kiss me you are responsible

Secret love, secretly liking, An Yan feels that the word crush is destined to carry a sad meaning, crushing on a girl may be fruitless, let alone a crush on a straight man.

Li Zuo was the first man he fell in love with. With his appearance like this, he never expected Li Zuo to like him. He just hoped that Li Zuo would treat him well forever. It was enough for him to be by Li Zuo's side forever.

Secretly liking, secretly loving, secretly concealing being gay.

An Yan returned home to eat in a hurry, and then rushed to school. When he arrived at the gate of Dongda campus, he ran into Zheng Yiyang who had just arrived.

"An Yan, you just arrived?"

"Well, didn't you stay in the dormitory last night?" An Yan walked with Zheng Yiyang.

Zheng Yiyang smiled slightly, "No, I'm with Yi Guang now. How is your tutor doing?"

"It's good, that family is very easy to get along with. Yi Yang, I want to ask you something?" An Yan said.

"If you have something to say, just say it."

An Yan hesitated, and said: "The lunch that Li Zuo gave me at noon is not off-campus, right?"

Zheng Yiyang looked at him, "What should I say about this matter? Fourth brother won't let us talk too much, so I can only say that he really cares about you."

"I see."

An Yan went to her class, and Zheng Yiyang went back to the dormitory. When the door was opened, there was a strong fragrance in the room, and Li Zuo was stewing chicken and mushrooms.

"I said why is there a scent in the corridor, what are you stewing today?"

"Chicken stewed mushrooms." Li Zuo was cooking, while Fu Dong and Liu Mo were watching. Liu Mo said with a smile, "Yi Yang, today we have a lucky meal. The fourth brother said that we have a portion for lunch."

"Ji Chi Le." Zheng Yiyang put the backpack in the cabinet, sat on his bed and watched Li Zuo, "I saw An Yan when I came here just now."

Li Zuo looked over, Zheng Yiyang smiled, "What are you looking at me for?"

"I'm waiting for your next words." Li Zuo said calmly.

"I just saw him, nothing important." Zheng Yiyang thought for a while but still didn't say that An Yan might know about his cooking.

"The conversation between you two is so meaningless." Liu Mo couldn't help saying, Fu Dong smiled, "Fuck, what you say is meaningful."

"Okay, okay, don't hang around me anymore, I'll eat it for you if I say it." Li Zuo put the lid on the pot, turned around to change clothes, and took out what An Yan bought for him after rummaging for a long time. That tracksuit.

"Fourth brother, I want to tell you something." Liu Mo said.

"There's a fart." Li Zuo said.

Liu Mo frowned, "I asked my dad to find a hospital for An Yan. Actually, I wanted to wait until the end to talk about it together, but I couldn't hold back. My dad asked people to ask a lot of hospitals, many experts It is said that his scars cannot be cured, and even surgery cannot completely remove them.”

"I haven't finished searching yet. Maybe other hospitals can treat him. Anyway, you all pretend you didn't hear what you said just now. Don't reveal a word to An Yan." Li Zuo turned around and looked at his brothers.

"Don't worry, fourth brother, we have a sense of proportion in this matter." Fu Dong said.

"That's right." Liu Mo agreed.

Li Zuo finished class earlier than An Yan, so An Yan left the classroom and went to the men's dormitory before the morning class was over. When he arrived at the dormitory of his brothers, he hesitated at the door for a long time before knocking on the door.

"Who is it?" Li Zuo, who was busy preparing dishes in the room, asked.

"Me." An Yan said a word in a complicated mood, and then he heard a commotion in the room, he put his ear to the door, and the door opened, and Li Zuo came out with a lunch box, looking a little flustered and using The body covers the interior of the house.

"Didn't you say you were waiting for me on the rooftop?"

"Can't I eat in the dormitory?" An Yan asked back.

For the first time, Li Zuo felt that he was at a loss, so he smiled, "Then accompany me to have dinner first."

He dragged An Yan to leave, and An Yan said, "Didn't you make chicken, so what else do you eat?"

Li Zuo was embarrassed, staring into An Yan's eyes and didn't know what to say, he knew that sooner or later he would be discovered, but it was too soon.

"Then... let's go into the house."

When the bedroom door was open, the door was in the room. An Yan and Li Zuo entered the room with their backs behind their backs. There was a desk by the window directly opposite the door. On the table was an induction cooker and a pot. There are seasonings such as oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and there is still a scent of vegetables in the house.

Li Zuo watched An Yan standing there motionless, staring straight at the pot, felt a little embarrassed for a moment, and touched his forehead, "That's right, I've had enough food outside and in the cafeteria, so I'm thinking about... ...I learned how to cook by myself, so I will bring you some, Dongzi and the others will eat all of it."

"Doesn't Li Zuo like Li Suo the most? Then he dare not even admit such a small thing." An Yan looked at Li Zuo, his eyes became more and more red.

Li Zuoshu let out a breath, and said cleanly, "Yes, it's for you."

An Yan's nose was sour, and the corners of his eyes gradually became moist, "Why are you so kind to me? You think I don't know that the phone is not working because you deliberately say it doesn't work. Do you think I don't feel strange when I eat these meals every day? I'm not stupid. I didn't want to say it, but I don't want you to get up so early every day for me. Li Zuo, why are you?"

At the end, An Yan's voice trembled. Why didn't he want Li Zuo to do these things because he liked him, but he knew that Li Zuo was a straight man, and maybe it was out of his compassion that he treated him well.

Li Zuo always thought that he lied perfectly. He didn't expect that An Yan is such a delicate person. He didn't want An Yan to know that he did this. He has been protecting An Yan's self-esteem, which may hurt An Yan even more in the end. Be a little proud.

He put the lunch box on the table and took a deep breath, "I'm sorry, I may have hurt your self-esteem."

"That's not what I'm talking about. I never felt that you hurt my self-esteem. Besides, what self-esteem do I have? What self-esteem does a person who has been insulted for more than ten years have?" An Yan didn't know why she was suddenly excited. He felt that Li Zuo shouldn't be so kind to him, he likes men, how can he control his feelings when there is a man who treats him well by his side.

Li Zuo was not happy to hear An Yan's low self-esteem from the bottom of his heart, and he couldn't help but increase his voice, "What do you mean without self-esteem? After so long, I can't see your low self-esteem. What is the difference between you and others? In my opinion, you are more inferior than others. Everyone has dignity and deserves more respect than anyone else, if you say something like that in the future, I will hit you every time."

"Then you hit?" An Yan hoped that Li Zuo would hit him once, so that he would wake himself up and not have any illusions.

"That's what you said." Li Zuo looked at An Yan's teary eyes, and his heart was so soft that he didn't even mention it.He gritted his teeth, annoyed that he was getting more and more fucked up.

What a fuck!

Li Zuo raised his hand to slap An Yan, but he couldn't do it, so he slapped himself. "I can't stand it! I'll just hit myself."

An Yan immediately panicked, pouted in distress, "Why are you beating yourself? Are you sick?"

"Yes, I'm fucking sick. I can't live a leisurely life. I went to take care of other people's self-esteem, but they said that I have no self-esteem!" Li Zuo became angry again, and behind the open door, he kept hiding from the beginning. At the end, the three brothers were afraid that other dormitory people would watch the excitement, so they quietly closed the door.

The three brothers thought to themselves, who is that person who slapped themselves?They don't know each other!

An Yan's back was facing the door, and he didn't notice anything unusual with all his attention. He frowned angrily, and hugged his waist resolutely.Li Zuo straightened his back instantly.

"It's okay if I don't talk about it in the future. I'm so touched by you who have done so much for me. You didn't hurt my self-esteem at all. I wish you would treat me well for the rest of your life."

As he said that, An Yan obediently leaned his head on Li Zuo's shoulder. Li Zuo's heart that was still angry before was instantly extinguished, and now this posture that doesn't look like a brother made him cough uncomfortably, and his hands froze there for some reason. manage.

The eyeballs of the three brothers hiding over there are about to fall out.No, neither of those people knew each other.

Li Zuo looked awkwardly at the brother over there, and patted An Yan on the back, "Okay, get up, we are brothers, I should treat you well."

"I know we are brothers, you don't have to say it over and over again, I just want to thank you." An Yan hugged him a little tighter. To put it bluntly, he was simply too tired and wanted to find warmth on Li Zuo.

When there was a clatter, An Yan heard the sound and looked towards the door, and saw three people crowded between the wall and the cabinet, and everyone was holding bowls and basins, dumbfounded, the sound was that the iron basin in Liu Mo's hand fell.

An Yan blushed, and immediately let go of Li Zuo in fright, and waved his hands and stammered to explain, "You, you, don't, don't, don't get me wrong, I'm just grateful, no, thank Li Zuo, I'm just moved for a while , just hugged."

He looked at Li Zuo and whispered, "When did they come in? Why didn't you tell me?"

Although Li Zuo was uncomfortable before, he was amused by An Yan's haste in a blink of an eye, "They've been there all the time, they never went out at all. Hey, are you three stupid?"

The three brothers came out one after another, Liu Mo picked up the iron basin, and forced him directly in front of An Yan, somewhat jokingly and somewhat seriously, "Smack, Smash, An Yan, you look so much like the fourth brother's little wife just now. "

"No, no, no, I'm not." An Yan anxiously argued.I'm not a little daughter-in-law, how could it be possible.

"Your flustered explanation will only look more and more like it, but you are such a shy person, no wonder you are usually the most clingy with the fourth brother, if the fourth brother is not a straight man, I almost think you two are having an affair." Fu Dong said and put the stack of pots in his hand on the windowsill.

"That's right, I didn't talk nonsense this time." Liu Mo sat back on the bed and said seriously, "It is said on the Internet that weak people usually have a self-contained ability, which is to conquer men's desire to protect. You again Seeing that An Yan is a man, but he is white and thin, fourth brother, a big man, his heart is as soft as cotton, and he wants to protect him, I think there is still a little bit of dominance."

An Yan's face turned red when he was told that he might be gay, so no matter how he heard it, he could hear a little ambiguity.

"You guys can do it, you know he blush easily and tease him, Mo'er, go buy some food in the cafeteria, we will eat in the dormitory." Li Zuo said.

"Who will follow me?" Liu Mo asked.

"Let's go, I'll go with you." Fu Dong said.

An Yan watched the two of them go out, then went to look at Zheng Yiyang who was playing with his mobile phone on the bed, and then sat on Li Zuo's bed, "Li Zuo, thank you, don't bother me anymore, I can eat whatever I want."

"What's wrong with this meal being full and hot? And it's not expensive. Anyway, I have nothing to do when I'm free all day. I cook it for you and eat it." Li Zuo unscrewed the lunch box and took out a whole stick from it. Put the chicken leg in the bowl, "Eat this chicken leg first, I saved it specially."

"No one has ever been so kind to me, thank you." An Yan took the bowl and gnawed it with her hands.Li Zuo smiled with satisfaction, sat beside him and watched him chew.

"Is it tasty?"

"Delicious." An Yan grinned, and Li Zuo couldn't help but rubbed his broken hair.

Zheng Yiyang, who was on the opposite bed, raised his head and looked at the two of them, hugging them just to thank them?

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"Don't get me wrong, Li Zuo and I are just friends, nothing happened." An Yan explained, and hugged Li Zuo again.

"I want to believe your words, but I believe my eyes more." Fu Dong said bluntly.

"I believe what you say, but... you must at least let go of Fourth Brother." Liu Mo gestured, "Let go, let go."

"No need to explain, I understand, I understand." Zheng Yiyang nodded.