Zhang Bei

10.

Many years later, when Zhang Bei recalled that sentence, he always felt that it was the voice of the devil.

One pass ten, ten pass one hundred.Back then, Zhang Bei didn't understand how he became a "celebrity" in the small town just by kissing someone.

"The boss of the old Zhang family is a pervert, you can stay away from him in the future."

"That's a disease. It's contagious. There's no cure. It's fatal."

"It's disgusting. Kissing a man, I'm sick, just thinking about it makes me want to vomit."

"Don't touch that kind of person, you will be infected if you touch it."

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But thousands of words from others were no match for the furious slap his father gave when he learned about the matter from him. Up to now, he still has a slight tinnitus in his left ear.It was no match for his mother's sighs while looking at him, but she didn't say a word of defense, and she didn't even hold his hand.He wished his mother could hold his hand and let him feel the warmth.It couldn't match the contempt and disgust in Zhang Yang's eyes like a stabbing knife, and the sentence, "Zhang Bei, you have made our family lose face."

After that, I couldn't go to work, and the boss of the brewery drove him and Li Xi away the next day when he found out about it, but he didn't even see her face to face.There was no way to get out of the door, he huddled on the bed in the bedroom he and Zhang Yang shared, now he was alone, and Zhang Yang moved to a classmate's house.She curled up on the bed and covered her ears with a quilt.However, the continuous voice that came and went was still whirling in his ears, making him have a splitting headache.

His parents didn't starve him, every day his mother would prepare meals and put them on the small wooden table at the door of the bedroom, but she didn't come in.His father didn't even look at him.His family didn't scold him or beat him, but he would rather be beaten to death than keep him far away, like an enemy, like a plague god.

After staying at home for two months, Zhang Bei planned to leave.

One morning before dawn, he was carrying a small luggage bag with his few clothes in it.

When he opened the anti-theft door, he heard the sound of a switch in the next room, light leaked through the crack of the door, and then there was the sound of slippers being stepped on. Zhang Bei was waiting there.

But then he scolded, and the world seemed to stand still.Until the sound of stepping on the slippers sounded again, and there was another sound of a switch, and the light went out.Faintly, it seems that I can hear my mother's soft cry.

Zhang Bei smiled bitterly, closed the door silently, walked back to the living room, and sat on the sofa.He opened his bag and took out his clothes that he had worn for three or four years.After unfolding layer by layer, the photo frame inside was revealed.

It was a family portrait, taken when he was 14, and everyone in the photo was smiling.In the photo, he is standing behind his father, with his hands on his shoulders, and his mother is sitting next to his father, with his right hand on his father's arm.Zhang Yang was standing next to him. At that time, Zhang Yang was only 10 years old. He was a head shorter than him. His body was close to him, his arms were also around him, and even his head was touching his shoulder.

Zhang Bei held the photo frame and looked at it for a while, then silently put the photo frame on the coffee table.Under the cold moonlight, he looked at the small living room.

The walls have not been painted for a long time, and the white seems to be shining.

The curtains are new, orange.The sofa is made of genuine leather, which my father likes the most. He always likes to sit on the sofa with his legs crossed and watch the newly bought 42-inch color TV.For this sofa, Zhang Bei worked overtime for three months.

The dining table was also new, made of white acrylic, and it came with six chairs when I bought it. His mother liked it, and said that the two got a daughter-in-law in the future, which happened to be a family of six.At that time Zhang Yang teased his mother and asked, "What if you have a baby?" His mother had a rare opinion and replied, "Then let's change to a bigger house."

There is also the electronic piano standing there in the corner of the restaurant, covered with a layer of red flannelette, with a thin layer of dust on it.It was a gift he bought for Zhang Yang when he was fifth in the school in his sophomore year of high school, but Zhang Yang didn't like it.What Zhang Yang asked him for was a piano, but the piano was too expensive, even if Zhang Bei could save money, he would not be able to afford it for a while, so he first bought the best electronic piano on the market, and promised him that he would wait for his exam in the future. He must buy a piano for him when he goes to college.After coaxing for a long time, Zhang Yang reluctantly pretended to be happy and picked up the electronic piano to play a song for everyone.Since then, it has not been touched once.Zhang Bei felt very sorry, it was also bought with his one-year bonus.

Looking along the piano to the wall, there are many awards posted there, all of which are flamboyant.No.2 in Mathematical Olympiad in senior one, No.5 in the whole school in senior one, three-good student in the first grade, No.3 in the whole school in second grade, No.1 in English reading in the second grade......

Many years ago, Zhang Bei's certificate of merit was posted there.Now, he also has some certificates for advanced workers in the unit, outstanding employees of the winery, etc., but no one proposes to hang them on the wall anymore.

After sitting for a while, when he couldn't even hear his mother sobbing, Zhang Bei got up and walked to the door, carrying his light bag.Finally, without looking back, he closed the door and walked out.

That morning, when the sun was shining on the earth, he got on the train going south.

Perhaps, Li Xi also left on this train before.Yes, as early as a few days after the incident, Li Xi left. He heard about it from others, but the difference is that Li Xi left with his family.

Before leaving, Zhang Bei never saw Li Xi again.

After that, Zhang Bei never saw Li Xi again.