Miss First Love [A Gentleman's Dignity]

Jin Enxi walked quickly, as if someone was chasing after her, she wanted to hurry back to a closed, warm place where she felt safe.

She took a taxi and reported her home address.As if she had just escaped from danger, her voice was anxious and panicked, and her eyes were filled with tears.

The driver asked her: "Miss, is there some bad guy chasing you, do you want me to call the police for you?"

Jin Eunxi shook her head vigorously, tears streaming down her face, she choked up her voice: "No, I did something bad, and now I'm being punished. The bad guy? I'm the bad guy, the one that people avoid and fear. It's me." She beat her chest hard, as if she was punishing herself retaliatoryly, and it seemed to be a physical instinct to be out of breath.

The driver said: "Yes, guest, I understand." Then he turned his head forward and drove the car with all his heart.

Heartache is always there, no one can replace, no one can share, no one can heal.Only time can make you get used to it slowly, become numb gradually, and calm down a little bit. At that time, it is what people often say is like a new life.However, the wound will not go away.

Kim Eun-hee never shed tears in front of strangers, not when she found out she was pregnant, not when she broke up with her father, not when she was so busy that she only slept for four hours a day, and not when Colin was hungry when she had no money , but at this moment, she shed tears in front of the strange driver.

She cried subduedly, as if someone had gagged her mouth, and could only hear one or two sobs leaking out occasionally.The tears were not restrained, they flowed down continuously, just after they were wiped off, they immediately reappeared in place, and there was no way to clean them up.

Finally, when she arrived in the community, the cool wind made her cheeks marinated by tears ache, making her suddenly realize that she must not appear in front of Colin like this.

She changed her mind and decided to go to Park Sunmi's house.

She rang the doorbell and was soon welcomed in by Park Sunmi.The soft light and warm air came over my face, and I heard Park Sunmi's concerned voice: "Eunxi, what's wrong with you." Jin Enxi's suppressed tears fell down again.

Before she lost her voice completely, Jin Enxi said to Park Sunmi: "I can't go home like this, can you take me in for a night?"

Park Sunmi nodded vigorously.

Kim Eun-hee handed the phone to Park Sun-mi again: "Please call Colin and say you're with me. I can't go back today because I have something to do. Let Danny stay with him tonight."

Her voice was intermittent, clearly she was enduring great pain, but she insisted on reassuring her son's heart first.

Park Sunmi's acting skills are excellent, explaining vividly, Colin didn't notice anything strange.Eun-hee could even hear her son say the last sentence: "Aunt Xuanmei and my mother must be careful at night."

As soon as the phone was hung up, Jin Enxi burst into tears.

Park Sunmi hugged Jin Eunxi in a panic, patted her on the back, and asked, "What's wrong, what's wrong?"

Kim Eun-hee shook her head, just crying.She had never cried so presumptuously.Her cries were full of sadness and pain, full of despair and desolation.Park Sunmi was also aroused by the pain in her heart when she heard it, and the two of them were hugged and cried.

Kim Eun-hee cried for her first love, which took ten years to die completely.No matter how hard and tiring she was, no matter how much she was denied and slandered in the past ten years, she could persevere.Because she has love in her heart, her choice is precisely to continue the fire of love.

She did leave Korea out of distrust of Kim Do-jin, gave birth to a child by herself, and raised him.Although separated from Jin Daozhen, her love for him did not end.

Now Jin Daozhen has personally stated that he does not want this child, wishing her happiness and not regretting being in love once.The declaration of breaking up was ten years late, and it finally brought an end to her love.

Park Sunmi saw that Kim Eun-hee endured his own pain, but also arranged for Colin properly, lest he worry.This strong maternal love moved her so much that she couldn't help but think of her parents.

Parents left so suddenly, there was no time to tell her anything.Or, to explain her things, she had already explained clearly in daily life, but at the beginning she didn't understand their love at all.

Don't stay up late, it will make you grow old; don't eat roadside stalls, go home to eat if you don't want to cook; clothes that change seasons must be exposed to the sun for disinfection; work is not going well, and you will have a bowl of rice at home ; We don't ask you to have any big promises, as long as you are safe and healthy.

The words are still in my ears, the Sri Lankan has passed away.The tree wants to be quiet but the wind doesn't stop, the child wants to support but the relatives don't wait.Are her parents on the other side at this moment, still worrying about her?

In the crying, those emotions that were deeply suppressed because I am an adult, I should be more mature, others will worry, things haven't reached that point yet, for one reason or another, all vented out unreservedly .

It was getting late, and the two of them who should have been exhausted after crying a lot were sober, as if they had never been so close to another soul, never had it seemed that no matter what they said now, they would be understood Kim Eun-hee and Park Sun-mi talked about the reason for their crying.

Park Sunmi talked about her longing and guilt for her parents, her confusion about her unsuccessful career as a writer, and her loneliness.Kim Eun-hee is a good listener. She not only made Park Sun-mi feel understood, but also did not act as a life mentor to guide Park Sun-mi's choice of path.

Jin Eunxi just listened silently, with a mother-like tolerance, and even mutual trust.After Park Sunmi finished talking about herself, she asked about Kim Eun-hee crying.

Jin Enxi smiled and replied: "I lost my relationship today. It was a confirmed thing ten years ago. I just admitted it today. I was dumped by Colin's father today, although common sense says I dumped him."

"What?" Although Park Sunmi was surprised, her emotions were not exaggerated, and it also made Jin Eunxi relax a lot, talking about her first love that just ended.

"At that time, I really liked him. At first I thought he was a flirtatious person, but later I found that he was surprisingly reliable. But I am a person who needs a sense of security. My parents left me and went to the United States. I have always arranged for myself. My own life. I have been writing plans and planning my own life since junior high school. One book a year, and now the schedule book is about this level." Jin Enxi said and compared the length of his hands.

"Oh my god, I, a person like me who lives casually without a plan, can't even imagine that I can act according to the plan every day. No, I may not be able to do it if I make a plan every day." Park Sunmi exclaimed.

Jin Enxi nodded: "Yes, I am also very proud of this. But I don't feel any reluctance. Making a plan seems to be..." Jin Enxi thought for a while, and then continued: "One of my ways of thinking. Write it on paper, Seeing it clearly gave me the feeling that, ah, I have full control over my life."

Park Sunmi was already dumbfounded, and looked at Eunxi in admiration.

"Colin's father was an accident in my life. I never thought that I would fall in love when I was a freshman." Jin Enxi remembered something and smiled: "At that time his school was not close to me, but because I once told him that I don't like guys who do what they want and don't have a plan, it makes me feel unreliable."

Park Sunmi interrupted, pointing at herself: "Isn't that about me?"

Kim Eun-hee retorted with a smile: "Friends are different from husbands. Husbands want to 'look at me and I look at you' for the rest of their lives; for friends, as long as they can talk, understand and respect each other, that level is enough. "

Park Sunmi patted her chest, "Then I'm at ease."

Jin Enxi continued: "At that time, he would ride to my school every morning. He knew that I would go to the playground to study in the morning, so he went to the playground every day. When he arrived, he said a confession to me, ran a few laps, and left quickly. , Tell me another confession.”

"I didn't care about it at the time. I thought he couldn't last long. Occasionally when I got tired of reading, I just wrote his confession in my schedule. Before I knew it, it had been more than a month. From then on, my heart was moved."

"Later, it was the rainy season. One morning, it rained heavily and thundered, and the sky was overcast. I was studying in the dormitory, and my heart was always beating."

"I took an umbrella and went to the playground to take a look. Although I felt that he would not come over in such weather, I was afraid that something might happen."

"Yes, he went. He didn't bring an umbrella. He only wore a raincoat. His hair was all wet in locks and stuck to his forehead, his trousers were completely soaked, and he looked like he was fished out of the water. It’s the same as it came. He wiped away the rainwater that flowed to his eyes from time to time, but it became more and more wet, and he couldn’t see clearly, and his eyes were squinted. He looked very embarrassed.”

"However, I felt that at that moment, he was extremely handsome. Although he was always handsome, I thought he was the most handsome at that moment. He was so handsome that I was moved."

"I ran over in a hurry, and before I had time to say anything, I heard him say, 'fortunately'."

"I asked him, 'I'm so wet, what's there to be thankful for' and put the umbrella over his head."

"He pushed open my umbrella and said to me, 'Of course I also want to hold an umbrella with you, close to each other, and walk in the rain, which is very romantic. But not today, I'm all wet. I don't want to put you Get wet, that doesn't move you, it makes you catch a cold.'”

"I asked him why he came here in such heavy rain since he knew he would catch a cold. He said to me, 'Fortunately I came here, otherwise you came to the playground alone in the rain to find me, but I was not there, so I am so sorry.' "

"I asked 'why do you come to see me every day?'

"He said, 'Don't you know now? When I first met you, I told you that my last choice is you.'"

"At that moment, I really couldn't worry about anything, any study plan, any forbidden love, all left behind. I asked him, 'Are you confessing your love now? Sincerely.'"

"'Yes, since I met you, my sincerity has not stopped for a moment.'"

"'Then I will tell you my answer now.' I put my arms around him gently and said to him 'Now, my clothes are wet, come and hold an umbrella with me.'"

"Before I backed away, he hugged me tightly and said excitedly: 'Eunxi, Eunxi, I am so happy now. I will treat you well in the future, a hundred times better than now times, no, a thousand times better, ten thousand times better. We're going to be together forever.'”

"The rain is running down my neckline, it's cold, but my heart is very warm. I feel that I will never regret the decision I made today."

"Later, he was always very kind to me, and our relationship was very sweet. It was my own insecurity. After I was pregnant, I didn't have the courage to tell him. So, I fled to the United States."

"I gave birth to Colin and raised him alone. In April this year, Colin asked me who his real father was for the first time, so I brought him to Korea and wanted to bring him to meet his father."

"It's a pity that Colin's wish can't be fulfilled. Today, his father told me to give up on us and wish us happiness. Yes, it's been ten years. Who would wait for ten years, let alone me leaving without saying goodbye, Leave him."

Park Sunmi was moved by the love affair described by Kim Eun Hee, and there were thousands of thoughts surging in her mind, and her thoughts flew far away.But I heard Enxi say that today Colin's father actually said to give up their mother and son.How moved I was by that man's persistence before, how much I want to call him a scumbag now.

But Enxi obviously hasn't come out yet, and she doesn't seem to have completely forgotten her feelings. It seems a bit inappropriate for her to attack that scumbag at this moment.Just ask: "It's a pity. What are you going to do with Enxi in the future?"

Jin Enxi smiled, with a hint of bitterness and a hint of open-mindedness in her smile, she said: "It's the same as before. How do you say it? Be a happy single mother. I decided to forget him. He has his life, and I live it." My life. In the future, if I meet a good man, I will meet him, maybe I will get married."

Park Sunmi agreed: "Of course, Eun Hee, you are still beautiful, kind-hearted, and smart. You will find the best man in the world."

Jin Enxi raised his eyebrows, "Really? If it's true, I will give you a big red envelope to thank you."

The two laughed, chatted, and gradually fell asleep.