implication

"Ning Fei, are you really not coming up to sleep?" Lin Qiu who was lying on the bed moved in, "My bed is actually not that small. Why don't you sleep on the floor."

Ning Fei, who was sleeping on the ground with his arms on his head, opened his eyes, turned his back to Lin Qiu, "Forget it, I don't sleep well."

Lin Chen patted the vacant space around him, and said generously, "It's okay, come here, Ning Fei. The sleeping floor is cold and hard, and it's warmer if the two of you huddle together."

Ning Fei sighed and opened his eyes, still turning his back to Lin Chen, "Lin Chen, will you sleep in the same bed as a girl?"

"How is this possible, how embarrassing." Lin Qiao lowered his voice, blushed a little, and pulled the quilt to cover half of his face, "Why did you suddenly mention this?"

"I told you, I like men. You invite me to bed with you so enthusiastically, and you are covered with the same quilt. For me, it is not just as simple as being polite, just like you realize that you are doing this to the opposite sex. An invitation would be inappropriate. It would be inappropriate for me to invite you now. I would take your politeness as another hint."

"I... I didn't mean that. I was just worried that you would not sleep well on the ground." Lin Chi explained in a panic.

"I know." Ning Fei turned his back to Lin Qiu and looked at the scattered things in the corner, "Remember in the future, since you and I are not of the same kind, then keep your distance and don't cross the boundary again."

When Lin Chen said this, he got into bed a little annoyed.The rain was still falling outside the house, and it was crackling on the roof, which was out of season and more annoying than meowing.This is how the sky in March suddenly changed without discussing with you.It had been raining for almost a day since the morning, and Ning Fei didn't want to stay longer at first, but the rain blocked his way, and he was a little worried that Lin Kui, who just had a fever, caught wind and became hot again, so Ning Fei stayed like this .

There was another "bang" sound, and Lin Qu, who was hiding under the blanket, shook his head in shock, pulled the blanket and revealed his eyes to look at Ning Fei who was lying on the ground with his back to him, and asked cautiously, "Ning Fei?" No, then will you be cold like this?"

"Are you afraid?" Ning Fei broke Lin Chen's mind mercilessly.

"Not at all!" Lin Chi clenched his quilt and bit his lip, "I'm not afraid, I'm already an adult at this age!"

Ning Fei smiled, "You are indeed an adult, and you have learned to duplicity."

"You! I..." Lin Qiao pouted a little aggrieved by Ning Fei's words, but fortunately the quilt was covered, and Ning Fei turned his back to him, so no one would see his childishness.

Ning Fei looked at the pile of things in the corner, and reached out to touch his pocket, "If you're really scared, then let's talk."

"Okay!" Hearing what he said, Lin Kai pulled down the quilt covering his face, and his mood suddenly brightened, "What do you want to talk about?"

"When you ran out, did you dig out the time capsule?"

"Yeah!" Lin Kai nodded, turned over and looked at the back of Ning Fei's head lying on the ground, "Because I'm afraid I won't be able to go back in the future, so I dug out the space-time capsule and took it away with me."

Ning Fei asked him, "Except for the pile in the corner, what about the others?"

"It's in the drawer on the other side of the desk. Do you want to read it?" Lin Ling lifted the quilt and was about to get up to look in the drawer, but was dismissed by Ning Fei's bland, "Forget it, I won't read it." positivity.Lin Chen pursed his mouth and glanced at the back of Ning Fei who was lying on his side on the ground, muttered and lay back again, "That's right, I dug it out and saw that the iron box contained all the things I put in it. Not much, no wonder you don’t want to see it.”

Ning Fei heard it, but he closed his eyes and pretended not to hear it. The rain outside the window became lighter, and the spring thunder stopped ringing, but Lin Qiu called him a few more times.After shouting but did not hear a response, Lin Chen also gradually stopped shouting, and fell asleep counting sheep under the quilt.

"One sheep hopped over, two sheep hopped over, three sheep hopped over..."

Ning Fei closed his eyes and listened, and when Lin Qiao's voice gradually became blurred, and when he was counting back and forth on the fifty sheep but couldn't count 53, he finally stopped, as if he had fallen asleep.Ning Fei opened his eyes, but just as he was about to get up, he heard Lin Qiu's voice behind him, "Ning Fei, do you know that I had a dream last night, in the dream I was going back on the long subway, and suddenly I saw When you were a child, then...then, you leaned over..." Lin Chi said without a sound, and fell asleep completely.

"Did the me in your dream become what you want?" No one answered Ning Fei's question, because Lin Chen had fallen asleep, and Ning Fei also knew that no one would answer his question, so he asked.Ning Fei got up, looked back at Lin Qiao, then turned and walked to the desk.

He opened the drawer, took out the rusty iron box from inside, sat on the floor and opened the iron box, the lid of the iron box lifted made an old sound, just like the good memory sealed in the bottom of his heart, along with the sound inside the iron box The items in the book are displayed one by one, and the old memories are gradually floating on the surface of reality.Ning Fei took out the slingshot she gave Lin Chen, took out the stave notation that Lin Chen had carefully put away for him, and the broken guitar strings, and took out a chubby porcelain doll. Looking at the porcelain doll and smiling, he gave it to Lin Chi because he resembled Lin Chi, and the last thing he took out was the plastic flower ring that was sold in the stationery store back then, which was a favorite of little girls.

Ning Fei brought the ring to his eyes, when there was a thunder outside the window, and a sudden bolt of lightning illuminated the worthless plastic flower ring in front of him.

"I'm giving this to you. You said the ring is precious because there is an oath on it. I can't take a ring that belongs to someone else. I'll give you the ring I bought myself. Although it's cheap, it's from my heart. Precious, don't steal other people's."

"Hmm...don't thunder, I'm afraid..." Lin Qu's dream babbled back to Ning Fei, who was stuck in memory. Ning Fei looked back at Lin Qu who was frowning on the bed, put down the ring in his hand, and Everything that was taken out of the tin box was put away one by one and put back in the drawer.

Ning Fei got up, walked to the side of the bed, lifted the corner of the quilt and lay down in it, supported the back of Lin Qiu's head with one hand and let him rest his arm on it.In his sleep, Lin Qu rolled over uncomfortably, and just slipped into Ning Fei's arms.Ning Fei looked down at the sleeping Lin Qu silently, looked at his loosely held hands, put his index finger into his palm, Lin Qiao tightened his fingers and clenched them tightly, this seemed to be his habit when he was sleeping.Ning Fei smiled, and patted Lin Chen's back with the other hand, "Lin Chen, you are still a child after all. You have a sinister heart, and adult duplicity is like mine. You can't learn it."

There was another thunder, and Lin Qu shook his head. Ning Fei patted him on the back lightly, bowed his head and sang a song in his ear. It was Lin Qu's favorite song when he was a child, "" Cerf-volant, Volantauvent Net'arrêtepas (Kite, kite flying in the sky, please don't stop)...VoyageinsolentTroublesenivrantsAmoursinnocentesSuiventtavoieEnvolant(Headless travel, intoxicating whirl, pure love, follow your trajectory, fly)..."

The unusual weather in March, in addition to thunder and lightning, the dark attic was illuminated by lightning for a moment. Ning Fei, who was holding Lin Qiu, didn't notice it. He didn't notice the book hidden in the darkest corner of the desk. Kite.

When seven-year-old Lin Chi heard this song for the first time, he was punished to stand at the door of the classroom.At that time, he was crying, reached out his hand to wipe away the tears hanging from the corners of his eyes, and decided to go back and tell his mother that he would never come to this music classroom to teach again, because the children who came to learn the piano in the same class laughed at his slow learning, and today the teacher corrected him When he was doing it, he sighed and couldn't help saying, "Why are you so stupid." Then others heard it.

Lin Chi looked at everyone covering their mouths and laughing, and when he got angry, he relied on his own weight to press on the kid who laughed the most.The music classroom, which was not very quiet, was now filled with cries one after another.Angrily, the teacher grabbed the chubby Lin Qu by his collar, trying to lift him up to stand as a punishment, but Lin Chu was too fat for the teacher to lift, and finally pointed at the classroom door angrily and shouted, "Go by yourself!" Go out and stand for punishment!"

"I will never come to learn the piano again!" Standing at the door, Lin Qian made up his mind secretly, sucking his nose and wiping away his tears, but just as he made up his mind, Lin Qian heard singing, as if it came from the next door.Lin Chen stopped crying when he heard it, and he couldn't help but follow the singing. After walking through two music classrooms, he finally found the place where the singing came from.

Lin Chi stood on tiptoe, trying to see what happened through the glass window on the classroom door.Holding the window sill with his head held high, he just saw something from the window when the door creaked open.Lin Chi was so frightened that he immediately threw up his hands and hid against the wall. It turned out that the door was not closed properly.He stood against the base of the wall for a while, the sound of the zither inside continued, and Lin Quan didn't hear the reprimand, so he boldly moved two steps forward and poked his head out to look into the room.

He saw a figure from the back in front of the piano, who seemed to be a few years older than himself because he was taller than him.Lin Chi looked at the person sitting in front of the piano and was still wondering how old this person was, and why he was already so powerful?The player who played the piano stopped suddenly, and turned back to stare at Lin Que. Even though he was only a child, his brows were furrowed, and he looked a bit fierce, "Who are you?! How did you get in here?"

"Uh...my name is Lin Qian. I heard singing coming. You sing really well. What song is it?"

"It's a French song."

"Wow, you can speak French. You are so good." Lin Chi sighed in amazement and stepped forward, and then glanced at the piano that made him suffer. "You are also very good at playing the piano."

The person in front of the piano didn't take Lin Chen's praise seriously, "I don't know French, so I was forced to learn this song in order to make you people who don't understand it sound amazing."

Lin Chen didn't understand the sarcasm in the words, and still asked wishfully, "What's your name?"

The seated person closed the piano cover, glanced sideways at the little fat man who was leaning on the piano and looked at him with his chin propped up, "You came here uninvited, I find it annoying to see."

Lin Chi ignored the unfriendliness in the mouth, glanced at the place where he was standing, raised his head, and grinned at the person sitting there, "You sang very well just now, and you played the piano very well, I couldn't help but come in You don’t know, I just stood outside the door and listened to your voice, and felt that there was light behind you. When I was teaching my piano teacher to play, I only felt that there was darkness behind you. Very annoying."

"Neuropathy."

Seeing him getting up to leave, Lin Chi stretched out his hand anxiously, "Can you teach me how to play the piano?"

"Go away!" The person who was pulled by the hand angrily shook off Lin Chen's chubby hand that was holding him.

Lin Chen didn't expect this person to have such a temper, nor did he expect his balance to be so poor. He was pushed and sprained his feet, and then his forehead hit the sharp corners of the upright piano behind him.

"Wow——" Lin Qian, who was sitting on the ground with his forehead broken, cried loudly, scaring the person standing in front of him who wanted to come over to help him.The piano teacher in the next classroom heard it and rushed in. Seeing Lin Qu crying with blood on his forehead, he pushed away the person blocking the way in desperation, and picked up the fatty Lin Qu who was sitting on the ground and was crying. go to the hospital.

When Ning Fei arrived home, what he saw was his beautifully dressed mother, who was anxiously urging the cooking aunt to leave quickly.Ning Fei bowed his head and entered the room. He knew that today was the day when his father came to eat, so his mother specially dressed up and sprayed limited edition perfume, and asked her aunt to cook a table of dishes. When people came, she said that she was busy all day Made dishes.

"Ning Fei come here quickly!" His mother was waving at him anxiously, Ning Fei walked over with a blank expression and told her, "I pushed today..."

"Okay, let's talk about it tomorrow." His mother interrupted Ning Fei, and hurriedly took off Ning Fei's coat and put him in a small suit, "How is the French song you learned recently? Did you sing it?"

Ning Fei looked at his mother, swallowed what he wanted to say, and nodded mechanically.His mother was very happy, she turned around and hugged the vase, planning to put flowers in the vase and place it on the long table in the restaurant.Ning Fei watched his mother turn around and leave happily, she didn't understand why she was so happy?That man, that is, Ning Fei's father, only came two or three times a month.

Ning Fei knew that his mother was the mistress of a rich man, an elderly mistress. He guessed that his well-maintained but elderly mother was lucky to have a son like him so that even the mistress had to be picky Bud's "post".

Ning Fei looked down on his mother from the bottom of his heart. When he was young, he relied on beauty to keep men in order to get living expenses and live a life of getting something for nothing and enjoying himself. It was Ning Fei's father asking for living expenses.When I was young, I relied on changing tricks to control myself, and when I was older, I changed tricks to let Ning Fei learn this and that, and waited for two or three family dinners a month to let Ning Fei "show off" in front of his father. So that this man whom he called "Dad" could be coaxed to be happy, and with a big wave of his hand, he allocated more living expenses to make his mother's life more extravagant.

Ning Fei couldn't figure it out, his father was too easy to be fooled, it was just some hobbies that didn't help his studies, but his father was very happy every time he saw Ning Fei's exhibition.That's right, anyway, I'm not the son of the main house, so there's no need to put too much effort into studying to make people afraid, but to learn some useless things like now, which makes people feel at ease.

I have been learning the piano every day since I can remember. Now that the piano has reached the point of proficiency, Ning Fei was sent to learn a French song. Now that he has also learned the French song, Ning Fei does not know what he will be sent to learn by his mother next. up.He regretted that when he was learning the piano, he was too ignorant and serious, and put in a lot of effort to practice the piano, just for the praise of his parents.Now he understands, understands that he does not have a normal family like others, understands that he is probably a tool, even if the teacher who teaches vocal music praises him and asks him to work hard to learn music, Ning Fei is not willing to devote his energy .

There was a knock at the door, Ning Feili heard it at the door, and when he turned his head, he saw his father who was rarely seen.The man came in with a smile, saw Ning Fei standing at the door, and happily rubbed Ning Fei's head, "Is the son waiting for Dad at the door?"

Ning Fei's hair was messed up, and the person rubbing her was not gentle at all.Ning Fei was born with a bad temper, so she really couldn't grin and say yes happily.At this time, he suddenly thought of the fat white man who was grinning at him this afternoon, and he was a little surprised how he managed to smile like that.

"came back."

Before Ning Fei had time to express her annoyance at being touched on the top of her head, her mother quickly came over with slippers, squatting on the bed to help this man who looked tall and strong changed his slippers.

"Well, I've been too busy recently, so I don't have time to see you."

Ning Fei looked at his mother and smiled and said, "It's okay, you are busy with your work. I know you are coming today, so I specially prepared a table of dishes for you. You are hungry, come and eat."

Ning Fei frowned, he didn't know why he was smiling at the same time, why the hell was it so disgusting to look at?

Ning Fei didn't move his chopsticks much throughout the dinner, nor did he listen carefully to the happy laughter of men and women.Finally, it was the last time of dinner, but his mother didn't let him go, and said, "Ning Fei recently learned a French song, and you know that he sings very well, and the French song is very charming. .”

"Really? Ning Fei sing it to Dad."

Ning Fei was kicked from under the table by his mother, because Dad took out the envelope from the inner pocket of the suit while talking, that was an extra "reward", and it was only available when he made people happy for a while additional income.

He was kicked under the table, but he thought absently of the little fat man who broke his forehead this morning and sat on the ground crying.Ning Fei frowned and thought to himself, as expected, the fat man's voice is louder, is it because of the wider vocal range?Ning Fei recently practiced her voice and found that she has some problems with her voice.

"What? Are you not proficient enough? It's okay, just sing it for Dad. Don't be shy."

"Not proficient enough? Nothing, he sings very well."

Ning Fei was kicked hard under the table, just on the calf bone, Ning Fei frowned in pain and looked very reluctant.

"Forget it, the meal is over. I have something to do and I will leave first." The envelope was thrown on the table, and the person left.

"No, Ningfei really practiced well. It may be that he is not in a good condition right now. By the way, he told me this morning that he seems to have a cold. Don't go, listen to me..."

Ning Fei was still sitting at the dining table, looking at the white envelopes on the table, there was a bulging stack, and the inside of the envelopes was pink.

"Ning Fei! What's the matter with you?!" His mother sent the person away, turned around to settle accounts with the uncooperative Ning Fei, picked up the envelope on the table, twitched her fingers and tapped the money inside, " You will die if you sing a word! Well, now that everyone is gone, who knows if he really has something to do. Fortunately, the money is left behind, otherwise I can’t spare you, little brat!”

"Can't you understand after singing?"

"You!" His mother stopped counting the money, turned around with her fist raised, and there was no one in the position, and then she heard the door of the room being slammed shut with a "bang".

Ning Fei locked the door, went to bed without turning on the light, hugged his legs against the wall, his stomach gurgled twice, no one except himself knew that he was still hungry.Ning Fei indifferently crossed his legs and stared at the door, thinking, if the teacher and parents complained tomorrow, what would his mother and father do to him?Ning Fei somewhat expected that he would be like a child in an ordinary family, get into trouble outside, and then be held by the ear to apologize to others, but he knew that he would not be in such a situation, because no one cared.

The next day, Ning Fei didn't wait for the other parent's reprimand, because the covered-headed Lin Kai was squatting at the door of the classroom, writing and drawing on the ground with his fingers, when he saw Ning Fei, he grinned and took credit for himself, "I didn't Tell Mom and Dad that you pushed me, and I said I knocked it accidentally."

Ning Fei looked at this little fat man grinning at him, and thought it was really strange, how could he grin like this, but when he looked at it, he didn't feel as disgusted as when he looked at his mother?Ke Ningfei still said coldly, "So?"

"So..." the little fat man Lin Chi swallowed, and said his request, "Can you teach me how to play the piano?"

"No." Ning Feigang resolutely refused, and his stomach groaned untimely.The voice was so loud that even the little fat man Lin Qiao heard it. Lin Qiao bit his finger and glanced at Ning Fei's gurgling stomach, then lowered his head and took out his own pocket, grabbed various snacks and handed them to Ning Fei. In front of him, "Here. Give it all to you. You can teach me how to play the piano."

Ning Fei never liked being asked for, and he didn't want to bend his waist for food when he was hungry. He looked down at the handful of snacks that Lin Qiu's chubby hand was holding, and said with a slightly mocking tone, "No wonder you are so fat."

Lin Chen puffed up his cheeks sadly and closed his mouth, looking as if he was about to cry, "You also laughed at me like everyone else. I thought people who sing well would not do this, since you look so gentle when you sing. "

"You're thinking wrong." Ning Fei walked around him and said as he brushed his shoulder, "I'm worse than those who laugh at you." After speaking, Ning Fei entered the classroom, turned around and saw before closing the door The dejected back of the little fat man standing there with his head bowed.

Ning Fei sat in front of the piano, didn't intend to open the piano cover, he was in a daze for a long time, he didn't practice the piano or sing, he just sat in front of the piano and kept flashing his dejected back before closing the door.After finally reaching the evening, Ning Fei sighed and disturbed the music scores on the shelf, got up and went to open the door.

The other music classrooms ended classes one after another. Many parents came to pick up their children, and there was a crowd in the aisle.Ning Fei has never been picked up and always goes back by himself. He seldom comes out when there are crowds, because he doesn’t want to see other people’s houses being happy and happy. This is the first time he was pushed forward in the aisle.

After leaving the teaching center, Ning Fei turned his head and looked around, and easily found Lin Qiu's figure, because the fat man's figure was so easy to find.Ning Fei took two steps and stopped before catching up. He saw Lin Qiao being led away from one side to the other, and the hands of the man and woman who were pulling him were wearing conspicuous pair of rings. Shows that this is a legitimate family.Ning Fei looked up, just in time to see the man and woman turned their heads and looked at each other with a smile, and then looked down lovingly at Lin Qiao who was holding his hand in a tacit understanding. This is not only a legal family, but also an enviable harmonious family. , Envious to even a little jealous.

"So that's how it is." Ning Fei figured out why Lin Chen's smile didn't annoy her, because he was pure, and of course it looked different from her mother's ulterior motives.Ning Fei looked at the scene of Lin Qiao being led by his parents from left to right, and knew very clearly that Lin Qiao was a child who was nurtured and raised by love, and was obviously different from himself. That's why Lin Qiao's smile was so clean, simple and without scheming .Ning Fei stood on the spot and watched coldly, and after watching for a while, he turned away with his fists clenched.

"Mu Mu, why do you look a little unhappy today?"

Mu Mu is Lin Chi's childhood name.

Lin Qiu who was being led bowed his head and remained silent.Lin Mu, who received no response, glanced at the person who was holding Lin Chen on the other side.Leng Ming, Lin Chen's father, smiled, "I really don't want to learn the piano, so forget it."

"No! I want to learn! I want to learn to play the piano!" Lin Chi said firmly, his face still full of gloom.

Looking at his unhappy son, the parents on the left and the right looked at each other and smiled. The understanding Lin Mu pulled Lin Ling's chubby hand, "Isn't Mu Mu the favorite to eat pudding? If you eat two, don't be unhappy."

"Really?" The expression on Lin Qiu's face brightened instantly, but sank after a while, because he thought of what Ning Fei said to himself, "No wonder you are so fat."

Lin Chen bit his lip and said cruelly, "I won't eat!"

"What's the matter, Mumu? You haven't eaten your favorite pudding?"

Lin Chi clenched his lips and didn't speak, only thinking in his heart, how can he get him to agree to teach him how to play the piano tomorrow?

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The French is a direct copy of the lyrics, if there are mistakes... (don't point them out =-=)