[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

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I took the elevator downstairs and got to the entrance of the apartment. Looking at the heavy rain that was still pounding on the ground outside, I let out a breath from the door, and then opened the still wet umbrella again, and stepped into the rain.

It is a lie to say that he planned to go out to buy dinner. No one likes to go out in this weather, even the door. And if he really planned to go out to buy lunch, he would have done it on the way back. I bought it on the way, and I won’t wait until I get home to go out—it’s not that there is still a long time before the fixed dinner time at home, so there is no need to toss it twice.

The reason why Men chose to go out to buy dinner in person was actually to calm down a little.

Previously, I knew from the gradually increasing number of names on Naixi’s friend list, and from some rumors that Naixi is now actively making friends everywhere, but I really want to say that I saw Naixi’s relationship with friends of the same age with my own eyes. It was the first time to get along and talk like a friend until today, so he inevitably felt a little bit shocked.

Even if the emotion wasn't so strong that he would show it on his face in a gaffe, he still felt that he needed to go for a walk by himself and calm down a little.

Of course, seeing the fact that he was younger than himself, but had already started to bring girls home, it was not completely unfeeling to the door-although he could also see that neither Nanaishi nor Lan seemed to have any feelings for the other party. In other words, Nanessi just talked to the non-human girl who was very close to her own kind in a certain way as a normal friend, and the girl who should be named Lan obviously cared more about the talking girl named Potete. He looked like a dog, but in his impression, no matter how extroverted he was, Nanessi, who would not just take girls home casually, suddenly brought a cute girl home, which still shocked him a bit.

After being shocked, I felt complicated. When I thought about it, when I was at this age, I didn't even have any girls who I could take home for the night, and I didn't even have any friends of the same sex who could talk peacefully.It's not that I'm envious or anything, but I always feel that Nanessi is like another person in this way—this kind of absurd and complicated feeling is also one of the factors that makes him unable to calm down.

Looking at the scenery shrouded in fine rain in front of me, the door slowly walked towards the direction of the convenience store closest to the apartment, and the scene of the cheerful and lively conversation between Nanessi and two other unusual friends just now appeared in my mind, deep in my heart Like being touched by something as small as a feather, the small but real ripple disturbed his mind slightly.

However, since those two friends are so special, maybe this time Naixi really has the opportunity to make friends who can get along with him for a long time, even if he knows his nature and doesn't dislike him...

Thinking of the existence of those two people who were not common in some respects, he suddenly had this idea, and his footsteps slowed down unconsciously. Finally, the door stopped and stood in the middle of the road.

──Then, how did you feel when you realized this?

Looking at the street scene in front of the door, I asked myself this question, while listening to the subtle and strong sound of rain, it was rare to quietly feel the emotions in my heart now.

It doesn't seem to be jealous, nor envious, not sad, but not angry, not confused, not surprised, and not the kind of indifference that doesn't feel it-it's not that these people once thought that they seem to be living a better life than themselves now. Somehow the first and strongest emotion that comes to mind is the loneliness that penetrates deep into the heart.

It's like the thing that I thought I was grasping in my hand suddenly slipped through my fingers like quicksand, the slight loss caused by the sudden sense of emptiness after I wanted to hold something but failed, and the loss , an inexplicable feeling as if he had lost something, and somehow felt a little sad──such an indescribable but profound emotion lingered in his heart, so even if he wanted to ignore it, he couldn't help it.

I wanted to smile as always, trying to let myself smile and ignore these inexplicable touches to ease my mood, but it seemed that the corners of my mouth couldn't be raised smoothly, and after only a little movement, it returned to the original arc.

Standing like this for a while, the door looked at the trousers, which had been soaked by the splashing rain, and did not continue to stand in the middle of the road blocking the way, and once again walked towards the destination of this trip.

The convenience store arrived soon, and when the door opened on the glass window, what I saw for a moment was a strange sad face between the eyebrows, which seemed to be looking back sadly at myself who was staring at the reflection──but The glass door opened soon after sensing his arrival. He didn't have time to look closely or study the reflection of himself that he saw at a short glance, and he couldn't confirm whether it was just an illusion. Like an ordinary customer, he stepped into the convenience store amidst the sound of the bell when the glass door opened and the sound of 'Welcome' sounded a step later.

In the shop that was a little deserted because it had been raining for a while, I wandered meaninglessly between the shelves for longer than necessary, and when I arrived, the clerks began to stare at him, fearing that he would have something to do. When there was a problem, the door calmed down and took the things he had chosen—one box of canned dog food, three boxes of bento—to the counter to check out.

Bento wanted to eat human food out of concern that he didn’t want to be treated differently. The door bought a karidon that looked similar to a canned dog. Although he didn’t have a pet, he didn’t know that dogs When the can comes out, will it be as clear as the picture shows, and will it look similar to the rice on the rare and few ingredients that are unique to convenience?But even he has heard that some people eat what dogs can't eat, so he has no soft heart like Nanessy, and has no intention of buying the same food as them for Potete to eat.

──By the way, I just forgot to ask the robot Miss Lan if she can eat.

And just after paying the money and asking the clerk to microwave the bento, just now because of the inexplicable emotions that occupied his mind and had no time to think about extra things, the door noticed this belatedly, and was planning to upload it on PORTURI After inquiring, I happened to receive a belated message from Nainaxi, saying that Lan had already eaten, so I didn't need to buy Lan.

It seems to be edible... Forget it, it's too late to return it now, I'll put it in the refrigerator first when I go back, and save it for the next day.

I'm a little curious about the principle of the robot eating, but the more important thing is that I bought more bento, but I saw that the clerk had already cut all the wrapping films of the bento neatly, so I gave up the plan of returning the goods, just waiting After everything was microwaved, I left the store with the plastic bag containing everything.

It may be that deliberately buying a bento that looks similar in content and also lacks appetite has worked, or it may be that he has resigned to his fate when he sees that the things have already been bought, but Potete did not make any noise during dinner.Since Men and the two friends Nanessi brought back were not very close, the dinner was not spent in the daily conversation between the brothers, but was accompanied by the sound of the news broadcasting with the TV on.

There was nothing special after that. After dinner, Nanessi led his friends to the room that he lent them tonight. Because he recognized the name on the door that said 'Nenesi's room', he probably thought they wanted The three of us squeezed together in such a small room, the dog yelled a few words, but after Nanessi explained something in a low voice, she immediately calmed down, and then it was probably the older brother who still had friends in the apartment. Feeling uncomfortable, the two of them went to rest immediately after taking a bath, but they didn't chat with Nanessi any more or play together.

As for Nanaixi, it seems that there are not two more guests at home. After taking a shower, she crawls into the quilt of the door like before. It seems that she still intends to sleep with the two of the door. She didn't lie on the sofa in the living room because she wanted to worry about her friend's eyes. One night's plan──Even the door, I know that generally speaking, if the room is enough, it doesn't seem unusual for two brothers to sleep together at this age, although it can be said that the relationship is very good.

"Is it okay to sleep here tonight?"

Even though he saw that Nanaishi had already automatically laid down next to him—it seemed that due to the sudden heavy rain and the temperature had dropped, and he was getting closer to him than usual—the door still asked this question.Seeming to be a little sleepy, Nanessi yawned a little, and replied in a vague voice:

"Yeah...Brother Men is a brother, I'm not a girl, it's nothing."

This is indeed the case when I think about it, although even if the relationship between boys is really good, they seldom get tired of being close together like girls. It is a bit strange to say, but it is normal compared to such young siblings lying together That's too much──But if Nanaisi is a girl, at this age that has already begun to develop, if she sleeps with him without any scruples, even if the two of them have nothing to do, no matter if it is a sibling or an adult male to the future Adult girls should not do things. Outsiders may call the police if they find out. At that time, what they have to worry about is not how they perceive themselves in the eyes of their friends, but how to explain to the police how they slept together.

And this question was originally just a question, and he didn't intend to use it to drive people away or have other intentions. Seeing that Naixi replied indifferently, he didn't say anything more, just chatting like other things:

"But I was really shocked earlier...I didn't expect that you already have friends who are so close that you would invite them to spend the night at home, and they are such special friends."

"Well... it's not that good now, but it just happened to be raining outside. Miss Potete and Miss Lan are currently running away from home, and they couldn't find a place to hide from the rain, so they came here to stay overnight. We will leave tomorrow morning After that, I don’t know if there will be a chance to meet again in a short time.”

It was probably because Rare Men took the initiative to bring up the topic before falling asleep. Even though her eyelids could not be kept closed, she still tried her best to answer his words, and she didn't just respond a few times in a perfunctory way because she was sleepy.

Seeing Nanessi's lying angle, and half of his face covered by bangs and falling shadows, Men somehow remembered the conversation about hair not long ago, and couldn't help stretching out his hand and gently brushing his hair. Liu Hai moved aside, looking down at Naixi's half-covered face reappearing in sight──That face should also be the one I had in a certain period of time, but now it is inconceivable that it looks more like another person, It's hard to realize that this is 'my' face like at first, he said softly with such a wonderful mood:

"However, it looks like this, maybe you don't have to stay here any longer, and you can go home soon, right?"

"Huh!? Why did you say that suddenly?"

As if he didn't expect the door to say this suddenly, Naixi, who was about to fall asleep, opened his eyes suddenly, as if he was so surprised that his sleepiness disappeared, and he, who was lying very close to the door, stretched out his hand subconsciously. Holding the front of the door's pajamas, while staring at the face of the door, like a child who is afraid of being abandoned, he asked a little nervously.

"I brought you here originally to recuperate from the incident of being cut off by friends at school? Since it seems that your condition has adjusted and started to recover, there is no need to continue Stay here?"

Because of Nanaixi's sudden movement of approaching and grabbing the clothes in front of him, the door also let go of the hand that had pushed Nanaixi's hair away, and looked back at the pair of pink eyes that were the same color as his own, but looked rounder. eyes, and answered calmly.

Although saying this may be a bit apologetic to the parents who are waiting for the 'son' to come home, but in fact, according to the original plan of the family, after bringing Nanessi from his hometown, unless one of them kills himself, or It was terminated by another self, it ended all of this, otherwise Men didn't intend to let Naixi leave from his side—even if Naixi had completely adjusted his body and mind, he was strongly urged not to go to school by his former friends. The same goes for breaking free and wanting to go home and go back to school.

It's just that that was just the original plan. After calming down from the out-of-control emotions that were quite rare for him in the evening, Men finally realized something—it seemed that he could no longer simply regard Nanessi as his past self. .

Unknowingly, in his eyes, Naixi is getting closer and closer to being just a simple "Naisi" and no longer the "[-]" of the past—and the reason why he is shaken and influenced by him is because he is getting more and more in his eyes. Getting closer and closer to the proof of the existence of the 'other person' (the other), but probably he's been slow to his own affairs and didn't finally notice it until just now.

Therefore, he judged that it would be a dangerous thing for his plan to keep Nanessi by his side.If it is said that the door can be cruel to "myself", but for the young boy who is just "Nai Naixi" and a younger brother, no matter what, he will not have the heart to treat this child, or let this child do cruel things He was afraid that he would be so soft-hearted that he could not restrain himself like this, and he would not be able to carry out many things according to the development he had hoped for.

So he thought, maybe it is time to change the plan and keep Nanessi away from him for a while, so that he can cool down and adjust his original attitude towards Nanessi before the plan is implemented. Only in this way can things be successfully achieved as he wishes.

The author has something to say: I can swear to God, I really didn't intend to develop like this (sad)

Originally, I planned that Potete & Lan's overnight stay was just a happy and relaxing cutscene, the goal was to draw out Lei's role later, and according to my original plan, the first chapter was written from the perspective of Nanessi, that is, the next morning Potete and the two of them Time to say goodbye and leave.

But when I wrote it like this, I felt awkward and unnatural no matter how I wrote it, and then there was a voice in my heart urging me to write Brother Men’s perspective, but the result became like this——I really didn’t expect it. ah ah! !This was really not the plot I planned to write! !

Damn, then how am I going to continue, if I write this down, it will definitely be completely different from the trajectory I originally expected (vomiting blood)

In short, post it first, and if there is no accident in the next update, it will take a long time to brew.