Miss First Love [A Gentleman's Dignity]

Although there is no official official document about the news of Jin Enxi's promotion, it is tacit news in their department.In front of everyone, the section chief never concealed his appreciation and reliance on her.

Today, the head of the class asked her to give a report on the Qingxichuan project in the department, and explained that she had recently completed a thesis on this project.After finishing the report, Jin Enxi left the meeting room with the outline of the speech.

"Dean, just now in your report you mentioned the comparative analysis of the effectiveness of the No. [-] biological purifier and the other two groups of reference groups, which verified the rationality of the colony structure of the No. [-] biological purifier. Is the next step based on this optimal configuration? For example, further analyze the influence of temperature and light. After all, the water body is in the open air, and with the change of seasons, the living environment of the bacterial flora changes greatly." Jin Enxi's younger generation followed her to ask.

Jin Enxi praised his thinking, "You are right, it is to gradually control variables in this way and try to find the optimal solution. The key is to be able to extract the most critical influencing factors from the extremely complex reality. Of course, real The situation is that many factors interact rather than exist in isolation."

"So the team leader, you proposed the influence formulas for several variables, which is a stroke of genius."

Jin Enxi exclaimed, "Wow, it's a miracle that you are so casually praising other people's eloquence." Then he patted the junior on the shoulder with a file folder, "Stop flattering, if you have this skill, you can do it again." Experiment with a few more sets of data."

Jin Eunxi returned to his desk, created a new file on the computer, and was about to start writing a thesis.But my thinking seems to be blocked, and I can't write a word for a long time.

She thought of the indistinct kiss with Jin Daozhen last night, she thought of every word they talked yesterday, she remembered that she entered the room early but tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.

On the one hand, she is like a little girl who has just fallen in love. Before meeting, she is in a hurry, her heart is bumping like a deer when meeting, and she is thinking like crazy after meeting.On the other hand, she is like a vicissitudes woman with a calm heart, who has analyzed the reality too many times, too thoroughly, and too rationally, so that she has no courage, no confidence, and no passion.

Maybe it's because she relies too much on the plan, she always breaks down and breaks down one thing, assigns it to a specific time conditionally, and implements it step by step.Only such a clearly visible trajectory can convince her of the feasibility of this matter.

Maybe it's because she relies too much on analysis. She always analyzes, analyzes and re-analyzes one thing, finds all the influencing factors, and then controls the variables one by one to find the crux of the problem and the solution.Only such a clear countermeasure can give her the confidence to solve it.

But love is the most difficult problem in the world to overcome.It involved two people, and she couldn't find a formula to follow, and she couldn't control the variables one by one.She can direct herself, but she can never manipulate the other party.Even if it is only for herself, she can only control her behavior, and her heart is also uncontrollable.

She remembered that she couldn't sleep last night, and planned to get up to go to the bathroom, and opened the door to hear Jin Daozhen's phone call.

"Not yet, it's only been less than a week now." Jin Daozhen whispered in the living room.

"I know, I'll be back in time for my PT."

"No, Colin starts school on Wednesday, at least he has to attend the opening ceremony, this is the first time he can't miss it."

"I promise, take the plane at night."

"I will prepare it and store it in the mobile hard disk."

"Thanks, good night."

Jin Enxi actually found that upon hearing the news that Jin Daozhen was leaving, her mood was not so much bitterness as relief.Ah, the other boot has finally dropped, she thought then.

From the moment she saw Jin Daozhen coming to Japan, she kept telling herself that he would go, he would go.So every minute and every second of being with him, this cognition hovered over her heart like a dark cloud.Things have come true, but she has become calm again.

The worst thing is to separate again, Jin Daozhen has given her the most beautiful gift - memory.She will go through another ten years just like the ten years she has gone through.Sure enough, once people have no greed, they will regain their calmness.

After Jin Daozhen booked the plane for tomorrow night online, he began to sort out the materials needed for the plan presentation. Colin was on the sidelines finishing the homework assigned in the private school class last night.

Jin Daozhen stretched comfortably after working at his desk for too long.Last night, Lin Taishan asked him if he and Kim Eun-hee had reconciled, and he replied that he hadn't.

Having said that, Jin Daozhen clearly felt the delicate atmosphere between him and Jin Eunxi, which can only be understood and cannot be expressed in words.Often, one moment Jin Eunxi's eyes revealed some thoughts, and the next moment she rationally retreated to her safe zone.

Kim Eun-hee repeatedly tried to distance himself from him with calm words, and every time he thought of this, Kim Dao-jin felt powerless, and he began to wonder if he was acting affectionate, for Kim Eun-hee, he was already a thing of the past.

Sometimes, when dreaming back at midnight, Jin Daozhen would kick off the quilt with anger.The current situation may be his punishment for not being humble enough when he was young and frivolous.But there is always a question stuck in your throat, do you still... like me?

In the afternoon, Jin Enxi called Jin Daozhen: "Our department head has been promoted to a minister. Tonight, he will invite our department to have a final dinner. I will leave the dinner to you, is that okay?"

"Okay. Don't drink too much." After a pause for a few seconds, Jin Daozhen asked again: "Do you want me to pick you up?"

"No, I won't eat until late. Then...bye."

"Bye-Bye."

During the dinner, colleagues made a toast to the section chief.Someone suggested: "Hey, take this opportunity to toast our Chief Jin, after all..."

Everyone exchanged knowing eyes, and swarmed to make a toast to Jin Eunxi.At that time, the first thought that flashed through Kim Eun Hee's mind was Kim Do Jin's phrase 'Don't drink too much alcohol'.She quickly refused and brought the topic back to the head teacher.

After the dinner party, Jin Enxi walked back home slowly.I don't know why, but I just don't want to go home.Maybe he accepted the fact that Jin Daozhen was going to leave rationally, but he still couldn't help but hide his ears and steal the bell, assuming that if he didn't look at it, he could pretend it wouldn't happen.

She wandered into a cake shop absent-mindedly, and unconsciously stared at the cake cabinet for a long time.

"If you are worried about which one to choose, then I recommend tiramisu." Jin Daozhen's voice came from behind, and Jin Enxi looked at him in disbelief.

Jin Daozhen had just sent Colin to the private school, and on the way back, he saw a figure who looked like Jin Eunxi floating into the cake shop.After confirming through the glass window outside the store, he planned to wait for her outside the store and give her a surprise.Unexpectedly, I saw Jin Enxi staring at the cake in a daze.

The meaning of tiramisu is, take me away, which is what Kim Do-jin wants to hear from Kim Eun-hee now.

After buying the cake, Kim Eun Hee and Kim Do Jin walked home together.

Jin Enxi felt that Jin Daozhen seemed to have something to say, knowing that he was worried about how to announce his departure, and suddenly lost the interest to speak.

"I've never regretted it before," Jin Daozhen said slowly, "but now I'm starting to regret it."

Jin Enxi looked at Jin Daozhen curiously, thousands of bad guesses flashed through her mind, she even wanted to cover her ears.

"If I could go back to the past, I would say to me in my early twenties, please be more mature, and you have to behave so that Enxi has a sense of trust, so that you will not lose the love that has put your whole soul into it."

From the day they met again, they kept secret about their past love.When Jin Enxi suddenly heard Jin Daozhen define the past between them in this way, his eyes instantly became sore.Perhaps this is the most perfect footnote to that period of love, and both parties affirmed the meaning of that period of youth.

"But I have no way to go back, so I don't have the face to stand upright in front of you. Every time I feel your heart open a little bit to me, you will quickly close it tightly. Every night lying in the quilt, I will be extra depressed and irritable Bigger. Are those my delusions, or did I break your heart too much to forgive me and accept me?"

Kim Eun-hee is not tossing and turning, full of melancholy because of Kim Do-jin these days, "I never blamed you, whether it was before or now, I'm just because I'm afraid. No, I'm more afraid now than I was ten years ago. Because now I have tasted the taste of parting, and I know that missing someone for a long time is like a poisonous snake lurking in my heart, and it will come out to bite my soul every time the night is quiet. So, I don’t have the confidence to assume that one day you Discovering that you no longer love me at all is just an illusion created by guilt and responsibility."

"Guilt, responsibility? I do have it, but it definitely doesn't make me feel wrong. Because those things are in my head; but you," Kim Do-jin held Kim Eun-hee's hand on his heart, "in Here. I love you!"