I water the flowers of the kaolin

My name is Fang Jiyun, and I am very conflicted right now.

This contradiction is not only psychological, but also physical.

The back of my head is a vast ocean, in which streams flow and rivers divide and merge.The lower part of me is an endless sea of ​​flames, with sparks raging and lava flowing.

This extreme of cold and heat appearing at both ends of the body at the same time is not a good omen.

In addition to the alternation of hot and cold, there is also pain in the brain, pain in the lower part, abdomen, back, and my old neck. There is no pain in any of these important places.

What can you do when you are in pain?

I believe that getting drunk can relieve a thousand worries, that a single sleep can relieve all pains, and that a single sleep can relieve heartache and body pain.

Anyway, I am a weak person. I close my eyes and pretend that I am not a human being. I am just a mudskipper out of water. I need sleep the most.

As soon as I closed my eyes and didn't move, the big guy next to me came over.

Li Zangfeng, Li Zangfeng, was originally a wind that could go anywhere and stop anywhere, but just now he became a wildfire out of control, with sparks flying around, indulged in the snow, he burned others and burned me.

I was completely fooled by him just now, and his fire went out a little bit.But the effect of the medicine probably hasn't completely faded, he saw me lying down, so he sat down next to me, the whole person was dumbfounded, quietly, it seemed that half of his spirit was still floating outside, and he became a ball in the dark Heavy breathing, I don't know where to look, and I don't know how long I looked at me.

Long time, long time until the sweet smell in the air changed, so long that I heard him move.

His right hand was originally spread flat, but now he picked up the fragments of the teapot on the ground, looked at it for a long time, and suddenly tightened his grip in anger.

The hand clacked the pieces, and finally with a "snap", the broken porcelain further fell apart, symbolizing a relationship that is gone and never returned.

It was broken like this, and he was still holding the thing in his hand. Not long after, I heard the sound of blood dripping on the floor, tick tock, as if every drop of sanity returned to him.

But he was bleeding when he grasped it, and he still grasped it to death, and he didn't care if the fragments were embedded in his palm.

Does this seem like a return of sanity?

This should be extremely angry, right?

Who are you angry with?

he himself?still me?

If I was better, I really wanted to stand up and comfort him.It's a pity I'm so tired.

Originally, I went to attack well, and he accepted it with peace of mind. We worked on a clean and soft bed, and fell asleep with a pillow scented with herbs. Everything should be arranged, orderly, and in order.

not now.

Dirty and messy, and he is a slight perfectionist cleanliness, I'm afraid he will die of discomfort.

Li Zangfeng put down the tile, tore a piece of clean cloth to bandage his wound, and then stood beside me, with countless rounds of entanglement and complicated emotions going on in his heart, his breath congealed and loosened, loosened and congealed , It took a long time to move.

A pair of hands caressed my neck, brushed my brow, and finally landed on my chest, as if feeling my heartbeat and checking my pulse.

The movements of the fingers are steady and strong, and the weight is no longer neither light nor heavy. I think this is Li Zangfeng's return, and I don't need to use "he" to refer to it anymore.

Li Zangfeng carried me to the bed first, took a soft silk handkerchief and wiped my body.He moved carefully, and wiped away the sweat and other things, but some places on my body still hurt. As soon as he wiped it, I started to shake, and when I shook, he stopped, as if he was a little at a loss.

Why he stopped I know.

His nursing score is negative, and his guilt is full.

But what I didn't know was what he would say next.

"I know you're still awake."

His voice was too hoarse, as if his throat had just been cut by a knife.

I moved my eyelids. After he said that, I wanted to open my eyes a little. No matter how tired I am, I still have to look at him, right?

"I also know why you refuse to open your eyes and look at me."

After he said this, he turned around suddenly, so I opened my eyes vigorously, and I only saw his back. The back was still as broad as a mountain, and the skeleton under the wet clothes was still strong, but his shoulders seemed Inexplicably short, as if cut by something.

And his clothes, dripping water mixed with blood along the way.I didn't know that he was clenching the tile so deeply in his hand and bleeding so much.

This development is wrong.

Shouldn't we be a little more intense?

You don't have to.

It's really unnecessary, I'll be fine soon.

I struggled to remember, but the wound was touched together, and a certain part was in severe pain. The pain made my brain feel hot, I took a breath of cool air, and lay back again.

At this time, he turned his back to me and sighed, and said softly: "Don't move around, you should have a good rest."

I tried my best to calm my breathing, turned to look at him, and was about to say something when I suddenly heard a smile from Li Zangfeng, and I heard him say another sentence.Just these words struck me like a nine-day thunderbolt, causing my breathing to stagnate and my whole body to be stunned.

"That bowl of tea, in fact, I knew something was wrong early on..."

what's going on?

You...you know what kind of medicine that is, you still drink it?

You did it on purpose! ?

I looked at his back motionlessly, lest I miss any details, and asked in a daze: "You..."

Li Zangfeng took a deep breath: "The person who delivered the tea said...this bowl of tea was prepared for me by another guest in this room..."

My heart sank, and he clasped his hands and lowered his head, as if he was thinking over and over again in a tangle.

After all the thoughts came to an end, he knew to give me a fatal blow.

"At that time, I thought it was you who wanted me to drink this tea."

"Since I have promised you, I should go through the mountains of swords and fire... Even if what you handed over is the medicine for tigers and wolves, it is a poison that can make people lose control. As long as it is given by you, I should try it..."

"That's why I drank the whole pot."

……

……

Injustice! ! !

What a grievance! ! !

Brainstorming and brainstorming, why did you brainstorm to my rear one day! ! ! ? ?

My whole body was spread out on the bed, and I shrunk myself into a ball crying, but I shrunk too quickly and too violently, causing some parts to tear again. I was in so much pain that I had to shrink slowly.

After a while, I thought about it. Although it was a misunderstanding at the beginning, all of this was out of my control, and I didn't have any chance to remedy it. Don't blame me, don't blame me, blame the duel guy, blame me Just blame the boss.

Unexpectedly, Li Zangfeng held back and gave me another blow.

"The person who delivered the tea specially reminded that another guest... wants to play wild."

Wild what?

Li Zangfeng lowered his head, the lower his head went down, the lower he got, the shorter he got, but he was really too tall, even if he was a head shorter, his body would still stand upright, he couldn't shrink into a single point, he couldn't get into the shadow of.

"So, after I took the medicine, I went into the bathtub to calm myself down. When I first jumped out. I... It's not that I can't control myself at all."

……

……

Can you say that again?

Tell me what you just said again! ?

Li Zangfeng lowered his head, and said in a very hoarse voice: "I was half-conscious at the time, and you rolled into the room in a defensive posture. When you looked at me, you didn't ask a word, you just called my name..."

"So I see that you seem to have expected my state...not surprised..."

"I'm even more sure...this...is what you want."

"And after that, I couldn't control myself..."

do not.

do not talk.

Not only did my bottom explode, but the corners of my eyes were also wet.

Co-author, I only need to say one sentence to you, and this misunderstanding can be solved by itself?

Then I was kneeling on the wall and being stabbed in the back, wouldn't I just kneel in vain! ?Isn't it just white thorns! ! ? ?

I was so angry that I gritted my silver teeth. I was so angry that I wanted to roll 360 times on the bed, but because of the wound, I had to settle for the next best thing. I wiped my face and buried my face in the bed, longing for the fragrance of the mattress to overwhelm me. me.

I figured if it just melted on the spot, I might be better off.

Li Zangfeng seemed to be aware of my unwillingness to be in pain, and clenched his fists even tighter, as if I heard the violent crackling sound of bones.

"In my whole life, I have never betrayed anyone, nor have I ever betrayed the sword in my hand. But now both the man and the sword...it is my fault."

As he talked, he pulled out a knife from the corner of the wall. It was a knife that he never left his body even when he was sleeping. But for the first time, he put the knife down and put it in the corner of the wall. When I came out, there was a cold light, which made my heart feel cold.

What is he doing with the knife now?

He won't be overwhelmed, right?

Didn't he want to turn a farce into a tragedy?

Li Zangfeng turned around, and only then did I see his face clearly.

His facial features were still there, but his expression was heavy and solemn as if he was about to attend a funeral, his brows did not even wrinkle, his cheeks seemed to lose temperature, pale mixed with burning, it was pale pale with two streaks of red, doubling awful.

He drew the saber, lowered the blade and walked over, blood dripped at every step, holding the saber in his right hand, the blood in the palm of his hand had already seeped from the bandaged cloth, it couldn't stop the bleeding, until it seeped into the handle of the saber carved with gold and inlaid with silver.This scene seems to be in some kind of abuse article, I stared at him blankly, I just felt that he was unusually cold and unreliable in the usual times, but now he was bloody and white-clothed, dragging with a horizontal knife, unexpectedly Seven points of coldness and three points of beauty.

How would I know?One day I will feel that Li Zangfeng is not handsome, but beautiful.

He just walked over so coldly and beautifully, and stuffed the bloody knife handle into my hand.

"I thought you were ready...but you weren't."

"In that case, what I was doing just now is no different from a beast."

"If I say I'll let you handle it, I'm sure you'll soften your heart and never take my life."

He looked down at the knife in my hand and said, "So I suggest you take this knife and stab me casually. If I'm lucky, you won't be able to kill me, but you will only seriously injure me. If you're lucky Not good, I'm dead...that's the law of heaven, as it should be."

I was silent for a while, and immediately threw the knife away.

Li Zangfeng reminded: "If you can't bear to do it, I can only do it myself..."

My face darkened: "You think that once you become a beast...you have to kill yourself?"

Before Li Zangfeng nodded, I was so angry that my scalp went numb, I stared at him coldly and said, "Then why don't you just leave the palace!? Isn't this punishment more suitable for you than suicide!?"

Li Zangfeng was taken aback for a moment, and then seemed to have realized something.

He actually glanced down at the knife.

...he really took it seriously! ?

I rushed over immediately and held down the knife on the ground before him, but when my hands touched, I couldn't hold back the force, so I fell directly into his arms, my head collided with his head, and I fainted It hurt seven times, so I rubbed my head and stared at him viciously.

Li Zangfeng sighed: "Don't worry, I won't leave the palace."

He paused, and said calmly: "You should give me a knife."

Knife you fart!If you want to be a eunuch, I still want to finish it!

He lowered his head, his face was almost ashen, and his eyes were like stagnant water.

"I know you think me ridiculous. I think myself ridiculous."

"Based on what I know about you, I shouldn't think of you like that... But I thought about it, and I did it. Do you know why?"

He smiled lowly, infinite desolation and sarcasm climbed up the corners of his mouth, his facial features seemed to be dislocated, as if all the shadows were hiding between his brows at this moment, and all the light was away from his heart at this moment.

He then looked at me, then talked about himself.

"Maybe it's because in my heart, I just want to do such a beast to you... That's why I can't see the obvious loopholes... That's why I think of things like this..."

He touched his face, looked down at the knife in his hand, and observed the shape of his face inside, but he didn't seem to see a person.

"I've never noticed this demon before, but now that I'm aware of it... I can't pretend I didn't notice it..."

"You shouldn't let me go, and I shouldn't let myself go."

I was stunned, seeing that the knife was in his hand, and the tip of the knife seemed to stab where it shouldn't go the next moment.

And I can't grab him, what can I do?

I had no choice but to hold back a big lie.

"Who, who told you that I didn't arrange this?"

Li Zangfeng was taken aback for a moment.

Then he came to his senses and started looking at me like a mentally retarded child.

But I have no choice, I have to tell this big lie, otherwise he can really cut himself to pieces with his stubbornness.

I said stubbornly: "I did arrange the medicine, because you are always procrastinating. The reason why I came in to stop you was because I found out that they had given the wrong dose of medicine... that dose is too harmful... ...I don't want you to drink too much..."

When I got to the end, I couldn't get any further, Li Zangfeng doubted: "The boy said you want to play wild... and you also said that?"

I bite the bullet: "I arranged for him to talk."

Li Zangfeng looked at me: "I don't believe it.

I closed my eyes and said firmly, "If you don't believe it, you have to believe it."

Before he could speak, I suddenly stepped forward and hugged him.

Two hands passed through his waist, and my cheek was pressed against his neck. I heard his breath blowing heavily and urgently in my ears, like a frightened bird, looking for something to make me feel at ease. harbor.

But his breathing is also my breathing, and his panic is also my guilty conscience.

Because what I'm going to say next belongs to the kind of half-truth, half-truth, shame and embarrassment.

"Because you like someone, you will inevitably be confused, devious, and even cheap."

"Bitch?"

I smiled slightly, pretending not to hear the uneasiness in his tone, and said: "Some people just have a body that can stretch and shrink. For example, I... when I meet someone I don't like, I am an upright man...Ke Yu If I like it, my bones will be cheap..."

His breathing gradually slowed down, with a hint of excitement.

So I turned my cheeks slightly, almost eye to eye, eyelashes to eyelashes, so close that I saw everything in his eyes, and there was only me in all of them, and only him in my eyes.

"The meaning of the cheap bone is...you just made fun of me like that, which made me very uncomfortable..."

"But you can also tell me to enjoy it..."

I noticed the trembling on his body, felt the fire was just right, so I took a deep breath and said something that I regret for the rest of my life.

"Every night in the future, I hope to spend like this."