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After the meal, Husky and Ermin washed several empty dishes together. Husky held the tiramisu he bought, and Ermin shrank to the sofa with the remaining mulled wine. Sky also leaned over, bouncing non-stop, as if wanting to come up.Husky stretched out his hand, hugged it directly into his arms, and rubbed his head.

Ermin leaned on the back of the sofa, her legs curled up, she drank the red wine with her right hand, and watched the husky tease Sky, "Let's talk about a topic that is not so easy."

Husky looked at Ermin a little nervously, not quite sure what Ermin wanted to talk about.

"You just said that Journey to the West involved both Buddhism and Taoism." Erming paused, "I know what Buddhism is because we taught it in our religion class, but Taoism? If I remember correctly, our professor said But it is not a religion like Confucianism."

Husky laughed, and she shook her head a little resignedly, "Yeah, I remember that too. However, this comparison is fundamentally wrong. I can understand that there are indeed some Chinese people who think Confucianism is a It is a kind of religion, but for me, I think it is just a kind of theory. Just like the geocentric theory and heliocentric theory in the past."

"So, you're saying that Confucianism isn't a religion in itself, it's just that we understand it wrong?"

Husky thought for a while, and she turned sideways to look at Ermin, "You can't say that, it's just that, in my understanding, Confucianism is a theory rather than a religion. But, in the field I don't know, Whether it's a religion or not, I really don't know."

"Okay." Ermin nodded. "I see. What about Tao? You think it's a religion?"

"It is." Husky nodded very firmly, then she frowned and shook her head, "However, Taoism is a very complicated thing. It involves too many things. Taoists even believe that as long as a person is alive That is practicing, including your doing things, eating, sleeping, and working. Of course, there are other things such as reading and exercising. These are all of them."

Ermin sat up with interest, "Let me listen, maybe I can understand a little bit."

"No." Husky shook her head, she said, "It's not a question of whether you can understand it, but I only know a small part of it."

"Interesting." Ermin chuckled, "So you don't ask to master your own native religion?"

Husky spread his hands, "Taoism has a very, um, interesting feature that they don't like to force people to believe in it. Or, in the past, Taoism used to look at qualifications when recruiting believers. I don't know if it is a What, but, it probably depends on whether you are smart or not."

"So, for the ones who aren't very smart, what do they do? Can't believe it?"

"I guess you can read books and do research by yourself at home. But generally speaking," Husky pursed his lips, "that's roughly what it means."

Ermin pouted and shook her head, "That's not friendly at all."

Husky shrugged his shoulders, "Who says it's not."

"Then what about gods? Are there any gods in Taoism?"

"Of course." Husky nodded, "We have more than one. We even have a novel dedicated to these gods."

"More than one?" Ermin was a little curious. "How do they manage it? I mean, who is the most important one?"

"I think everyone is important." Husky hummed, "Think of it as a kingdom. Everyone has their own position. Of course, there is also a king, but he is not the most powerful. He He is only responsible for ensuring that the entire kingdom is running correctly. Above him, there are three gods, who are the real leaders of Taoism, but they don't care about anything, they just focus on their own practice."

Ermin nodded with some understanding, "So, the Taoist gods are more like the Olympic gods in Greek mythology?"

Husky thought for a while, then hummed, "Almost, our gods don't go around like the gods in Greek mythology, um, leave so many offspring with others. And," Husky suddenly laughed, "Our Immortals do not mean that they were born by the Emperor of Heaven and the Queen Mother, they basically became immortals because they did a lot of great things."

"Okay," said Ermine, "that sounds pretty weird, but what are you laughing at?"

"I just thought of my last paper in the last semester's religion class." Husky rubbed Sky's ears, and Sky lay on Husky's lap, drowsy. "I concluded by saying that if we can finally master all the laws of nature, then we too can become gods. I just realized that this is the very definition of Taoism."

"That's what I want to ask." Ermin put the empty cup aside, and she leaned comfortably on the handle of the sofa, "In Taoism, every god was an ordinary person before?"

"It doesn't necessarily have to be a human." The husky stood up, and she gently put Sky back into her nest, and covered it with a quilt, "I remember some of them seem to be animals, as for plants. , I'm not so sure."

"Animal?" Ermin's eyes widened involuntarily, and she put her legs on the husky's lap, "This is too interesting."

"Why is this not possible?" Husky looked at Ermin and asked back, "Taoism believes that everything in the world is spiritual, so as long as their actions are correct and they don't do bad things, they may become gods."

Ermin leaned on the back of the sofa, she smiled and looked at Husky, "Now I can understand why you are so amazing."

Husky's ears were red again, and she stared at the coffee table in front of her, not knowing what to say.

Ermin laughed, she leaned back on the armrest of the sofa, she gently touched the husky with her foot, "Tell me something I don't know."

Husky looked up, she looked at Ermin, Ermin's face was red, it seemed that she drank a little too much today, "What's the matter?"

"You," Ermin said.

Husky chuckled, and she spread her hands, "I don't know, I mean, I don't know, um, you want to know."

"Anything." Ermin looked at Husky, she smiled and rubbed her heel on Husky's thigh, "Once upon a time, those crazy things you and Xiang did together."

"Once..." Husky read softly, she grinned, then she looked at her wrist as if thinking of something, and took a deep breath.

"Ah oh." Ermin called out softly, shaking her head and brushing her hair gently with her hands, "Husky, maybe no one told you, but if you talk about something serious on Christmas Eve, the next Not a good year."

Husky raised the corner of her mouth slightly, and she looked at Ermin, "Did you learn this from China?"

Ermin raised her eyebrows noncommittally, "What do you want to tell me?"

Husky let out a soft breath, and she turned her arm to show Ermin the scar on her wrist. "You told me that night that I wouldn't kill myself because I know how fragile life is, how precious it is. That's right, I know how fragile life is because I committed suicide."

Ermin sat up involuntarily, crossed her legs, and stretched out her hand to gently cover the back of Husky's hand.

"You know that I once liked a girl. I confessed my love to her during the summer vacation when I came to the United States, the year of my sophomore and senior year of high school. I have liked her since elementary school, and she knows." Husky took a deep breath Tone, "I finished talking to her that day, she smiled, she said thank you, and then she left."

"At that moment, I felt like my whole life was over. Going to a completely strange country, just me and Xiang, I didn't know anyone there, they spoke a language that was not my mother tongue, no My family, nothing. And now, the only girl I like has said no to me, basically. All I can think about at that moment is, suicide."

"I can't be at home, because I'm afraid that others will blame my parents, I'm afraid they will find out and save me. I want to go to a place to travel, and then die there. So I told my parents, I said I want Go to Qingdao. They agreed, but Xiang wanted to go with me. I have no way to get rid of her."

"We went to Qingdao and checked into the hotel. When we got off the plane, I saw a fruit shop under our hotel. I told Xiang, we can go buy some fruit. But we don't have a fruit knife. So," Husky snorted With a sound, her body couldn't help trembling, and Ermin held Husky's hand tightly, only to find that her palm was completely cold, "We put down our luggage, went down and bought a fruit knife, and some apples."

"We played in Qingdao for two days, I think it's almost enough, enough, no regrets. It was noon on the third day, Xiang said she wanted to go down for lunch, I told Xiang that I would take a nap. But I didn't I waited, I knew it was impossible for the Prime Minister to stay in the room well, I waited until she left the room."

"I got up and went to the bathroom. I put a bathtub of hot water, because I knew that my own wounds were healing quickly, and I needed hot water to delay the healing of the wounds. I left a note for Xiang, Because I was afraid that someone would blame her in the future. I said it was my idea, and I had already made up my mind before I came to Qingdao."

"I went into the bathroom and cut my own wrist. It hurt, it hurt so much, I don't think I'll ever have it again in my life. I watched my blood go into the tub and it just trickled down. I I have thought a lot about my parents, relatives, and..."

Husky took a deep breath and licked his lips, "My brain is running slower and slower, I can't feel my body, I feel cold, and then, my vision becomes blurred, and finally it's completely black. Etc. When I woke up, Xiangzheng held up my arm and desperately pressed my arm with a towel."

Husky laughed softly, "I think I don't have to repeat the bunch of words she scolded me. Then she, um, that was the first time I saw her be so furious, I think if it wasn't because I was already half dead at that time No, she's sure to send me to hell."

"Then she asked me if I really wanted to die. If I really wanted to die, she immediately let go of the towel. I was lying on the ground with an unknown amount of blood. To leave a scar forever." Husky laughed, and she looked sideways at Ermin, "Do you want to guess what I said?"

Ermin didn't answer, she waved to Husky, "Come here."

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