my summer

After sending Lei Ming away, my life returned to a tense rhythm.After class every day, do test questions, recite vocabulary, go to Zige every weekend night, call and chat with Xia Zhi from time to time, or go to Huaxi to find him for dinner and come back.

The lights were turned off at night, and the dormitory was quiet. I lay on the bed and listened to English, and the words of Lei Ming’s day would often come into my ears unexpectedly again.

"It's a violation for a man to be with a man..."

I was mentally prepared for this road to be difficult. What I was afraid of was that when I walked down this road, I would suddenly find that there was no road ahead, and it was the end...

Does the summer solstice mean anything to me other than being a brother?If it is said that I have never been in a relationship, I am relatively slow in this regard, but Li Youheng must have a lot of experience, he can spot me at a glance, it is impossible to make a mistake in judging Xia Zhi.

unless he...

On the top of the mountain that day, his injury was obviously caused by a blow. It couldn't be Lei Ming, nor could it be a passerby... Could it be Xia Zhi's hand?But why do it?

On Saturday night, I served tea and wine in Zige as usual, and had cordial talks with foreign friends.

When it was almost 10 o'clock, Jack came by himself, sat in the corner without saying a word, and his face didn't look very good.I sent him the wine he usually drank, and greeted him warmly: "Hey Jack, why are you alone tonight?"

He took the wine and drank it down, and then told me with a sad face that he was broken in love.

"Ah..." To be honest, I was quite shocked. They were still having a hot fight at the party that day, and it had only been more than a month.

"I thought we could talk for a longer time this time, at least more than half a year," he said, "I never fell in love for more than three months before."

"... Is half a year long?" This concept of time confuses me.

"You don't know? If two people can be together for more than half a year, it is considered a long time in our circle. If it can last for more than a year, it is simply true love." He said.

"Ah?" I really couldn't find the right words to respond, "Ah..."

Jack drank until 1 o'clock in the morning. I wanted to comfort him, but after organizing the language for a long time, I didn't know how to say it more politely, so I had to give up.

Jack reeked of alcohol, and when he stumbled past the front desk, his leg accidentally tripped over the table and almost fell.Fortunately, I had quick eyesight and quick hands, and grabbed him. He swayed a few times and became even more unsteady, with his tall figure directly pressing down on me.I had to use all my strength to hug him, otherwise both of us would fall to the ground.

I hurriedly called Xiaocheng to help, and the two of them worked together to send the drunk Jack to the hotel closest to Zige.After Jack settled down, we went back to Zige to clean up the sanitation before locking the door and leaving.

The night is deep.

I rode a bicycle through the dimly lit streets and through the dark and silent alleys, my thoughts drifting along with the cool wind.

Could it be that love between same sexes cannot stand the test of time?It takes two people to be together for one year to be true love, so what is half a year?True love can still play [-]% off?

No, I don't believe it.

Maybe it's just that foreign friends are naturally unrestrained, and their attitude towards love is naturally casual and eclectic.And as descendants of the Yellow Emperor in Greater China, we value love and righteousness the most. Even if a man falls in love with a man, we will treat it with sincerity.Emperor Ai of the Han Dynasty broke his sleeves and made up his son's flaws and divided his peaches into peaches, which is a good story that has been passed down to this day.

On Monday morning, after class, I was about to go to the cafeteria to have lunch with Wang Siyu, when Xia Zhi called.

"I'm downstairs in your dormitory, where are you now?" His voice on the other end of the phone sounded very cold, which was rare.

"I'm almost at the cafeteria, have you eaten yet? If you haven't eaten, come and eat together." I said.

"You go to the dormitory first, I have something to ask you." He said.

It seemed that things were not going well, so I hurriedly left Wang Siyu behind and ran towards the dormitory.

Xia Zhi was actually still wearing a white coat and carrying a heavy-looking schoolbag, standing straight downstairs waiting for me.

"What's wrong?" I asked out of breath.

"Tell me another place." He led the way sullenly, and we walked around to a small green belt behind the dormitory building, and found a remote corner.

"Summer Solstice," I said, "what's going on?"

He didn't make a sound, just took out a photo and put it in my hand, "You can see for yourself."

The photo is not very clear, the light is purple, but it is still obvious that it is me and the back of Jack who is hugged tightly by me.

It was a moment that was captured when I was helping the drunk Jack that day, and it was the most wonderful moment in the eyes of caring people.

It was nothing at all, someone was about to fall when he was drunk, so I gave him a hand.It's a pity that from the perspective of Xia Zhi, from the photos alone, I can only see a ambiguous hug between me and a tall foreigner in an ambiguous environment.

"Where did you get the picture?" I asked.

"Is this the point?" he said, "What is the point now, you know better than me!"

I looked at him and thought, isn't this the direction of the plot in the dog blood drama?But right now, I can only do it once, "I work part-time in a bar, and this customer was drunk that day, so I just helped him up."

"What bar? How did you find it?" he asked.

"It's just... an ordinary bar... Li Youheng took me there..." I think it's better to continue to hide some things that should be concealed.

He stared at me for a while, "If it's just an ordinary bar, why have you been hiding it from me? And you're lying to me as a tutor?"

Well, I have to admit that Xia Zhi's ability to grasp key points is better than mine.

"I'm afraid you won't be happy. After all, a bar is not a library, and there will always be confusion." This is really true.

"You still don't tell me, do you?" He asked with a look of breaking the casserole, "You still want to continue to lie to me?"

In this case... I had no choice but to break the can, "I'm gay! Are you satisfied?"

"So, you got carried away flirting with men in gay bars?" His eyes were as cold as his tone.

This is the first time he treats me with such a cold attitude, how can I bear it?Anger rushed straight to his forehead, and he retorted sharply to his question: "Yes, so what? This is my freedom, why do you control me? You are not me!"

He was so angry at my words that he gritted his teeth, and his tone became more severe, "Am I not you? Our relationship for so many years has been eaten by dogs?"

I continued not to be outdone, "Don't think that after being a fake brother for a few days, you are really a brother! Whoever I like to play with, don't worry about it!"

"Okay, okay, don't you just like to flirt with men!" As soon as he finished speaking, he rushed towards me, hugged me into his arms, pressed his mouth hard on mine, and sucked hard .

I struggled desperately, but I couldn't match his strength after all, so I had to let his messy dog ​​gnaw for a while, and then I found the right time to bite on his lip.

He let go of me in pain, panting heavily, his eyes were red, staring at me motionless.

"Summer Solstice!" I shouted, "Calm down!"

"Calm down? How do you want me to be calm? I'm too calm to let you and other men..." His voice was choked with sobs, and his whole body trembled slightly.

I took a few deep breaths and said slowly, "Then let me ask you, why do you care so much? Are you jealous?"

"I...I...don't know..." He calmed down completely, "I just know that you can't flirt with others."

"Why?" I asked, my heart beating like a drum.

"Because," he looked at me, "if you saw me flirting with other people, you wouldn't be able to bear it either."

I was a little disappointed, I didn't hear what I expected.But to make Xia Zhi so excited, I can roughly understand his intentions.

It's just that this special feeling is still too difficult for us young people to understand. We tacitly chose to keep the last layer of protective film, just like leaving the last small fig leaf on the body that is about to be naked.

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