My cubs are all blackened

It just sucks.

In every sense.

Now that he has recovered his memory, wouldn't he be able to complete the task without distraction?

He has come to understand that his life is not lived for missions, but quite the opposite.

These tasks exist for him, and once he finds the meaning of life, the tasks will naturally cease to exist.

What's worse, even Ye Lian himself is tired of this never-ending task.

He thought that forgetting each time was the easiest result, but until now he realized that losing important memories with important people is so painful.

He wants to get all his memories back.

He wants to end this long journey.

He has never experienced the warmth of being called home, and he really wants to dock in his own harbor and live happily in the true sense.

If he is now, if he has met so many warm people, he should be able to find it this time, right?

his home.

"...Sesshin Wan." Ye Lian took a deep breath, and raised his lips with some bitterness: "I have something I want to do."

As if a little sad, he slightly lowered his eyes, pursed his lips tightly, and didn't know how to say: "So, I..."

"If you want to leave, just leave."

Unexpectedly, Sesshomaru's calm voice came over first.

Ye Lian raised his head in astonishment, and met a pair of beautiful golden eyes, but in the next second, those eyes moved away silently.

"The relationship between you and me is originally a contract, which can be severed at any time."

Sesshomaru said quite indifferently, from Ye Lian's perspective, he could only see the graceful curve of his jaw and the bright red paint on his cheeks.

"...Thank you." Ye Lian smiled sincerely at him. He understood that this young dog demon was just used to hiding his emotions under an unfluctuating expression. In fact, judging from the subtle movements of Sesshomaru, After getting along for so many days, the feelings are not fake.

Leaving causes sadness.

But after recovering his memory, for some reason, Ye Lian's liking for Sesshomaru gradually approached to a normal level.

He really likes the peaceful and warm atmosphere when traveling with Sesshomaru, and if possible, he also wants to stay with Sesshoumaru for a while longer.

But the desire in his heart is urging him to find what is really important.

Finally, he took a look at the figure of Sesshomaru with his back turned to him, Ye Lian's restrained eyes were a little moved, but he still made up his mind and walked in the opposite direction.

He didn't notice Sesshomaru's movement of staring at his back until he disappeared. He jumped from the branches all the way to the safer open grassland. After confirming that there was no suspicious aura around him, he closed his eyes and called out to that person. name.

"Merlin...Merlin, are you there?"

The young man named Merlin once said that as long as he wants to retrieve his memory, he can call his name at any time.

He will keep watching Ye Lian, and rush to Ye Lian's side immediately.

Ye Lian originally thought that it would take some time for Mei Lin who was not in another world to come here, and he was ready to wait for a few hours, but when he opened his eyes, he was startled by the white figure that came into view Jump.

"Yo, are you scared?"

The person exactly like in the dream stood in front of him, slightly raised the scepter in his hand, and greeted him with a smile.

"Since you chose to summon me, then you should have recovered your memory."

Mei Lin stroked his chin with his fingers, and looked at Ye Lian up and down with purple eyes, looking a little puzzled.

"Although there is a small hole in the seal I left, it will be released automatically as long as it is stimulated, but...it feels like you didn't release it by yourself."

He himself standing in front of him made Ye Lian a little dull, but when he was about to explain all this, he saw Merlin nod his head as if suddenly enlightened, his purple eyes shone brightly, as if all the truth had escaped him. But his eyes.

"So that's the case, there is a demon to help... But anyway, you summoned me with your will, that is to say, you are ready to get back the memory, right?"

He spoke at an astonishingly fast pace, leaving no room for Ye Lian to intervene. Ye Lian listened quietly until Merlin finally stopped talking, then he opened his mouth and slowly spit out a few words: "You How did it suddenly appear in front of me?"

Merlin's eyes widened in an instant: "Eh? Where do you want to start? It's obviously not important at all..."

He touched the soft hair on the back of his head with his palm, and sighed helplessly: "Okay, okay, how can I explain it... that is, I am not the real body, but just a phantom. After leaving the trace, as long as you call me, I can appear at any time."

Ye Lian nodded in understanding: "Then what are you? You are not a monster or a human being. You are a very strange existence."

"..." Merlin looked at him speechlessly, put his hands on his forehead, and sighed louder: "It doesn't matter what I am, do you still want to get back your memory?"

"Of course I want to." Ye Lian blinked his eyes, and his bi-color eyes showed a little curiosity: "But I wanted to ask about this matter as early as when I saw you No.1, but I was indifferent to everything at that time. , so if I can meet you this time, it can just answer my question, I..."

Following his nagging lines like chanting scriptures, Merlin couldn't help covering his ears with his palms, and shook his head impatiently: "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

In the next second, he had already smashed the scepter to Ye Lian's chest, and Ye Lian could no longer speak.

Because the obviously huge beam of light enveloped his whole body in an instant, exactly the same as the seal scene he saw in his dream, but this time, a lot of memories poured into his brain desperately, Ye Lian snorted and frowned. eyebrow.

More and more unfamiliar scenes floated in his mind like a horse on a horse, as if it took a century for Ye Lian to digest so many memories.

Some happy, some angry, some disappointed, some sad.

But all...all are the best memories that Ye Lian wants to cherish...

He finally got the important thing he dreamed of.

In these memories, Ye Lian also keenly captured the figure of Mei Lin, and several times, when Ye Lian was in a life-or-death situation, Mei Lin appeared to save him, but every time his memory was erased, he would forget about it.

In fact, Merlin was his benefactor and the one he should be most grateful for.

"...you have saved me many times." Ye Lian raised his head and showed the most gentle smile to Merlin: "Thank you."

Who knows, seeing him showing such an expression, the flower-like young man in front of him also showed some joy.

He slowly stretched out his palm and put it on the side of Ye Lian's face, with relief and pride flashing in his eyes, he said with sincere emotion: "That's the expression... now you can show this expression naturally, it seems Over the years, you must have met a lot of gentle people."

He smiled warmly: "Compared to the indifferent face when we first met, I really like this expression the most."

Filled with hatred in his heart, the big demon who had made a difficult return from hell, at this moment, finally regained the colorful heart he had when he was a human being.

What a gorgeous, what a beautiful expression.

Merlin has been watching the growth of the big demon, watching the big monster clumsily and slowly accepting the love of others, watching the big monster also become a party to give back the love.

Nothing could be happier.

"It's all because of you."

Suddenly, Ye Lian raised his palm and covered the back of his hand. The warm heat was transmitted to his heart, as if it could melt all frost.

That pair of blue eyes stared at Merlin without any falsehood.

"It was you who helped me find the meaning of life. Without you, I would not be where I am now."

He slowly pulled Merlin's palm in front of him, took a step back with his right foot, put his left hand behind his back, then bent down, put his warm forehead on the back of Merlin's hand, and closed his eyes.

"Thank you, Merlin."

The young man with blond hair made the most noble thanks to the young man with the flower.

They were surrounded by a sea of ​​flowers all over the sky, the breeze rolled up the beautiful petals and swirled in the air, and a few of them were mischievously sticking to the hair of the two of them.

For a moment, the handsome and picturesque two people embellished the most beautiful picture scroll in the world.

"So, what are you going to do next?"

Merlin withdrew his palm, and asked with a smile: "There is no need to continue the mission, you can go wherever you want, you are free, I will open the portal for you one last time, and choose your favorite destination." where you want to go."

This is undoubtedly a chance for Ye Lian to choose, he can go to any world he has been to, and make up for his regrets.

Many scenes flashed through Ye Lian's mind, such as Natori Monday in the first world, Kuroro in the strangest world, Tsunayoshi Sawada in the warmest world, Toru Amuro in the saddest world, and There is the most unforgettable person in the world... Osamu Dazai.

"Freedom..."

How difficult it was for him to pursue this vocabulary in the past, how happy he is now.

Still, there are things he needs to do, and things he must do, before pursuing happiness!

Ye Lian closed his eyes, and heaved a sigh of relief. As a result, the world he most wanted to go to at the moment was not in any of his memories.

"I want to... go back."

When he said this, his voice was a little hoarse: "...Go back to the world where I was still a human being."

Merlin looked at him steadfastly, and didn't seem to be surprised by this sentence, but asked calmly: "Have you made up your mind? There are no relatives of yours in that world."

"Yes." Ye Lian stared at the void in the distance, and sighed: "Even after regaining my emotions, I really don't care about those so-called relatives from the bottom of my heart. Since they disappeared in the world, I have already put them away." They forgot."

"They don't exist in my world, and they don't mean anything to me."

"Now the only reason that drives me back is the ghost that killed me."

A deep coldness gradually appeared in the blue eyes: "The ghost who descended to the land is engraved in that eye..."

"I'm going to find him and kill him."

"Revenge?" Merlin asked.

"Well, it's an explanation to my past self. If I don't do this, I will never be able to end all this."

Ye Lian spoke word by word, his conviction revealed in his firm tone.

This is an explanation to the self who resents everything, and he ended it all with his own hands.

Afterwards, he can safely leave this era that no longer belongs to him, and run towards his own happiness.

"Since this is your decision, just keep going." Merlin happily opened the portal for Ye Lian without any subjective emotions.

But when Ye Lian stepped in, Mei Lin's voice suddenly sounded again.

"You once asked me why I wanted to help you."

Ye Lian turned his head and looked at him suspiciously.

Merlin looked at him seriously, watching him being drawn into the space bit by bit, and suddenly showed a helpless smile.

"Because, this is fate, your fate, my fate... are connected together."

"Just like now... I saw your future, but I didn't say anything, I just watched you. As a result, your every move is realizing the future."

Ye Lian felt that his body was about to be teleported away, but Merlin's words hit his head like a heavy blow, making him startled suddenly.

Could it be that he will return to the original world, the future that Merlin has already seen.

Could it be that his future will involve some important direction of fate, so Merlin helped him move forward in the first place?

Ye Lian opened his mouth, wanting to ask this question, but suddenly, his movements stopped, and he didn't say anything in the end, letting time and space pull him into a dazzling world.

Even if you know what your destiny is, so what can you do.

He is creating destiny.

No matter what, it was what he thought from his heart, what he really wanted to do, so even if it was an established destiny, what did it matter.

If you succeed, you will naturally feel happy. If you fail, you can only say that everything is determined. Neither sadness nor joy is an open-minded outlook on life.

Therefore, Ye Lian chose to remain silent.

Knowing one's own destiny is not a good thing, and similarly, not knowing one's own destiny is not necessarily a bad thing.

……

When he opened his eyes again, Ye Lian was still in a verdant forest, no matter which direction he looked at, it was endless green. For a moment, Ye Lian thought he was still in the same place without any change.

But soon, Ye Lian noticed something, tapped his toes, and quickly jumped in one direction.

The layers of green gradually peeled off, revealing an open ruins.

Ye Lian stopped in his tracks, subconsciously, he seemed to know this area.

After all, it was he who set the fire himself, burning down all the buildings in the village, leaving only charred logs lying on the ground in twos and threes.

There is no human breath in the surrounding area. After that night, it seems that this place has been deliberately forgotten, and it has become a wilderness.

Even the birds that occasionally stop to rest never linger here.

That's right, there are still ghostly ghosts and Ye Lian's resentment left in this place. Animals who can feel nature must stay away from this place.

Ye Lian looked at the ruins, and the fluctuation in his heart was surprisingly small. As he himself said, at the moment his revenge ended, there was no room for these people in his heart.

He no longer has hatred or disgust, they turned into insignificant dust in his life, not worth recalling at all.

After taking a last glance at the ruins, Ye Lian jumped down to the place where the cooking smoke was rising. He needed to find someone to judge what year it was.

The place where the smoke was rising was indeed a village, a little far away from Ye Lian's former village. Fortunately, as a monster, Ye Lian's physical strength was not comparable to that of humans, so he reached the finish line without blushing and heart beating.

But when he spoke to a human being that he had finally met, the other person stared at his face and screamed in fear.

At this point, Ye Lian remembered that for this kind of backward village, Ye Lian's European appearance could easily cause panic among the villagers.

In the past, he was also discriminated against because of this. He never thought that after recovering the memory of these hundreds of years, he would forget this unforgettable memory.

But this also shows that in the future world, human beings are still a kind of ruthless creatures, able to tolerate all kinds of races, and even accept him as a monster.

However, with this appearance, it was obvious that he could not continue to ask for information, Ye Lian thought for a while in distress, and finally adopted the method that his previous self disdained the most.

With a light figure, he secretly jumped from the window into an empty house nearby, secretly took a set of clean clothes and an old straw hat, suppressed his guilt and embarrassment, and quickly ran away.

After a while, a man wearing a straw hat came out of the jungle, covering his face with only a slight curvature of his jaw.

Ye Lian pressed the brim of his hat with one hand and carefully covered his face, but he was still thinking about the self-inflicted theft just now.

There is no way, I can't attract the attention of others, and I don't have any money in my hands, so I can only...

When he has money, he will naturally repay that family.

Ye Lian, who has never worried about money, experienced poverty for the first time.

But thanks to the clothes and the straw hat, the villagers who couldn't see his face clearly were willing to have a proper conversation with him.

"That village suddenly caught fire a year ago, and even if it was put out, it was too late. It was so evil... When everyone rushed there, the scene was like hell."

The villagers talked one after another, and just by looking at their expressions, one could tell the fear they were feeling at that time.

There were charred corpses all over the place, a kind of creepy fear emanating from the bottom of my heart.

Ye Lian accurately grasped the time, and continued to ask: "I heard that there are ghosts that eat people around here. Is it okay for you to farm here?"

"Man-eating ghost?"

Hearing his words, the faces of those people became quite ugly again, the leading man sighed and explained for him.

"There are indeed ghosts around here, but ghosts can only appear at night. They are afraid of the sun, so there will be no problem working during the day, unless it is cloudy and rainy."

"It's night..."

One of the women suddenly sobbed and cried, and the people beside her quickly patted her on the shoulder comfortingly, persuading her in a low voice.

Seeing her behave like this, Ye Lian couldn't help guessing: "Could it be that some misfortune happened to this lady?"

His words were quite polite, and he sounded like a learned person. The man couldn't help feeling a little fond of him, and said in a low voice, "That's right, it happened in the past two days. Her husband was eaten by a ghost. It's so miserable..."

Hearing this, a light flashed across Ye Lian's eyes: "So, this ghost is wandering around?"

"Maybe." The man shivered with some fear, as long as he thought about ghosts threatening their lives around here, he couldn't bear it.

But when he raised his eyes, he happened to meet Ye Lian's clean chin and slightly raised lips, and he felt his spirit shaken.

"you……"

He uttered a word with a pale face, but couldn't say the rest of the sentence.

It wasn't until Ye Lian seemed to be staring at him all the time that he looked away: "It seems very happy."

"Is there?" Ye Lian rubbed his chin, as if he was a little confused, but then, he skipped over the man, took out a handkerchief from the front of his shirt, and handed it to the woman who was in pain.

"I'm sorry for what happened to you, and I hope you can recover as soon as possible."

"I assure you, those ghosts will naturally get the corresponding retribution."

His gentle voice gurgled in his ears like a stream, and the man's face gradually returned to normal.

The weirdness and fear at that moment must be an illusion, obviously this person is so gentle.

But what no one saw was the indifference and murderous intent in Ye Lian's blue eyes when he left the village.

He seemed to have found the ghost that killed him.

Since this village is a place where ghosts hunt for food, as long as he stays here at night, there is a high probability that he will be able to block that ghost.

Fine, he's happy.

He was really happy to find the target so easily.

I was so happy that I almost couldn't hold back, and laughed in front of the villagers.

This is not allowed, you have to be patient, until you really catch that ghost...

Drain his blood and crush his heart.

Only then can I truly experience the thrill of revenge.

The author has something to say: The Taisho era has begun, and it will be over after a few chapters of fighting ghosts~