Nowhere to be found, only the heart of a young man

For students, the first thing to do is to study hard.

After my sick leave ended, I went back to school.The most urgent thing is to make up for missed homework as soon as possible.

So, I borrowed notes in all directions, bowed my head and wrote hard every day, handing in various homework, and I was too busy.

The empty void in my heart was filled to the brim with endless busyness.

I want to use this to forget some things. Maybe if I forget, there will be no more discomfort and pain.

In a blink of an eye, the time has come to the mid-term again.Now that I am on the right track of study, I have very few chances to meet Fang Fang, let alone Da Jun and He Li.

Even if I can see them occasionally, it just happens that the two classes look at each other from a distance when they are in the physical education class on the playground.

Spring is over, and another summer is coming.The verdure that covered the world once again turned into the lush greenery everywhere in the small southern town.

Time goes round and round and round and round, the campus where I live is still full of books, and the market downstairs is still bustling with people.

At the barber shop at the corner of the market, the lady proprietress in a white coat goes in and out every day, busy inside and out.The guests continued to flow.The tape recorder in the store no longer played Su Rui's old songs, and replaced it with the latest popular Hong Kong Four Heavenly Kings.

Gradually, I began to become more acquainted with the students in the new class.

There are several girls who treat me very nicely.Among them, some new friends are just like Fangfang, humorous, warm and generous.

I often go to and from school together with them.During the break, we will also form a group in the shortest time, jump rubber bands, kick the shuttlecock, and exercise the muscles and bones after sitting for a long time.

If you have a good time, when the weekend comes, the classmates will call each other together and visit each other.See each other's homes and get to know each other's parents.

This Sunday is the birthday of classmate Yao Mengjie. She invited five girls, including me, to visit her home and share the cream birthday cake her parents ordered for her.

Early on Sunday morning, after a good night's sleep, I got up, called my mother, and picked out a pink dress for me.I hurriedly washed up, and after breakfast, I stayed downstairs at home, waiting for the other four girls to gather at the agreed place, and set off together to Yao Mengjie's house, which is only one road away from my house.

On a sunny day, the five of us walked out of the crowded vegetable market, crossed the crosswalk, and walked beamingly in the direction of Yao Mengjie's house.

The girls gathered together, chirping like larks.There are endless words and endless stories to talk about.

"Lin Nian, your skirt is so beautiful today!"

"Really? I like the dress. I like the color."

"Pink! I like pink too."

"What girl doesn't love pink? We all do."

"Lili, it seems that you haven't seen these white shoes before?"

"I wore it, I wore it last time in physical education class..."

When we were on the path to the dormitory of Mengjie's house, happily immersed in the girl's colorful and dreamy world, a tall and thin person walked by on the way.

That figure is very familiar to me.

A plain white shirt, slightly long short hair, and a silent and serious face.With his head down, he was striding forward, holding a red nylon net bag in his hand, which contained an empty soy sauce bottle.

It's Holly.

It was Holly whom I hadn't seen for several months.

"Look, that person seems to be from our school."

Someone in my team found him.

"This person seems to be the one who fought with Wang Zheng last time, what's his name?"

"Ask Whisper, ask Whisper, he knows this person."

The girls chirped and cooed.

When I finally saw the person walking towards me clearly, the hands that were gesticulating with my companions in the pleasant conversation with my chest stopped for a moment.

I stared blankly at Heli, who was close at hand.

Inadvertently, he raised his head and saw me in the crowd.

The moment the two looked at each other, he stopped, his mouth slightly opened, and his eyes were full of astonishment and anticipation.

I opened my eyes wide and stared at him intently.

The two of us stood like this, motionless, as if time had stood still.

The girls around me slowly quieted down and looked at us suspiciously.

"Whisper, let's go."

Finally, someone couldn't help but speak.

Others began to secretly pull the corners of my skirt.

I suddenly woke up from the dream and came back to my senses.

Following the pace of everyone's movement, I reluctantly began to move forward slowly.But with every step I took, the previous lightness and flexibility became extremely heavy.

He Li's eyes followed me, dazed, and his expression gradually became lonely.

At the end, he suddenly turned his head away, strode away again, and walked away silently in the opposite direction from us.

In my team, the joy of the girls chattering as usual was restored again.Everyone was talking and making noise, as if nothing happened just now.

Tired of dealing with my surroundings, I secretly turned my head several times, wanting to see him who had gone away.

Gradually, his long back turned into a small black spot until it disappeared completely.

He's gone, really gone.

The birthday of my classmate Yao Mengjie finally became the day of my farewell to Heli.

It was the last time I saw him with such depth and clarity.

Holly is gone, disappeared from my life.This unexpected and sudden farewell is just like when he first came to my life, I was so dazed and at a loss.

The last figure he left for me was so lonely that in the next 20 years, deep in my heart, buried in a corner, he was always alone and extremely lonely.

I will quietly treasure everything between me and him in my heart.Under the action of time, I kept trying to find everything about him with my heart of forgetting him.

All the pictures are like faded photos, the colors are gone, but the images are still there.

Memory is like a luxury for Homecoming.I have always stubbornly left him floating in my heart.

After the semester ended, I successfully entered the third grade of junior high school.The grades have always remained at the leading position in the grade.

In the whole school year of the third year of junior high school, the huge study pressure made me too tired to breathe.I gradually distanced myself from my former friends and spent every day with books.During this period, I occasionally met Fang Fang a few times, and I could only briefly meet each other and greet each other briefly, and then when the class bell rang, they each ran into the classroom in a panic.

Holly also mailed me a holiday greeting card on the eve of the Spring Festival holiday, with the snow scene along the Qinhuai River in Nanjing printed on it.

The big red lanterns are hidden among the white snow, very eye-catching.I treasured it as a bookmark in one of my favorite novels, and always carried both with me.Let them be the only tokens that accompany me in my long boring life.

Time flies like a white horse.

Just as everyone wished, after a year of hard work, under the guidance of the head teacher Mr. Bao's firm will, I was admitted to a key high school in the city.For such a result, the teachers gave their approval, and the parents were very happy.Minmin proudly boasts to everyone that her sister is a student of a key high school!

Later, I heard that Fang Fang was admitted to Pugao, Dajun signed up to join the army, and Heli also entered another Pugao.The four of us are really separated from each other.

Without the news of my friends, and I can no longer find their whereabouts, I can only cheer up, unswervingly, and start a new journey in life alone.

Later, after the tedious three years of high school life ended, I was admitted to a key university outside the province as expected.

It is also a happy event that our family has been assigned a new dormitory in the unit where my father works.

The house got bigger and more spacious, and it was in a better part of the city.On the day when I officially moved, I looked at the empty brick house, saw the mess on the concrete floor, and listened to the old cries in the market outside the window. I had a lot of thoughts and mixed feelings.

Over the years, new people and new things have been added to my life.I kept saying "hello" to them curiously and excitedly.They smiled at me and accompanied me through every special stage of my life.For their arrival, I silently opened the shackles of my heart, no longer shackled in the barriers, but bravely learned to dance and sing.Just before I had time to say goodbye to each other properly, they had already suppressed their words and disappeared one by one without a trace.

The road is long, and I know that my youth will be settled and the curtain will come to an end.

So, in the end, I had no choice but to muster up the courage to leave my hometown, and started my journey to study in a different place without hesitation and fearlessness.