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Zhou Shangli rubbed his nose with the back of his hand, put on an extremely unnatural smile, and was about to say goodbye. He looked away, saw the clock next to the desk lamp, and finally thought of an excellent excuse.

"It's getting late..." Zhou Shangli saw Xiao Qiuyuan staring at him, those innocent looking eyes made it hard for him to speak.

Xiao Qiuyuan is very close, and there is a faint smell of perfume on his body. It is obvious that he took a bath after cooking and changed his clothes. Zhou Shangli teased Xiao Qiuyuan before that he did not wash his clothes thoroughly, so there is a scent of laundry detergent. Now there is no laundry detergent. The fragrance was replaced with a classic faint perfume. These details made Zhou Shangli feel complicated. He had to suspect that Xiao Qiuyuan was changing for himself.

"Don't you like me?" Xiao Qiuyuan asked.

These words startled Zhou Shangli, Xiao Qiuyuan was restrained and reserved, but at this moment he was so straightforward, Zhou Shangli found it difficult to adapt.

Zhou Shangli knew that this was not the best time to open his heart, and he would never admit that he liked Xiao Qiuyuan, thinking about how to answer so that he could act cheaply.

Zhou Shangli hadn't come up with the best answer yet, Xiao Qiuyuan's kiss came unexpectedly, and he was caught off guard. Xiao Qiuyuan was about to leave, Zhou Shangli was at a loss, his originally chaotic thoughts became more chaotic, and there was only a series of "what's the situation?" "Whispering flashed in my mind.

Xiao Qiuyuan didn't wait for "what's the situation" in Zhou Shangli's mind to become "there is a situation", and after confirming that Zhou Shangli didn't feel disgusted, the second kiss came again.

Not only did Zhou Shangli have no place to put his hands and feet, but he also had nowhere to put his whole body. Before he had thought about it, his body took the lead in reacting with his brain, and put Xiao Qiuyuan on the bracelet.

Xiao Qiuyuan was encouraged, hugged Zhou Shangli tightly, and led him to the big bed behind him.

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This is a feeling that Zhou Shangli has never experienced before, but it is undoubtedly uncomfortable. He gives Xiao Qiuyuan the greatest need within his ability, and he can adjust his own discomfort. Xiao Qiuyuan lacks muscle pads His bones hurt here and there, and he couldn't adjust it. He could only endure it, and he could only find happiness in self-psychological suggestion.

After a lingering fight, Zhou Shangli was exhausted, and then looked at Xiao Qiuyuan who was looking at him with a pair of bright eyes.

It was a bright, captivating, scorching hotness that had never appeared in Xiao Qiuyuan's eyes. Zhou Shangli turned sideways to Xiao Qiuyuan, stroked his face, and joked, "Boss Xiao didn't enjoy himself?"

Xiao Qiuyuan grabbed his hand and kissed him. He felt uncomfortable, but he still let Xiao Qiuyuan do whatever he wanted.

After taking a bath, Zhou Shangli lay on the bed sheet that Xiao Qiuyuan had changed, thinking that when Xiao Qiuyuan came out of the bath, they could have a chat, even if they were bedmates, they could say a few words about whether they were sincere or not. He had already made up his mind, first It started with myself, when I came out in my senior year of high school.

Before Xiao Qiuyuan came out of the bathroom, Zhou Shangli couldn't bear it and fell asleep. He was worried about something, and woke up in the middle of the night. He reached out to touch the place beside him. It was empty. Zhou Shangli turned over and sat up, and called Xiao Boss, got up and opened the bedroom door, saw the living room light was on, Xiao Qiuyuan was leaning back on the sofa, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

"Why didn't you sleep?" Zhou Shangli sat next to Xiao Qiuyuan, leaning on his shoulder naturally.

Xiao Qiuyuan asked: "Why are you awake?"

"Woke up from the cold." Zhou Shangli rubbed his head on Xiao Qiuyuan's shoulder, but he couldn't find a comfortable position. Xiao Qiuyuan's bones hurt his head, but he didn't want to leave, and still leaned on it.

Xiao Qiuyuan looked at Zhou Shangli who was only wearing a pair of underpants, and pulled the cover on the sofa to cover him.

Zhou Shangli pushed away, and said with a smile: "It's cold if one sleeps alone, but two people won't be cold."

Xiao Qiuyuan chuckled lightly, put his arm around Zhou Shangli's shoulder, and Zhou Shangli asked, "You haven't slept all this time? What are you thinking?"

"I have something to tell you, but I don't know where to start. After all, my life has been 27 years old. What do you want to know?"

Zhou Shangli pulled Xiao Qiuyuan's hand to his lips and kissed it, pinching Xiao Qiuyuan's fingers one by one, "Say what you think of, I will listen to what you say, it doesn't matter."

"Five years ago, I graduated from university and worked as a counselor at the city's art school. I met Ah Xun. It was the afternoon of mid-May, which was the season of cherry blossoms. The cherry blossoms at the entrance of the school cafeteria were in full bloom. He Wearing a Hanfu, with a delicate pink cherry blossom on his head, standing under the tree, like a fairy, I couldn't help but take a second look, and he smiled at me. At first, I just nodded and smiled when we met him I don’t know much about his friendship, but I only know that he likes to wear Hanfu very much. Every time I meet him, he dresses up like an ancient man. At a New Year’s Eve party held by a school, a boy’s dance surprised everyone. I stood On the side of the aisle, I watched him walking towards me like a fool, and then he called me: "Mr. Xiao, can I dance well? I wondered, how could he know me? Then he said: "You don't recognize me?" "I shook my head, he was a little disappointed, and then smiled and made a gesture of wearing flowers on his head." Xiao Qiuyuan laughed, even though he smiled wryly, he thought it was funny.

Zhou Shangli asked, "What's wrong?"

"Do you think Ah Xun is a boy or a girl?" Xiao Qiuyuan asked suddenly.

Zhou Shangli thought for a while, and asked hesitantly, "Could it be that the boy dancing is Ah Xun?"

Xiao Qiuyuan nodded: "I didn't expect him to be a boy. I always thought he was a girl. Every time I saw him, he was dressed as a girl, and I couldn't see any boyish features at all."

"Women's clothing." Zhou Shangli said with a smile: "Is he beautiful?"

"Well, it's beautiful. Later, I got to know him a lot. I knew that he was a third-year student in the National Dance Department of the Dance Academy. He liked women's Hanfu. He thought Hanfu was the most beautiful and elegant clothing in the world. He invited me to participate in Han cultural activities. Hanfu exhibition, related lectures, I am actually not interested in these, but I am willing to accompany him, because I found that I fell in love with him."

Zhou Shangli listened, and kept telling himself not to be jealous, but to be happy, Xiao Qiuyuan was willing to share the past, Xiao Qiuyuan opened his heart in front of him, explaining that Xiao Qiuyuan decided to start over, and the object was him.

"Before I confessed, he was the one who opened the mouth first, confirming that the relationship was very fast and it would be a matter of course. I actually had a lot of problems, but he was tolerant and affected me, making me feel that I have to make some changes. We have been together for two years, once There was no bickering, and those were the best two years of my 20-plus years."

Zhou Shangli had a premonition that a turning point came, without interrupting, waiting for Xiao Qiuyuan to continue, Xiao Qiuyuan sighed, resting his chin on the top of Zhou Shangli's head, and spoke slowly, with a much heavier tone.

"We plan to go abroad to get married when we have saved enough 10 yuan. With this goal, Ah Xun gave up his enthusiasm for Hanfu and focused on saving money. We are only allowed to go out for a meal that does not exceed 200 yuan a week. , he was dancing desperately, while I was desperately looking for a tutor. The number on the card was getting closer and closer to the goal. We were very happy. When the passbook was [-], we wore formal clothes and took a couple photo. [-]... He left me , I was in pain, and I collapsed for a while..." Xiao Qiuyuan's Adam's apple rolled, swallowing the pain revived by memories: "Later, I quit my job and opened Daoxiang and Yu. In order to get out of the pain, I tried to communicate with others. Boys who like to dress up as girls are cute and beautiful, but none of them are Ah Xun..."

Hearing this, Zhou Shangli finally noticed the weirdness in Xiao Qiuyuan's words. He sat up straight, inserted his fingers into his hair, and scratched vigorously. He had reason to suspect that Xiao Qiuyuan wanted to treat him as the next test subject— ——An experiment to see if he can get out of the pain Ah Xun brought him.

Xiao Qiuyuan stretched out his arms to hug him, and said, "Neither are you, I..."

"Boss Xiao," Zhou Shangli interrupted Xiao Qiuyuan, his self-esteem forced him to point out the inappropriateness of Xiao Qiuyuan's calculation, "You know I'm not Ah Xun, anyone can't be Ah Xun, you want to get out There's nothing wrong with suffering, it's just done in the wrong way, and besides, I don't like womenswear."

He stood up, went straight into the bedroom, put on his clothes, pants and shoes, and saw that the hour hand of the bedside alarm clock was pointing to three o'clock, the hands of the hour, minute and second were distributed at an even angle, and the vertical minute hand was like someone's middle finger, mocking He is an idiot.

After getting dressed, Zhou Shangli picked up his mobile phone from the coffee table in front of Xiao Qiuyuan. He knew Xiao Qiuyuan was looking at him, but he didn't look at Xiao Qiuyuan. He was afraid of Xiao Qiuyuan's eyes, and those eyes were slapping his face, hot the pain.

Walking to the door, Zhou Shangli let out a long sigh, and finally couldn't bear it anymore, no matter how uncomfortable Xiao Qiuyuan's intentions made him, he still hoped that Xiao Qiuyuan would get better, and said without looking back: "If you need help, you can find me .”

Xiao Qiuyuan's eyes were red, and when he heard the sound of closing the door, he knew that he had messed up again.

Zhou Shangli left in a hurry, almost fleeing, the elevator slowly ascended from the first floor, the speed was too slow, he kept pressing the down button, as if the elevator would speed up, the elevator door was half open, He had already jumped in and pressed the door close button hard. When he reached the first floor, he came out of the elevator, his legs were a little weak, and he stood against the wall for a while. direction to go.

Walking indiscriminately, I happened to bump into a security guard patrolling with a dog. The dog heard footsteps and kept barking. The security guard called Zhou Shangli with the flashlight in his hand, and asked, "Who!"

"I'm sorry, brother, I'm lost." Zhou Shangli blocked his eyes and explained quickly, fearing that the security guards would let the dogs bite him, which would really embarrass him.

"Which building do you belong to?" The security guard looked him up and down, snorted, and said, "You are Mr. Xiao's friend."

"It's me, I'm sorry, I have something urgent at home, I have to go back quickly, please brother to lead the way."

The security guard was suspicious, and took Zhou Shangli to the gate of the community, and refused to let him go, but wanted to call to confirm.

Zhou Shangli felt uncomfortable and embarrassed, and when the security guard finished making the phone call, there was nothing wrong with the look in his eyes, Zhou Shangli really wanted to ask Xiao Qiuyuan what he said, but he didn't have the courage to ask, the security guard opened the door, and kindly sent him away. The sentence pays attention to safety, Zhou Shangli thanked him, left the community, and walked away quickly, his back was anxious.

Zhou Shangli walked recklessly, didn't pay attention to his feet, tripped over a small pothole in the road, and staggered two steps forward before standing still. This trip exhausted all the strength in his whole body, and his hands and feet suddenly became weak , he stopped, looked back at the pit that tripped him, and showed a wry smile.

Tonight's moon is very big and bright, Zhou Shangli looked up for a while, exhaled, and walked forward with heavy steps.