What are you afraid of?

In the days when Ye Bai was not around, time seemed to pass quickly for Jiang Shi, but it also seemed to pass very slowly.He doesn’t need to work to earn money now. The focus of his life is reviewing. Every day is nothing more than going to class, finishing class, going home, reading, and sleeping. It makes him feel that he is repeating the same day’s work and rest. When he accidentally looks up at the small whiteboard in class When the countdown to the college entrance examination turned into single digits, I realized that so much time had passed.But every day he feels that the time is stretched very long, otherwise why has the person he missed not come back after so long?

The week before Yebai's absence was the most difficult time for him. He didn't stop thinking about it for a second, and even when he read a book, he always thought that an arm would come up from his waist.He went from looking for breath and memories about Ye Bai at home all the time, to not daring to stay at home for a long time, for fear that the strong yearning that made his heart palpitate would make him collapse.

He even indulged his selfish emotions in the late night of excessive longing, why did he go back in vain?What does the life and death of others have to do with him?Ye Bai only needs to care about him alone...

After that, he gradually got used to this mood, from transitional yearning to looking forward to reunion.The promise to come back on the eve of the college entrance examination that was promised is due. When everyone in the class is nervous, he is looking forward to it.

"I, I, I seem to be suffering from pre-exam depression." Xu Tianzong shyly moved to the side of Jiang Shi's seat.

"I've heard of prenatal depression." Jiang Shi said, "What's so depressed about you? The worst outcome is to inherit your ranch, which is more popular than normal."

"My mother said, if I don't pass the university entrance examination, I will be kicked out and let me fend for myself." Xu Tianzong said depressedly.

"Will you fail the exam?"

"It's not that, but, but I want to take the same exam as her."

"Who is she?" Jiang Shi raised an eyebrow and asked with a smile.

"You know it yourself." Xu Tianzong was a little dejected, "Her volunteer is the focus of N City, and I can only get one copy at most, what should I do?"

"If you don't pass the exam, will she look down on you?"

"How is it possible? She is not such a snobbish person." Xu Tianzong said.

"Then you have nothing to worry about, just perform normally." Jiang Shi picked up the book and patted him on the body, "Brother's time is over, get out."

"My bosom brother's time has begun." Xu Tianzong grinned, "Have you figured out what to do after going to college? I'm going to take your family to Dabai... Has he come back?"

"Not yet." Jiang Shiyun said lightly, "But it's coming soon, just a few days."

"Then can I ask a not-so-nice question?" Xu Tianzong said cautiously, "If he doesn't come back, what will you do?"

Jiang Shi frowned because of this question, "He will come back."

"Can……"

"Xu Tianzong! Come here and look at this! I've told you [-] times and you still got it wrong!" Fang Jiaqian's clear voice resounded through the class.

"Did you hear me? I'm calling you." Jiang Shi pushed him.

Xu Tianzong had no choice but to swallow the next words, and went to Fang Jiaqian's side. He even looked back at Jiang Shi, seeing him looking down at the book with an unsteady expression, he was relieved, but the heaviness did not ease.

What should I do if I can’t come back in vain.Jiang Shi thought about this question, not what he should do, but how to bring Yebai back.He is a strong person, and his strength has turned into paranoia in Yebai. He believes that Yebai must be, so he will not let go, even if he is also Bai, he does not want to be with him anymore.

I don't even want to...

Jiang Shi's hand holding the pen tightened, and the poor penholder could not bear the weight under the strong grip, and it broke with a bang, and the sharp crack pinched Jiang Shi's fingers tightly, and the pain slightly relieved his anger that was about to lose control .

But reality is relentless.

On the day of the college entrance examination, Yebai still didn't come back.

After the first subject was over, the cordon was full of parents waiting for the candidates.Jiang Shi wanted to find a cool and handsome long-haired man from the dense crowd, but in the end he walked away together.

Yebai is different from him, he is just a weak human being, he can't ride the clouds, he can't call the wind and rain, and he can't open the gate of the world, he can't find Yebai.

The only thing to do is wait.

But in a trance, he would think that the time he lived with Ye Bai for nearly a year in the past was just a dream of his.This kind of consciousness made him feel scared. He took out Yebai's clothes, and found Yebai's photos and chat records. Only when he saw these things that could prove that Yebai really existed, could he feel at ease.

But he's almost reaching his limit.

He can't touch it, he can hug it, he can kiss it, he can make love with him.

He was so sad that he wanted to cry.

Why hasn't his lover come back to him?

At the end of the college entrance examination, the cheers of liberation resounded throughout the campus, and the review materials turned into snowflakes, falling from the top floor of the teaching building one after another. The most strict teaching director also put on a smile, conniving at the students' last violation of discipline.

Jiang Shi didn't join in, he packed his schoolbag silently, and left the classroom in a low-key manner.

"How did you do in the exam?"

A heavy object came from behind and hooked Jiang Shi's neck. It was rare for Jiang Shi not to kick him away directly, but just kept his body and continued to walk, "It's okay."

"Fortunately, how is it?" Xu Tianzong shook him deliberately.

"It's okay, let go." Jiang Shi shook him off.

"Come to my house for dinner today." Xu Tianzong said.

"Next time, I'm a little tired."

"OKOK, you are welcome to come anytime." Xu Tianzong said, looking at Jiang Shi's expression, he sighed and said, "You make me a little worried."

"How?"

"It's... like it might explode at any time."

"I'm not a firecracker." Jiang Shi smiled, "I'm going to the supermarket to buy some things, so let's go first."

"Oh... oh, you must contact me if you have anything to do!"

Jiang Shi raised a hand and waved it.

On the day when the results came down, Bai did not come back.On the day of receiving the admission notice, Yebai still did not come back.

The class's graduation party was held in early July, at the largest four-star hotel in the area, and the whole class was present.

At this time, most people have already confirmed their university, and they got their wish, unexpectedly, when they reunited with the people who had gone through those fulfilling and difficult days together, everything turned into joy.

"Hey old class is here!"

"Teacher Ho!"

"Teacher He, sit here, sit here!"

He Jing smiled brightly, "There are a few people hiding beer over there, don't hide them, I've seen them all."

The people in the class were careless towards He Jing, and now it's even worse. A few boys poured wine for him directly, as if they were not drunk and would not go home.

He Jing gave each of them a chestnut, and said, "Have you all received your admission letter?"

Some say they have it, some say they haven't.

"Our class did well in the exam. Two-thirds of the students passed the first line, and there were fifteen heavy ones, which is very good." He Jing said.

"It's all well done by you, applause applause!"

"Clap clap clap clap-"

He Jing laughed, "Okay, okay, don't give me the applause, give it to Heima Jiangshi in our class."

Jiang Shi was sipping a can of beer in a daze, when suddenly hands outstretched from all directions surrounded him and began to pat him.

"Dark horse dark horse!"

"Oh oh oh oh oh oh!"

"If you're handsome, you'll get good grades. Will you let me live?"

Jiang Shi: "???" What's the situation?

"Let me tell you what it's like to score more than [-] points." He Jing said with a smile.

what do you feel?

Nothing feels.

He still remembered that when he checked his grades, he saw that all subjects were higher than the previous mock exams, and his total score hit a new high, but there was no fluctuation.

He doesn't know how to be happy, because there is no one around him to share his joy.

But it would be too disappointing to tell the true feelings on this occasion, so Jiang Shi casually talked about it, saying how he was so ecstatic and crying bitterly.Although they had a poker face and their tone of voice was as calm as a dead man's electrocardiogram, everyone still gave face to face.

After that, Jiang Shi hardly spoke.No matter how lively the surroundings were, it still couldn't get into his heart.

Cans of beer were opened one after another. He hadn't drunk this kind of thing before, and he felt that the taste was too pungent and he couldn't taste anything good, but he couldn't stop drinking it today.

Somebody came over to toast him, somebody said something to him.

He couldn't see clearly, he couldn't hear clearly, he couldn't even taste the choking taste of beer.

He didn't even know that the party was over, someone took his drink, he tried to grab it back, but his body was uncontrollable, limp, his outstretched hand was caught, and then he was carried away.

"What the hell are you doing drinking so much? Grass, dead." Xu Tianzong helped Jiang Shi, who was almost unconscious, to go upstairs with difficulty, "Do you know how much you drank? Fourteen cans! You can pierce a hole in you Spitting out beer, you know?!"

Jiang Shi didn't know, he just felt as if he was in the clouds, not telling the truth.

He was quite peaceful when he was drunk, and he was not noisy.Xu Tianzong was so tired that he was out of breath, "You said you, you obviously feel uncomfortable, but you just don't tell me, is drinking useful? Will he come back after drinking? You are really... I am more worried than dying, he If you don’t come back, you won’t come back, can I also accompany you?”

"He will come back." Jiang Shi said this suddenly.

This overly sober voice surprised Xu Tianzong, "Are you drunk or not?"

Jiang Shi fell silent again.

Xu Tianzong tentatively said, "Yeah?"

Jiang Shi's body trembled suddenly, and he began to struggle, "Ye... Bai,... Bai, where are you..."

"Oh, oh, let's not talk about it." Xu Tianzong hurriedly said, "It's almost your home, so be quiet."

"...Yeah..." Jiang Shi was still screaming, but Xu Tianzong could hear a choked sob.

He sighed, what's the matter?

Finally arrived at Jiang Shi's house, Xu Tianzong took out Jiang Shi's key, and was about to open the door when the door opened first.

Xu Tianzong was startled, thinking that he had come back in vain, but when the door opened, he was a delicate and beautiful young man with ruby-like clear and moist eyes. When he saw a stranger, he shrank his shoulders in panic at first, but then he saw the man hanging on the wall. Jiang Shi, who was drunk on the stranger's body, shouted in a daze:

"Master Jiang Shi!"