sent to Pei Yan's home, where they were extorted for hush money. Pei Yan was immediately dumbfounded.

Homosexuality was generally not accepted in that era.Pei Yan gave the money, but he was still uneasy. He is a famous composer and his career is on the rise. How could he be ruined by a scandal?

After much deliberation, Pei Yan decided to make a clean break with Gao Xin.

The miss this time is forever.

Gao Xin disappeared. He became a mountaineer and went alone to a large snow mountain abroad. Many adventurers who put their life and death aside died in that snow mountain, and Gao Xin also failed to come back.

At the end of the film, the melody that appeared at the beginning of the film sounded again.

The middle-aged Pei Yan finished composing the melody on the balcony and also filled in the lyrics. The name of the song is "Heart Fire".Putting down the pen, he began to cry irrespective of his image, why did he cry?Mostly because of remorse.

"He's a fire in my heart,

It burns the flesh, burns the heart, burns the mind and everything.

Many years ago, it was just a small spark,

Over the years, it has grown into a prairie fire.

The first time I missed it, I realized it later.

The second time I missed it, I was enlightened.

The third time I missed it, I regretted it but was powerless.

He is a fire in my heart,

I didn't realize it had warmed me for so many years until it went out. "

Along with the singing, low sobs sounded faintly in the projection hall.

The movie went back to the youthful years back then. Since it was a physical education class, there were only a few people in the classroom. Fu Miaomiao was whispering to her best friend, Pei Yan was taking a nap, and Gao Xin was sitting on the table next to him, resting his chin Quietly looking at the boy he has loved all his life.

This moment is frozen forever.

The lights came on, and applause rang out one after another. Director Jiang, who came in halfway through, stood up, bowed to the dumbfounded media, took a deep breath, and tugged at his slightly wrinkled suit.

"Don't you have anything to ask? Media friends?"