They all miss me a little bit

"It's a long story," the system said.

"Let's make a long story short. If it's too long, I'll talk about it tomorrow. I still want to sleep well at night." Da Ge yawned.

It was almost twelve o'clock, and she rarely stayed up late, so she fell asleep.Although the difficulty of the task has increased, she is still a little happy in general. One million renminbi, it’s still covered here, she only needs some daily expenses for food!I heard that the prize money for the 100th floor exceeds 150 million renunciations!

I just feel like the future is bright

After they got out of the elevator, they walked in the carpeted aisle. Dage's room number is 10018. After finding it, Dage opened the door with the room card and put the electric card in the card slot. The room came. Electricity.Da Ge closed the door and walked inside. There was a small space on the right hand side, which was closed by a push-pull door inlaid with floor-to-ceiling mirrors. When pushed open, there was a small bathroom space.Diagonally opposite the bathroom is the double bed, and the wall behind the double bed is specially separated from the wardrobe space.And there is a small rectangular table and a sliding chair on the side near the floor-to-ceiling windows of the high-rise building.Directly opposite the bed was a wall with a small tv on it.This is the room on the 100th floor.

She told the staff before that please arrange a double room.

Da Ge is like a woman like the wind. She rushed to the bed near the French window, threw herself on the bed to test the elasticity and softness of the bed, rolled around on it, and laughed excitedly.

Gaara stood leaning against the cabinet somewhat cautiously, watching Dage roll around.She finally calmed down and looked at him standing like someone punished him, she blinked, "Uh, isn't Gaara going to rest? You can sleep on that bed." Da Ge smiled , She pointed to the bed next door and said, "Because I messed up the bed next to the window!" She wanted to roll again as she said.

"We, sleep together?"

"Huh? Is there a problem?"

"No......"

"Go to sleep if there is no problem!"

Seeing his inexplicable embarrassment, Da Ge didn't think too much, just thought that after all, they were only acquaintances, and she was very strange to him, so it was right to be a little awkward.But why did she let them sleep in the same room, Da Ge thought, she wanted to protect his safety, she said so, but she also wanted to protect the safety of others!If he loses control of his emotions and becomes irritable, something will happen, so she tries to keep her by her side to watch, and nothing will happen.

Uh, what if he secretly strangles her neck or suffocates her with sand when she falls asleep and suddenly goes crazy? !

She is really worried!

"I don't need to sleep." He said this out of a certain state of mind.

Originally, he could say "okay", "good night" and so on to cover up the topic and hide it from her, but he couldn't sleep.However, he didn't want to say that.

He wanted to let her know that he couldn't sleep, couldn't sleep.

When he first came to this place, his heart was full of uneasiness and distrust. He was overwhelmed and violent, but he found that the words he couldn't understand were used here, and the people here didn't recognize him at all, and he didn't feel it. It was too chakra, so I was sure that he went to a different place, maybe the woman used some space ninjutsu to bring him to a different place.

Others will want to approach him, will make way for him, will play with him, will give him gifts, will thank him.

This was a beauty that he had never felt in his previous life.

It also made him overwhelmed with joy.

Perhaps, this is the happiness he has heard before. His mood at the moment and the emotion that surges up are beyond his description. So, is it called happiness?

It's all because of her.

He actually saw it all.

He used ninjutsu to condense the third eye, gaining vision for him in the air, he knew that she bought the toy he got, she obviously didn't have much money, but spent a lot of money to trap him, when someone expressed her gratitude to her When she was in bed, she pointed to him quietly, and let him be thanked together.

How can there be such a good person?

How did he meet such a nice person?

This can't be an illusion, could it be that in order to deceive him, she specially invented a language?Even understand him and understand what he desires most in his heart, and imagine it for him one by one?If he had been hit by such a strong illusion, wouldn't the tailed beast in his stomach have already caused trouble?

So, it's not an illusion.

In his impression, only the betrayer would understand what he really wanted.His heart was still bleeding when he was mentioned, it was the pain of his life.

In his heart, he felt that that person had betrayed him.He trusted him so much, but it was because of him that he ruined his expectations for people, his expectations for love, and his only thoughts.His death seemed to have taken something away from him as well.As if something was about to be stripped from his soul, he clearly knew that something important was passing, he was losing, but he was powerless or he didn't know what to do.His affection for him was also taken away.After the loss is exhausted, he will become different, will usher in a "new life", right?

It is undeniable that he cares about him very much, he cares about every word he says, and even the feeling of happiness now is a conclusion drawn from the one-to-one correspondence of those things he once taught him.

While feeling happiness, the pain you feel becomes more and more profound.

After tasting a little bit of honey, I want to ask for more, so as to resist the bitterness that is as deep as a whirlpool in my heart and cannot see the edge.

Why can't he be loved?Why can everyone else get love?Is he unworthy?

But isn't he exactly the same as a normal person?

No, it's different.

He is a strong man.

It's Renzhuriki who is hated and loathed by others and wants to disappear.

But why do you hate him?Why do you want him to die?He obviously didn't do anything?

He is trying so hard to be accepted by others, he wants to be recognized for his existence, and he also wants to laugh with everyone in the sun...

Why, no one can accept him? !

Then forget it.

He doesn't need it anymore.

But why did this person appear in front of his eyes again?

Surrounded by strange people in a strange environment, when he was so overwhelmed that it was difficult to breathe, that person moved away from the crowd and stood by his side; when everyone was accompanied by relatives, only he was alone At that moment, she stretched out her hand to take him away, and pulled him out of the abyss bit by bit.

He was longing for an answer, perhaps an answer she would know.

No, that was the answer she knew.

Because he just wanted her to answer.

"Why not? Can't sleep?" Dage asked aloud, she also sat up straight, looked at Gaara who also sat down and sat opposite her and said.

It's really not smoky makeup on his face but real dark circles!

I want to become a fairy at a young age, with boundless mana? !

"Because of the tailed beast in my body." His expression darkened, "I was transplanted with a tailed beast when I was just born, but it seems that because I am a premature baby, the tailed beast sealed in my body will be more out of my control. , it will control my mind and snatch my body while I am resting, so I have to be on guard all the time in order to avoid being/manipulated, so I suffer from insomnia, and my mind will become unstable. It seems that it is also because of this, I Being hunted down by killers sent by my father, no matter day or night, there is no time to sleep." He didn't think it would be bad to say this to a stranger, whether it's a tailed beast or a jinchuriki, this is well known Things, the rest, were just bits and pieces of his life so far that he revealed.

Dage was hit again.

Why does she feel that she is in a world where young people live so hard.The boys and girls of the Demon Killing Squad are fighting for life and death every time they are young; wars in the ninja world are common, and many families are left with only one seedling like Junmaro; it is even more powerful when it comes to Gaara , Judging from his narration, he was transplanted with a tailed beast since he was a child, and Jinchuriki is not regarded as a human being, but treated as a tool of war. Isn't it very irritable if he can't sleep for a long time every day? !She couldn't even imagine what would happen if she couldn't sleep, she might turn into a fire-breathing dragon, right?My father also sent killers to chase him down, what is he trying to do? !

Oh, I realized that my son or the tool was not what I had imagined, so I ordered it to be destroyed, right?

What a man he is!They are real people of flesh and blood!

He is irritable, why don't you teach him well?Is he trying to be irritable? !

It is also possible that his birth itself was used as a tool.Except for technical masters or machine enthusiasts, it is difficult for ordinary people to have any emotion for a machine.

That's why the system told her, don't even treat her as a human being.

"Someone once told me that I am not hated by everyone, not hated by everyone, there is a person who loves me. When I knew, I almost fainted with joy. She will be happy for me, worry about me, let The person I have the idea to live well, the person who loves me is my mother." Gaara said slowly. "I always thought that the 'love' in my name was proof that she loved me, but my uncle said it was all a lie and he lied to me. My mother died when I was born, and she She passed away with resentment, because she didn't want to give birth to me, and she couldn't help it because of the village..." Speaking of this, the sand in the gourd he was carrying began to move again, and his emotions became Excited, "I am not, I came into this world because of love, because of hate, endless hate."

This is how he was born.

He is not a container for tailed beasts, but a container for hatred.

For countless nights, he kept asking in his heart over and over again, why, why was he born, why did he have to suffer such a fate? !

"If this is the case, what is the meaning of my existence and my life?" Finally, he said it.

She always felt that an inestimable sadness hit her overwhelmingly.She lowered her head and let the tears fall on her pants.

"What are you crying for?" He got up from the bed, stood in front of Dage, stretched out his hand, touched her warm cheek, and touched the hot tears.Dage raised his head, and looked at him with eyes full of tears, and he also looked at Dage in surprise, those tears seemed to flow down his hands and into his heart.

Over and over again, gently nourishing his dry and cracked heart.

Da Ge suddenly stretched out his hand and touched the top of his head.There were indescribable emotions in her eyes, as if she was very sad and sad, and she felt pity for him.

"I just, feel sad." Da Ge said softly, she wiped her face with one hand and wiped away her tears. "I don't know what to say, even though I feel sad, I still can't fully empathize with you, so just thinking about the hardships you have suffered in the past, my heart feels like it was first pricked by a fine needle and then I was stuffed with a ball of cotton, it was blocked and painful, and I didn’t know what to do.” She said this, tears were coming out of her eyes again, she took a deep breath, and then exhaled slowly, again Inhale and exhale, and it took a while to slow down.

She held his hands and looked at him, "I really want to say something to you, but I feel that it's useless to say anything, so I feel powerless to myself like this, bad, I want to cry again, I'm sorry... ...."

sorry.

The first time someone said something like this to him, it wasn't always that he felt sorry for someone else, this time, it was someone else who felt sorry for him.

What are you sorry for?Has nothing to do with her?Why is she crying?

sorry.

He watched Da Ge holding back his tears, for some reason, he felt his nose sour, and he started to cry too.

He wanted to vent and tell, but the only person who could listen to him was gone.

sorry.

He really wanted to say sorry to those who were hurt by his loss of control, he really didn't intend to hurt them, he was really sorry; he also wanted to be said sorry by those who hurt him.

He suddenly burst into tears.

Before Da Ge could sort out his emotions, he saw a lot of sand flying out of the gourd he was carrying, and then he ran around smashing things here and there.

She was so scared that she put aside her sadness and sadness, feeling that the sand was about to rush to her side, she immediately moved forward and hugged Gaara who was crying.

He can't beat me, can he? !

And Gaara, who was hugged in her arms, looked at Dage holding him with tears in her eyes, and she who was holding him in front of her eyes overlapped with the way she was protecting him that day, he was slightly dazed, and ran around Sand calmed down, "I'm sorry!" he apologized.

She can't say it's okay!

Fortunately, he didn't completely lose control of his emotions. Otherwise, it wouldn't be the end of a few holes in the wall. He would have to find someone to fix it tomorrow.

"There can't be a next time, Gaara." Dage had no choice but to pat his head again, seeing Gaara showing her a soft smile, Dage felt very complicated.

An iron-eating beast is an iron-eating beast. Don't look at people's cute appearance, but their combat effectiveness is still impressive.

Then it's more embarrassing now, her emotions have been scared away, so is she going to start the awkward chat mode now?

Seeing that people and children are still immersed in emotions, Da Ge had to bite the bullet and give psychological counseling: "Actually, I don't know the meaning of human existence."

"Eh?!" Gaara stared at Dage squatting down in front of him in astonishment.

She looked at him with a smile, and then said, "Maybe it's to hear a beautiful song, maybe it's to eat delicious food that makes a happy smile, maybe it's to wear more and better clothes, maybe If you want to travel to every corner of the world, maybe because of someone...many, many people and things can become the meaning of living."

"What about you, Dage? What do you think is the meaning of your existence?" Gaara couldn't wait to ask her.

"I don't know!" Da Ge smiled brightly, "A lot of things can become the meaning of my existence, so in fact, I don't know! Or, it's because I don't know that people are living!"

"Because I don't know, people are alive?" He repeated what Da Ge said, and then, a little brilliance slowly appeared in his eyes.

"Probably, this is just my idea. This kind of thing may be different for everyone. Because everyone is going to a different life, everyone is the unique and most precious self, So everyone's life is not necessarily the same!"

"So, do you think existence is reasonable?" He asked suddenly.

Did she mean that?

"...My thoughts may be different from others." She was silent for a while before speaking.

"If existence is reasonable, then the existence of evil, evil, and disregard of human relations can all be called reasonable. I can't imagine such a world. Well, in fact, this is all relative. For example, for good people He would not think that the existence of all evil is reasonable, because all of them will bring a lot of trouble to the world and disrupt order; similarly, for bad people, they will not feel that it is righteous and kind to abide by the world. The existence of order is reasonable, and they will be constrained by good people and obstructed. So the existence is reasonable, or just a reason?"

"Is that all?" he asked, as if he was asking more than that.

"It's just that." Da Ge replied very seriously.

"So what about the bad guys in the eyes of good guys? Is it too late to repent as long as you do something wrong?"

"The specific case needs to be analyzed in detail. Also, you don't get forgiveness from good people, but from victims. If you sincerely repent and take action, if you change your mind, you will be accepted one day. Things to remember Yes, nothing justifies a person harming another innocent person," she said.

"Maybe the beginning of your life was not good enough, but no one has the right to make your end not good enough. The cracks caused by the pain will become the place where the light shines in in the future." Da Ge said, stroking his head gently.

"You are a human being, a real human being, and no one can change this. You are definitely not a tool, what a tool that was born full of hatred, don't care about this kind of stupid speech! Follow your own heart. Da Ge took his hand and put it on his heart, "You came into this world because you wanted to love and be loved, right?"

"Hmm..." He nodded slowly, then lowered his head in frustration.

"Actually, what I had prejudiced against you before was not because I hated you because you were a human being, but because you were a human being who killed people out of control and made me unable to accept you."

"I, I, I'm sorry..." Gaara hurriedly wanted to say something, but didn't know what to say, "Is it someone important to Dage? If yes, I, I, anyway, I'm sorry!"

"Uh, that's not true. If it was, I would have been desperate with you. I'm just a meddlesome person. But after getting in touch with you, I found that your heart is actually very soft, and you also consider other people's feelings. I just I was thinking, maybe you didn’t mean to hurt people. But this is not my justification for your actions, your fault is still a fault, and my thoughts have not changed. But——” After seeing Gaara getting more and more After dimming her eyes, she quickly said, "I have some expectations for you." Because of this sentence, Gaara's eyes have not yet been extinguished.

"I hope you can regret your mistakes and take practical actions. After hearing about your life experience, I expect you to be loved and understood by others."

"Maybe I'm the first person to have expectations for you? It all depends on your actions. Because of your performance, I have changed my opinion of you, right?"

"So if you can keep like this, I believe that more people will change their views on you, and you will definitely meet more people who are kind to you." She looked into Gaara's eyes, very Seriously.

"The next words may be the first time I've said this to others, do you want to hear it?" Da Ge smiled slightly.

"Yes!" he said eagerly.

"Thank you for persevering in the past days, in those extremely difficult times."

The author has something to say: because I heard about a person recently, that person was very hard and felt a little unable to persist, but a few words from others unintentionally seemed to be pulled back.Although I am a stranger and has nothing to do with it, I still feel sad when I hear it, so I may talk a little more nonsense in the future, please skip it if you don’t want to read it.

Thank you for persevering until now. You have worked hard in the past and now.Although I want to tell you "please keep going", you may feel disgusted. I have worked hard, so why do you insist on something? Please take a break, but don't give up. I hope you don't go to extremes at any time. , Really, I believe that your family, friends and I are all concerned about you, we are all very grateful for your persistence until now, please continue to work hard in the future, good night, please sleep well.

A sentence in the text was changed and quoted from "There is a crack in everything, and that's how the light gets in." "Ode"