I water the flowers of the kaolin

My name is Fang Jiyun, and A'Du's words made me feel puzzled and troubled, but also mixed with a feeling of enlightenment.For a while, there were joys and sorrows, but I didn't know how to answer them.

He wanted me to surpass Lao Qi, saying it was difficult, but not impossible.

Seventh brother is a man like a god, not a god like a man. I can still try to be a human being, but how much will it cost?What has to be sacrificed in the process?Can I bear it?

A'Du said: "Do you think you can't do it?"

I shook my head: "I think I can do it, I just don't know where to start."

A'Du smiled and said, "What's so difficult about that? Why don't you start by accepting yourself first?"

I accept myself?

Are you talking about accepting Seventh Brother's personality?

A'Du sat up cross-legged, scratching his forehead with one hand, as if a playback button had grown there.

"You have to be pulled by emotions and pushed by others to enter the state just now. Is this because you don't like this state in your bones?"

……nonsense.

I almost wiped your neck just now, okay?

The first time I poked the balloon, I killed Su Weibai, the second time I almost killed Li Zangfeng, and the third time I almost killed you. This mode is indeed too dangerous in my opinion, and whoever uses it will know.

Maybe my contempt and rejection were too obvious, A'Du looked at it and said: "But this murderous nature is part of you, if you think it's bad, don't you think you're bad?"

I asked: "It is a part, but it can't represent the whole of me. Why can't I dislike it and hate it?"

A'Du said with a smile: "But the more you dislike it, the more you will suppress it to death. Once it is suppressed to the extreme and explodes, you can't even control it. What's the point?"

I asked, "You mean if I accept it, I can control it better?"

A'Du smiled, at this moment he seemed to be shining by the fire, like a well-prepared orator and philosopher.

"There are all kinds of good and evil thoughts in people's hearts, but there are still some thoughts that are neither good nor evil, but pure impulse. This impulse is like a wild beast. You keep it in a cage on weekdays. One day it breaks out of the cage, and the rest of the thoughts It will be swallowed by it, and then there is nothing else in your mind except this impulse."

I followed his words and said, "But if I let it out, I can tame the beast? Can it live with other thoughts?"

A'Du said: "Some people tame it, and some people are tamed by it. In my opinion, you don't seem like the kind of person who would indulge in killing intent."

I said: "You are very mysterious and detailed, so I can't help but want to ask you a question."

A'Du: "What's the problem?"

I asked him: "You have only seen me fight twice, but you have realized so many rules. Is this something you have experienced yourself?"

A'Du smiled, and I asked again: "I have that state just now, do you also have it?"

This question seems to be asking the core, but A'Du thought for a while before giving me an ambiguous answer.

"I have always done things as I like. I sleep when I want to sleep, and I get slept when I want to be slept. The same is true for killing people."

I asked him, "Because you accepted everything about yourself?"

A'Du smiled and said: "The good and the bad are mine, why can't I accept it? Why should I restrain myself to please others?"

I frowned: "Killing people is different from eating and drinking. After all, people are not leeks. If you cut off your head, it won't grow back."

A'Du laughed and said, "But if you don't start practicing, how will you improve yourself?"

I said, "You want me to take the initiative to kill evil?"

A'Du said with a smile: "Do you think we are in the wilderness, where can we find villains to kill?"

I was silent.

Because I figured out what this bastard was implying.

He still hopes to improve each other in killing each other with me.He can relieve the pain during this process, and I can practice skills during this process. He is doing my ideological work.

A'Du said: "A lot of people you meet are good at killing, good at killing, and the people they kill are not all villains. Like Li Zangfeng, in fact, as long as both parties agree, each other is mentally prepared for life and death, and kills each other once." What's wrong with killing?"

...You want me to become a duelist too! ?

A'Du smiled and said, "I see you don't care about Li Zangfeng. How come you are so fussy about yourself?"

My face darkened and I said: "He is different from me, just because I can tolerate him doesn't mean I have to learn from him.

A'Du said: "How did you two people who are so different become friends?"

I asked back: "If you are different, you can't be friends? Is it possible that you have to look in the mirror to find a friend, and you have to have exactly the same temperament?"

A'Du had nothing to say now, he just changed from scratching his head to scratching his neck.

I think his brain circuits are as clear as Li Zangfeng's. When the fight started, he used multiple stabs at the beginning, but this was actually showing mercy, after all, the blade was smeared with wax.

But once I became murderous and tried my best, he stopped holding back his hands and changed the move from stabbing to cutting around the neck in one move. This is a real killing move.

So at the last moment, he and I killed each other sincerely.

But do you think he is malicious?

Neither.

This boy lives too freely, using his own life at will, and using other people's lives at will.I can't come with him.

I said, "Killing people still has to be taken seriously and seriously considered. Killing an enemy is fine, killing acquaintances is not the case."

A'Du laughed and said, "You're too familiar, so you can't do it?"

I nodded, and he asked again: "Is it okay to say hello to each other?"

You still can't say hello 1 times.

I shook my head, and he asked again: "Then if Xue Lingmie is in front of your eyes, he will try his best to protect Cao Geometry and fight you, will you be able to do so?"

I said: "I only kill fake friends, he is a real friend."

A'Du: "I'm afraid you won't be killed by him, but you will die because of him in the end. Friendship in this world becomes as fast as Yun Duo'er. If someone who is familiar with you like him stops in front of you, you will die." I couldn't bear to kill myself, didn't I end up with myself?"

Although his words were harsh, it was a rare sincerity I heard from him.

But I can also hear the implication. He is afraid that I will change my surname to Mary, and the halo of the Virgin is on top.

Let me add a word here, the Holy Mother, if you see it in movies and TV dramas, you will be pissed off, but if you meet a real Holy Mother in your life, you will die of joy, such as Liang Wan, who radiates all over the body. With a brilliant motherhood, it is my good fortune to meet him, get to know him and let him take care of me a few times.

Even if I can't imitate his seven-point image, I should imitate his three-point image.

At least it can't be killed, right?

A'Du sighed: "I don't know where your stubborn temper comes from, but there is one thing, I think you have to admit it?"

I asked, "Admit what?"

A'Du smiled and said: "The murderous nature is a part of you, it is a part of Li Zangfeng, and it is also a part of me."

"so what?"

"So Li Zangfeng, you and I are the same, we can enjoy killing people."

My heart felt cold, my body froze, and I couldn't help but look at A'Du again.Although I had expected it, I still felt that this was the first time I really knew him.

Even so, I have something to say.

"But I don't like killing people."

A'Du thought I was going to deny it again, but I said something more and completely sealed his mouth.

"The one who likes to kill is another me."