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Lu Yanbei was taken aback for a moment, obviously he didn't expect her to say that.

But when the subject changed, the atmosphere became more relaxed. Lu Yanbei looked at her tear-stained face and nodded, "Yes."

"You said your head was broken?" Pu Xiangnan lingered on her forehead for a moment, and found the scar.The wound was too deep, and even after more than ten years, the traces left behind were still obvious. Pu Xiangnan had noticed it before, and now he finally understood its origin.

She raised her hand and gently stroked Lu Yanbei's forehead with her fingertips, "Does it hurt?"

Does it hurt?

These words seemed to travel through time and space, appearing in the ears of the six-year-old girl, and really comforted her pain.

Lu Yanbei curled his fingers subconsciously, and after a while, he suppressed the emotion that was choking his throat, and shook his head lightly, "The pain has long since disappeared."

Even without looking in the mirror, she didn't remember having such a wound on her forehead.

Lu Yanbei felt that he might be bewitched by the night, or by Pu Xiangnan's tears.

The words that I thought I would never be able to say in my life, turned out to be so.After saying it, I feel that it is not that difficult.It turns out that those things have really passed away, and it turns out that time can really take away all the pain, leaving only faint ripples.

She pressed Pu Xiangnan's shoulder, "It's been a long time, and I seldom think about it myself. Xiaoxiao, I didn't say this to make you sympathize with me, I just..."

She paused for a moment before she found the right words, "I never thought of bullying you, I wanted to make you happy. But I have lost the ability to love someone." When she said this, Wei Wei turned her eyes away , "I will never be as frank, brave, and fearless as you, I... I am afraid."

"Afraid?" Pu Xiangnan subconsciously repeated these two words.

"Yes, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I don't know how to take good care of you. I haven't learned from my parents how to like someone and how to build a long-term and stable relationship. I'm afraid that you will be disappointed in me. I'm even more afraid that if I really open up Heart, let you walk into my life, one day you will regret it, say you want to leave, and leave me here alone."

Lu Yanbei dissected his insignificance, humbleness and viciousness, and put everything frankly in front of Pu Xiangnan.

"I'm afraid to break everything that is peaceful now, so I would rather reject all changes. I'm a coward."

Pu Xiangnan shook his head subconsciously, wanting to speak.Lu Yanbei raised a finger and pressed her lips, "Shh, don't talk, little one. Listen to me, I'm afraid if I don't say it now, I won't have the courage to say it in the future."

"...Okay." Pu Xiangnan blinked and nodded in agreement.

"You know? I actually sometimes think meanly, it would be fine if you didn't confess your love. We are still the closest friends, and everything is the same as before." Lu Yanbei smiled self-deprecatingly, "But I I just found out today, and it's just because I'm still scared."

"I'm afraid that you have made up your mind to move forward. From now on, there will be no place for me by your side. I'm afraid that when you want to fall in love again, you will no longer consider me."

She looked into Pu Xiangnan's eyes with concentration and a bit of lingering fear.

She asked, "Xiao Xiao, if I beg you to wait for me now, and wait for me to catch up, are you still willing to give me this chance?"

After asking, Lu Yanbei's eyes became a little apprehensive.

She knew that this request of hers was actually too much, and she meant "taking advantage of others", but it was still because of Pu Xiangnan's liking for her.But otherwise, she didn't know what else to do.Up to now, she has not found a solution to this matter, but subconsciously knows that this cannot continue.

Pu Xiangnan was stared at by her, and a sour emotion suddenly surged in his heart.

She subconsciously raised her hand to cover Lu Yanbei's eyes, and the tears that had been suppressed just now poured out again.

This time, she didn't make a sound, she rested her head on the back of her hand, sobbing silently.

"Little?" Lu Yanbei called her suspiciously.

Pu Xiangnan cried even harder. This time, she was not crying for herself, but for Lu Yanbei.

She has a lot of things to say, she wants to say that I am not as good as you think, but tears keep pouring out, and there seems to be something blocked in her throat, which makes her unable to speak, and can only shake her head constantly.

Lu Yanbei is right, they are different.But she is not the frank, brave and fearless Lu Yanbei said at all, on the contrary, she is ten times more despicable than Lu Yanbei.When she was controlled by hormones and kissed Lu Yanbei impulsively to express her feelings, she never thought about the word "later" for even a second.

She is the most common kind of girl in the world, full of delusions, full of yearning for love, but she can't think of too long-term places.

They may fall in love in college, and in the end they will achieve a positive result or die without a problem. They all let the flow take its course, without planning, and they will not conceive and prepare in advance.For them, love is an inevitable stage in life, just like trying anything else that has never been tried before, there is no need to be so serious.

In fact, she doesn't know how to love someone, it's just... It's just that she hasn't been hurt, so she dares to try.

Although she was the one who was rejected, she could feel wronged for granted, but in fact, Lu Yanbei, who was more serious and responsible, suffered more injuries.

With such unspeakable shame, Pu Xiangnan cried harder than before.

"Don't cry..." The person who had been soothed suddenly started crying again, and Lu Yanbei was at a loss for what to do.

This time, she really couldn't understand why Pu Xiangnan was crying, and even thought that what she said scared her.

"You don't like to hear this, so I won't talk about it in the future." She patted Pu Xiangnan on the back and said incoherently, "I know that my request is too much, it doesn't matter if you don't want to agree..."

The front of the chest was suddenly grabbed.

"I agree." Pu Xiangnan, who was still sobbing, looked up and said so.

Her eyes were red from crying, and the area around her eyes looked a little swollen. Those big clear eyes seemed to be covered with fog, which made people feel distressed.But she widened her eyes, stared at Lu Yanbei, and repeated, "I agree."

"You..." Lu Yanbei was slightly taken aback, forgetting what he wanted to say for a moment.

"I'll wait for you." I cried too much before, even if I stopped, my body would still twitch habitually, so Pu Xiangnan sobbed and said, "How long... I will wait. Even... in the end you still, no Like me...I also..."

"That's not what I meant..." Lu Yanbei hurriedly tried to defend himself.

Pu Xiangnan shook his head, grabbed her hand, pressed it on his heart, and said softly, "I'm not afraid."

"Little..."

These nonsensical words seemed to turn into an arrow and hit Lu Yanbei's heart completely.

Her mind went blank, and she almost cried too.

She understood what Pu Xiangnan meant: Even if she was rejected and hurt, she was not afraid.Since Lu Yanbei was afraid, she would give the initiative to Lu Yanbei and let herself bear these fears.

Originally, although Lu Yanbei heard those words in the dormitory and was stimulated, he told Pu Xiangnan about his affairs and made such an exaggerated request, but she actually didn't have much confidence in herself. .

Is this all right?Doesn't that really make things worse?

In the bottom of my heart, such doubts have not disappeared.

But because of Pu Xiangnan's words, Lu Yanbei suddenly felt that even if the road was really full of thorns, she would have to go through it.

Otherwise, what should she use to repay this person in front of her?

What's more, if you want to hold on to this person forever and keep her by your side, the only and best way is to completely change the relationship between them and bind the two of them closely together.And what kind of relationship can be closer than lovers?

She held Pu Xiangnan's hand tightly, feeling the eager heartbeat under the thin skin, and subconsciously hugged him a little tighter with the other hand.

"I'll be there soon." She closed her eyes, "I promise."

Time seemed to stand still at this moment, and the evening wind of the summer night gently blew past the two of them, bringing the sweet and refreshing scent of rose flowers.

Only then did the two people who were leaning against each other slowly withdraw from the state that seemed to be isolated from the whole world, and only two people existed, and regained consciousness.The chants of unknown insects, the noise of classmates in the distance, the faint music coming from nowhere, and——

"Legs seem to be numb." Pu Xiangnan shook his body and whispered.

Her voice was still a little hoarse, but as soon as she said this, the viscous atmosphere was completely broken.

Lu Yanbei tried to move his legs, and replied, "Me too."

The two looked at each other, and then laughed together without warning, and the laughter grew louder and louder.The legs were already numb, and they couldn't bear the movement of the two of them leaning forward and backward, so they swayed and sat on the ground.

The two supported each other to stand up, their smiles gradually faded, but the atmosphere between them was still soft.

They stood face to face for a while, and Pu Xiangnan suddenly asked, "Isn't it very late?"

"It should be." Lu Yanbei thought for a while, "It was past eight o'clock when I came back." The two squatted here talking for so long, it must have been past nine o'clock.

Pu Xiangnan asked again, "Are you staying in the dormitory tonight?"

Of course Lu Yanbei nodded, since he reconciled with Pu Xiangnan, there was no need to move out.Anyway, the beds in the dormitory have never been removed, and they can sleep with a change of sheets and quilts.

"Then go back now?"

Lu Yanbei let out a "hmm".

But neither of them moved. After a while, Lu Yanbei asked, "Shall I give you a hug?"

"Is it okay?" Pu Xiangnan asked, his eyes sparkling.

"It should be possible," Lu Yanbei said solemnly, "Hugging is a kind of social etiquette, and even friends can express their feelings in this way."

"Then..." Pu Xiangnan smiled and opened his arms towards her.

Lu Yanbei took a step forward and hugged her, as if embracing a lost and found treasure.

This embrace is so compatible, as if they are the other half that was missing from each other, and they have not been fulfilled until now.And Lu Yanbei's heart, which had been wandering all the time, finally settled down at this moment.