I water the flowers of the kaolin

My name is Fang Jiyun, and I watched Li Zangfeng's back disappear into the street corner with my own eyes.

I was really sad to see his expression.

But the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain. If I kill Cao Ji and come back alive, it will not be too late to see him again then.

Now that he is slowly recovering, as long as he doesn't fall into this muddy water, who can do anything to catch him?

I was thinking about when he would come again, and my heart was full of worries, but Liang Wan dragged me to the backyard.

He is a person who laughs at every turn, and smiles overflow like a smile hole. At this time, he stops smiling, his eyes are serious and serious, and the light of motherhood is swept away. He is not the old mother Liang Wan I know. He is an old grandfather Liang Wan.

Grandpa Liang asked me: "Who is that man? Do you know him?"

I felt a little guilty, so I lowered my head and said: "I saw him from a distance when I was listening to books on the street. He was with his friend at that time. His friend called him Brother Li. I think he should be Li Zangfeng. "

This sentence belongs to the kind of temporary make-up, full of loopholes, but Grandpa Liang has a good temper, he knows that I have something to hide from him, and he is not in a hurry to examine my relationship with Li Zangfeng, he just talks to me about other things .

"Since you don't want to talk about him, would you like to talk about yourself?"

"Tell me what?"

Liang Wan looked at me: "Tell me who you are."

I don't have to speak with my mouth, I arrange what I want to say on my face.

You hide a bunch of secrets yourself, so why ask me?

He sighed and said, "You don't want to talk about your background, I don't force it. Because a person can have many identities. In my eyes, you are just a patient sent by Doctor Luo."

"But Xiao Fang, do you know what your identity means to me?"

I shook my head, I probably exchanged my hard work for my appearance at the bottom of the cliff, and now I am getting more and more lazy to think.Seeing me like this, Liang Wan suddenly grabbed my arm without saying hello. I was startled, but he suddenly said something, which scared me so much that I couldn't even jump.

"It means you are my debt for the rest of my life, someone I will take care of in these last days."

Big brother, big brother, talk about debts, don't talk about life and death, are you scaring me to death or sister Wisdom?

I educated him solemnly: "I can tell you some things about him, but you have to remember one thing, your life is still long, and you will owe a lot of debts to Dr. Luo in the future. I don't want you to use this kind of last words say."

Liang Wan said: "One has to prepare for the worst, maybe you are the last debt I owe."

I retorted: "Bullshit! You are a lucky star! There must be new debts in the future, and you will have to pay them every day!"

Liang Wan sighed: "The future is unpredictable, I'm afraid I may not be lucky enough to owe new debts."

He is obviously a smiling monster, how could he be so pessimistic about his future?I grabbed his hand angrily: "As long as you and I are willing to work hard, we will definitely owe new debts! By then, the debts will pile up, and we will be able to repay the debts every day! We will be called every day!"

Liang Wan seemed to have been greatly encouraged, and asked with a moved face: "You really think so? We will definitely be able to owe new debts?"

As if I had been called by socialism, I took one of his hands with both hands: "I will definitely do it! There is no debt in the world, as long as you have the heart to owe it!"

Liang Wan smiled wryly: "I'm not as good as you in this regard, I'm not good at making new debts."

I smiled and said, "What's so difficult about being in debt? I'll just teach you! I just got a chest injury once, and I have three kinds of poison in my body, so I owe her 9000 taels of silver..."

Oh no, stop it.

Aren't we talking about Li Zangfeng?How did you abduct me?

Why did you talk about how to owe new debts?This is more than a hundred and eight thousand miles away. This is off topic and went to another world, right?

Seeing that I froze suddenly, Liang Wan threw away all the confusion and bitterness just now, like throwing off a mask. He grabbed my hand and asked me seriously: "There are three kinds of poison in your body." !? Which three are they?"

...the brakes stopped.

If I just said Yixianxiang directly, then he wouldn't even have to guess, he probably would have locked on who I am.

I recalled the process of speaking just now, my heart sank, and I broke Liang Wan's hand.

"Are you pretending to be depressed, are you just waiting to talk to me?"

Seeing the anger on my face, Liang Wan apologized solemnly.

"Sorry, I was reckless."

I raised my face: "You do this every time, first actively apologize, and then resolutely quibble. What do you want to say next?"

Liang Wan didn't try to quibble this time, he expressed his thoughts honestly.

"Before I thought you were injured from taking poison. But you had a splitting headache last night, and I found that your pulse was extremely strange. If you were only injured internally, take some poison, and your pulse would not be in such a mess. If I want to take care of you You, you have to figure out what happened to you."

I know the pulse condition, and no one will believe me if I tell you about the Three Kingdoms in my body. This toxin balance is too weird. Liang Wan wants to ask what happened, so I can understand.

But this caregiver has a criminal record. When he meets a pretender like me who is full of secrets and full of lies, he actually asks questions honestly. He likes to test first and then confirm.I decided to be angry longer this time, and make it harder to coax him back, so that he would feel guilty, give me an extra meal at night, and let me cut and order less during the day, and it would be best not to question me about my relationship with Li Zangfeng.

So I kept my face on purpose, and I promise I can get wrinkles on my face.

"There are only two sentences in the letter from Dr. Luo to you, and nothing else is said. Do you know why?"

"Because it's inconvenient for her to say more about your situation, she wants me to ask you."

I looked at him coldly: "So if you have any questions, you should ask me directly. It's not for a gentleman to beat around the bush."

Liang Wan smiled this time.

"Who told you that I belonged to a gentleman? Dr. Luo?"

"Aren't you?"

Liang Wan didn't answer but instead asked, "If I asked directly who you are, or your relationship with that Li Zangfeng, would you tell me?"

I was tit for tat: "I asked you the truth on the arrest warrant, but you didn't tell me."

No one was willing to take a step back, and no one was holding secrets and refused to confess, which led to a stalemate.

But I don't think this stalemate is suitable for the two of us. I have to find out the truth and clear him. What's the use of such a stalemate?So I pulled him back and babbled from the bottom of my heart.

"I'll tell you who I am, so you can tell me what's on the arrest warrant, how about that?"

"It doesn't matter who you are, it doesn't matter what relationship you have with Li Zangfeng, there is only one thing that matters - your safety. If I want to know your relationship with him, it is only because I want to know whether he will be against you. "

My relationship with him?Don't you get me wrong?

You haven't solved your own moths yet, so stop adding new species of moths to yourself.The moths of the brand Li Zangfeng should be attacked by me, the moth.

I was just preparing an answer to stop his damned curiosity, when I caught a glimpse of Liang holding him back, his delicate lips raised in an arc, and the light in his eyes turned three points, as if savoring some indescribable details.

"Judging from his actions just now, I don't think Li Zangfeng has any malice towards you."

What did you do just now?

Do you mean touching your face or looking at your chest?

Forget it, you better stop talking, judging from the question you just asked Li Zangfeng, you are probably a fake gentleman, and only the brilliance of maternal love in you is real.

I said to him, "It doesn't matter who I am, nor does my relationship with him, so what do you want to know from me?"

Liang Wan said seriously: "I said that the incident on the arrest warrant is a knot in my heart. If you want to know my knot, you have to exchange one of your own knots."

This smiling monster looks very kind and motherly, but he is very guarded against his secrets and is very stingy.He must know something from me before he is willing to confide something.

It seems that secrets must be traded for secrets.

I sighed: "Can I use a pseudonym when I tell you about this knot?"

Liang Wan smiled magnanimously: "Use it if you want, you can call it whatever you want."

At this time, he didn't care about it anymore, it seemed that he really didn't mind if I concealed my identity and background.

So I pulled him to sit on a small bench, and I sat on a soft rattan chair, hoping to use this difference in height to preserve my momentum and dignity, but even if Liang Wan sat on that small bench, He also looked at me earnestly and seriously. He was sincere and waited for the story wholeheartedly. Instead, he made me feel embarrassed to be a demon, so I took out the wicker chair and pulled a small stool to sit on it.I rubbed my big butt on the bench uncomfortably, and found that my eyes were at the same height as his. There was no hatred or hatred there, only some pure concern and curiosity, like a pool of clear water, just waiting I went to dial a few times, and there were more or less ripples.

So I calmed down, I didn't worry about Li Zangfeng for the time being, and I started to talk.

"I have a friend with a broken mouth and a good heart. I call him a true friend."

"I still have a friend. I don't know if he is my friend. He likes me very much, but he doesn't like me. He just likes something that doesn't belong to me. I call him a fake friend."

Liang Wan laughed uncontrollably, but did not interrupt.

"Both of these two friends live in the same house as me, but this house is so dirty and smelly, I'm tired of staying and want to leave. My real friend decided to help me go, and my fake friend didn't want me to go."

Liang Wan's smile faded slightly, as if he had sensed something.

"My fake friend is good at talking nonsense. He must keep me. If we can't talk, we will fight. I found out that I had eaten bad food before, and I couldn't get out. At this time, my real friend Came out and he got between me and my fake friend."

I was silent for a long time and said three words.

"My true friend fell asleep."

"The fake friend also fell asleep."

"I put them both together."

Liang Wan's smile disappeared.

He stared at me intently, and I didn't look at him again.

The breeze in the air is so sweet, it is even sweeter than before I told the story, as if the fragrance of flowers and the smell of grass are awakened in an instant, and the molecules of the fragrance are crazy drilled into my nose.

But I smell more than just incense.

And the wound on Lao Ba's back.

The smell of blood on Su Weibai's body.

It was the blood spattered by Li Zangfeng's knife in my chest.

It's the smell of rotting soil and weeds under the cliff that fell on me.

I thought I had forgotten all about it.

It turns out that one piece after another, they are all entangled in the bottom of my heart.

I remember every detail so clearly that I never dared to forget it for a moment.

Liang Wan looked at me very seriously. I couldn't find any other adjectives on his face besides being serious for the time being, but my head was blown off like a sap, and my thinking was blunt and lazy.But my senses are still there, I feel his hand holding mine, maybe because my hand is too cold, it seems that his palm is too hot, this temperature is not like between people, more like is between life and death.

"Are your real and fake friends really asleep?"

"Why are you asking me this?"

Liang Wan said with a heavy gaze, "Because I want to hear your own story about their ending."

I looked up, and I saw that the sky had not changed at all, I saw that the blue sky was still transparent, and I found that the white sky was still flawless, exactly the same as the moment when Lao Ba and Su Weibai died.

"They're not asleep."

"They're all dead."

The two words fell to the ground lightly, as if a wound in the heart had been picked apart.

Those emotions were originally sad and turned to ashes, but now they are revived, surging up vigorously in a moment, flooding all the colors in front of my eyes, from now on, only black and white are left in the world, and only heat is left in the flesh and blood vessels. Something exploded in my heart again and again After a while, it was so calm that it almost disappeared.

After more than a month, I finally told this matter.

After finishing talking, the frying is finished, it seems that all the carrion has been picked out, the bruises are gone, and the things in my heart are relieved. It is not much smoother, but it is a little bit smoother, and the result is okay.

Liang Wan: "Have you finished?"

I looked up at him: "I'm done, and you understand."

Liang Wan sighed: "From the first time I saw you, I felt strange, from the time I saw Doctor Luo's letter, I was convinced that the knot in your heart is too deep and messy, you hold your breath, just want to Going to work hard."

"A person's life is always the most important thing. It is not a last resort, and one should not give it up without careful consideration."

"But your desperate efforts were not due to coercion or careful consideration. You just wanted to suppress the pent-up air in your mouth."

I smiled and corrected me: "There is still some deep thinking, but I really want to suppress it."

Liang Wan said: "I originally wanted to understand you slowly. But after you talked with me last time, you had a splitting headache in the room. At that time, I felt that I couldn't wait any longer."

I said: "Are you afraid that I will hurt you to death, so you hurriedly guide?"

Liang Wan: "I'm not a person who is good at guiding, I can only give you a rough start."

I looked at him solemnly, this was probably the first time I looked at Liang Wan with such serious eyes.

"I understand why Miracle Doctor Luo asked me to come to you."

Liang Wan smiled: "I am her first student, and she taught me many skills."

I am afraid that even the skills of psychological counseling are also taught. He really deserves to be a person in the Wisdom Professional Nursing Course of Wisdom University.

I patted the back of his hand, then gently pulled it out.

"Don't worry, I know what to do."

Emotions are something that cannot be suppressed blindly, nor indulged blindly. If you hold it in for a long time, you will become a disease, and if you let it go too often, it will become a disaster. It must be managed well.You can't ask it to eat back at your body.

So I stood up, went outside happily, cleaned the table, cleaned up the dishes, hummed and sang a little tune, then happily talked to Liang Wan, and ran to a street outside Under the stone bridge, there was no one there, so I happily sat down under the bridge, smiling and burying my face in my knees.

Then wept silently.

Cry completely forget me.

His face twisted and his shoulders trembled.

I have a splitting headache, but I don't care about half of it.

Crying and hurting, it seemed that Liang Wan came over. I was buried by the crying and headache, and I couldn't hear clearly. I only felt that his footsteps became a little deeper, and he didn't speak, but just stood aside and listened.It shows that he still understands the importance of emotional management, and he doesn't bother me, which is very considerate.

After crying, I settled my emotions, I happily raised my head, and was about to thank Liang Wan.

Then the man turned so that I could see his face clearly through half-dried tears.

He came with heavy steps, stood there silently, watched me cry all the way, and now he is looking at me with a complicated expression.

But he is not Liang Wan.

It was Li Zangfeng.

……

……

It's over.

To die.

Just let the emotion rest in the ground, and now the emotion has exploded in the coffin board!