[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

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I don't know what outrageous and terrible guesses Nanaisi made because of his frequent consultations with Yu. Men also feel that the recent days are very dull. I started to observe Nanessi carefully, and tried to feel and sort out the real thoughts in my heart.

The reason why he often went to the rain during this period was because of this—probably because he hadn’t faced up to his inner feelings for too long. He was somewhat confused about what to do better, and he didn’t know how to check the conclusions he got. It is objective and true, so after thinking about it for a while, he went to ask Yu, who felt that he was very well received by the guests who went there.

After probably vetoing the door and asking seriously if you want to use the program to collect your own mood index, Yu also realized that the door is really clumsy in this regard, so after being surprised, she also restrained herself from being too much at the first time. With a relaxed mind, even though she is a little younger than the door in terms of the age of the two of them, she still patiently leads him to explore his own ideas and puts forward various suggestions and methods like the "sister" she likes to call herself.

Regardless of whether it is effective or not, I am very grateful for Yu's efforts to help the door. It can be said that although he is currently making slow progress in clarifying this point, he has not given up but persisted. More or less, he hopes that Yu will not be in vain. It was the effort he put into his problems that kept him from quitting halfway.

Yu gave him all kinds of suggestions, some of which were tentative and some were contradictory, but one thing remained constant, that is, Yu made him temporarily forget what he wanted to do and not think too much about it. Questions can only be answered by concentrating on feeling the inner feelings.

And this time, Yu's suggestion is to think from the past to the present—recall the perception of the other party at the beginning, and see if there is any difference by comparing with the current mood.

How did you see Nanaisi at first...

The door tried to think back, although logically it was only a few months ago, but it felt like a long time ago, he couldn't recall what he thought at the beginning.

No, it's better to say that most of the time, I really didn't have any special views on Nanessi, right?

The door thought for a while, and vaguely recalled his closeness, praise and behavior to Naixi at the beginning. He seemed to be observing calmly from the perspective of people other than his "previous self". Sometimes he saw Nana When Xi Zui is stupid, he can't bear to look directly at him and wonders whether he has done similar things in the past. Sometimes when he sees Nanaixi being naughty, he will respond to the same small pranks, and occasionally a little "someone" will appear Feelings──But most of the time he doesn’t feel anything, even if he takes care of Nanaisi, it’s better to take care of his own life than to take care of him. On top of his work, occasionally he would be a little surprised to see Nanessi suddenly appearing beside him, and it took him a while to realize that he was no longer alone.

Sometimes he forgets that Nanessi is "myself" for a while, and his attitude towards young people is somewhat gentler, but most of the time he doesn't feel it, and sometimes he doesn't feel like he doesn't think about anything, and Nanessi, who was also smirking hollowly, would also feel a little annoying and disgusting emotions rising from the bottom of his heart. At that time, he could not help pinching Nanessi's face, or something like this This act of bullying him a little bit──Anyway, if he knew it was 'myself', even if he was shocked at the moment and felt a little pain, he would feel puzzled, but he would not hold grudges, and he would forget these little things in a short time. He will come over foolishly.And he is not always full of this kind of self-loathing in his heart. More often than not, he can still play the role of "gentle brother" well, and treat Nanaixi as softly as possible, and such times are rare.

Now that I think about it, Nanessi at that time was more relaxed and rarely bothered me.

After thinking about it, it was only now that Men realized this. In the past, he seldom noticed the existence of Nai Naisi, mostly because usually as long as he said that he was going to be busy, Nai NaiXi would wittily eliminate his sense of existence and run to The room is still another place to play by yourself, even if you can feel the desire to be close to the 'brother', and occasionally behave like a flattery, but you rarely pester him for too long, usually he only needs to say two or three words if he doesn't bother to pay attention , A casual compliment can send the contented Naixi away to play by herself.And I don’t know if it’s because of this, even if the two of them stayed at home all the time in the first two months, and usually ate together, they rarely chatted or stayed together for a long time. It's amazing that they are all in the same space but hardly overlap each other.

The situation began to change, probably after Nanessi suddenly ran out of the apartment to find me that day?

Men thought about it for a while, probably he started to pay attention to Nanessi after he started running around, whether it was suddenly running to say that he wanted to sleep together, taking the initiative to resume normal contact with people, trying to encourage him to go too Making friends, and being caught by him wearing women's clothing while working... These messy things that he had to pay attention to seemed to take that day as the dividing line, and then popped up all over the place.And it was also because he didn't continue to stay at home as a squat at home, and started running around. In order to avoid any unexpected mistakes, he would pay attention to Nanessi's movements from time to time.

It was also after that that Nanaixi was not as easy to pass as before. If he was interested in many things, he would ask them to the bottom of the matter, and he would not be perfunctory just because of one or two words from him—although there were occasional conversations before that It's not that she didn't talk to Nanessi more, but it's not like recently that even if she just talked about trivial things, she talked for a long time almost every day.

Is it because I spent more time paying attention to Naixi after that, and my perception slowly changed?

Thinking about it this way, the door slowly began to change his attitude after he figured out what kind of situation he was in. As I said before, the appearance of the two of them before and after the long-term opening is actually quite different, from height to appearance. People, when he didn't pay much attention to Nanessi before, he could still ignore this point and maintain a rational understanding of the fact that 'the two of them are the same person', but face to face, actually getting along for a long time, and If you have been paying attention to each other, due to the difference in appearance between the two, this cognition will gradually become blurred after a long time──especially since there are not many things he needs to pay attention to now, except for those things he is expected to do Besides, now the rest of his time is almost spent on him because of Nanessi's sudden change, so it is not impossible to feel more and more concerned about the other party.

What the door needs to figure out at the moment is that his original position towards Nai Naixi is gradually blurring, so how does he view Nai Naixi in his heart now——the countermeasures can only be taken after repositioning, this is what Yu said, and After thinking about it, the door agreed with this statement.Just like when writing a program, it is necessary to give each variable code a location and attribution before it can be used. It is also inappropriate to try to find out how to deal with it without knowing what he thinks of Nanessi.

──Compared to the beginning, is there a difference in your opinion?

Recalling the initial thoughts, Men remembered the thinking questions given by the rain this time, and silently compared them.

He became more concerned about Nanessi's every move, and became more indulgent towards him, and he no longer felt weird and uncomfortable with Nanessi's existence and intimacy, but was used to having such a person by his side.

Also, it seems... It's been a long time since I felt such disgust towards Nanaixi.Although it wasn't that Nanaixi was disliked every day before, but it's quite strange that such a thought hasn't arisen in such a long period of time.

It was only after comparing the doors that I suddenly realized this.

And instead, a feeling that he doesn't fully understand will emerge from time to time, making him also involuntarily want to pinch Nanessi's face, and bully him with emotions that are not malicious but he doesn't know the reason For a while, he occasionally felt emotional ups and downs because of this--before, he avoided thinking about it and tried to suppress this emotion as much as possible, but now after listening to Yu's suggestion to feel it, he became more and more confused.

Sure enough, I'm not good at doing this... So, should I make a program that collects my own data in the first place?

Thinking deeply, but still unable to figure out the door of this emotion, he couldn't help but sighed, and couldn't help but regretfully remembered the solution that was completely rejected by Yu almost a month ago, and at this time, Naixi also came home from school So, he put this matter aside for the time being and didn't continue to dig into the dead end.

And then there were the daily chores that continued during this period. Men originally thought that the day would end as uneventfully as before, but when he got up to drink water in the middle of the night, he encountered something bizarre.

I always feel that it is inconvenient to wake up in the middle of the night and go out... Do you want to change your sleeping position?

Waking up in the middle of the night, since there is now an extra long pillow on the bed besides Naixi, and carefully crossing these two obstacles without waking up Naixi who was drool-filled with sleep, the door can't help but think about—but think I want to assume that if Naixi sleeps inside against the wall and he sleeps outside, I am afraid that if Naixi has to get up in the middle of the night, compared to the door which is taller and has longer hind legs, Naixi is now shorter and has shorter legs. It was more difficult for him to get out of the bed, and he might accidentally step on him, so the idea of ​​the door turned around in his mind before he discarded it.

The water is gone... When I get up tomorrow, I have to remember to boil a pot of water before going out.

I went to the kitchen lightly and poured water. The water that leaked from the teapot became smaller when the mug was half full, and the last half of the water did not drip out. I shook the empty teapot in my hand, Men thought so, Put the teapot back where it was, and leave the kitchen after drinking the water.

'Knock knock', 'knock knock'...

And just when he stepped into the living room, he heard such a small, but very clear sound in the silence of the night, a bit like the crisp sound of someone wearing thick-soled shoes walking on the tiles in the living room, but But the sound was not very loud—it wasn't so much that someone sneaked into the room wearing shoes, and the sound was more like the slight volume of a hard object like glass beads falling on the ground and bouncing.

Did something drop on the floor?

The door guessed, and couldn't think of any similar falling ornaments at home that would make such a sound, but he didn't think too much, and walked to the living room to check the situation.

Generally speaking, no matter who the two of them wake up in the middle of the night and temporarily leave the room to do something, they will not turn on the headlights, and only rely on the moonlight from the window and the automatically turned on blue light from the aquarium to act For lighting, it really happens that a small light is turned on when it is dark outside due to overcast clouds.But even without turning on the light, relying on these faint lights, the door could still see clearly the things in the living room, and the heart couldn't help but beat.

──It was a doll, about half the height of an arm, a humanoid doll in a delicate dress, walking in the center of the living room at a slow speed.

But what really surprised the door is not that the dolls can move around by themselves. After all, with the development of science and technology, there are not no such delicate and delicate humanoid robots, but they are usually very expensive. And it's not impossible to transform ordinary dolls into mechanical dolls that can walk. Although the doll probably added some unusual things from the numerical value, he couldn't fully analyze it at a glance. contents.What really surprised him was that the doll was clearly the girl Shen Qinxin whom he only met about eight years later.

Although there are still some differences between real people and dolls, the features of the doll's facial features, the hairstyle tied into a braid, and the two pointed cat-like ears slightly protruding from behind the temples are all similar to his. The kid who knew was exactly the same.In addition to wearing a gorgeous one-piece dress that he had never seen the child wearing, and a beautiful and complicated flower-shaped hair ornament made of gauze and ribbons on his head, from appearance to expression, hair color and eye color, everything was different. It was exactly the same as the child he knew, as if the child had been scaled down to the size of a doll and dressed up by someone.

This doll is not mine, so it is Nanessi's—but why does he have a doll that looks like that child?Could it be just a coincidence?

Doubts arose in the door's heart, and he stood motionless and watched the puppet walk slowly, and the sea-blue skirt with dark ruffles fluttered along with it, and slowly walked towards the original Naixi. Live in a room with the door slightly open.

The door hesitated for a moment, and then walked over with light steps, gently pushed the door open, and saw a room full of all kinds of sundries that Nanaixi got without knowing where. After entering the room, the doll in the shape of a child was trying to pull the sheets to climb onto the bed, and after climbing up, it looked around cutely with its little head tilted, and then seemed to have found the target, and went to the one next to the bed. He walked over to the small dark wooden box, then got into the half-open box, then stretched out his small hand to hold the lid on his head and moved it with difficulty, and slowly closed the lid on the box.

Although I don't know how to do it properly, but from the horror games or movies he has played and watched before, he has told him that he has encountered a doll that moves by itself in the middle of the night. Before driving, it is best not to touch the puppet of the night tour rashly, so he just silently watched the doll complete this series of actions until it (or is it 'she'?) Completed this series of actions Move, before walking into the bed.

He looked down at the door, and on the wooden box the puppet was lying in, there was a small golden handwriting on it, the name 'Xin', even if he wanted to continue to believe that it was a coincidence, he couldn't deceive himself.