kiss me you are responsible

During the lunch break on Monday, An Yan still uses a lunch box to eat on the rooftop.

When he left the cafeteria, he happened to meet Liu Mo and Zheng Yiyang over for dinner.Originally, both of them had passed by, but Liu Mo couldn't bear the baby's curiosity, so he backed away.

"Hey, I'm just curious, where do you eat with your lunch box every day?"

"I don't want to say it." An Yan looked at him and walked away.

Liu Mo was funny, and followed Zheng Yiyang, "It's really funny, I've never met such a weird person."

"I've met you now. No wonder fourth brother said you, but your research is useless all day. What's wrong with this kid today? What's wrong with that girl tomorrow? What do you eat?" Zheng Yiyang asked.

"Go eat Malatang. Hahaha."

"Don't keep eating things that get angry. Yesterday you worked around the middle of the night and felt comfortable. I didn't fall asleep when I heard your voice. I guess the fourth brother heard it too."

Liu Mo looked thoughtful, "No way, I didn't make a sound, and if anyone hasn't masturbated, I don't believe you haven't. It's a little doubtful that the fourth brother has never masturbated."

"Fuck, this is the cafeteria, why don't you keep your voice down and show some face?" Zheng Yiyang stayed away from someone.

"I think you are embarrassed." Liu Mo joked.

"I will also repeat what the fourth brother said, close your trap."

An Yan came to the rooftop, looked around and saw that no one had locked the rooftop door again, and sat on the bench to eat.He didn't know that there was actually a corner on the far left of the rooftop, and there were usually big potted plants placed there, and if he didn't go there, he didn't notice that there was a big place across the narrow road.

On the other side of the wall is a transparent cabin made of all glass, which has a two-seater sofa and a leisure table. When there is nothing to do in summer, the boss plays poker there.At this time Li Zuo was smoking and reading in the glass room.

No one came to the rooftop here because Li Zuo wanted to have a private space, and he would pay the school some money every month, so the school naturally wouldn't let other students come over.

Li Zuo heard the sound of humming over there, so he pressed the smoke out, got up to see who had the guts to come here.

Pushing open the glass door, passing through the narrow road, just after turning the corner, Li Zuo was shocked and stopped.

Looking from that direction around the corner, he saw An Yan's left face.Under the sun, his (X) shaped scar was deep and clear, covering the left side of his face, ugly and frightening.

Li Zuo saw that the man was still eating without noticing, and felt depressed for no reason, feeling very uncomfortable. He was curious about what the man would look like under the mask, and he thought that with the shape of the man's forehead and eyes, it should be a Handsome guy.

result……

For a moment, he felt that the person's profile was ugly, even so ugly that it was scary, but the way the person was eating quietly was indescribably peaceful, which made the person look a little pitiful and pathetic.

Is that why he won't let anyone touch the mask?rather than illness.

An Yan ate all the food in the lunch box, and rubbed his full stomach with his hands, feeling a little satisfied. He stood up and wanted to wrap the lunch box, but he seemed to see a figure from the corner of his eye, and his movements froze. .He hoped that he was dazzled, not that someone was actually looking at him.

An Yan slowly turned her head and met Li Zuo's gaze.

With a bang, the lunch box fell to the ground.An Yan reacted, hurriedly covered her face with one hand, and pulled the mask with the other.

Fear and helplessness surrounded him tightly, his hands trembled uncontrollably, and he couldn't pull the mask out of his pocket no matter how hard he pulled it.

Li Zuo saw all kinds of things in his eyes, and he was about to go down the roof with big strides.Seeing that he was about to leave, An Yan strode over and grabbed Li Zuo's arm tightly to prevent him from leaving.

"Li Zuo...don't...beg..." The incident was so sudden that An Yan didn't know what to say, tears welled up in his anxious eyes, "I..."

She tilted her head to the left, stared at those fearful and pleading eyes, and moved her gaze down to the left side of An Yan's face. Looking at the scar up close is really ugly.An Yan noticed it and quickly covered it with her hands.

"Li Zuo, can you..."

Before An Yan could finish speaking, Li Zuo pushed his arm away, opened the door and went down to the rooftop. At the door of the classroom, he ran into Liu Mo who had come back.

"Fourth brother." Liu Mo was just about to hand over a bottle of drink when Li Zuo pushed him away irritably and walked downstairs.

"What's wrong with fourth brother? I've never seen him so annoying before." Zheng Yiyang said.

"The rooftop?" Liu Mo looked upstairs, and the two of them headed there.

On the rooftop, An Yan had already put on a mask, and was sitting by the wall thinking deeply.

The careful hiding was still discovered by others, and he dared not go down. The fear and inferiority in junior high school surfaced from the bottom of his heart again.

When he came up to Liu Mo and Zheng Yiyang, his face turned pale with fright, did he tell others so quickly?Did he hate him for letting others beat him?

"Why are you here? By the way, did you meet Fourth Brother? Did you offend him? I don't think he's in a good mood." Liu Mo walked towards the wall.

"I have to go down first." An Yan got up, carried the lunch box and walked out.

It seems that Li Zuo didn't say that he can't sit and wait for someone to bully him like before. He wants to go to Li Zuo, and that person's temperament may help him hide it.

"Why are these two people so weird?" Liu Mo scratched his head in confusion.

"I feel it too." Zheng Yiyang said.

An Yan ran to the men's dormitory but couldn't find Li Zuo, so she went to the teaching building to look for Li Yang, "Senior, come out for a while."

Li Yang asked with a smile: "An Yan, you are in such a hurry, what's the matter?"

"Do you know Li Zuo's phone number? I have something to ask him." An Yan took out his phone, hoping that Li Yang would tell him.

"Ok."

When the class bell rang, An Yan couldn't take care of it anymore, walked to the grapevine corridor on the playground, and dialed Li Zuo's phone.

There was no one in the indoor stadium, and Li Zuo, who was playing, heard his phone ringing clearly. He walked aside and pulled off his coat, and took out the phone inside.

An unfamiliar mobile phone number.

Li Zuo was not in the habit of answering unfamiliar numbers, so he hung up decisively.

The bell rang again.

He guessed that it might be that person, and pressed answer, An Yan's urgent voice came from over there, "Li Zuo, can we meet?"

"Call me if you need anything." Li Zuo sat down and wiped his sweat with a towel.

"I know we have known each other for a short time, and we can even be said to be strangers, but I want you to keep it a secret for me, okay? I can agree to any conditions you ask, just don't tell others about my situation." There was no answer over there, An Yan frowned nervously, "Li Zuo, is it okay?"

"I want to tell you two things. One, I, Li Zuo, don't have the time to talk about other people's affairs. Two, stay away from me in the future." With the stern words, Li Zuo hung up the phone.

Damn depression!Annoying!

An Yan looked at the hung up phone and heaved a sigh of relief. There was no one on the platform tomorrow, so how could Li Zuo appear?

After thinking about it, he went to the rooftop again, and went to the potted plant to see that the narrow road could pass, so he walked carefully and saw the glass house.

Is this the place where Li Zuo is?No wonder no one goes to this rooftop.

The bell rang for the end of get out of class in the afternoon, and the campus was full of noise again.There was only one class in the foreign language department in the afternoon today, and Liu Mo's mood was high again, "Call fourth brother later, let's go to play."

"Where did fourth brother go when he didn't go to class?" Fu Dong asked.

"I don't know. When I saw the fourth brother at noon, he seemed to be very upset, and I don't know why." Liu Mo took out his mobile phone and dialed Li Zuo's number.

"Fart." Li Zuo said impatiently.

"Fourth brother, who messed with you? No way, let me vent your anger on you." Liu Mo said.

"Are you okay?"

"Shall we go to play skewers tonight?"

"Let's talk." Li Zuo hung up the phone.

Liu Mo shrugged, "It seems that fourth brother has something on his mind."

When the three of them returned to the dormitory, there was a person standing by the door, An Yan looked at the people, but did not see Li Zuo.

Liu Mo knew who he was looking for by looking at his searching eyes, "Hey, boy, do you look for the fourth brother quite often? Have you offended the fourth brother?"

An Yan remained silent, took a step away from the door, leaned against the wall and waited.

Fu Dong walked up to him, kicked his leg, suppressed his anger and said, "What do I ask you? Did you offend fourth brother?"

"If you don't speak again, believe it or not, I will beat you."

"Don't tell me the fuck!"

No matter what the threat was, An Yan just bowed his head and said nothing, very pitiful.

"Fuck!" If it wasn't for the honesty of the person in front of him, Fu Dong really wanted to punch him.

At this time, Li Zuo came back, saw the man without saying a word, and directly pushed the door into the bedroom.An Yan's eyes were about to run after him.

"Fourth brother, where have you been?" Liu Mo followed up and asked.

Li Zuo threw his coat on the table, lay down on the bed, closed his eyes and said, "The three of you go elsewhere and let him in."

"Oh." Liu Mo was puzzled.

An Yan went in and closed the door, and walked awkwardly to Li Zuo's bedside, "I asked the senior, and he said you paid for the roof."

Li Zuo didn't even open his eyelids, let alone speak.

"Can I continue to eat there? I'll leave after dinner, I'm sure I won't bother you." Seeing that the old man was silent, An Yan asked in a low voice, "Is that okay? Li Zuo."

Boss Li was very depressed and irritable when he heard the trembling Li Zuo. He opened his eyelids and looked at the person beside the bed, "Did I say that I wouldn't let you go to the rooftop?"

"You tell me to stay away from you. I don't know if the package includes going to the rooftop." An Yan pursed her lips and looked at the old man every now and then.

Li Zuo sighed impatiently, turned over and faced the wall, "Not included. Get out."

"Thank you." An Yan bowed and walked out.

He sincerely thanked Li Zuo, because no one, really no one, saw his scars for the first time without any disgust, disgust, or escape in their eyes, and still had that kind of indifferent eyes.

Even Sister Shan Yu was like that, when she saw him for the first time, she showed a look of fear of running away.Li Zuo keeps himself away from him, he can understand, he understands, no one wants to get close to someone like him.

An Yan guessed wrong, Li Zuo wanted him to stay away from him from the very beginning, for no other reason, Li Zuo couldn't see that kind of poor people.It's not that he has a bad temper and dislikes the poor, but that he knows that his life is to play. Seeing the hard-working poor, he feels that his life is rubbish, so he is annoying.

It was discovered by accident this time that Li Zuo felt like a big rock was pressing down on his heart, and he was so depressed that he almost suffocated him, so he was annoying, very annoying.

Li Zuo sat on the window sill, lit a cigarette, and lowered his head, An Yan outside the dormitory building was walking towards the school gate.He looked away and took a deep breath.

Now he looks at this kid and feels troubled all over his body.He has never come into contact with such a person. The life of looking for hope in despair is really miserable.

From the unintentional contact during this period, the kid desperately guarding the secret under the mask, and the fact that he was willing to be beaten for money and willing to work, that person lived a miserable life.

Thinking about the life he had lived from childhood to adulthood, compared with that person, he didn't have that feeling of superiority, but felt that he was inferior to that person.

Not as good.

He wanted to help that person, just like he helped Yi Yang back then, but he refused in his heart, two thoughts were fighting in his head, so he was very depressed and suffocated.

It is said that Li Zuo is ruthless and cold, but in reality he is very caring, and it can be said that he is easy to soften his heart.

Those who laughed at An Yan before, none of them felt the same as Li Zuo after seeing his scar.They are rampant, they are sarcastic, thinking that An Yan can't compare with herself in any way.

Li Zuo is different, he thinks he is far inferior to An Yan, he can truly see the helplessness under the scars, the despair under poverty.

To be able to walk into university from despair, that kind of strength and perseverance is beyond his reach.

Press the left button hard to put out the cigarette, and took a sip of the drink.

how?He seems to admire that kid a little bit?Although he is cowardly, he has a strong heart. If it were him, he might not be able to live as well as this kid.

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