I start a business to support you GL [rebirth]

Lou Chunyu received her heart, and her heart was already flooded with warmth, "You are so kind to my friend."

"I'm not all that nice to everyone." Although Song Xizi has many friends, it's impossible for everyone to care about each of them one by one. It can only be said that Lou Chunyu and her are really destined, and the fate between people is not clear. She didn't know, but she felt that compared with other people, Lou Chunyu's strong temperament that did not match her slender appearance was what she admired from the bottom of her heart.Sometimes she couldn't help but want to help Lou Chunyu and do her best to help her.

Later, she found that she was not the only one who had such thoughts, even Zhang Xin and Ying Letian felt compassion for Lou Chunyu, and there were many friends around Lou Chunyu, and they were actually worried about Lou Chunyu.

Song Xizi added: "I've never met someone like you. After becoming friends with you, I realized how precious yours are, so I wanted to help you."

The joy in Lou Chunyu's heart disappeared instantly. "Actually, there are many people like me. It's just that they are unlucky, and they don't have a chance to show up by your side for you to show your love."

Lou Chunyu spoke quickly and urgently, Song Xizi just grasped the meaning of her words, Lou Chunyu had already shaken his head and walked upstairs.

Song Xizi remained where he was, frowning and thinking about what she meant.

With a burst of anger, Lou Chunyu ran up at full speed uncontrollably when she rushed up, and when she ran upstairs, she stopped slowly, recalling the words she said to Song Xizi in her mind, the voice was still in her voice Echoing in her mind, there was a buzzing sound in her ears, she thought she must be bewitched, why did she speak so strangely, as if she was complaining, complaining about something, complaining that Song Xizi was so nice to everyone, or complaining that Song Xizi was just I'm helping myself, I have no other ideas but to help.

She was really weird and not like herself.

She walked slowly, on the way to the dormitory, she dragged her heavy steps, her expression was in a trance.

A few minutes before the lights were turned off, everyone was ready, and some were already lying on the bed in the dormitory, sending text messages, reading novels, and waiting for the lights to ring to remind them.Qi Yaya lay on the armrest of the bed, and asked Lou Chunyu who was opposite: "Chunyu, Xizi asked you out, what did you say to you one-on-one?"

Lou Chunyu blinked and said, "She said she would help me find a solution."

"Awesome, as expected of Song Xizi, how can she help you, did she say anything?" Qi Yaya became proud, as expected of the person she was looking for, she just has the ability, ordinary college students like her, already panicked, Maybe cry secretly in bed, call home to complain about unfairness, and ask parents to send money to comfort themselves.Speaking of which, Lou Chunyu is really powerful. When she encountered such a big incident, she didn't tell her grievances everywhere. Instead, she comforted others not to care.

"She said that she knew someone who was the moderator of the school forum. They would find a way to make my post top so that more people could see my post. As for whether others would believe it, they couldn't decide. Rely on the judgment of netizens."

Qi Yaya propped up her upper body, "I think it's too slow, why don't you delete the post, just block the person who posted it. If you want me, I must find a way to find that person. As long as I find out who he is, I will find someone to block him, put a sack on his way back to the dormitory, and beat him up."

"Listen, is this what a college student should say? Fortunately, Lou Chunyu is not you, so you know how to fight and kill, be civilized. I can understand Song Xizi's approach. Since the post is full of false accusations, why delete it? Deleting it is to make others suspect that our Lou Chunyu has a backer."

"But Lou Chunyu has a backer. Didn't Song Xizi help her find the moderator?"

"401, the lights are off, don't talk any more, and you will lose disciplinary points for talking." The patrolling students will knock on the door to remind them.

The four of them stopped talking, and the bedroom fell silent.

In the silence, Qi Yaya whispered, "Lou Chunyu, I really envy you, and I want Song Xizi to help me."

Lou Chunyu suddenly let out a chuckle.

She was greedy, and the memories in her dreams always haunted her. In the dream, she had a family husband and children, but these feelings have gradually faded with her death, and sometimes she began to wonder if she really did it. It was just a dream, and it became real.

But she firmly believed in Song Xizi's existence.

Sometimes she still thinks about what she missed in her previous life. If she hadn't chosen to leave in her dream, if she had stayed back then, without Zhong Wenlin, without children, without her own native family, she and Song Xizi... What else will happen between her and Song Xizi?

A rational voice reminded her that in the next life, the current Song Xizi may not have changed, but she herself has changed. In this world, she met Song Xizi earlier, and her position with Song Xizi also changed.The stories that happened in the past will not repeat themselves to them, and the paths she and Song Xizi take will be different.

From the moment she woke up, she brought her memories back to life, built a high wall around her heart, and made enough psychological construction, but now it collapsed. It turned out that her heart was still vulnerable.

She fell asleep in a trance, and in her dream, she returned to the familiar living room, where Song Xizi had stayed and had a constant connection with her.It was still here when she dreamed.

This time, the living room was completely different from what she remembered.She looked around and found many different places.

The biggest change was the photo on the wall. She remembered that when she moved in as a tenant, there was only Song Xizi in the photo on the wall.Song Xizi took photos of every place she had been to as souvenirs. At that time, she was very envious of Song Xi who could walk everywhere, always wandering in front of the photo wall, greedily trying to remember every photo in the heart.

But the photos she sees now are completely different from what she remembers, each photo actually has her own existence.

The young couple took a group photo by the beautiful lake, she put her arms around Song Xizi's waist, and Song Xizi hugged her.The two smiled happily at the camera.

The two gradually matured and went to Thailand. On the sprinkler festival, Lou Chunyu was splashed like a drowned chicken, and looked at the camera angrily. It is conceivable that she looked at the person who took the picture and asked her why she refused to save her.

and also……

It was only later that both of them had signs of aging. Lou Chunyu and Song Xizi stood together, but they stopped hugging. They stood side by side, looking at the camera, with tiredness in their eyes.

"Are you in a better mood?" This voice was Song Xizi, whom she was most familiar with, but it was usually a pleasant voice full of suppressed emotions.

Lou Chunyu's back was stiff, she turned around slowly, Song Xizi in her eyes turned into a blurry figure, she blinked hard, sometimes she could see clearly, sometimes it was just a phantom.

Song Xizi said to her, "I don't mean to argue with you. Are you hungry? If you are hungry, I will cook for you."

"I regret being with you." She heard herself talking, but she couldn't believe what she said.What to regret and why.

Song Xizi ignored her, and continued to talk to himself: "If you can't let go of your mother's physical condition, I can drive you back. You don't have to come back these days. You can take good care of your aunt in the hospital with peace of mind."

"What are you going back to do? My mother doesn't recognize me anymore. I have no home at all. She said she never gave birth to a daughter like me in her life. She is now in the hospital and won't let me go back to see her. My brother never thought about taking good care of her." She, I'm a daughter, but I can't even go to see her. Xizi, let's break up, I'm so tired, I can't hold on." Is this what I'm talking about?Why is he full of resentment towards Song Xizi in front of him, only endless complaints.

Song Xizi smiled wryly, "Lou Chunyu, you have been with me for so many years, and you also came out to your family, can you make your parents change their minds when you go back?"

Lou Chunyu said: "It's not that you don't know, there is nothing I can do to come out. If I don't tell, my parents will force me to go back and get married. At that time, I really loved you and I couldn't leave you. Now they hope When I went home, my family told the outside world that the boyfriend I was dating couldn’t afford a house, and we would not get married until we had a house. Only my parents knew the truth, and no one else knew.”

"Yes, in this case, you have said more and more in the past few years, you regret coming out of the closet, you regret being with me, I don't want to quarrel with you anymore, we have quarreled for more than a year, and we have had enough." Song Xizi's expression became blurred again, Lou Chunyu wanted to see her clearly, so she couldn't help but take a step and walked in front of Song Xizi.

At this time, she saw Song Xizi's face clearly in front of her. Song Xizi was no longer young, there were no wrinkles at the corners of her eyes, but there were traces of time. The corners of her mouth drooped powerlessly, surrounded by a sense of powerlessness.

"What happened between us?" Lou Chunyu asked her.This sentence is what she is asking.Not that angry voice.

"I should be the one to ask you, what's wrong with you, and you have agreed for a lifetime, but within a few years, you said you regretted it, you always said that I wasted your youth, and asked me to let you go, let you go Go home, marry and have children, and be your filial daughter. When you said these words, have you considered my feelings, have you ever thought that I am also a human being, I have feelings, and I will also feel heartache. "

"Isn't that the case. Song Xizi, I'm not like you. You are capable. You can even support you with your parents. You didn't want to get married. I'm different. I severed ties with my family because of you. My family is Poor, but that's my family..."

"Have you said enough?" Song Xizi said, "You have said these words more and more frequently over the years. At first I thought you were just upset. I want to do something for you. I will find a way to buy it for you." House, write your name, I will buy insurance for us, even if we have no children in the future, we will be guaranteed, isn’t this what we have agreed, but you don’t even want the future, and tell me every day that you regret it. I I was thinking, why is it different from before, is it because you have changed, or I didn’t see you clearly at all.”

"At the beginning it was because I loved you. If it wasn't for you, why would I break up with my family and stay in Shanghai. Song Xizi, I'm afraid, I'm getting older every year, I'm afraid of myself... I'm afraid you won't I'm sick, what should I do then..."

"You were the one who brought up the breakup. You were the one who said you wanted to go back and get married. Now you say you broke up because you were afraid that I would not want you. Lou Chunyu, if you want to give up, just give up. If you think getting married can solve all problems, then go get married." Your marriage, if you think all of this is my fault, then blame me." Song Xizi grabbed the car keys from the table, even in her anger, she still didn't vent her anger on the door, and gently closed the door .

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small theater:

Lou Chunyu: Why do I dream that Song Xizi and I are lovers?Is it day thinking and night dreaming?

Song Xizi: Lou Chunyu looks at me more and more strangely... Should I call the police?

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My understanding is

For a girl from a patriarchal family, her mind is bound by a rope, and there are very few people who really break free.

Some tragedies are, after all, fate.And the parties themselves didn't realize that no matter how good people they meet in society, as long as they don't take the initiative to break free from the shackles, they can't get out of their final fate.

The only way to get out is to untie yourself.

The first time, Lou Chunyu was kept by Song Xizi, and the two of them survived until they were 30 years old, but they couldn't last a lifetime, because Lou Chunyu was too inferior and insecure, and she couldn't see her future, so she and Song Xizi broke up.

The second time was the life in Lou Chunyu's dream. Song Xizi let go and let Lou Chunyu go back to live the life he wanted, but in the end Song Xizi found that Lou Chunyu did not get happiness.

The third time is Lou Chunyu's own choice. She can get married, stay with Song Xizi, or be single. She decides her own way.

This is my idea, maybe my writing is really bad, and I can't fully convey it to everyone.

Please forgive me.Give everyone a small red envelope.