Beyond The Outline

Xu Yaping was rendered speechless by the words of "Second Personality". The rhetorical question in her heart hit her right away. She subconsciously avoided it, but found that she couldn't dodge it at all.The second personality is like a bystander's perspective, seeing things that she can't see, she can't avoid it: "You, how long have you been in this situation, and how can you get back to normal?"

Shao Zhan also thought about this question, he speculated: "As long as he wants to come back, I should disappear soon."

Pretending to be like that.

It is very consistent with the symptoms of a patient with split personality.

Xu Yaping: "..."

Xu Yaping has heard stories of split personalities, and they all seem to have their own names: "Do you have your own name too?"

Shao Zhan's expression froze for two seconds.

He didn't want to answer this question very much, and finally said, "You can call me...Xu Zhan."

Xu Yaping is not very comfortable with this name: "Xu Zhan?"

Not to mention that Xu Yaping is not used to it, Shao Zhan himself is even less used to it.

Pretending to have a split personality is not an easy task. After Shao Zhan finished speaking, he was afraid that Xu Yaping would ask more and more detailed questions, so he got up after sitting for a while and said, "I have nothing else to do, so I'll go back to my room first. I still have test papers to ask." Do."

Baidu question: My son has a split personality. I saw his second personality today. What is the reason for the second personality?

Answer: Psychologically, the emergence of the second personality is related to pressure. It may be the external pressure, or it may be caused by the patient's own pressure, which makes him want to escape. The second personality thus produced has any conflicts with the child. ?

Xu Yaping sat on the sofa and muttered to herself: "...pressure."

Did she put any pressure on Xu Sheng?

In the past, she wished Xu Sheng would do more questions and write more papers, and she always hoped that he would devote all his attention to his studies.

Thinking of this, she sat up straight suddenly, and recalled the scene she saw through the crack of the door just now. The boy sat at the desk with a blank expression, except for writing the test paper and writing the test paper. She didn't stop for a moment. She thought in a daze: Is it the pressure she put on Xu Sheng?

Could this second personality "Xu Zhan" be the "Xu Sheng" she expected?

It turned out to be the case.

If so, everything is straightened out.

Xu Yaping's chest was suffocated - she actually forced the child like this.

As the second personality said, instead of encouraging him, she became the first obstacle on the way Xu Sheng wanted to go, forcing Xu Sheng out of the second personality.Now Xu Sheng is immersed in writing the test paper as she wished, but she doesn't feel satisfied at all.

She realized very clearly: It turned out that it was not a happy thing for Xu Sheng to become what she expected.

Because this is not Xu Sheng.

This isn't her son, and she doesn't need a son who does everything she wants.

Xu Yaping sat quietly on the sofa, finally realizing how ridiculous her mother was.

She was also a mother for the first time, so she self-righteously planned her life for Xu Sheng as much as possible, gave him what she thought was "good", and had unlimited expectations for him, but she never thought about what he wanted.

Shao Zhan underestimated women's divergence and associative ability. His nonsense second personality was full of loopholes, but he didn't expect that Xu Yaping could help him round up this statement, and rounded it up perfectly, and found enough explanations and reasons for him.

He didn't know if his second personality could help Xu Sheng, thinking that it was inconvenient to intervene in other people's family affairs, so he couldn't resist intervening.

He didn't know much about the entrance exam, but he had seen the sketch on the screen of Xu Sheng's phone.

I also remember the last time when I became "Xu Sheng", he was sitting in the studio, Xu Sheng held his hand, and changed the painting according to his hand.

He never said that the Xu Sheng that day was very different from the usual Xu Sheng.

Although Gu Yanwang's "sleeping lion" was an exaggeration, he seemed to have really seen Xu Sheng open his eyes.

It was no longer like on the day of the preliminary test, when the boy lay on the table and pointed the back of his head at the invigilator the whole time.

It's not like being called to the office, with the words "Leave me alone" written all over his body.

If Xu Sheng's world is raining, he wants to hold an umbrella for him.

The next day was indeed cloudy. Even after dawn, the thick clouds still covered the entire sky. Passers-by hurried on the road, wrapped tightly in their clothes by the dull wind.

Xu Sheng didn't fall asleep all night, and didn't look at his phone. He didn't know that he missed the scene of his boyfriend's car rollover.

Just before dawn, he put on the coat from yesterday and opened the door to go out, and got on the bus in the direction indicated on the navigation. The air was cold, stuffy and humid.

The bus left the unfamiliar Nanping, the scenery outside the window gradually became familiar, and an illusory and distant voice sounded in my ear: "Are you really going to lock it? Throw it all in?"

"You really don't draw anymore?"

"Come on, you..."

These voices were interrupted by an announcement that sounded when the bus stopped-"Passengers who are about to get off, please get ready."

Xu Sheng got out of the car and walked along the road. After walking two streets, he saw the familiar warehouse.

Standing at the warehouse door, Xu Sheng remembered that he was Shao Zhan now, without a key, and the key was on "Xu Sheng"'s neck.

Xu Sheng stood at the door of the warehouse for a while, clicked into WeChat, and saw three unread messages.

After Shao Zhan finished writing the last question at night and adjusted his mood, he reported the situation to Xu Sheng.

This time, the car overturned in front of Xu Yaping was too unexpected. After the cause and the result, I didn't know where to start. Shao Zhan finally said: I have something to tell you.

- What about people?

- see the reply.

But there was no reply to the message, and Xu Sheng didn't answer the phone call.

Xu Sheng leaned his back against the warehouse door and lowered his head to type.

Xu Sheng: I also have something to say.

Xu Sheng: When we meet and chat, we bring the string around our neck with us when we come.

When Shao Zhan arrived, it had been an hour since Xu Sheng sent a message. Xu Sheng's message was followed by a location, which was near the studio he had been to before. He had just gotten off the car when he saw "himself" squatting in the distance. At the door of an abandoned warehouse.

In this season and in this kind of place, there are often wild cats. Xu Sheng's dressing style is completely different from Shao Zhan's. He pulls up his large coat and hat to cover most of his face, only revealing a little bit of his chin and the tip of his nose. cat.

The cat was not afraid of him. Xu Sheng squatted with his wrists on his knees, and moved his fingers to tease it from time to time. Xu Sheng lowered his eyes and reached out to hook it. The cat ran away with a "meow", and then cast a shadow in front of him. There was something extra in the outstretched palm: "..."

Shao Zhan let go, and the bunch of black rope keys fell into Xu Sheng's palm: "This?"

Xu Sheng hooked the black rope and said "hmm".

The proportion of Shao Zhan's figure has nothing to do with the word "slender", but Xu Sheng can wear this feeling. He got up slowly with the black rope hooked between his fingers, and opened the warehouse door with the key.

The door opened slowly, and the warehouse was very dark, full of painting tools and drawing paper.

"I'll show you a place," Xu Sheng pushed open the door and said, "...your boyfriend's secret studio."

Compared with the studio, this place is more like Xu Sheng's other world.

Xu Sheng hung the key around his neck casually, as if he had come here a thousand times, stepped up in two or three steps, sat in front of the easel, flipped through the stack of drawing paper on the edge, and said: "At that time, I had a fight with my mother. , she asked me to throw these things away, but I didn't."

Shao Zhan suddenly forgot to tell him about the overturned car, and also forgot to say that he got up this morning and opened the bedroom door to meet Xu Yaping who hadn't slept all night.

After Xu Sheng finished speaking, he raised his head, and his cap slid down: "I owe you the answer yesterday, and I will make up for it today."

The disobedient temperament in his bones has never changed, and it is still the same Xu Sheng who stood on the review platform under the scorching sun and knowingly committed crimes and recklessly: "I will not give up."

It's not that I don't want to, it's that I don't.

Xu Sheng didn't sleep well last night. He looked very sleepy, but his eyes were extremely firm: "If you disagree, just draw behind her back. If you have any problems, let's talk about it when you encounter it."

A 17-year-old boy, all feelings are very pure, his love is always vigorous, and he always has no hesitation in wanting to reach the stars.

outside the warehouse.

At the same time that Xu Sheng said the words "I will not give up", the sky that had been gloomy since last night finally reached its peak. Suddenly, the wind blew violently, and a thunderbolt flashed in the middle of the dark sky—— Daoguang is like the fireworks that flickered in the night sky last night, illuminating the whole city in an instant.

At the same time, there was a muffled thunderclap from the sky, the sound was so familiar to both of them.

"Boom!"

Xu Sheng: "..."

Shao Zhan: "..."

Is it what they think.

The sound of thunder enveloped the city, and there was another "rumbling"!

Then Xu Sheng clearly felt that the thunder and lightning broke through the entire sky and struck straight towards their warehouse, because his whole body seemed to have been electrified, and he lost consciousness all at once.

Xu Sheng was just halfway through his speech about "not giving up" when he was stunned by this lightning bolt.

But this time the situation was different.

This time it was really raining, the torrential rain poured down outside, and soon wet the street, the raindrops hit the roof of the warehouse, knocking on the ground with a "bang bang" sound - this scene is gradually different from the torrential rain more than a year ago. overlapping.

The consciousness of the two was gradually withdrawn, the world began to spin, and in a whirl, Xu Sheng and Shao Zhan heard a sentence from far away in time and space at the same time.

"If I have a choice, can I not be Xu Sheng?"

"If I have a choice, can I not be Shao Zhan?"

This is their own voice.

"Who can I become?"

"What do you want to become?"

Xu Sheng saw all the scenes around him rapidly fragmenting, and many scenes were skipped before his eyes. The first scene that appeared was the first day of school, when he squatted on the wall and bumped into Shao Zhan standing under the street lamp.

Countless fine fragments shone, and he and Shao Zhan seemed to be in a grand fireworks.He wanted to raise his hand to touch Shao Zhan who was close to Chi Chi, but the moment was fleeting, but at that moment he suddenly found the answer.

After Xu Sheng realized that he had resumed his activities, he moved his fingers, looked down and saw his hands: "We, have you changed back?"

"It's back."

Shao Zhan took off the black rope necklace, ran his fingers through Xu Sheng's soft hair, put his fingertips on the back of Xu Sheng's neck, and helped him put the key on: "If there is no accident, Lei should never appear again. .”

This thunder confirmed all Shao Zhan's previous guesses. Why did he switch bodies with Xu Sheng?Because I don't want to be myself anymore.

Why change it back?

Because they accepted themselves, or in other words, it was precisely because they met each other that they found themselves.

As if to confirm his words, the thunder stopped outside and the rain weakened. The pedestrians on the street outside the warehouse were obviously not affected by the thunder, but complained about the muddy puddles on the street, and continued walking towards the station with umbrellas.This is an ordinary day that couldn't be more ordinary, and everything returns to its original position.