I water the flowers of the kaolin

My name is Fang Jiyun, and what I was thinking was how did things come to this point?

Originally, what we were supposed to do next was mother kindness and son filial piety, and we had to add three generations of grandparents and grandchildren to Qi Le.

Now it has turned into a mother-child relationship, Li Zangfeng stabbed me twice in the ribs, and three generations of grandparents and grandchildren have fun. This family will disappear in a blink of an eye.

How can this be?

This is not possible.

I wanted to have a private conversation with Liang Wan, but Li Zangfeng forced me to spread the cards. The three of us are obviously on different tracks, but now we are forcibly merging into one track, how can nothing happen?

It's still necessary to talk one-on-one first, and get rid of a certain knife maniac first.

I immediately said to Li Zangfeng: "You check A'Du's arm first, I think he needs to change his medicine again."

What's the perfect excuse?

That's it.

What about A'Du himself?It has moved from the small tree shade just now to the observation point very close to us.He stepped on two weeds again and again, so he simply sat down, lying down like a carpet.

Just now, Li Zangfeng and Liang Wan had been quarreling with each other, and sparks were flying everywhere, so this boy watched carefully.He stood without talking, his eyes were focused and excited, his lips were tightly pressed and he refused to disturb, like a quiet man with melons.

At first he was able to observe from a distance, but later he couldn't restrain his curiosity and moved a little bit.Take one step at a time, and get closer as the conversation progresses.

The strange thing is that when I look at him, he doesn't move, and looks up at the sky and the scenery.

But as soon as I looked away, he moved away.

Are you playing one, two, three wooden figures with me?

So this guy has to go down too, only Li Zangfeng can watch him.

After hearing this, Li Zangfeng said, "Shouldn't you change the medicine on his arm?"

I reminded him with my eyes: "It was me last time, this time it should be you."

However, Li Zangfeng glanced at A'Du who was looking around, and said, "But he never showed me his injury. I couldn't handle it properly."

A'Du added: "Not in the future."

He glanced at me: "You are better at taking care of people."

Have you ever seen Li Zangfeng take care of others?Did you also know that he was medically retarded?

When I think of "care", I think of Liang Wan who is still in a state of shock. Since Li Zangfeng refuses to go, I can only send him away.I can negotiate with Li Zangfeng first.

So I said to Liang Wan: "Now that the truth has come out, you are temporarily out of danger. Regarding my identity, I will definitely give you an explanation."

I immediately pointed to A'Du again, and said, "But now there is someone who needs more care than me, can you go and take care of him?"

Liang Wan looked at A'Du, carefully focused on the boy's bandage, looked at it for a moment, his eyes became serious, and when he looked at me again, he seemed to be planning something, he hesitated and said: "Xiao Fang, about what I just said, you Is it possible to..."

His words became slower and slower, as if he was hesitating or fearing something.

My heart felt a little cold when I heard it, but I still managed to calm down and said, "Do you think the legendary Lao Qi is more real, or Xiao Fang who has been with you for so many days is more real?"

There is another sentence that I didn't say in person, but I believe he can see it.

I understand if you don't believe Li Zangfeng, but don't you even believe me?

Liang Wan saw it, he was silent, he didn't speak, silently clenched his fists, a wry smile leaked out from the corner of his mouth that used to smile.

The wry smile didn't come easily, as if he had been brewing for a long time before making a certain decision, because the decision was too important, and it showed on his face that he was entangled.

It is a tangle of belief and unbelief.

It is a collision of hearsay and intuition.

After struggling for a moment and colliding for a few seconds, the answer was freshly revealed on the tip of his tongue.

He looked at me and said word by word: "Okay, I'll wait for you."

With just four words, the big rock in my heart fell by half its height. Although it is still hanging in the air, it is not as tense and terrifying as before.

Taking advantage of Liang Wan leading the reluctant A'Du away, I immediately looked at Li Zangfeng.

I originally thought that our tacit understanding was perfect, our minds were connected, and our brains were the same.Now it seems that only brain supplements are the same, the same unconstrained style and incongruity.

I said helplessly, "This is between me and him, you shouldn't interfere."

Li Zangfeng asked doubtfully, "Are you trying to hide it from him?"

Why doesn't this guy understand?

I asked back: "Of course I won't keep it from him all the time, but when to tell him and how to tell him, shouldn't I decide by myself?"

This power is so sacred that no one should question it.

But Li Zangfeng questioned it. He seemed to be suspicious not only of my concealment, but also of my real relationship with Liang Wan and the way I get along with people around me.

Li Zangfeng said: "You obviously care about him very much, and you also long to be close to him, but you choose to hide your past and become another person by his side."

"What kind of person do you become?"

Li Zangfeng's sharp facial features were immediately covered with a layer of hesitation, which is a rare soft side. I observed carefully, and I guessed that he was looking for a precise and simple language to describe the relationship between Fang Jiyun and Lao Qi. difference.

I don't think he can find it.

Because Lao Qi's me is so different from Fang Jiyun's me that it's almost impossible to coexist.

I waited for a while, but Li Zangfeng really couldn't find the right words, he just stared at him, "Do you like Liang Wan, or do you like the feeling of being another person?"

...What do you mean?

I thought about the difference between the two carefully, and the answer is that there is almost no difference.

I looked at him and replied, "I like him and I like being another person in front of him. There is no conflict between the two."

Li Zangfeng listened silently, but clenched his fists under his cuffs fiercely, his brows were twisted into a knot that couldn't be untwisted, his back was erected extremely high, but his neck was slightly raised, like an invisible noose around him. on the throat.

"You really, really like him?"

He was a little stuck talking.

I explained in a gentle tone: "I like him, but not in the way you think."

Li Zangfeng's breathing froze, and then he relaxed, his eyes were filled with hope.

I continued: "I like him like a son likes his mother, like a younger brother likes his sister, do you understand this liking?"

Li Zangfeng was taken aback for a moment, and then his face showed joy.

It was as if the noose around his neck had completely disappeared.

But after these two emotions appeared one after another, there was a sudden change between his brows, and the doubts as thick as Dongxue were immediately covered.

"Why mother and sister? Shouldn't it be father and brother?"

I coughed a few times, pretending to be deep and said: "People like us shouldn't be entangled in minutiae."

Li Zangfeng thought about it, and thought about it again. Anyway, he couldn't think of anything, so he asked: "You regard him as an elder, so you are willing to show your true nature in front of him?"

Although this is a bit different, it's almost the same. I smiled and nodded, and Li Zangfeng asked again: "Are you afraid that if I expose your past, you will not be able to return to the way you were in harmony with him?"

I nodded, hiding the tears of joy in my heart. You see, this dueling guy is really promising and mature, and he has learned not to be crooked. How much progress is this?

But Li Zangfeng's expression and tone turned cold, and he scolded: "If he can't treat you like he is now, then he is pedantic and superficial! He is not worthy of your liking, why should you wrong yourself and hide everything?"

His words were angry, so I had no choice but to try my best to appease him: "It's not that he did anything wrong, it's just that I don't want to tell him."

"Don't want to?" Li Zangfeng's eyes sharpened, "So... even you look down on your past?"

Hey?

Li Zangfeng was puzzled and said, "You are the Seventh Brother, a man who inherits the will of the previous Seventh Brother. Why do you feel inferior? Why do you need to hide your true nature?"

When did I feel inferior! ?

I suppressed my confusion, and calmed down and said, "I'm not covering up my nature now, what I'm doing now is myself."

Li Zangfeng was startled when he heard this, as if he didn't know what I said, as if he didn't remember where the conversation went, he looked at me up and down, as if he was looking for something.

"I thought you were seriously injured after a catastrophe and changed your temper. But you said that you are not covering up your nature now... Do you think you were..."

Now it was my turn to be surprised.

Surprise is just a prelude, I suddenly remembered my previous anxiety, I have been looking for an answer to it, now I went around, but I found it here.

What Li Zangfeng likes is my soul, which is the synthesis of a series of elements such as personality, temperament, and conduct.

So does he like Fang Jiyun, or the old seven played by Fang Jiyun?

If you want to fall in love with Gaolingzhihua, you have to be taller than him.

But if your Kaolin Flowers are all fake appearances, and what he loves is your fake appearance, not your true intentions, then how should this story be written?

I opened my lips, and my heart was so tense that it couldn't be more intense. Cold sweat formed a film on my back, as if something was beating my back and exposing my soul.

I thought all I needed to confess was Liang Wan.

Unexpectedly, the person I need to confess the most is actually always in front of me.

Li Zangfeng looked at me and waited for me. He stood there speechless, as if his whole life of waiting and patience had been spent in this moment.

Then I can't keep him waiting any longer.

I know that he, like Liang Wan, deserves the truth.

"I became the seventh child not by choice, but by necessity."

"So if I say that everything I looked like before I fell off the cliff was all fake..."

I looked at Li Zangfeng and asked lightly, "Then will you still like me?"

Li Zangfeng didn't speak, just looked at me like that.

After a few seconds, like a century, he seemed to have finally dug out the answer to this question from the bottom of his heart, and presented it in broad daylight.

"Do not."

I froze, and I was cold from head to toe.

I looked at Li Zangfeng as if I was looking at a book that I could no longer read. I looked at every expression and every inch of his face, but I could no longer read the message I wanted.

He seemed to have become very far away from me all of a sudden, and even the breath on his body was also unfamiliar, as if the previous familiarity was just pretending.

Then I felt the pain.

A dull dull pain hit me, disappointment is its by-product, as for other emotions, they are still brewing and accumulating, I can't read them for the time being, I am blank now.

He really... doesn't really like me.

I like it, it's just the old seven I pretended to be.

It is the softness under the cold package that attracts him, not the softness sandwiched between softness, that would be too boring for him, right?

I was about to turn around, but unexpectedly Li Zangfeng said something next.

"I don't believe you're all pretending."

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You will die if you finish speaking in one breath! ! ? ?

I glared at Li Zangfeng angrily, Li Zangfeng realized that he sped up his speech and asked me a few words.

"A person's nature is not in words, not in expression, but in what he does."

"In the secret room, during the duel, in front of the cliff, each pile is a choice between life and death... Do you call that pretending?"

He looked at me, seemed to blame, seemed dissatisfied, but more of a firm determination.

"If that's pretending in your eyes, then you've messed with me. You'd better pretend for the rest of your life, and lie to me for the rest of your life. I won't let you go until you turn the fake into real!"