Like and not

The normal days passed leisurely, and the art exhibition that Yukimura was planning before was also organized in an orderly manner. The date was set on May 29, the eve of the summer vacation.

As if in the blink of an eye, the junior year is almost over.

In the senior year after another summer, both of them only had internships and graduation defenses left.I don't know if there will be a chance to live in the same dormitory like now. When I wake up in the morning and open my eyes in a daze, the first thing I see is the defenseless person not far away.

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On May 29, the sky was clear and clear.

Compared to Yukimura who is still calm and composed, Fuji has been vaguely excited since getting up early.One hour and 45 minutes before leaving the venue, Fuji held the easel in one hand and leaned down to look at Yukimura, who was leisurely filling in the canvas with color: "Interview with Yukimura's first art exhibition? Why don't you go to the venue to prepare in advance?" Is it?"

"Huh?" Yukimura raised his head subconsciously, and turned the paintbrush in his hand to accidentally leave a streak of watercolor on Fuji's cheek. Looking at Fuji's slightly dazed look, Yukimura first smiled and said, "Compared to going, I'm fully prepared." I was in a daze at the venue, and now I want to paint you even more."

The light brown hair was pulled behind the ears, and the wet pen tip touched the skin of the face with a slightly itchy feeling.Pulling down from the corner of the eyes, spreading across half of the face, I simply closed my eyes and felt the movement of the pen tip, but I couldn't imagine what figure Yukimura was drawing, but unconsciously remembered that Yukimura stared at the canvas every time he painted Focused look.

I felt that the base of my ear was getting hot.

The pen tip continued to move down without stopping, across the slender neck and down to the delicate collarbone, painting colorful colors on the fair skin.

Fuji opened his eyes and turned to look at Yukimura.

Yukimura had already put down the paintbrush in his hand, looking at Fuji's violet eyes full of inexplicable meaning, gradually, he raised his right hand obsessively, and caressed Fuji's cheek with his thumb.

"Jingshi?" Buer called softly.Yukimura withdrew his hand as if he had been awakened, and his purple eyes were instantly restrained to tenderness and doting: "Ah, it's messed up."

Buer lowered his eyes, and calmed down his unbalanced heartbeat by pulling the mirror on the side. He was amazed by the reflection in the mirror after just one glance.The bright red blooming flowers on my left cheek are enchanting and unrestrained, the branches and leaves are stretched, and the slender meridian has been sliding through the collarbone and disappearing into the depths of the neckline, as if it grows from this body, from the heart, full of seductive flowers, With icy blue eyes, bringing out some soul-stirring flavors, I couldn't help but murmured: "Poppies?"

Yukimura didn't answer, and walked behind Fuji silently.Fuji, who was limited to a small field of vision on the mirror, could only see Yukimura's slender fingers stretching out, and the fingertips gently gliding past his ears.

Only then did I notice that the red paint on the base of the ear was smeared, and Yukimura's fingers were also stained with the same blood-red color, and Yukimura's warm voice came from above his head: "In this way... it will be more Makes you want to hide."

Where are you hiding...

Fuji couldn't see Yukimura's expression through the mirror, only felt that Yukimura patted himself on the shoulder, and the voice from above his head seemed to hide a slight sigh in addition to the usual gentleness: "Zhou Zhu, it's better to wash the flowers or wash them." drop it."

"Yeah." Buer got up and went to the bathroom, splashing cold water on his face over and over again, his heart was still beating fast, he raised his eyes to look at himself in the mirror, the water droplets slid down his skin to his chin, and then Drop by drop, it landed on the edge of the sink and shattered into smaller sprays.

Buer frowned a little with a smile, and it looked like it was not the slightest difference from the past.

The exhibition was held for three days and was well received in the art world of Paris.

After sorting out the follow-up matters, Fuji, who was in a good mood, pulled Yukimura out for a stroll.Walking to the edge of the Seine without knowing it, the two people who had nothing to do just crossed this bridge and walked back from that bridge with great interest.

The bridges on the Seine River are actually very interesting. There are more than 30 new, old and old bridges in total, and most of them have their own style, either gorgeous or graceful. Classical and modern coexist on this ancient and quiet river.

Tired from walking, Fuji leaned his back on the bridge railing and looked slightly at Yukimura with gentle eyes: "This is also a new bridge. Guess why it is so popular?"

"Huh?" Yukimura, who was playing with a brass lock in his hand, curled up his mouth and smiled. In fact, it is easy to see that the railings of the bridge are connected by iron chains, and there are some simple locks hanging here and there, which are in harmony with the The lock in my hand was the same style as the one I bought at the stall at the bridgehead because it looked interesting, "Is it the Wishing Bridge? What do you want?"

"No~" Bu Er raised an index finger on his lips and said with a smile, "The secret is hidden in the lock."

"secret?"

"Well, hide the untold secret in a brass lock, lock it on the bridge, and throw the key into the Seine." Fuji looked up at the blue sky, "It's very interesting."

☆, final chapter

"Yeah." Yukimura squinted his eyes and lay down on the railing, while the Seine River flowed quietly under his feet, "Zhou Zhu, do you have any plans for the next year?"

"Let's take a trip around Europe, and we have initially agreed with a travel agency to provide regular articles." Buer's warm voice seemed to blend in with the rhythm of the Seine River, "Why not travel for free if someone pays for it?" Hey, what about you, Jingichi?"

"Go back to Kanagawa and open a gallery or bar, and then draw design sketches." Yukimura closed his eyes slightly, feeling the summer breath brought by the wind.

"One is the extreme silence during the day, and the other is the hustle and bustle at night. It really resembles your contradictory temperament." As he spoke, he turned his head, with warm and gentle eyes, "I'll tell you a secret, but it's actually a little bit worse." , I might fall in love with you." Fuji smiled, seeming to be self-deprecating, "If we were more alike, I would love you as I love myself, or we would be more different..." Fuji's fingers almost unconsciously Fiddled with the brass locks one by one, "It's not so plausible."

"Plausible..." Yukimura squinted his violet face halfway, and the corner of his mouth deepened his smile a little bit. The brass lock in his hand was hung on the iron chain and made a "click" sound, and then he put the key of the lock in a different place. In the palm of Er's hand, "Actually, I also have a secret, and now, it will always be a secret."

Buer lowered his eyes to look at the key in his palm, the sun was shining on his face, and his slender eyelashes cast a faint shadow under his eyes.During the few seconds of being dazed, a playful child bumped into Fuji's back. Unprepared, the key slipped from the palm of his hand and fell into the river, only splashing a light wave, and then soon There was no trace.

After the child said sorry twice, he ran away with his companion.

The two of them were silent for a while, Yukimura thought that the key would sink to the bottom of the river soon, and then gradually covered with moss in the long days, maybe one day... it would be buried by the silt at the bottom of the river.

In the end, Yukimura just heard his own voice saying, "Hey, Zhou Zhu, who did you say you had an appointment with in the afternoon?"

"Ah, the editor of the magazine." Fuji raised his hand and looked at his watch as if he had suddenly come to his senses, "Oops, I'm going to be late!"

"Subway? I plan to go back to school too, let's go together."

"Okay, by the way, Seichi, when are you going back to Kanagawa this year?"

"Flight tonight."

"Huh?" Fuji showed a slightly surprised and confused expression, "So sudden this year?"

"Well, there is something temporary at home."

"That's it..." Entering the subway station, Buer glanced at the stop sign, "Two directions... I'm going down here, I might not be able to come back today to see you off..."

Yukimura waved his hand, and went to the next floor from the escalator on the other side, and Fuji just happened to come down, and the two stood opposite each other and looked at each other across the subway tracks.There were subways roaring into the station on both sides at the same time, but neither was the one to wait for. The subway started to leave, and Fuji saw Yukimura standing opposite him again, and waved to him with a smile.

You still here……

After waiting for a few minutes, another subway came into the station on both sides at the same time, and Fuji and Yukimura got on the train almost at the same time.Through the layers of glass of the car doors on both sides until blurred, Fuji seemed to see Yukimura's lips moving, but he hadn't had time to distinguish what the word was...

In the end, run counter to it.

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Departure from Paris, go all the way to shoot, Switzerland, Italy, Austria, Germany, Belgium, each city may stay for a week or two, maybe stay a month or two, freedom depends on preference.When I was free, I exchanged emails with Yukimura who had returned to Japan, describing the customs and customs of each country. When I took a photo that I liked, I always showed it to Yukimura first, and then waited for Yukimura to reply with a comment that might be a joke.

Yukimura said that he opened a store by the sea in Kanagawa, but he didn't say what it was, but just invited him to come and see it when he had time.

Fuji smiled and replied yes.

After going around for almost a year, Buer returned to Paris on the eve of graduation. After putting down his luggage, he somehow felt palpitations. He habitually went for a walk by the Seine River, and unconsciously walked on the bridge covered with brass locks. , Leaning on the bridge railing, Fuji was still thinking about asking Yukimura when he would come back when the phone rang suddenly for no reason.

...The number of Jingshi?Bu Er answered in doubt, but there was a clear and familiar female voice on the other end of the phone: "Is it Fuji Zhou Zhu?"

"Yes...you are?"

"I'm Yukimura Masaki... I think you know me, I'm Yukimura Seiichi's younger sister..."

"I think I should tell you something... My brother opened a succulent plant shop in Kanagawa. The decorative paintings on the wall are the scenery of various European countries. It seems to be copied from the photos you emailed to him..."

"About this time last year, the various indicators of the body showed a tendency to deteriorate. My elder brother, who never knew how to take care of himself, was ordered by his parents to return to Japan..."

"...But he has been refusing surgery, just resting..."

"...worsened again...morning..."

I don't know if it's the moisture from the Seine River or the rapid heart rate that affected the phone's radio waves. I just feel that my head is buzzing and I can't hear anything clearly. My weak fingers can no longer grasp anything. The phone never The fingertips slipped and fell straight into the Seine River, just like the original key, but it splashed a wave and was submerged by the flowing river.

Buer covered his face with one hand, and slowly squatted down.

I just realized...we are so similar...and so different...

I lied about a secret... I love you so much...

But because of timidity and cowardice, I have been avoiding my inner voice... I thought I could maintain the status quo until eternity...

what is your secretHehe... Really only the Seine knows...

Tears seeped from between his fingers, Bu Er just lowered his head deeper towards the Seine River, not wanting anyone to find out his fragility.

--The END--

☆, Nine Things & Postscript

Nine things you probably didn't know about luck

1. For that illness, Yukimura first came to Paris for the follow-up treatment of the disease.

2. In that divination, the blank tarot cards represent no future.

3. That trip, a trip that was just going away. The next sentence should be a desperate love, but none of them have it.

4. The sea of ​​flowers, the flower language of lavender, is waiting for love.

5. The piggy bank, back from a trip to Monaco, there is no more coin in the piggy bank.

6. I have taken many photos of that photo, but there is no picture of Yukimura in any of them.

7. That sentence, in Yaji’s phone call, the unfinished words were 【You are the one my brother likes...'like'】

8. That farewell, on the subway, the words that Fuji did not recognize were 【さようなら】, goodbye, and goodbye forever.

9. That brass lock, the secret hidden by the brass lock, is that I love you.

Nine, because their stories will never be complete again.

Postscript: [In this specious love, we are all losers. 】This is what I want to express at the beginning and the end of this article. The love that no one expresses, after all, is a tragedy of passing by.

In fact, the reason for writing this article is very simple. One day, I was chatting with my friends and said that we should write BE together. After thinking about it, there were similarities and wrongs.But I didn't expect that the more I wrote later, the more difficult it would be. In addition, after saying goodbye to the student party, the time became more fragmented, and there were some bits and pieces.

Thank you all for being with me until now.

I have a HE ending that I promised, and some extra episodes that may come, I will tentatively put it in the book that is combined with "Book of Laughter and Forgetting", otherwise I really don't know what benefits will be included in the book. As for the progress of the book, Orz It depends on the progress of "The Book of Laughter and Forgetting", so if you are interested, come with me to urge more updates⊙ω⊙

If the book unfortunately dies, I will also release the HE ending, and the time will be set on 3.29 next year. Give them a HE ending on this lucky day.

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Love you guys

Jun Shuiyou was completed on November 2014, 11