Zhang Bei

23.

The leftovers are still on the table, and the plump soybeans on the bottom of a plate are soaked in the long-solidified soup, which is greasy.Zhang Bei glanced at it, feeling a little nauseous.

The sun has risen to the middle of the day, and the room is brightly lit.

Zhang Bei cleaned the house again and sat on the sofa.Surrounding the clean and tidy house, I suddenly felt something was missing.Scratching his head and thinking about it, he suddenly realized that he picked up the key and rushed downstairs.When he went upstairs again, he brought a large handful of yellow chrysanthemums.

Zhang Bei found a flat glass vase from the kitchen cabinet that he had bought for a long time. He remembered that he bought it with Zhou Nan.At that time, he took a fancy to it from the furniture market at a glance, and spent a lot of money to buy an impractical object.At that time, Zhou Nan was still curious, and promised to buy him a lot of flower plugs, full of flower plugs.

Zhang Bei carefully trimmed the flowers one by one and put them in the vase. A large vase full of flowers was placed on the coffee table in the living room. Under the warm sunlight, the flowers were even more brilliant.The shaking Zhang Bei was dizzy.

until sunset.

until night falls.

until it is enveloped in darkness.

Zhang Bei took out a small box from the drawer of the bedside table in the bedroom.The small black velvet box is very clean, the surface of the box is a little bald.Open the box, and there is a mobile phone lying quietly inside. It is an old-fashioned Nokia model. Even a few years ago, this mobile phone was outdated. The letters on the keyboard have long been unclear, and even the paint surface of several keys has been polished. up.

This is the mobile phone that Zhang Bei carried with him when he ran away from home, and the calling card is from that year.Over the years, Zhang Bei has been renewing his card and insisting on charging his mobile phone every day.There is always a faint expectation in my heart, maybe one day, this phone that has been silent for many years will suddenly ring.

Open the address book, there are a few calls he made a few years ago, and the duration of each call does not exceed [-] minutes.And there was no reply to the few blessings in the SMS address book.

Zhang Bei felt like crying, but when he touched the corners of his eyes, they felt very dry.With trembling hands, Zhang Bei pressed the landline number that was engraved in his heart, and did not press the call button until the screen was locked.

After an unknown amount of time, Zhang Bei opened the back cover of the phone, took out the calling card, walked to the bathroom, and threw it into the toilet.Pressing the toilet button, circles of water poured up, and then rushed down with the little card.

Immediately afterwards, Zhang Bei filled a bathtub full of water.The water temperature is hot and comfortable.

Then, Zhang Bei went to the kitchen and took the sharpest chef's knife from the knife holder.

Lying in the bathtub, surrounded by warm water, Zhang Bei felt very relaxed.Picking up the shining knife in his hand, he lightly stroked on the wrist of his left hand.At that moment, it hurt a little, but it was only that moment.The red blood rushed out along the slashed opening, hitting the water drop by drop, causing a small splash.One water splash after another, the red color spreads in the water a little bit, which has a strange beauty.

Watching the blood flow helplessly, Zhang Bei felt that he should be fine.But it is said that because of the platelets, the blood may be completely coagulated, resulting in no bleeding, and finally to the point of dying, which is really embarrassing.In fact, Zhang Bei was still somewhat skeptical.After all, in the movie, the people whose arms, necks, thighs, or stomachs were stabbed desperately clutched their hands, and finally lost blood and died.He made a cut so seriously, but he couldn't die. Isn't it just a trick of good fortune.

However, Zhang Bei did not intend to take any risks.He has never been one to take risks.

He put his wrist in the water.I can't see the blood drop by drop, I can only see that the red near the wrist is the most intense, red and even black.The red was spreading outward at a speed that was already visible, and the cuffs of the white shirt, which was rolled up to the elbow, were slightly stained with red.

The tingling pain at the beginning has long since disappeared, replaced by a numb and crispy feeling.Zhang Bei felt like his cells were bouncing violently, rejoicing, and celebrating that he was finally freed from his bulky body.

Zhang Bei felt a little cold, so he lifted his buttocks, unplugged the bathtub, and red blood gushed down.Halfway through, Zhang Bei plugged it in again.Fortunately, the faucet of the bathtub is at the bottom, within his reach.If it was a high place, he felt that he might not have the strength to stand up now.Turning on the faucet, transparent and clean water poured in, and the temperature of the water was getting hotter and hotter, so Zhang Bei ironed it a little.

Zhang Bei felt that a lot of blood should have been lost, and he felt a little tired.Lie your head back on the wall of the bathtub, just in time to see the overhead light in the bathroom.The hazy yellow light was not dazzling, so Zhang Bei kept looking at it.He thought that he should recall something at this moment, but his mind was empty, as if there was nothing, maybe the memory was stored in the blood.

The tub was already full and the water was starting to overflow the tub.Zhang Bei watched helplessly as the water gushed out, onto the floor tiles, and even over the threshold of the bathroom.After a while, I had the consciousness to turn off the faucet.After a while, the hand was really lifted up and turned off.

Zhang Bei felt that the world at this time was very interesting, and everything started to move.There is no boundary between heaven and earth, everything is spinning and moving, including yourself.He felt that his body was floating up and down, with no landing point.

Gradually, the ear began to be noisy, buzzing, like human voices, or machine sounds, Zhang Bei couldn't distinguish it, and he didn't have the strength to distinguish it.