[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

The author has something to say: I think it's time to change the chapter, so I changed it.

Once again, all the things not mentioned in the game are purely secondary settings. At present, the author is slowly making a sequel and the official novel is serialized. Maybe there will be new settings in the future. It's going to be a slap in the face, so just look at it, don't take it too seriously.

↑Tucao when posting now: There is also a set set that the author plans to make recently, God knows how swollen his face will be when he shows up, ahaha, ahahaha (eyes dead)

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It was probably going to bed after being in close contact with Nanessi for two consecutive nights, and the door had a dream about the past after a long absence.

It was a long, long time ago, when Nanessi was a little younger than the present, she used to play around with a group of friends in harmony.

Even if it is a rural school, there are quite a lot of unexpected students. Although there are not as many schools in the city, it is enough to divide a grade into three classes. When he was in elementary school, his school changed classes every two years. His former friends also changed batches every two years.

When he was younger, his friends would quarrel or fight when they broke up with him—although with his personality, he has always been the one-sided passive accepting party, even if he is scolded or beaten, he will not fight back, but just looks at it in a daze. Afterwards, the other party yelled 'break up' with anger or tears, and then terminated the friendship in person.

'it does not matter!Sijun is a good boy, next time I will definitely find a new friend who can understand Sijun's point and will never break up with Sijun! '

Every time he was dismissed from friendship, went home frustrated, and felt sad under the covers, his parents always encouraged him gently and positively. The end, before the start of the new semester, I regained my spirits and continued to try to make friends.

──Continuously making friends, constantly being rejected, repeating this cycle, no matter how much you increase the number, the rest will still return to zero.

Friends who used to smile and say 'like', 'interesting', 'together forever' always end up with painfully distorted faces, shouting 'disgusting', 'breaking up', 'disgusting', 'never again I don't want to see you', then cut off the relationship.

When they got a little older, some of them didn’t even get annoyed notifications at the end, they disconnected silently, and they didn’t reappear as if they disappeared suddenly. Or there is nothing to say-"We have nothing to say anymore", as if silently expressing this, coldly and unilaterally rejected all relations with him.

So he almost forgot that when he was surrounded by friends, playing and taking risks together with a happy smile, even the names and faces of his former friends were completely forgotten.

That lovely girl who smiled softly and handed him a handkerchief shyly to him who had fallen—what she looked like, what her name was, and who she was, I no longer remember.

The cheerful boy who used to always rush to the front, saying "you're useless" while reaching out to help him who was always lagging behind──what he looked like, what his name was, and who he was I don't even remember.

The introverted girl who used to call him 'Fourth Brother' in a low voice and always tugged at the hem of her skirt uneasily followed him—what she looked like, what her nickname was, and who she was, she had no recollection at all.

The boy who raised his head and said, 'I'm the only one who can bully this guy', always teased him but also defended him the most, that boy who didn't agree with his heart—what did he look like, what was he called by everyone, and who was he? No memory remains.

There are many, many figures that seem to have been similar, but when I look back, there is only a blank figure that surrounds him in the dream, calling for him, everyone laughs, makes noise together, and plays everywhere together. There used to be very, very happy, and now In retrospect, the happy days were as illusory as a dream.But the once beautiful memories always shatter at the end, shattering into the residue of friendship that is no longer possible.

──Why, no one can always be my friend?

All the sorrows, tears, and sorrows turned into this question in the end, and in the end, he even abandoned this question.

No way, who told me to be so disgusting?

──In this way, I accepted everything.

After giving up the desire and mourning of being a weak human being, his only wish is "world peace" - as long as everyone can live in peace, he doesn't care what happens to him.

Is it really not painful?No──It is actually very painful, but I have a dream to support myself, so I can accept it with a smile.

Really not sad?No──Actually, it's still very sad, but assuming that this can achieve a small part of the dream, you can accept it with a smile.

Is it really acceptable?No—it's just that even if you don't want to accept it, it will only cause trouble for others, so just accept it, even if it wears down your own heart, it doesn't matter.

His dream is 'world peace', and he should be able to achieve it with the talent bestowed by God. It's just that he is as stupid as he is, and he can't even do this, and he even became an accomplice who almost destroyed his dream.

I am getting more and more confused about the meaning of my existence, I am getting more and more confused about why such a self was born in this world, and I am getting more and more confused about why everything related to him always goes in the worst and worst direction Run away quickly──So, if everything is just your own problem, then end yourself.

He came to this conclusion then—

The door opened his eyes, although he didn't quite remember what he had dreamed of, only a little impression remained, but just like this, he didn't feel very happy after waking up.

Probably the sequelae of staying up late for a long time?

Thinking of this, the door slowly blinked his still hazy eyes, and rubbed his forehead.

A little tired, I lowered my eyes, and I was still a little sleepy. I saw two pillows of different colors stuffed in my arms that I didn’t have before going to bed. After staring at them for a few seconds and deducing the reason for the appearance of the pillows, I woke up a little At one o'clock, he lifted the quilt and sat up, and looked around the room a little.

It's already afternoon, and of course Nanessi is not in bed—after all, if he had a part-time job, even Nanessi probably wouldn't have stayed up so late—it was probably because he was too tired and slept soundly , the door didn't feel the memory of Nanessi's movements when she got up.

Since living together, it's rare that I wake up alone in the apartment again.

Can't help feeling this emotion, looking at the mattress that was the same as yesterday, obviously messier than when he was sleeping, suddenly some fragments of the dream just flashed in his mind. My friends list, I realized what I had done when I clicked it, and I was taken aback.

Forget it, since it’s all clicked on, let’s take a look, anyway——huh?

Just thinking that there should only be his own name on it, the door took a closer look and saw that the list of friends with names of people he didn't know had grown unconsciously. of shock.

After reacting, the door looked carefully at Naixi's current friend list again, and made sure that he hadn't misread it. Besides him, there were also a small list of unfamiliar names registered on it. Suddenly, an incredible and wonderful feeling filled the heart.

It is not surprising that the earliest login on the friend list is the door, and the others have gradually increased in the past few days. The number has grown astonishingly.

Because the sudden increase in the number of friends was really unexpected, the door subconsciously wanted to see what names they were, but after only looking at a few, he felt that it was meaningless to do so, so he stopped, only hesitated, and finally did not immediately Turn off Nanessi's friend list, but first copy the data file and then turn it off.

I didn't expect to make friends again in a short period of time... But, how long can the friends last this time?

Men glanced at the names in the copied file, and he didn't know how he felt now, but he just thought of his past experience, so he couldn't help but have this question.

It's not that he can't see the past self being good, but his own experience makes him dare not have unnecessary expectations. After all, Naixi is the past self, and some of their essence are the same──So he doesn't Thinking that Nanaixi is just younger and more optimistic than him, and his making friends will be smoother than he used to be.

Only if...

But even if he thought so, Damen somehow remembered the things that Nanaixi had actively encouraged him to make friends these days, and suddenly he had a thought, and after slowly letting out a breath, he made a decision.

If──by the time when the child also came here, if the people on Nanessi's friend list have not been unfriended, then I will try again and try to make friends again.

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He didn't know that the door had loosened up on the matter of making friends. After talking here, Nanaixi successfully added the three of them as friends again. After making an appointment to go and play with them when he was free, he hadn't had time to be happy for a long time , the rain stopped, the number of customers gradually increased, and he began to walk around the store again—even if he was happy, he was almost worn out by the fatigue caused by lack of energy.

And there is nothing special worth mentioning about the part-time working hours of the next day. If I really want to say it, Naixi finally changed out of her women's clothes in the afternoon and resumed her normal dress with a uniform and an apron—although the coat is thicker. The clothes are not completely dry, and the uniform top and shorts are similar, but at least they are not as wet as when they first entered the store.

Although it's a little bit like Naixi said, "This level of humidity shouldn't affect the body, right?" ' question, but after considering various issues, he still changed out of the dry waitress uniform and put back on his own clothes that were still a little wet in some parts.

It's not because of any masculine self-esteem or anything like that. Nanaishi simply discarded this kind of thing when she first needed to pretend to be a girl a long time ago, and if health is the priority, wearing women's clothing is nothing compared to it It's a big deal, just considering the reactions of people around you, mainly a couple of people on your friend list, I think it's better to pretend that I still have this kind of dignity, or at least don't look like it doesn't matter if I wear it all the time Conducive to the continuation of friendship.

And although Hu and Lu have added friends with him now, they only joined because of Naixi’s work. If you really want to say whether they regard him as a friend, Naixi knows better than anyone else——Based on their current situation In terms of familiarity and favorability, he is at most an ordinary colleague at present, and he has not yet recognized him as a true friend, so he does not intend to stimulate these two people too much.

And even if they become friends, although with the help of Xin, he has grasped his flaws more clearly than before the age of 14, and he has had a few long-term friends since then, but the record of bloody failures before that was too tragic. It is so profound that he still has not forgotten that it is easy for him to fail in interpersonal communication. Even though he has figured out the key to maintaining the relationship after becoming friends, it is not foolproof—and they are not really mutual. Approved friends, friendships need to be more carefully maintained and cultivated.

Even if I am a super weirdo, I will naturally know it, but before the favorability is stacked up to the point where they can tolerate it, let's pretend to be a normal person first, and everything must be done step by step.

Nanessi thought so, that's why he changed into women's clothing halfway through—and judging from the slowly declining certain values, he returned to the clothes that were not fully dry and achieved the expected return.