kiss me you are responsible

An Yan went to the washroom with his brothers, and when he entered, all the people in it looked over. He didn't dare to look at other people's eyes, so he grabbed Li Zuo's sleeve and found a place to wash up.

"After washing, step over quickly." Fu Dong threw the washbasin into the sink with a bang.The brothers' eyes were looking around at people, and the look was obviously saying who would dare to say a word.

They might be jealous of them. In the water room, there was only the movement of washing his face and brushing his teeth. From time to time, people would look at An Yan's face.An Yan was so scared that she didn't know how to finish washing, she only knew how to wash her head, and walked with Li Zuo without looking back.

Brothers walked out of the wash room with their front feet, and the inside of their back feet suddenly exploded.

When we got to the dormitory, Li Zuo said, "You guys go to the cafeteria first."

"Then hurry up." Liu Mo said, and left with them.

As soon as the door was closed, Li Zuo pushed An Yan, who was changing clothes, against the door, startling him, and when he looked up at the handsome and charming Li Zuo, he blushed in embarrassment.

"Just now in the water room, you were so handsome that you couldn't see anything." Li Zuo kissed An Yan's lips, and sucked his tongue hard.The confused An Yan couldn't help but let out a sound.

Li Zuo became more enthusiastic, and after pestering for a while, he retracted his tongue and smiled slightly, "Even I like you so much, maybe others can peek at you."

An Yan heard Li Zuo personally say that he likes him, his heart jumped for joy, and he forgot all about Scar, "You really... like me?"

"Why are you with me if you don't like it?" Li Zuo pinched An Yan's chin and teased him.

"You just said that I made you fall in love, and then took a bath together. You said try it, but you didn't say you like me." An Yan said shyly.

"That's my negligence. Let me say it formally, I like you, An Yan. I really do." Li Zuo kissed the tip of An Yan's nose, and An Yan couldn't help but feel ashamed.

"I used to feel that couples sticking together was disgusting, but now it's me, why do I feel so beautiful?" Li Zuo said with a smile.

"Class is about to start." An Yan pushed him away shyly, and continued to change Li Zuo's clothes.

After leaving the men's dormitory, An Yan clearly felt strange gazes from others, but luckily Li Zuo was by his side joking with him.Although the apprehension still exists, but for the sake of Li Zuo, he has to be bold and try not to pay attention to other people's eyes.

Li Zuo really didn't know how An Yan, who was so thin, survived from childhood.He kept diverting An Yan's attention, but he also saw the disgust in other people's eyes and the ridicule on everyone's lips. He couldn't feel well just for a while, let alone the little guy who had endured it for several years.

This kind of thing really doesn't mean that you don't care if you don't care.

Walking all the way to the cafeteria, An Yan looked like a strange person, no one ignored him, and some even sneered.But An Yan kept laughing, and his heart ached so badly. Of course, he could see the fear in An Yan's heart, because his face was already pale, no matter how hard he tried to cover it up, he couldn't hide it.

But this step must be taken after all.

At this point, there were a lot of people in the cafeteria. By then, Liu Mo had already found a seat for the two of them, and the meal was over.As soon as the two of them sat down, the people behind them started talking, most of them were mocking An Yanchang's ugliness.

The men at the table closest to them chatted, "No wonder he wears a mask. He looks so bad that he can't do without a mask."

"It's so fucking insane."

"Okay, okay, don't watch, you won't be able to eat any more."

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"Fuck!" Fu Dong slapped the table angrily, and got up to beat up the people behind him.

"Fu Dong." An Yan called to stop him, "Don't go, there are so many people who can't fight, the more you care about them, the more you work hard, let them talk, it will be fine after a month. In junior high and high school That way, as long as no one bothers me, I can just ignore them."

After finishing speaking, An Yan grabbed the buns with trembling hands, obviously his actions had betrayed his words.Fu Dong went to look at Li Zuo, Li Zuo motioned him to sit down with his eyes, and held An Yan's hand under the table.An Yan immediately shook his hand back, and soon his palms were sweating.

"It's delicious." An Yan grinned bitterly, and the smiling brothers panicked, "You don't have to worry about me. If you don't dislike me, I will be content. Eat quickly."

The people behind were still sarcastic, Liu Mo threw his chopsticks angrily, "I can't bear it, I really can't bear it."

"Who the hell try to say it again!" Liu Mo yelled at the canteen, but after a while of silence, the canteen became noisy again.

"Fuck!" Liu Mo was so angry that he really wanted to throw the bowl.

"Liu Mo, what you are doing is useless. Usually you fight for a reason, and they will be afraid if they lose. Now this matter has spread throughout the school, and so many people are talking about it. The more you fight back, the more people talking about it Too much. It will fade after a long time." An Yan was extremely panicked at this moment, and he wanted to hate others, but it was all in vain, "Hurry up and eat."

"Mo'er, just let An Yan save some time, he said the same thing. The mouth grows on people, and there are so many people, we can't stop them at all." Zheng Yiyang said.

"Then let them say that about An Yan? Fourth brother, you and An Yan are the best, and you have to bear it?" Liu Mo said angrily.

Li Zuo frowned, and just about to speak, An Yan took it, "Mo'er, can you eat? Your yelling will only make others laugh at me more, so don't make me more embarrassed, okay?"

Liu Mo glanced around at the laughing people, and angrily pushed his rice bowl away, "Don't eat."

After leaving the cafeteria, the elder brothers sent An Yan to the classroom where he was going to class, and repeatedly asked An Yan to call if something happened, An Yan smiled and entered the classroom.He didn't dare to look at anyone, and anxiously found an empty seat in the corner. As soon as he sat down, the mocking voices in his ears continued to hit him.

On the way to other classrooms, Liu Mo said, "Fourth brother, do you really care? Just let others talk about An Yan."

"Care? Is it useful for you to yell like that? Can you hit me?" Li Zuo took out a cigarette, "If you want to control it, you must control it thoroughly."

"Everyone has a mouth, how can this kind of thing be thorough?" Zheng Yiyang said.

"We can't control what they talk about, but it's not allowed to be in An Yan's ears." Li Zuo took a puff of cigarette, and seemed to have an idea.

"Fourth brother, what are you going to do?" Fu Dong asked.

"Big deal." Li Zuo sternly said two words.

Shan Yu was preparing to teach the students with the textbooks in her arms, and walked to the bulletin board on the campus, where a group of people surrounded her.She glanced curiously, and immediately squeezed past.I don't know who posted An Yan's photos on the bulletin board.

"Teacher." Some students called out politely.

Shan Yu responded vaguely, then turned to ask the students, "What's going on?"

"It's the person who often wears a mask. I heard that it's not because of illness but because of ugliness. Now the campus forums are full of his posts." Some students replied.

"Who made this? The bulletin boards are posted randomly. And you, what are you doing here if you don't go to class?" Shan Yu was worried about An Yan, so she squeezed out of the crowd and called An Yan.

"Hello, Miss Shan Yu."

"Xiao An, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, Miss Shan Yu, you don't have to worry." Sitting in the corner of the classroom, An Yan stared at the weird gazes from others, trembling with fear, he kept pinching his fingers at a loss, and felt that his fingers were broken by him. less than pain.

"Come find me in the office after class. I'll take you to the principal and ask the principal to help you."

"I see." An Yan hung up the phone and buried her head as low as she could.

"Hao Ran, look, he really dared to come."

When An Yan heard someone calling Wang Haoran's name, he raised his head cautiously, seeing Wang Haoran coming with the people in his dormitory, all eyes were on him.

Wang Haoran stared at An Yan's scar for a long time, and felt very uncomfortable seeing him being squeezed into a corner.He took a step towards him when he was grabbed by his roommate, "What are you going to do? Did he come to see you when you were beaten by Li Zuo? Don't go up and make a fool of yourself! You're just such an ugly guy." What are you doing with him?"

Wang Haoran pursed his lips, avoided An Yan's gaze cruelly, and sat in another seat with the people in the dormitory.An Yan lowered his head in frustration, picked up a pen to write, and tried to calm down, but his tense mind was no longer under his control.

"That's all right, let him act as a clown." Someone said with a smile.

"Oh, don't look at it, it makes my skin crawl."

"Hehehe... Who says it's not."

After all, these students were still classmates with An Yan before, and they didn't talk deeply. Some girls sympathized with An Yan.

Listening to the discussions around, Wang Haoran turned his head to look at An Yan in the corner of the last row.

The class bell rang, and the teacher came in. Before the teacher came, he answered Shan Yu's call, just looked at An Yan, and asked the students to be quiet.

The mood was so bad that An Yan didn't care about attending class at all, and kept writing Li Zuo's name on the notebook, and even drew a simple picture of two people holding hands.

There was a buzzing sound, he looked at the teacher, and carefully took out his mobile phone, it was a message from Li Zuo.

"Are you not in the mood for class, me too, I miss you so much."

A warm current flowed through An Yan's depressed heart, and he typed "I am also three words" on the mobile phone. After thinking about it, he changed it again——I fucking miss you too.

It was Li Zuo who was so rude and irritable that gave him incomparable warmth.

"Hey, listen to the class carefully, and I'll see you after class."

"You must come."

"Ancestor, do I dare not go? I have to coax you when you are angry, but I am eager to coax you." There was also a series of heart-wrenching expressions at the end of the message.

An Yan smiled, put the phone back in her pocket, took a deep breath, and looked up to see the teacher's lecture, but she caught sight of Wang Haoran looking at him from the corner of her eye. When he looked over, Wang Haoran immediately turned his head.

He didn't blame Wang Haoran for ignoring him, it was because of him that Wang Haoran was beaten, besides, he was the one who lied first, he couldn't accept that he was justified.

The school between classes is extremely lively, the students should have fun and fall in love, but today everyone's topic of recess is An Yan's scar, and they hear it almost everywhere they go.

An Yan deliberately waited for the other students to leave before coming out of the classroom. Seeing that Li Zuo hadn't come yet, he left the teaching building frightened and prepared to look for Shan Yu.

The people watching him were all looking at him and smiling, no matter what they were laughing at, he felt it was a kind of ridicule, a kind of sarcasm, which made him tense up.

Suddenly, a man led several students towards An Yan. He was a sophomore, and Li Zuo was always at odds with Li Zuo.

The five boys stopped in front of An Yan, An Yan's face turned pale with fright, and he backed away, trying to pass by them, but they surrounded An Yan again.

"It's no wonder that Li Zuo protects you at ordinary times. It turns out that he pities you. Think about it for yourself, does Li Zuo really regard you as a friend? He just regards you as his follower. To put it bluntly, you are a dog." The man who took the lead laugh.

An Yan didn't want to cause trouble, and wanted to leave with trembling legs, but was entangled by them again, and all of them sneered.

"What? You don't believe it? Li Zuo is just violent, arrogant, something." The man in the lead laughed.

An Yan heard him say bad things about Li Zuo, and stared up, "What do you think you are?"

The man stopped laughing immediately, and became angry again and again, "I saw you as Li Zuo's dog who didn't want to talk about you, and wanted to win you over, but I didn't expect you to be so sincere. If you say what I am, then what are you! An ugly monster who dares not to see others, are you embarrassed? So many people look at you and mock you, how can you still live! Don’t you look in the mirror? Don’t you hate yourself! "

"That's right, I'm sick of seeing it, I can vomit for three days." After the other person finished speaking, not only they laughed, but also the people who came and went, most of them sneered, and some people booed and laughed along with them.

After a while, the crowd silently surrounded An Yan. Although he was a distance away from An Yan, he looked around all the people who were mocking him. His whole body trembled as if uncontrollably, which made him tremble with fear.

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"What kind of high school did you go to if you were so ugly?"

"Just get out of here like this! Don't insult our eyes here."

"Beat, beat me hard! Beat him until he begs for mercy."

"Ugly, take some money to spend, or I will punch you."

The unbearable episodes in junior high and high school lingered in An Yan's mind, just like now, surrounding him with verbal attacks and sarcasm.

Insulting and swearing, punching and kicking, every unbearable incident was slowly recalled like countless needles, piercing his whole body with unbearable pain, and like a big stone, pressing him so hard that he couldn't breathe.

An Yan looked at people's faces one by one, and felt that everyone looked down on him, like high school, and did not regard him as a person.

The more An Yan thought about it, the more fearful and uneasy he felt, the more he trembled all over his body, and even became dizzy, and it became more difficult to breathe, as if he couldn't breathe enough air.

Li Zuo, where are you?

While clutching his chest and gasping for breath, he stepped back uneasily.Seeing the ridicule of the people, tears welled up in the eye sockets.

Li Zuo, Li Zuo, Li Zuo...

"What? Are you going to cry? You are ugly, but crying is even uglier." The man in the lead laughed, and the people next to him were as indifferent as a piece of ice.

"Just..." The leader wanted to say again, but before he could say anything, he was kicked and fell to the ground with his legs upside down.Before An Yan could see who was coming, he was wrapped in his arms by a tall figure.

He felt Li Zuo's breath, tears came down in a flash, and he hugged him tightly in fear.Li Zuo saw that the person in his arms was crying and trembling, his heart ached so badly that he wrapped him tightly with his coat.

"It's okay, there is me, and there is fourth brother."

Seeing An Yan being bullied, the brothers felt very uncomfortable.The man who was kicked on the ground was helped up and cursed, "Fuck!"

Li Zuochong made a look at Fu Dong, and the brothers went up immediately.He didn't care about others at this time, and rubbed An Yan's back worriedly.

It started to fight over there. Fortunately, Fu Dong fought hard, otherwise the three-on-five would definitely suffer.When Wang Haoran came back from buying water, he saw a group of people watching. He looked at An Yan lying in Li Zuo's arms, and then started to do it. He probably guessed what was going on.

He raised his foot to rush up, but was grabbed by the people in the dormitory, "What are you doing?"

"Can't you tell there are three of them? There are five over there." Wang Haoran said.

"What do you care about this?"

"Da Wu, I don't care what you think of An Yan, but don't forget that he is our classmate. Don't you know what An Yan is like? You forget everything just because of a scar." After finishing speaking, Wang Haoran added After entering the group frame, the three people in his dormitory looked at each other and rushed forward.

Not everyone is indifferent, Li Zuo's classmate Li Yang is a very optimistic person, and he is very close to An Yan, and some classmates who play with Li Zuo are very loyal.

When they came back to see Liu Mo and the others fighting, they all rushed up. These dozen or so people beat five people, but beating those five people was also a warning to others.

Li Zuo here couldn't see anything, only An Yan was in his eyes, he felt that the person in his arms stopped shaking, and tried to raise his head, "Fifth Brother."

An Yan's head drooped to one side suddenly, and Li Zuo realized that he had fainted. He was so frightened that he caught An Yan's powerless body, bent down, and hugged him horizontally.

"Dongzi, go to the infirmary to see if the doctor is here, An Yan has fainted."

The group of people fighting over there stopped suddenly and came over one after another.Li Zuo was so anxious that he carried An Yan and ran to the infirmary, Liu Mo and the others followed suit.

The crowd at the scene gradually dispersed and went about their own business as if nothing had happened.An Yan once convinced himself that he should not blame anyone, because everyone has their own personality and has no relationship with him, so they don't need to worry about themselves.Gossip, this is a daily routine for people to have fun, he needs to understand.

Just who can understand him?

Does it matter?Think about it every time you wake up from a nightmare, how can you be indifferent to everything?He is not a god, just an ordinary person, a boy, a boy who longs for warmth.

Sometimes he really wants to hide at home and never see anyone, but looking back, he is not reconciled, he is not reconciled to the fate that God gave him.

Why should he hide!He doesn't give in, he faces it, even when he's afraid.Because he still has to go abroad, he still has to get rid of his scars, and he still has to make money to live a good life.

He can't give up on himself, that's really cowardly.

The author has something to say:

small theater.

"Fifth brother, let me teach you a way to not hear the outside world." Li Zuo said.

"any solution?"

Li Zuo took out his mobile phone and clicked on the shopping website, "That's to buy a good pair of headphones. When the time comes, wear the headphones, listen to the music, and drink the wine, no matter what other people say. If you really want to hate, just say, I will It's like, what the hell is it like?"

"It's really much simpler, I will be beaten directly."

"........."

Ha ha ha ha, continue to pretend tomorrow.