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Pu Xiangnan looked at Lu Yanbei without a word, and it was the first time she saw someone who admitted that she was sick.

The original words of comfort were a bit speechless.

But Lu Yanbei was afraid that she would not believe it, so he still insisted, "I'm really sick!"

"..."

Talking like this, it was getting darker and darker. Luo Yuwen looked at the black lines all over his head, and quickly took over, "Let me talk about it."

This was originally the reason why Lu Yanbei invited her to come over, so she immediately ended this endless loop and turned her head to motion for Luo Yuwen to speak.

"The formation of a person's personality has innate factors and is also influenced by the acquired environment. Of course, Lu Yanbei cannot be completely unaffected by the situation of the Lu family." Speaking of his major, Luo Yuwen's tone became serious. Looking at Pu Xiangnan, he said, "It shouldn't be considered a disease, but there are indeed some psychological problems."

"Because she has never experienced the warmth of a family and has never established a normal interpersonal relationship with others, she has lost this ability and will subconsciously avoid being close to others. This situation is called 'avoidance-dependence type' in psychology. Personality Disorder'."

Seeing that Pu Xiangnan was frowning tightly and his face became more and more serious, Luo Yuwen changed the subject and said, "However, her situation is different from other personalities of the same type."

The avoidant dependent personality tends to be shy, cowardly, inferior, cautious, clumsy, afraid to deal with people, and once you insist on doing it, you will fall into obvious difficulties.

But Lu Yanbei is obviously not like this.

Her superior conditions in all aspects, as well as her innate strong character, obviously helped her build a lot of self-confidence.So the appearance she showed was "independence" and "coldness", repelling others thousands of miles away, as if she had a world of her own, which made people dare not commit lightly.

——This is Lu Yanbei a few years ago.

Ever since Luo Yuwen pointed out her situation, Lu Yanbei had no choice but to get out of her independent little world and began to face more realistic problems.

Originally, Lu Yanbei didn't put much thought into her studies, but instead focused more on studying the things she was interested in. Anyway, for her, school education was no longer necessary.

But since she realized that it was useless to escape, she made up her mind to study hard.Two years later, Lu Yanbei, who was originally "ignorant of learning and skill", was not considered outstanding, but his grades were definitely outstanding. He was admitted to T University, which was beyond many people's expectations.

At the same time, she also began to try to get in touch with the people around her.

If you interview Lu Yanbei's high school classmates now, everyone's impression of her must be warm and generous. Few people still remember the withdrawn and defiant Lu Yanbei before the first year of high school.

However, all this is just an illusion.

She pretends that she is a normal person, pretending that she can communicate with others normally, but in fact, this kind of communication is always controlled by her to a certain degree, not far or near, dispensable, when that stage passes, it will be Can be thrown away easily.

So after college, she didn't have any contact with her high school classmates, and she never attended class reunions.

From Lu Yanbei's own point of view, she didn't think there was any problem with this, and she even felt at ease.But in Luo Yuwen's view, this state is obviously abnormal.

That's why Pu Xiangnan's appearance is commendable.

"Although I have known her for several years, I really can't help her. So I am very surprised to know your existence." Luo Yuwen said to Pu Xiangnan sincerely, "Thank you!"

When Pu Xiangnan heard this, he felt a little awkward.Judging from the distance, it was impossible for Luo Yuwen to say thank you to her, but she could hear that Luo Yuwen's tone was very sincere, obviously he thought it was very good from the bottom of his heart.

It's rare for a psychiatrist who is not related to him to pay so much attention to Lu Yanbei, even if it's just out of duty.If she hadn't been by Lu Yanbei's side, maybe everything would be different now.

If the person Lu Chenghua was looking for back then was not Luo Yuwen, but another psychiatrist who had no professional ethics and could be bought by money, then Lu Yanbei might not be where he is today.

Just thinking about this possibility made Pu Xiangnan feel his heart clenched, almost suffocating.

"I should be the one thanking you." Thinking of this, she smiled at Luo Yuwen, "If it wasn't for your help, I don't know what would happen now."

Luo Yuwen heard the meaning of swearing sovereignty from her words, of course he would not compete with her, blinked, and smiled, "This is probably the case, since you have already understood, then my work will be completed It's gone." She looked at the time, "I still have an appointment, so I'm leaving first."

Then quickly retire.

After she left, the room fell into a brief silence. After a while, Lu Yanbei pretended to be relaxed and said, "This is probably the case on my side. So what I told you before was not to scare you, you The me I know may be just the beautiful part of me that I pretended to be. But my disguise is successful because there is still a distance between us. After crossing this distance, maybe you will see a land that disappoints you Yanbei."

She was still holding Pu Xiangnan's hand, with sweat dripping from her palm, she turned her head to look at Pu Xiangnan, "Xiao Xiao, now...do you still want to be with me, an imperfect person?"

"Well..." Pu Xiangnan deliberately pondered for a moment, looked Lu Yanbei up and down, saw her body tense visibly, and then smiled, "Lu Yanbei, are you making a mistake? I never I think you are perfect... You are a proud and self-righteous person, always trying to control everything, and you just want to handle everything by yourself... Thinking about it carefully, there are still many shortcomings!"

"...Aren't you being too merciless?" Lu Yanbei asked after the suspicious silence.

Pu Xiangnan snorted, "No way, otherwise, you won't be able to wake up."

"Hey, that's too much..." Lu Yanbei, who was slightly frustrated with his self-esteem, bumped her with his shoulder. Seeing that Pu Xiangnan was still smiling, he rushed over, pressed her on the sofa, and scratched her with his hands , "I have a lot of shortcomings, huh?"

"Hahaha... It was originally..." Pu Xiangnan was made to laugh out loud by her, and shrank his body to avoid her movements, while saying, "Didn't you say that yourself!"

"Hmph, you're still stubborn when you're about to die." Lu Yanbei had the upper hand and suppressed her, "Are you begging for mercy?"

"Please!" Pu Xiangnan raised his hands and begged for mercy.

Lu Yanbei paused his movements, but Pu Xiangnan took advantage of her unpreparedness to overturn him and restrain her in turn.

The two were fighting on the sofa, and almost rolled to the ground at one point in the middle, so scared that they quickly lightened their movements.It's just that, when two people are squeezed together on the narrow sofa, there will inevitably be more physical contact.

At some point, the atmosphere gradually became sticky, and even the slapstick movements seemed to have changed.

The two looked at each other quietly for a moment, and were involuntarily attracted to each other, exchanging a lingering kiss.

At the end of the kiss, Pu Xiangnan half embraced Lu Yanbei's neck, gasped and smiled softly, "Who made me like you? What I like has never been your perfection. If you are really so perfect, maybe I I dare not like you, I will only respect you at a distance."

The last sentence made Lu Yanbei's heart tighten, and subconsciously blocked her lips again, preventing her from saying such words that would be unpleasant just to think about it.

She groped to find Pu Xiangnan's hand with her hand, first she held it tightly, then separated the other's fingers one by one, squeezed her own hand in, and clasped her fingers tightly.

Now that you have made your own choice, then I will not give you another chance and leave my side.

……

After finally talking about everything, the two officially began to fall in love, and the atmosphere was naturally different from before.But probably because they were close enough before, the other two students in the dormitory didn't notice anything for the time being, they just expressed their dissatisfaction with the fact that they ran out to play by themselves for two days.

Then they will send Pu Xiangnan away.

Lu Yanbei actually didn't want other people to see Pu Xiangnan off, after all, it would be inconvenient for her to have a little intimacy.

But with classmates, everyone is so proactive, how can they dampen their enthusiasm?

So along the way, she seemed a little too silent.When they arrived at the station, Pu Xiangnan saw that she was out of her mind, so he ordered Xie Wennan and Su Rina to buy milk tea from the nearby milk tea shop, and he took the time to talk to Lu Yanbei, "What's wrong with you?"

"I regret it, I don't want you to leave." Lu Yanbei leaned his head on her shoulder and complained in a low voice.

The smile on Pu Xiangnan's face faded, "I can't bear you either." She squeezed Lu Yanbei's hand and played with her fingers, not knowing whether to comfort herself or the other party, "Fortunately, the vacation is only for more than a month, and it will be soon. past."

"How about I go back with you?" Lu Yanbei suddenly whimsical.

Although it is whimsical, it is not without operability.After all, it's fine for her to stay here. Although she agreed to practice together, Xie Wennan and Su Rina can be company anyway. She just needs to send them over and settle down.

It's more troublesome how to explain to them why I suddenly stopped going, but it's not impossible.

Pu Xiangnan's eyes widened in surprise at first, and then his heart beat wildly.But soon she calmed down, shook her head and said, "No, I probably won't have much time to go out, and I can't let you stay outside alone."

Lu Yanbei is looking for her, that city is completely unfamiliar to her, if Pu Xiangnan can't accompany her, then what's the point of the past?

"Okay..." Lu Yanbei sighed heavily. In fact, she also knew that the possibility was unlikely. If so, then calm down and settle the matter on her side first.

Yes, after confirming that Pu Xiangnan will go home for the summer vacation, Lu Yanbei has already decided to completely settle the company's affairs during the summer vacation, so that he can focus more on dating in the future On a big event, there is no need to worry about the future.

More importantly, Pu Xiangnan will not be involved in this matter.

Pu Xiangnan said before that she was self-righteous and wanted to handle everything by herself, but she was not wrong.

But she couldn't get rid of this kind of problem left over from history by herself, and it was not for Pu Xiangnan to deal with it.Besides, after solving this matter, she will be able to go ashore completely. At this time, there is no need to create side effects.

Lu Yanbei who made this decision didn't know that Pu Xiangnan had actually made up his mind.

……

Pu Xiangnan was also lucky. On the second night after returning home, after dinner, while sitting in front of the TV watching the news with Pu's father, he happened to see the news that Taiwan passed the same-sex marriage bill.

Although because of the domestic situation, the news only mentioned it in one word and didn't discuss it much, but Pu Xiangnan was still shocked.

She turned her head and tentatively asked Pu's father who was drinking tea, "Dad, this same-sex marriage... What do you think?"

"What do you think?" Ye Youlan's voice rang out hastily, "Other people's affairs have nothing to do with us! What are you talking about all day long?" He then directed Pu's father, "The TV series I'm chasing is about to start. Alright, tune me in."

Pu Xiangnan frowned in his heart, it was a pity that he missed an opportunity to discuss openly, and also missed an opportunity to test his parents' attitude.

wrong……

She thought about it in her heart, and subconsciously looked at her mother Ye Youlan.This kind of obstruction is actually an attitude in itself.Saying that other people's affairs have nothing to do with me actually means that I don't want to talk about others.But it was only out of good manners and politeness, she actually disapproved of it herself.

Although he had expected it a long time ago, Pu Xiangnan was frustrated when he really realized this.

But she couldn't just give up like this, she was already with Lu Yanbei, both of them were very serious, and they were going for the rest of their lives.That being the case, these things should be resolved earlier.

Besides, Pu Xiangnan also has some calculations in his heart, if he comes out to his family now, no matter how unhappy or angry his parents are, it will only be against him.After all, they are their own children, and they can't be remade. At worst, they will be slapped with shame. In the face of unchangeable facts, they may loosen.

If they find out about their relationship with Lu Yanbei in the future, it will be a disaster scene.

Parents are protecting their shortcomings, and when the time comes, they will feel that Lu Yanbei has "brought on" themselves—although it seems okay to say so, but even if they do, it's because they are bringing each other down, and they can't just blame one person.

But this kind of reasoning doesn't make sense when they are furious.

And once they have this thought, they will feel that Pu Xiangnan can be transformed back, and it is even more impossible to accept it easily.

With this in mind, when she boarded the train, she had already thought about coming out to her family this holiday. Whether she accepted it or not, she had to detonate the bomb, so as not to leave it there and feel frightened.

So Pu Xiangnan continued his efforts and began to complain about a male classmate in his high school class.

——It was the one who almost confessed his love to her during the class reunion when he came back from the last winter vacation. He still plays a message to her from time to time, and he doesn't know what he wants to do, and sends some vague words.Judging from the meaning of the male classmate who has a good relationship with him, it seems that he has not given up the idea of ​​chasing her.

Pu Xiangnan finished complaining, and pretended to be casual, "I don't know what these boys are thinking every day, I really don't understand. If this continues, I will be afraid of men."

"Nonsense!" It was Ye Youlan who answered again, "You overturned a whole boatload of people with one shot. Because the quality of a few men is not high, you just fired map guns at all men. Why isn't your father a man? of?"

Pu Xiangnan pressed her in a low voice, "Then don't you often call my dad hopeless?"

"What did you say?" Ye Youlan's expression stern.

Pu Xiangnan shrank his neck, "I said that many men are quite hopeless, right?" Barabara gave several examples. I don't know if a straight man has cancer that makes people want to beat others. They broke up for strange reasons, and even brought up those extreme cases of killing their wives, and finally came to the conclusion, "Who can not be afraid of this?"

But Ye Youlan also has her own logic, "So you have to keep your eyes open! What do you young girls know? You are often easily fooled by others. So you have to be kind to your family. Parents choose for you. They all know the basics, A calm and reliable person, isn't there no risk in this way?"

"You can guarantee that the person you pick will be good? It's not like there's no precedent!" Pu Xiangnan immediately raised the bar.

Ye Youlan immediately said, "What's wrong with the boy I introduced to you last time? He also thinks he can be with you, but I heard that you don't reply all the time. The man thought it was you who disliked him." What! I can’t cure you in Beijing. Now that I’m back, I’ll find a time to meet up and get in touch. Don’t be cold-hearted all the time.”

"What are you doing?" Pu Xiangnan thought that this male classmate had become a thing of the past, but she was suddenly moved out again. She was angry and anxious, "I won't go!"

"why are you not going?"

"I don't like him, why do you always hang him and give people hope?" Pu Xiangnan said straightforwardly.

"Emotions come from everywhere. If you don't get in touch with him, how do you know you don't like him?" Ye Youlan frowned.

"I just know it!" Pu Xiangnan stood up directly and entered the bedroom without speculation.

Pu's father pinched the remote control and pondered, "Your girl doesn't seem right? I looked at it, why does it seem that there is someone in my heart?"

When Ye Youlan heard this, her expression became even uglier. She sighed forcefully, and grabbed the remote control, "What do you know? Leave it alone!"

Pu's father came to his senses belatedly, "You already knew?"

Ye Youlan rolled her eyes, not wanting to talk to him.

"Do you disapprove?" Papa Pu frowned and thought for a while, then said earnestly, "The more you talk about the child, the more rebellious she will become. She is not three years old anymore, you can't ask her to do everything Come according to your standards? When it’s time to let go, you still have to let go.”

She thought that Ye Youlan was simply unhappy because Pu Xiangnan didn't like the boy she introduced and didn't follow her own arrangement. This comfort was completely wrong. "Is it because I don't want to let go of this matter? She always looks for a man..."

There was a sudden silence at this point, but it was enough for Papa Pu to understand what she said.

She was so surprised that she couldn't close her mouth, and it took a long time for her to let out a meaningless "ah", and then she suddenly understood, "No wonder that child asked about same-sex marriage just now..."

"Your daughter is so smart! Don't give her a chance to speak, or she will force you to show an attitude." Ye Youlan hastily explained.

Although it has been half a year since she found out about this, Ye Youlan has never thought about what to do. What she can do now is to firmly hold down the cabinet door for her to prevent her from jumping out unexpectedly.As long as Pu Xiangnan didn't say it, they could pretend not to know.

As a teacher, Ye Youlan knew that this was deception, but this was the only way.

……

It took several days for Pu Xiangnan to realize that his parents might have noticed something.

They were obviously avoiding her topic, and as soon as there was any sign of turning to it, they would immediately gossip about him, even grab some trivial matters, reprimand her, and take the opportunity to stop her from finishing her sentence.

Once or twice, it can still be said to be a coincidence, ten times and eight times, there is obviously a problem.

This was exactly what she wanted, so Pu Xiangnan was startled at first, and then calmed down.It's just this calmness that makes her speechless and heartbroken. She has guessed everything but is still deceiving herself. She has a headache because of their stubbornness, but also feels unspeakably uncomfortable.

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"My Days of Farming in the End Times (GL)"

Author: Yi Qingruo

When the end of the world came, Tang Han was driving a rented van, pulling a whole load of supplies back home for the New Year.

Her hometown is a small village deep in the mountains. Every family has thousands of catties of food, vegetables in the field, pigs in the pen, fish in the pond, and hundreds of acres of fields to be planted around. forests.

Tang Han rolled up his sleeves, carried the hatchet on his back, and picked up the hoe, "As the descendant of Shennong, it's time to unleash the power of the blood!"

A post-apocalyptic article without zombies, just a group of ordinary people happily farming, eating and drinking in their daily lives.

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!