[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

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When Naixi sent a message, Menzheng was a little surprised to find that his account had an extra sum of money from the Qiqi family, and he was still thinking about why his parents suddenly remitted the living expenses before it was time to remit the living expenses. The money came, and before I called to ask about it, I received this equally abrupt message from Nanessi.

Feeling that there must be some connection between the two, Men temporarily put aside his plan to call back to his hometown, and directly replied to Nanessi's question:

'Why did you suddenly think of this question?Is something happened? '

'It's nothing.It’s just that after I called my mother to report my safety, I suddenly felt that my parents had caused a lot of trouble to my parents with a child like myself. It will be able to balance the setbacks and worries my parents have received from me. '

Probably because he wanted to discuss this with someone, Nanessi quickly replied.

After reading the reply, I guessed that my parents remitted money to me, probably because I misunderstood something because of Nanaisi's careless slip of the tongue during the call. The origin of the idea of ​​"a child" was somewhat touched in my heart, and I couldn't help thinking about this proposal.

In fact, for his parents, the door is very grateful that even though he is like this, they have always been able to pour love into him, and never give up trying to teach and guide him in the direction of life. It can be said that if there is no persistence like parents Unremittingly instilling goodwill in him and giving him correct and positive values, it is really hard to say what he will grow into with his character.

Although he is an uncomfortable weird person now, at least he is still a kind-hearted good person. He has not become a distorted and determined man because of the strange vision and damage caused by others who regarded him as a "heretic" during his growth. Want revenge on the sociopaths of society.Not to mention being an existence that despises human life because everything he sees is just a numerical value, and becoming a villain who feels no guilt even if he hurts others at will, even if he kills them because he sees the world differently from ordinary people── ─For avoiding these possibilities, his parents are good people who are kind, enthusiastic, and upright. Let the door respect them as much as they respect and love them.

It was only because of this that Men felt sorry for not being able to repay their profound nurturing grace, and what was worse, even the children they raised with all their pains and pains actually became an accomplice to the crooked and crooked society in the future, making They who were far away in their hometown were also implicated by this, and he felt extremely uncomfortable after knowing this.

In a way, he would choose to go back to the past to end everything, except that at that point in the future, he would commit suicide and apologize. For a society where the management program has been born and is controlled by those in power, as a developer, his death It didn't help anything, but also ended everything before letting his parents suffer unfair treatment because of him, and let not "July [-]" but another relative with little relationship "Fang Sakamen" die as a sinner, so as to prevent future The hurt they suffered because of him was also partly to blame.

The door imagined his ending after he came back here, either to end with his death from the future, and to use his experience to warn his past self not to repeat the same mistakes, or to end everything with his past self, not to let himself To have a future, to completely eradicate all future possibilities that may lead to tragedy because of "[-]"—these two branches, in other words, are the unknown future that may be produced under the efforts of that child ──But no matter what it is, he doesn't want his parents' wish to be unhappy because of him in the future to be fulfilled.

But when he thought of his parents and the future direction he had deduced, Men belatedly noticed that if the current Nanessi chose to commit suicide after knowing the truth and the future, his parents would also feel sad.Although this sadness may calm down with time, and more harm from others will not happen, it is better than his future situation, but if the parents can have another child, it may be better. It might be a good thing to be able to heal that pain, and also have someone take care of his parents in the future when he is no longer there, and let his parents have something to rely on.

Hmm──That's all right, but it's not that easy to actually implement it, is it?

Although Men's mind was a little active because of this, but when he calmed down and thought about it, it was not that simple, and it would be no problem to persuade his parents with a few words.

Not to mention whether you can get pregnant or not depends on the physical condition of your parents. As far as he knows, the parents seem to have planned to have a second child at first, but they only planned to wait for him to be older and free up his hands to take care of the newborn. I conceived again when I was a child, but when they planned to implement it, the obvious abnormalities of him who was still young at that time were unfortunately exposed. After the discussion, in order to raise my son who is different from ordinary children wholeheartedly , They gave up the idea of ​​rebirth and concentrated on raising and caring for him──and the children themselves seemed to be exactly as they expected, exhausting their parents, and under great pressure both physically and mentally.

Because of this, even if I know that there is a relationship called "brothers and sisters" in the world after I grow up, and I have begged my younger brother and younger sister coquettishly, my parents don't seem to have the same idea -- I really want my parents to have another one. , may have to address their will first.And whether they, who are very gentle by nature, will be willing to have another one to separate their attention when the son of Naixi is obviously in a very bad situation, this is a problem that needs to be solved--- Based on Men's understanding of them, Maybe they will think that this is a disguised abandonment of the eldest son, and it may be impossible to make this decision in order to avoid Nanessi's emotional injury.

Although not only Nanessi, but even Men think it's okay to have another child, abandon them, or distract attention from them. Maybe I will be excited because I finally have biological brothers and sisters, but what will their parents think? It's hard to tell.

While thinking about it, the door also edited the message to return at the same time, and reminded truthfully:

'I probably understand what you're saying.It’s just that it doesn’t mean that there is a younger brother or younger sister. It mainly depends on the wishes of the aunt and uncle.I seem to have heard that aunts and others don’t plan to have a second child because they want to concentrate on taking care of you. If you can’t reassure them first, I think they might not want to have a second child.If you want to try to persuade it, I have no objection, but it's hard to say whether it can be persuaded. '

Originally, the door didn’t intend to type the last sentence, but what Nanessi said, he somewhat wanted a real brother or sister. He was a little moved by the possibility that he didn’t realize it in his future, so he still sent it as an encouragement The words that Nanessi went to try and sent the message.

'Huh?Are there such rumors?I know, anyway, I'll try my best to see it first!Thank you bro! '

It seems that this is also the first time Nanessi knows this—in fact, after the management program was cursed and hated by others, a relative with a mean mouth said, "If I knew you were a freak, your parents should have pinched you immediately." If you die, and then have a second child according to the plan, maybe there are not so many things going on now'. There is a hidden meaning in the sentence that I realized that I am the only child. I only knew it after reading the mind and reading the memory by the way. It's just that he didn't want to give up after knowing this information. After he expressed his spirit that he would try, he ended the topic.

After finishing the conversation on the communication software, Men also remembered that it was time for him to be in regular contact with Qiqijia—in fact, he sent a message this morning asking Naixi to take a selfie after changing clothes, and part of it was to report to his parents. According to the instructions on the Internet, they just made up a written message to send, and the door judged that some photos should be given so that his parents would not feel uneasy because they couldn't see their son's current situation.I didn't communicate directly by phone because I was afraid that I would subconsciously relax to my parents and say something I shouldn't have said, and I couldn't immediately correct my memory over the phone to avoid being suspected of my identity.

It was just probably because I just talked about my parents with Nanessi, and I was probably a little bit miss, so I was aroused, and somehow I opened the BitPhone's phone function, and dialed the number to my hometown where I remembered the number so well. , When he reacted, the phone rang in his ear, so he didn't hang up halfway, and waited quietly for the connection with a little nervousness.

'Hey, this is Qiqijia, who is it? '

As soon as the connection was made, the father's calm, gentle and reliable voice came, and the door closed his eyes, calming down a little, confirming that he would not give a wrong response as soon as he opened his mouth, and then the voice was stable replied:

"I'm the door, I'm sorry to disturb you at this time, didn't it cause you any trouble?"

'Is it the door lord?That's right, it's almost the end of the month.I just happened to be talking about the child with your aunt, Si Jun didn't cause you any trouble, did he? '

Listening to his father's familiar and slightly relaxed but still very polite and polite response, the door couldn't tell how he felt now, but his face unconsciously showed the empty space in front of him, which must have been the same as before. And with a meaningless gentle smile, he replied in a gentle tone:

"No, Nanessi is very obedient and didn't cause me any trouble. Recently, I feel a little more energetic than when I first came here, and I seem to have made friends with people nearby. I think it won't take long for me to recover slowly. Bar?"

'is that so?That would be great... Originally, both of you brothers suddenly called back one after the other on the same day, and I was a little worried about any bad changes or status.Is the kid going to try to make friends again?Although such a request may be a little overkill, Sijun seems not to be able to master the knack of long-term communication with people. It would be great if you, Mr. Men, could give that child some help or advice during this period. '

The voice on the other end of the phone seemed to be a little relieved, but after murmuring something thoughtfully, the father prudently and earnestly made a request to the door, as if he was deeply worried that his child would repeat the past making friends again. His history has been hit hard again, which makes this request have a heavier weight than the letter, and makes the door with closed eyes and quietly listening to the voice from the phone involuntarily show a slight wry smile.

"If it is your uncle's request, I will do my best to help Naixi. But in this regard, I am not in the same boat with him, and it is not much better. I have no idea whether I can help you in this regard." I don’t have much confidence, but I will try not to disappoint you, so don’t worry.”

He tried his best to reply with a gentle and sincere tone, even though he wanted to use a strong guarantee to reassure the other party, but he knew that he was the future version of the son who couldn't get along with others for a long time, so he didn't dare to face this kind of failure. How many times have you given up on the issue at will, and you can only try your best to show your sincerity without lying.

'You don't need to be too forceful, after all, Mr. Men, you also have your own work, just do your best.In fact, we are very grateful that you have been able to coexist peacefully with that child for so long and take care of the child's daily life.On the contrary, it is too much for us to ask more. Please don't take this request as your responsibility and forcefully implement it. If it causes you trouble, it is our side that will feel sorry. '

Probably because he sensed that Men's agreement was a bit reluctant, his father immediately took a step back, and spoke thoughtfully and carefully, as if he hoped not to put unnecessary pressure on Men.

Ah, sure enough, I was raised by such a gentle and considerate person... It's just that compared to my father's gentleness from the inside out, wouldn't my own gentleness be just an imitation, only a superficial resemblance?Otherwise, why did my father have many old friends with deep friendship because of his gentleness, but no matter who had been close to me, but in the end, there was always no one left?

This kind of feeling is very familiar, and the delicate attitude of caring about other people's feelings in a subtle way makes the door can't help thinking this way, and a faint confusion emerges in his heart for a while, but he quickly suppresses the rising emotions skillfully, and the door is completely unaffected by the inner emotions The voice of influence, immutability and fluctuation answered:

"I understand. I can understand your feelings, and this entrustment will not cause me any trouble, so please don't take it to heart and worry about my feelings instead. Then I won't bother you anymore, and I will I uploaded some recent photos of Nanessi to you on POTURI, please wait a moment."

Feeling that everything that should be said has been said, the door took the initiative to end the topic and hung up the phone.

After finishing the call, I stared at the call record for a few seconds, and after a moment of stupefaction, the door quickly came back to my senses, and after I sent a few photos that I had selected earlier, I turned off all the hovering Windows.

The author has something to say: I always feel that the more I write, the more I make up unofficial settings... In fact, the last article originally wanted the pair of Lily girls to appear, but I didn’t think about it It doesn't have much substantive meaning, so let's just do it.

I also considered whether to let Naixi end the school celebration with the three of Sora and meet Xia and the others, or meet someone, but at that time, the inspiration flashed, and it was changed to the pair of parents who never appeared in the original game. , I just said it was made up, and I don’t know if the parents will have a chance to appear in the sequel game of the original author. .....