Shhh, listen, there's a sound

Silence, long silence.

After a long silence, Zhao Wenxuan licked his dry and chapped lips, "No."

Youtian didn't look at him, even if he didn't look, he could still imagine the child's panicked, pale and pitiful expression.

"I never felt that those things could be erased."

"The consequences of the mistakes I made cannot be made up for anyway."

"I know everything, it's crystal clear." Zhao Wenxuan's voice became firmer and louder.

"Puff." You Tian was stunned for a moment, then laughed out loud, "Since you are so self-aware, you should understand how much I don't want to see you, right?" He turned around and looked at Zhao Wenxuan's watery eyes. In the middle is Zhao Wenxuan's familiar yet unfamiliar coldness, "Then what are you doing now, compensation? Or, is there anything else I need to do?"

"It's also thanks to you spending so much effort. Even if I am already a useless person, it is very difficult to invade my spiritual world, and these simulated worlds, huh, has the technology been so advanced when I was away? Really It's a pity that I can't personally participate in scientific research or something."

His tone was relaxed, but Zhao Wenxuan could hear the deep sense of powerlessness in it.

"These... are all based on your research. The holographic technology that connects the human brain is great. It is a technological revolution. Well, many people are grateful to you." Zhao Wenxuan didn't know what to say What, dryly praised.

"So that's the case, you used that." Youtian lowered his head, his expression was gloomy, and he paused every word, "But, how can you use that with peace of mind?"

"Zhao Wenxuan, I bet you'd be hard-pressed to find someone as miserable as me."

"The only relative sold me to an illegal organization for human experimentation for money; my younger sister, who was not related by blood but was kept in a group for warmth, committed suicide with a serious mental illness; I was finally rescued and lived a normal life, the best My friend even burned himself to death; when I grew up, I was imprisoned by illegal forces because of my research results, and my predestined lover who thought I shared weal and woe was still an undercover agent placed beside me by illegal forces.”

"Zhao Wenxuan, you are very powerful. You are so powerful that you can clearly understand my past, and you have seamlessly interspersed into these so-called game worlds."

Youtian's tone was indifferent, as if he was telling someone else's story, those words that cut open his heart and dripped with blood didn't seem to be hurting his heart.

"You have dirty blood on your hands, don't try to hug me."

Zhao Wenxuan opened his mouth, but didn't say anything, more precisely, he didn't know what to say.

"You killed a lot of people who didn't need to die, do you know that? You know!" You Tian's expression was broken, he stared at Zhao Wenxuan's bewildered face, and suddenly covered his face with his hands, in a low voice laughed.

The laughter became louder and louder until he coughed unbearably, and he was still laughing, an untimely laugh.

"Why do you meddle in my life, my memory, everything I've arranged!!!" You Tian laughed enough, raised his head and stared at Zhao Wenxuan with red eyes, couldn't help but growl.

The eyes are not focused.

"Because I love you." Zhao Wenxuan suddenly said, his voice was a little hoarse due to lack of water.

"Love? You deserve to say that word." Youtian's exquisite face was full of sarcasm, "You also know what love is? Stop joking, it's a bad joke."

"No!" Zhao Wenxuan interrupted Youtian hastily, "I understand, I understand what love is! Ever since you left, I have understood!" He took a few steps to Youtian and stretched out his hands Pulling Youtian's left hand to his chest, "My heart is beating for you, as long as you want, you can make it stop beating at any time!"

The touch under his hands is wonderful, the warmth of the skin seeps through the thin clothes, warming Youtian's cold palms.

"When I heard the news of your suicide, my sky collapsed. Fortunately, you didn't die, but became a vegetable; I left the organization, searched for all possible people who could save you, and finally got the help from Academician Liu. The method of holographic technology to awaken the mind." Zhao Wenxuan lowered his eyes, his words trembling, "The success rate is only 30.00%, if I fail, I will also get lost in the holographic world, after all, this technology has not yet been perfected."

Youtian felt the trembling of the hands holding his hand, he curled his lips into a chuckle, "Just to save a lunatic who wants to die?"

He shook off Zhao Wenxuan's hands, "Then do you know that Academician Liu's son died in that explosion."

"That explosion didn't have to kill so many people, but because of your leak, almost no one survived the explosion."

"Zhao Wenxuan, you, you are not worthy." His thin lips, which made Zhao Wenxuan obsessed, uttered words that almost broke him, "You are not worthy of talking about love, all your feelings are utilitarian."

"Youtian, yes, the former Zhao Wenxuan didn't understand and didn't deserve it, but Zhao Wenxuan who knew Youtian knew love and deserved love." Zhao Wenxuan tried to hold Youtian's hand again, but he dodged it lightly.

"I don't want to talk about these things." Youtian rubbed his tingling temples and changed the subject, "I want to know, are all the things I've experienced these days fake?"

"Well, the scene and so on are all fake, but those people are all real. They voluntarily participated in the plan to wake you up."

"You brought in innocent people again, selfish." Youtian's tone was exaggerated, "You are always so selfish."

After finishing speaking, Youtian was silent. He felt that he should have a lot to say. He wanted to scold Zhao Wenxuan or say something else, but his throat seemed to be stuffed with cotton, and he said not come out.

He began to recall that when people are dying, most of them will recall their own life, even if it is not worth remembering, a tattered life.

When he was very young, his mother died, and his father was a violent man who was greedy for money and cheap sake. He found a woman who was not the same as him to be Youtian's stepmother, and he also brought a little sister.

My sister is very cute, but she doesn't like to talk.Youtian didn't go to school when he was very young, and he picked up papers and wine bottles every day to subsidize his family. Sometimes he would secretly save money to buy lemon candy for his sister—because he could only buy the cheapest candy.My sister likes it because she has never eaten other candies.

A little older, the titular father sold himself to an organization doing human research for about two cases of sake, and has lived a life of daily injections and slices ever since.

Operating table, medicine, scalpel, this is most of Youtian's childhood.

I don't know if it was a blessing in disguise, but after going through such a dark day, he was actually rescued by the police, and he also got something like superpowers because of those perverted research.

In order to better integrate into the society, Youtian entered a primary school.I met a girl, that girl was cheerful and optimistic, but she had a little temper, but she seemed more lively. She became one of Youtian's few friends and taught him a lot.

It's a pity that she died, or committed suicide.

It's just such a stumbling growth, showing a unique talent, researching something that seems to be very powerful, and being favored by others and wanting to monopolize it.

No, I refuse.

Youtian still remembers how resolute he was when he spoke, how resolute and pathetic.

The result of the refusal is to let him be locked up, and the reasons for this need not be elaborated.

It was there that he met Zhao Wenxuan.

A good-looking boy who is good at disguising, calculating and good-looking.

Maybe he was dazzled and blinded by the light in his eyes when he laughed, in short, You Tian fell in love with him hopelessly and was willing to die for him.

It's a pity that the feelings that started with interests will eventually end with interests.

Under that sunny smile, Youtian unconsciously did many wrong things, and when he realized it, some things were irreparable.

But those scientific research results should not be used for that kind of thing.

Youtian finally chose death.

He confessed to the disgruntled society that he had developed those things, and then curled up on a damp bed in a dark and cramped rental room and swallowed an overdose of sleeping pills before the media exploded.

Why do you have to admit to the society that you did it all by yourself?Maybe it's because I still love, out of love, I want to resist all childish heroism.

Everything was arranged clearly, the only problem was that he was rescued by Zhao Wenxuan even though he didn't die.

All the things are stuffed in Youtian's mind, twisted into a mess.He closed his eyes, and for a while it was the clear eyes of his sister's innocent smiling face, for a while it was the cold light reflected by the scalpel, for a while it was a huge mushroom cloud, and the blood of stumps all over the ground.

It's very chaotic, Youtian is restless because of the chaos.

Suddenly he drew his sword. He had said long ago that he was a madman.

He put his hand on the blade and slashed down fiercely, expressionless, as if he was cutting someone else's flesh.

Blood gushed out quickly, coupled with Youtian's deliberate squeezing, it flowed down Youtian's arm in a short time, and the blood dripped onto the ground.

"What are you doing! Why?!" Zhao Wenxuan was stunned at first, but then he reacted, screaming and snatching the sword from Youtian's hand, but Youtian didn't resist.

Why?Does a madman need a reason to do things?

"It hurts." You Tian looked at Zhao Wenxuan who was anxiously treating his wound, and suddenly said, "Fake, why does it hurt?"

This world is fake, why does it hurt when you scratch yourself; the feelings you gave me are all fake, why, my heart hurts like a gouge.

Zhao Wenxuan was speechless, he was often speechless.

He just picked up the sword, scratched his palm, and then pressed his injured hand and Youtian's injured hand tightly together, the blood of the two gushed out, and immediately blended together without distinguishing each other.

"Look," Zhao Wenxuan said softly, "I'm in pain too. The world is fake, but people are real."

Because I love you, I will hurt.

Because I love you, I am not afraid of pain.

Youtian tilted his head and watched Zhao Wenxuan's blood meet his own, expressionless.

An impulse welled up in his heart, and he never stopped his impulse.

He grabbed Zhao Wenxuan by the collar, dragged him in front of him, and kissed him hard.

It's more like a bite than a kiss.The smell of blood permeated between the lips/teeth of the two, and they did not know how to do it just to vent their emotions.

A kiss full of blood, not a romantic kiss.

"I said, I have no intention of living, and I have no reason to live."

"I have given up the bottom line for you, and I have died for you once, and I don't want to die for you a second time."

"People who have failed in this life and have nothing to worry about, after you go out, tell those people-thank you, but there is no need."

Since they still have lips/teeth/dependence/dependence, those words are vague.

"Promise me, live on, since you have left that disgusting organization, live on well."

Zhao Wenxuan seemed to have sensed something, and clenched Youtian's hand, begging in his eyes.

"The last sentence, forget me."

This sentence is full of tenderness, like their best time.

They hug each other tightly, kiss/kiss each other, flesh and blood.

Looks like the sweetest mate ever.

Zhao Wenxuan felt the solid arms around him gradually disappear, and the tears that had been swirling in his eyes finally flowed out slowly.

I already know how to love, but no one is lovable.

How can I live well without you?

Zhao Wenxuan raised his head, looking at the distant sunset in confusion, the words Youtian once said to him echoed in his mind.

"Your smile is like the sun."

"You will fall in love with me, because, in this world, you can't find anyone who loves you more than me."

"Sorry, I can't afford to love you."

He slowly closed his eyes, and saw the high-spirited Youtian in fresh clothes and angry horse. He smiled recklessly and arrogantly, and the look in his eyes surprised Zhao Wenxuan.

Are you alive?as you wish.

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"Wake up, wake up!" A flurry of footsteps and shouts made Zhao Wenxuan frowned, and he sat up with force, squinting at Academician Liu who was rushing over.

"Wen Xuan, you're awake." Academician Liu said cautiously.

"I know, the vital signs are completely lost, right?" He said flatly, "He asked me to bring you a sentence."

"He said: Thanks, but no need."

Not having the energy to observe the distraught expression of Academician Liu, and also politely declined the proposal of a physical examination, Zhao Wenxuan just wanted to be quiet for a while.

The empty room was filled with suppressed sobs.

I once said that I can agree to any request of yours, but I can't do it if I forget you.

The author has something to say: the writing is less than expected. I originally planned to write about the six worlds and then explain the emotional entanglement between Zhao Wenxuan and Youtian, but I felt that I couldn’t write this book, so I hurriedly ended it. , If you don’t understand, just ask in the comment area, I love you