Brother, let's talk about life

After getting off the plane, Shen Jingyan took a taxi directly to his house. When he came over, he even forgot to call, and called his name when he entered the door: "Zhou Zhi, Zhi..."

No one promised Shen Jingyan and ran over directly, opened the door and there was no one there, and called with trembling hands. He was not worried that he would disappear, but worried that if he left, he would not even say hello.

The uncontrollable anxiety and fear came down with the ringtone of the phone.

"What's the matter, I just saw you making so many calls just now."

He almost stuttered: "Zhi... Where are you? Tell me where are you?"

"Where can I be, in a foreign country, shouldn't it be midnight in Beijing now, what, have a nightmare?"

I can't care so much anymore, it's good to hear that he's fine, Shen Jingyan would rather not see each other than to have anything to do with him: "I'm a little worried about you, Zhou Zhi, you must come back to me after finishing your work, I feel that I can't leave you for a moment. "

I don't know when there was no shy confession, Zhou Zhi's voice was still gentle and smiled slightly: "Okay."

Because of the rush, it was already late at night, dragged his body to take a shower, lay on the bed to rest silently in a daze, smelling the smell, his mind was full of him, thinking about the smell of each other and the breath of being in love.

After tossing and turning unable to fall asleep, I turned on the light and glimpsed the bookshelf opposite. I entered this room for enthusiasm, and my eyes were all on that person, so I had no time to care about other things.

Today, I became a little interested. I opened it and walked over to look at the bookshelves. I didn’t expect his dear to read Western fine arts. Except for a book called One Hundred Years of Solitude, the rest are all artistic things, including a few classical CDs. Music, interspersed with basic medical texts.

Slowly pointing his hand to the most hidden corner of the bookshelf, it was a very ordinary diary, which Shen Jingyan seemed to have never seen before. He took it out and opened it gently. A small card fell down, and he bent over to pick it up.

I didn't expect it to be my business card.

Shen Jingyan almost forgot when he had such a flamboyant business card with his portrait on the back, which is a general ID photo, a group of photos he took when he just graduated from graduate school and was preparing for work. He looks very young, but he is so silly look.At the bottom is your job title and phone number.

That man is really becoming more and more elusive, maybe as he said, they met a long time ago, this feeling is so strange, and the mood is very good.

Shen Jingyan stuck and put the things back.

Originally, he was thinking of sending the diary back, but a little photo head was exposed on the top, so he turned it over.

The smile on his face slowly faded. This is a photo that makes people mad with envy, because at first glance it looks like a photo of a couple, with green grass and European-style arrowheads in the background.One is a young and stern man, a handsome and pleasant college student, both of them are smiling very brightly, and the man's hand is gently around the waist of the little boy next to him.

Such an ambiguity is not an ordinary friend at all.

Shen Jingyan always thought that only she could enjoy that man's smile. The man next to her, Shen Jingyan, seemed to be impressed. He was thin and young, with his head resting slightly on Zhou Zhi's shoulder.

For the first time, there was a kind of crazy jealousy, and I felt like a boy who was in love at the age of seventeen or eighteen, who could stir up all his emotions in an instant.

Like a hot potato, he hurriedly threw it over, lay on the bed to calm down, and unconsciously touched his phone to send him a text message.

'I can't sleep, how about you? '

Zhou Zhi called directly after the text message was sent.

Shen Jingyan felt aggrieved and longing in his heart, he asked him if he couldn't sleep.

Soft and cowardly voice: "When are you coming back?"

Zhou Zhi knew what was going on when he heard this voice, lowered his voice and said softly, "Miss me, don't you?"

"Yeah, why are you back?"

"Soon, if I go back, I will go directly to you."

Shen Jingyan hummed, "Send me a photo, I can only fall asleep with your photo tonight."

He chuckled softly, "Okay."

Shen Jingyan felt that he must be crazy. He ran back and forth for three hours, and when he returned home, he was reprimanded again. He became more and more calm and kept apologizing. What else can the young master apologize for? , the attitude is correct, no one will ask why they left in the middle of the night, and they searched all night.

No matter how infatuated with text messages and phone calls, it is always inferior to meeting him, and he can't be angry like a woman asking him to do something, so he can only accept it passively.

When he was anxious, he didn't expect He Bing to accompany him. He originally accompanied Shen Jingyan to leave, but now he came back with him.

I bought a lot of things and knocked on the door.

Shen Jingyan was temporarily taking over the position of manager. He was required to make decisions on many things, big and small, and he had to take care of Zhou Zhi's affairs. He was about to jump, and said without raising his head when he heard the knock on the door: "Come in."

As soon as he came in, he looked like a child who made mistakes, and said in a flattering way: "Jing Yan, I bought some things for you, try it."

"I'm not hungry."

He Bing said in a low voice: "Eat a little even if you're not hungry. Your mother said you haven't eaten for a few days. These are the things you loved to eat before."

Shen Jingyan said loudly: "No need! What are you talking about!"

He was sitting across from him. When this person loses his temper, he must not be head-on. Silence with him is the best way.

Sure enough, within a few minutes, the anger subsided, and the impatient voice said: "I have no intention of forgiving you, so don't talk nonsense to me."

"I don't intend for you to forgive me, as long as you still want me to stay by your side."

Why did this sound so awkward, Shen Jingyan put down her pen and raised her head, her eyes curled up and said with a smile: "He Bing, when did you bend?"

He chuckled, "There are too many people chasing you, and I'm not the only one. Besides, how can I handle you?"

"Shouldn't you hate me? I've been suppressing you for so many years. Like Ran Jue said, I've always been superior and never given face. I don't care about other people's feelings and look down on them. I'm useless to fight my father and my elders. Why bother to be hypocritical with me now ?”

He Bing stared at him: "We've been together for so many years, do you really think I'm hypocritical? In fact, you're right. I grew up in a poor life and saw that money is open. I have been friends with you for many years and worked for many years. I have learned a lot. Although you are domineering, you are right. I am really good. You are a person who is not forgiving but has a strong personality. It is normal for men and women to like you. I have doubted my sexual orientation before, but people like you are destined to be surrounded by people. I'd better withdraw."

Shen Jingyan smiled and said: "You people always take advantage of the reason, first criticize me violently, then raise the level, and finally conclude that I am blind and ignorant and don't understand that you are all for my own good, and you are overconfident and pretentious .”

"No, I don't think so." He Bing said, "For you, I absolutely have no other thoughts. Anyway, I hope you can forgive me no matter what. As long as I don't fire me, I can be with you every day."

"Don't be nasty! Say something weird, that's all right, you go to work, I'll eat these later."

Even if they reconciled, Shen Jingyan didn't intend to give his heart to him. Some things can't go back, and there are cracks in the repair of broken mirrors. He is not that generous but he doesn't want to give up someone easily, so he can only do this.After going through a lot of things, my mind has gradually matured, and I can no longer trust people blindly.

Seeing Ran Jue again, it was the first time he changed into ordinary people's clothes, leaning against Shen Jingyan's car and standing coolly with his head tilted.

I saw him far away from get off work, "Why are you haunted, do you have to force me to swear?"

Ran Jue said with a slightly surprised expression: "Shen Jingyan, I heard He Bing said that you are still here, it is really, strange."

Shen Jingyan didn't want to listen to him, so she pulled his arm away, "I want to go home, get out of the way, ok?"

Facing his back, he said in a strange way: "You broke up with him? Then do I have a chance?"

The man turned around and kicked him on the body: "Don't come to see me again after you're so weird."

"Hey, I saw Zhou Zhi at the airport yesterday and thought you were with him, but I didn't expect you to be so serious about your work."

what?

What is he saying?

A burst of emotion welled up in my heart. I haven’t seen him for almost half a month. All the jealousy was replaced by endless miss. I miss him day and night. I want to see him more than ever before. Why didn’t you tell him when I came back? ?Is something wrong?

"You don't have to worry about my affairs."

Although he said it, he immediately picked up his mobile phone to book a plane ticket. He used to hate tossing back and forth the most, but now for him, let alone tossing, it’s okay to stay on the plane twice or three times a day forever.

Since Zhou Zhi didn't tell him, there must be other things to do, but he couldn't wait for a moment, so he was going to surprise him first.

Because he was catching the night bus, it was already four or five o'clock in the morning when he arrived in City C, so he forgot to rush straight to his house due to the exhaustion of the journey.

The sky is still slightly bright, and the sky in the morning is always clean, silent and untainted.Falling leaves in autumn was originally a sad withering situation, but he didn't feel a trace of chill in his hurried steps.

The outside door was not locked, and everything was quiet. Shen Jingyan went in and took out the key to open the door gently, and she couldn't stop smiling with joy on her face.

In such an excited mood, he didn't even see the two pairs of crooked shoes under the door, and pressed his fingers on the door to push it away.

If it is a movie at this moment, then it must be in slow motion, showing the opening of the protagonist over and over again, a series of shots up and down, left and right, and finally freezes on that handsome face that makes people unable to move their eyes.

The excitement and happiness when I opened the door at the beginning, seeing the situation inside the house slowly disappeared, and then turned pale and trembling, and the excited heartbeat became gasping for breath.

The color of the sheets on that bed was chosen by him himself, and how many sleepless nights were carried on it, it turned out to be so glaring at this moment.

Two naked bodies are entangled, he has often seen that slender and strong body, kissed and caressed it, and now appreciates the head in such a cruel way, the man next to him has pale skin, his head rests on the man's arms, and his hands are useless Put it on your waist with scruples.

Shen Jingyan's spineless legs gave way, and she almost fell to the ground. She supported her body with her hands on the door frame, her gaze was dull, her footsteps moved slowly like a jack, and she didn't know how to get out of the door.

His head started to buzz, and the scene was like a bolt from the blue. He had never experienced it before, so he didn't know what to do, how to do it, and what to think about, just kept walking forward.

He didn't even hear the phone ringing, and finally entered an alley, leaned against the wall, gasping for breath, and recalled the scene over and over again after recovering.

The numbness just now turned into pain. It turns out that the heart and liver of a person will really ache to a certain extent. This kind of pain is like thousands of ants eroding, and every cell in the whole body jumps unbearably because of unsteady standing.

The phone kept ringing, but he couldn't get it out no matter how hard he looked. Finally, he threw all his coat and bags on the ground, picked up the phone, and let out a sigh of relief.

Zhou Zhi's anxious voice said, "Xiao Jing, where are you?"

He lowered his head and did not speak.

"Xiao Jing, let me talk to you, where are you now?"

He said faintly: "I'm at the airport, my dad has something to do with me, I have to go back."

The voice from the phone was like a wandering spirit, Zhou Zhi clenched his fingers and subdued the voice: "You are waiting for me at the airport, I will go to find you now."

His voice is so magical, he was so in love with him, he thought it was just a dream and everything was fake, so he can continue to weave it in it.

However, that photo was carefully placed in the diary like a photo he had cherished for a long time. These days, he was coaxed to make him wait, but he had fun with another person in their bed. That picture may be unforgettable day and night.

"Mr. Shen, why are you here? Why is your expression so ugly? Are you sick?"

Shen Jingyan was so dazed that he didn't even notice that Gu Yun came over. He was bending down to pick up the scattered ID cards and wallets on the ground, and put his arms around his waist.

"follow me."

The author has something to say:

Some things have been clarified

I wrote a lot about sweetness

When the next few chapters were revised and written, I burst into tears.