short story collection

"I wish you happiness. We have known each other for such a long time, and it is enough."

"You don't have to feel guilty. You didn't feel sorry for anyone. I figured it out a long time ago. This relationship is destined to end without a problem."

"I'm just a little regretful that you couldn't be with me for the rest of your life."

"However... if there really is an afterlife, I will never meet you."

I was awakened again, and I have dreamed of this scene countless times...

This dream is truly terrifying, and the uncomfortable feeling of being about to suffocate is lingering.

This dream is like a poisonous snake spit out its core, hiding in the dark and staring at me, every time I think it has disappeared, it will come out viciously and bite me, giving myself a fatal blow.

I walked to the sink, patted my face with ice-cold water, and looked at myself in the mirror in a daze. I don't know why, but I felt a little strange.

The scene in the dream can't help reappearing in my mind.

Someone posted a photo of himself kissing the sleeping Su Yanche on the bulletin board of University A.

Su Yanche stood aside without saying a word, and his dream self was desperately tearing up the photos, so embarrassed.

There were already many people gathered around, seeing that the protagonists of the photos had appeared, they surrounded them, looked at the two curiously, and the discussion reached the ears of the two.

"Are they gay?"

"Two men..."

"That's right, it's disgusting, they are two men..."

"Tch, what's wrong with this society?"

The discussion became louder, and Su Yanche's silence made them discuss the two more unscrupulously.

In the end, it was the gentle chemistry teacher who pulled him up, drove him away from the crowd, and led him away from that terrible place...

I never thought it would be that serious.When the principal called me to his office, I had already prepared for the worst, but I still couldn't imagine the result. That day was probably the darkest moment in my life.

"Student Gu Yang, you also know how outstanding Su Yanche is. Do you really hope that you will ruin his life?" The principal is very optimistic about Su Yanche.

In fact, it should be. Su Yanche has a good family background, good looks, good temperament, and good temper. In short, Su Yanche is good at everything, the proud son of heaven.

I know this very well.Su Yanche, he is the proud son of heaven.

"Actually, you also know that if you insist on not letting go, you will destroy him." Seeing that I didn't respond, the principal continued to persuade me earnestly.

"What about others?" I couldn't help it after all, wanting to see him again.Yes, I am not giving up after all.

The principal looked at me, sighed, as if he had made a great determination, and finally said, "Actually, Su Yanche is not gay, he just sees you as pitiful, so he can't help but agree to date you... ..."

Of course I don't believe it.I asked stubbornly, "Where are the others, Ah Che?"

"I'm here." Su Yanche looked very tired, he pushed open the door of the principal's office and walked in.

"Ache..." I walked over, trying to hold his hand, but he dodged it lightly.

I am a little surprised.He gave me a guilty look, "Sorry, I'm not gay...never have been."

I don't know if the guilt in his eyes is because he lied to me for too long.He is not gay, never, never... It turns out that what I thought we were happy at that time was actually just my naive self-deception and self-righteousness.

All I thought, but only I thought.

The principal smiled with relief, "I've already said, Su Yanche is not gay."

I thought, then I can finally give up.

I seem to have finally realized the feeling of being more sad than heartbroken.

The heart really hurts, like being torn apart.I never knew that it would be so painful.

After the pain is over, probably there will be no more pain, right?I think.After all, I have already given up, how could it still hurt again?

Later, whenever someone asked about me and him, I would always pretend to be relaxed and smile, and then explain: "He is not gay, I am."

Although thinking of him and mentioning him, my heart still hurts, but I will let it go eventually, won't I?After all, time... is the cure for everything.

Time will heal all wounds.

The author has something to say:

== Fancier is too stupid to say that it is uncomfortable to look at like that, some are too short and some are too long, insisting that I change it like this...

Ah... Look at it like this, maybe it will be more comfortable?