Inhibition Marking Committee
Chapter 166 The Thing I'm Afraid Of
Huan Xiubai dragged the chair back to the stove and sat down heavily.
Take out the things you prepared earlier and pile them on your lap.A small bag of popsicle sticks that I secretly collected, the marked photos I took before, the two silver pigtails, the paper medicine bag Simo gave back, and the half-torn notebook.
These are his precious possessions, and he is going to burn them to himself in advance so that they will accompany him after death.
He threw the first few things into the stove, and the flames blazed high, and the burning process illuminated his hollow face.
When it was silver-haired's turn, he was really reluctant.He stroked and caressed it in the palm of his hand, held it in front of him, and stuck it on his cheek. There was not much pheromone left in the rainstorm. He breathed hard, trying to imprint that smell on his soul.
Finally, he moved his hand over the stove, loosened his fingers with difficulty, and the flames happily devoured his little lover's braids, and in the full combustion, reflected a scorched shadow.
After finishing this, Huan Xiubai lay down in the chair, panting weakly, as if he had exhausted all his life.
His gaze involuntarily fell on the person lying on the small wooden bed.Fearing that after he left, Xi Mo would wake up from the cold without anyone to warm his bed when he returned in the middle of the night, so he added an extra soft quilt and added enough charcoal fire in the stove.
I don't know if another 10 minutes or 10 minutes have passed, his eyes are sour from staring for too long.He picked up the blank notebook, and for the last time, used a pen to record the chaotic words in his heart.When he was writing, he caught sight of Xi Mohui several times, clutching the pen, holding the notebook, burying his head in his arms, and stopped crying silently.
don't want to go.
don't want to leave your side.
He tore off three full pages, crumpled them up, threw them into the fire, and burned them to ashes.A ray of wind came in through the crack of the door, shaking the fire, and a small piece of unburned paper fell to the ground.
Huan Xiu had to leave in vain.
He walked to the bed and exhausted all his willpower so as not to touch Xi Mohui.He didn't want to wake him up, so he moved closer through a layer of air, and traced the outline of Alpha's face with his fingers, thinking that even if he went to the afterlife, no matter how many bowls of Mengpo soup he drank, he would still be able to immediately think of this person. look.
It's so beautiful... I have to remember it all the time.
In my next life, I want to recognize you, catch up with you, and be with you sooner.
Xi Mohui suddenly turned over, Huan Xiubai froze in place, but Alpha did not wake up, he was relieved, but he had to admit that at that moment, he even hoped that Xi Mohui would wake up and find his Evil, stop him, punish him.
In the end, he bent down and held the warm little finger of his little lover.
When opening the door, the hands and feet are unconscious.He stepped on the ankle-deep snow, gently closed the door, stood in front of the small window, stared at the light inside for a long time again, until the snow covered his shoulders, he was like a broken stone statue, dragging his broken soul and The body, slowly, slowly walked to the distance.
Step by step, step by step, turn around, halfway, he suddenly found that the ruby ring was still on his hand, took it off, folded it in the palm of his hand, kneaded it, kissed it again, turned around, and walked along. Walking back with his footprints, he gently opened the door and placed it on the small table in the room.
His little lover, sleep peacefully.Hope he can have a good dream.
Huan Xiubai picked up the scarf on the back of the chair, intending to use it to replace the ring, and accompany him to leave.The gemstone ring was quietly placed on the table, revealing the luster of time.
That's something from the Xi family...
He couldn't be so selfish and let the treasures inherited by the Xi family be destroyed in his own hands.
Besides, what if... Simo still needs it when he returns... What?
I came back once, and wanted to leave again, but I couldn't move.The hut where he has lived for more than ten days is still warm, and there are memories of him and Xi Mohui in every place. Asking him to break up and abandon it is tantamount to cutting his soul.His trembling teeth suddenly bit down hard, and the pain on his lips reminded him, forcing him to leave.
He closed the door for the second time, went around to the back of the house before leaving, found the words engraved by Xi Mohui, and stroked the engraving stroke by stroke, until the last stroke, he whispered it himself: "Bastard fool."
No matter how many times I watch it, I still think it's too cute.
He really wanted to laugh, but just as he opened his lips, what came out was a violent cough.He covered his mouth, blood dripping from between his fingers.
His dangling body was torn apart. This time, when he walked, he was walking backwards facing the hut.In the shaky and blurred vision, the warm yellow light became smaller and disappeared bit by bit until it reached the bottom of the mountain and was almost at the lake. He couldn't move anymore.
Suddenly, his legs and feet started to move uncontrollably, and he ran as fast as he could towards the hut. He realized that he was being "squeezed" out of his body, and the soul controlling the body was not him. He touched the spring/knife on his waist, and without hesitation, stabbed the knife into his stomach.
He fell down in the snow, and he was a little relieved that the mastermind's consciousness was temporarily pushed back by him.
The perseverance shown by a person at the last moment can always break through the bottom line of the physical body.
Huan Xiubai covered his bleeding wound and got up again.This time, there is no gentle teacher Xi waiting to save him at the finish line.Maybe his stomach hurts, but he can't feel it anymore. Every time he takes a step away from the hut, he dies.
Finally, he came to the lake.A thin layer of ice formed on the surface of the lake, sprinkled with thin snow, like a silent cemetery.He took out the blueprint in his arms, took a while, and used it to build a mixer.Its core driving force is the ability to deconstruct. It has been tested countless times in the conscious world behind Xi Mohui's back, and it can succeed once and completely destroy the existence of this body.
Even if you want to self-destruct, you have to disappear cleanly.If the shell is left behind and used by the mastermind, approaching and hurting Xi Mohui, then he will die with regret.
Huge machines cast dark shadows.Just climb the stairs, jump in, and it's all over.
Standing by the lake, Huan Xiubai recalled the scene of their messing around in the car that night, turned around, and the hut in the mountain was no longer in sight.Facing the mixer, he took two steps back, and suddenly lost all superficial strength. In the last moment, he burst into tears unbearably, his chest rose and fell intermittently, like a lost child, scared and helpless, crying With tears in his eyes, he murmured and prayed: "I want to go home, I want to go home... Xi Mo, I want to go home..."
Perhaps it was because his will began to falter, and the main brain began to compete with him for control in the body again.
The mastermind seduced: Why do you have to die?Coexist with me, live as a god, and you will get everything you want.
Huan Xiubai took off the scarf, carefully folded it neatly and stuffed it into his arms, holding it and his indelible thoughts, he jumped into the blender without any hesitation.
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To my little lover:
There are some things I can't say to you, I want to write here.
Think about it, when did I start to be afraid of death?Let's start from the day I fell in love with you.After meeting you, I have never felt lonely again.Every day I want to live another day.Every day before I met you seemed to be wasted.It would be great if I met you earlier, only three months have passed, and it feels like several lifetimes have passed.I've never been this happy in my life.Thinking about it now, I still feel very happy. It’s great. I have a lover and a home.
I was not afraid of death before, never was.No one misses me and no one misses me.But then there was.During the days when you were waiting for me in the hut, every time I walked to the door, I was reluctant to enter.I see a light in the window, there is a person waiting for me at home, and I will have a baby with him soon, every time I think about it, I... (tears blurred the writing) So I stood outside, stood for a long time, trying to Remember what it feels like to be happy.You saw me from the window, opened the door, and reprimanded me pretending to be unhappy, but my heart was so warm.You dragged me to the stove, hugged me, and warmed me.I looked at you and suddenly felt very afraid of death.
I'm dead, what do you do?What if the next person treats you badly?If you play petty temper, he doesn’t know how to embarrass you, he doesn’t know that you have to comb your hair after taking a shower, doesn’t know that you like to eat grape ice cream, doesn’t know that you are afraid of pain, have a shallow throat, and only drink Warm water, what should I do?What if he doesn't pamper you, makes you sad, and you cry when you are wronged, and no one will vent your anger on you?When I think about it, I can't bear it at all, and I can't rest assured at all.
But I also know that you can attract better people than me, and maybe you will meet better people.You will also have children, a child, or many children, so that you will not be sad for our children anymore.
But our children should be cute too.He has such a good father, so it makes no sense not to be handsome, kind-hearted, and have beautiful eyes of the same color as yours. If you are so good, you will definitely like this child.If it's a girl, you braid her braids and I'll teach her how to fight.If it is a boy, I will take him to travel through the small world to catch monsters, and you will teach him the binding spell.When a child makes a mistake, when I discipline him, you will be soft-hearted, and you will remind me to pay attention to my temper afterwards, but I am still so happy, because this is the result of our joint love.
On weekends, our family of three, take Xiaolong, go to the amusement park together, and let me treat you to dessert, okay?When we are old and leave the child in the way to inherit the family business, the two of us will build a hut and live in it just like we do now.You became a pretty little old man with a bad temper, and I followed you on crutches, picking up the shoes you lost angrily, and persuading you to go home for dinner...
sorry I forgot.
I can't survive this winter.
I was thinking, if you think of me now and then, I'm not really dead.If only our child could be born, you can't help but think of this fool when you see him.
After all, we've only known each other for three months.Three months, said fast is really fast.Maybe in the future, after three or four years, you won't even remember what I look like.
So, I don't want you to bear my feelings for the rest of your life, just treat me as a dewy love affair, that's fine.
(continued later)
I'd love to say it, but I'm a selfish person.Perhaps what I am afraid of is not death, but being forgotten by you.Maybe it's not forgetting, but not caring, letting go.
I'm not here anymore, you should let it go.But I am very selfish, I don't want to leave traces in your heart and life all the time.You will remember the hairpin I gave you, how I bullied you, the smell of strawberries, and the quilt we slept together these days, and even when you smell smoke, you will think of me.
My road has come to an end, I have got the result, but your road is still very long.Maybe you will forget this fool in a blink of an eye, and you will meet more and better people, and find someone to spend your life with.
But I want to proudly say that absolutely no one can love you more than I love you.
Last night, I was out of my soul in the middle of the night and woke up with a start.I had a terrible dream. I dreamed that you forgot me. When I went to find you, the child died in my stomach. I begged you to touch my stomach. You refused and left with someone else.I took medicine and gave birth to a baby. There was a lot of blood and it hurt a lot, a hundred times and a thousand times more painful than when I had my glands cut.But it's useless, it won't grow anymore.
I buried the child in Wuliang Town, hiding it in the concrete crack of the stairs, hoping that when you pass by, it will see you and recognize you as its father.When I buried you, you were already here. You were very good. Although you didn’t recognize me, you helped me bury the child in the plastic bag. You were very gentle and reminded me to buy a cemetery for the child. Here, the corpses are dug up and eaten by wild dogs (this paragraph is crossed out).
But those are our children...
Why even wild dogs eat it.
Our child, it has no name.You haven't had time to give it a name yet.
I wish his father would have given him a name.It would be great if someone could give him deep expectations and love, and give him a meaningful name.
I tried my best to catch up with your footsteps, why, in the end, it was all in vain.
You are so good, so cute, but why, I just can't finally have you?
Every day I spend with you makes me hate fate more.The happier and happier I am, the more painful and regretful I am.I love you so much, every minute with you is worth it.If you could measure your goodness by money, I might be the richest person in the world.When I thought that I would never be able to live such a life again, there might be someone who would take my place, enjoy your beauty, comb your hair, kiss your cheeks, listen to your intimate calls, and occupy your heart And hug, I hurt so badly that I couldn't breathe.
Why can't it be me?
I have nothing but you.
In the past 20 days, I have been extremely happy.
Thank you, Seamus.You love me so much and I am so grateful.
This letter will not come into your hands, I will burn it when I finish writing it, and you will never see it.
I hope you... remember me.Not as Huan Xiubai, but as a foreigner who loves you to death.
lied to you.
You still forget me, let go of me, and live a happy life.
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After a night of wind and snow, when I woke up in the morning, the weather was exceptionally fine.
Simo sat up from the bed, hugged his knees drowsily, and waited for a long time, but no one came in through the door.
Even breakfast was not prepared.
He sensitively sensed something was wrong, and suddenly remembered that they should have set off to return to the boundless world last night.He got out of bed immediately, stepped on something on the floor for the first time, took a step back, and picked it up. It was a small piece of paper the size of a fingernail, with burnt marks on the edge, and only the unburnt side could be discerned. Two words: happiness.
As he held it, his breathing became short of breath, and the terrible truth was about to unfold before his eyes. He should have dropped the piece of paper and ignored it, but a force pushed him to use the law of time, and the shape of the piece of paper grew and spread across his fingertips , the burnt yellow color faded, revealing the original state of a piece of paper before it was thrown into the stove.
He wriggled his lips soundlessly, read the content on it, and ran to the stove again, recovering the remaining two sheets of paper from the ashes.They were wet and blurred, and many characters were unclear. Looking at them, more characters were wet with tears. After looking back for a while, Simo realized that the tears were dripping from his eye sockets. of.
"Liar... Liar!!" Simo rushed out the door, but Luoxue stopped him.
He could clearly clear a path with a spell, but he forgot to use it. He walked in the snow by instinct and shouted hoarsely around: "Ah Huan...Ah Huan... Come out now, I won't let you go!" Angry, you come out, I forgive you..."
He searched all the way to the lake, and the first warm wind after winter stirred his silver hair.Spring seems to be coming.
There is a strange machine by the lake, Simo recalls that it was not there before.He didn't know the usefulness of the machine, so he wandered around the grove by the lake, trying to find some traces of omega, so that he could catch this villain and punish him.
At this time, a hungry bird happened to pass by, its wings lost power, and it fell into the big mouth of the machine. When it came out of the other mouth, it turned into powder, floated into the lake, and merged with the water.
Simo understood.
From choking, to sobbing unconsciously, to crying suddenly.
Holding the three pieces of paper full of confessions, he could barely stand up: "How dare you abandon me...you left me and left...why...you left, who will spoil me...there is no one left ..."
He walked to the lake, picked up a handful of water with the palm of his hand, tears dripped on the water, and drank his lover's ashes and his tears coldly.
On the vast snowy field, a person walked alone. There were two people when he came, and he was the only one left when he returned.
The ethereal and mournful singing reverberated intermittently, like weeping and complaining, singing a mourning song for his lover...
"...through me, into the city of pain and suffering;
"Through me, enter into the good and the good;
"The power of the Holy Spirit, the highest wisdom and supreme love, together with you, will last forever and last forever, escape from the abyss of evil for eternity..."
Finally, he whispered to himself: "I sang the song you wanted to hear...Why don't you come out? Did you not listen to me?"
After speaking, he finally exhausted himself, facing the sunny sky, and fell down.
What he didn't know was that in a place he couldn't see, a mass of mourning souls stretched out their hands, trying to embrace his body, but empty hands passed through him and stopped in a void.
Huan Xiubai looked at his hands, helpless, and knelt down beside him.
I can't hug Simo back anymore.
The figure of Jimin appeared in front of the snow.When the woman saw her son fainting, she was not overly anxious, and walked over calmly to take him away.
Before breaking through the space to transfer, Xi Min turned his head and glanced at the original place.
The lonely and dead Huan Xiubai stood there.
"Let it all go." She said to the space.
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The cod went away, peacefully, wrapped in three layers of bread crumbs, cut into countless portions, and each of the fairy godmothers forked a piece
In fact, this paragraph was almost written a long time ago. I originally wanted to delete it, but after reading it repeatedly, I still think, um, it’s so good! !Mei Meihuan is too cute, the bad one is Cod (covering the blood in his mouth) Let alone, I have cried countless times, my little lover woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
After this period, it will be all sugar for married life.The next chapter will directly change the body.
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Xi Meimei: You can't have a man who loves to lie.I have to break up even if I live!
Huan Erbai: We can break up.How many times to chase you.I didn't stop after chasing you to call the police
Xi Meimei: Who are you?i lost my memory
Huan Erbai:! ! ! !Very good! ! !Then can I replay the way you were when I marked you! !I'm so excited!
Xi Meimei angrily smashed it with a pillow: You bastard!Big bastard! ! !Don't tag me!
Huan Erbai grabbed him and pressed his head on his neck: Then you mark me?
Xi Meimei sneered: In the next life
Huan Erbai: Well, it’s my next life for me
Just get knocked down by the bastard omega, eat it and wipe it off
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I dare not thank the fairy godmother for not killing me anymore, I think you have already prepared your own kitchen utensils
感谢在2019-12-1811:52:07~2019-12-1821:59:53期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmines: 1 piece of sweet wine jam and meatballs;
Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: the mountains and the sea are not in 5 bottles;
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!
Take out the things you prepared earlier and pile them on your lap.A small bag of popsicle sticks that I secretly collected, the marked photos I took before, the two silver pigtails, the paper medicine bag Simo gave back, and the half-torn notebook.
These are his precious possessions, and he is going to burn them to himself in advance so that they will accompany him after death.
He threw the first few things into the stove, and the flames blazed high, and the burning process illuminated his hollow face.
When it was silver-haired's turn, he was really reluctant.He stroked and caressed it in the palm of his hand, held it in front of him, and stuck it on his cheek. There was not much pheromone left in the rainstorm. He breathed hard, trying to imprint that smell on his soul.
Finally, he moved his hand over the stove, loosened his fingers with difficulty, and the flames happily devoured his little lover's braids, and in the full combustion, reflected a scorched shadow.
After finishing this, Huan Xiubai lay down in the chair, panting weakly, as if he had exhausted all his life.
His gaze involuntarily fell on the person lying on the small wooden bed.Fearing that after he left, Xi Mo would wake up from the cold without anyone to warm his bed when he returned in the middle of the night, so he added an extra soft quilt and added enough charcoal fire in the stove.
I don't know if another 10 minutes or 10 minutes have passed, his eyes are sour from staring for too long.He picked up the blank notebook, and for the last time, used a pen to record the chaotic words in his heart.When he was writing, he caught sight of Xi Mohui several times, clutching the pen, holding the notebook, burying his head in his arms, and stopped crying silently.
don't want to go.
don't want to leave your side.
He tore off three full pages, crumpled them up, threw them into the fire, and burned them to ashes.A ray of wind came in through the crack of the door, shaking the fire, and a small piece of unburned paper fell to the ground.
Huan Xiu had to leave in vain.
He walked to the bed and exhausted all his willpower so as not to touch Xi Mohui.He didn't want to wake him up, so he moved closer through a layer of air, and traced the outline of Alpha's face with his fingers, thinking that even if he went to the afterlife, no matter how many bowls of Mengpo soup he drank, he would still be able to immediately think of this person. look.
It's so beautiful... I have to remember it all the time.
In my next life, I want to recognize you, catch up with you, and be with you sooner.
Xi Mohui suddenly turned over, Huan Xiubai froze in place, but Alpha did not wake up, he was relieved, but he had to admit that at that moment, he even hoped that Xi Mohui would wake up and find his Evil, stop him, punish him.
In the end, he bent down and held the warm little finger of his little lover.
When opening the door, the hands and feet are unconscious.He stepped on the ankle-deep snow, gently closed the door, stood in front of the small window, stared at the light inside for a long time again, until the snow covered his shoulders, he was like a broken stone statue, dragging his broken soul and The body, slowly, slowly walked to the distance.
Step by step, step by step, turn around, halfway, he suddenly found that the ruby ring was still on his hand, took it off, folded it in the palm of his hand, kneaded it, kissed it again, turned around, and walked along. Walking back with his footprints, he gently opened the door and placed it on the small table in the room.
His little lover, sleep peacefully.Hope he can have a good dream.
Huan Xiubai picked up the scarf on the back of the chair, intending to use it to replace the ring, and accompany him to leave.The gemstone ring was quietly placed on the table, revealing the luster of time.
That's something from the Xi family...
He couldn't be so selfish and let the treasures inherited by the Xi family be destroyed in his own hands.
Besides, what if... Simo still needs it when he returns... What?
I came back once, and wanted to leave again, but I couldn't move.The hut where he has lived for more than ten days is still warm, and there are memories of him and Xi Mohui in every place. Asking him to break up and abandon it is tantamount to cutting his soul.His trembling teeth suddenly bit down hard, and the pain on his lips reminded him, forcing him to leave.
He closed the door for the second time, went around to the back of the house before leaving, found the words engraved by Xi Mohui, and stroked the engraving stroke by stroke, until the last stroke, he whispered it himself: "Bastard fool."
No matter how many times I watch it, I still think it's too cute.
He really wanted to laugh, but just as he opened his lips, what came out was a violent cough.He covered his mouth, blood dripping from between his fingers.
His dangling body was torn apart. This time, when he walked, he was walking backwards facing the hut.In the shaky and blurred vision, the warm yellow light became smaller and disappeared bit by bit until it reached the bottom of the mountain and was almost at the lake. He couldn't move anymore.
Suddenly, his legs and feet started to move uncontrollably, and he ran as fast as he could towards the hut. He realized that he was being "squeezed" out of his body, and the soul controlling the body was not him. He touched the spring/knife on his waist, and without hesitation, stabbed the knife into his stomach.
He fell down in the snow, and he was a little relieved that the mastermind's consciousness was temporarily pushed back by him.
The perseverance shown by a person at the last moment can always break through the bottom line of the physical body.
Huan Xiubai covered his bleeding wound and got up again.This time, there is no gentle teacher Xi waiting to save him at the finish line.Maybe his stomach hurts, but he can't feel it anymore. Every time he takes a step away from the hut, he dies.
Finally, he came to the lake.A thin layer of ice formed on the surface of the lake, sprinkled with thin snow, like a silent cemetery.He took out the blueprint in his arms, took a while, and used it to build a mixer.Its core driving force is the ability to deconstruct. It has been tested countless times in the conscious world behind Xi Mohui's back, and it can succeed once and completely destroy the existence of this body.
Even if you want to self-destruct, you have to disappear cleanly.If the shell is left behind and used by the mastermind, approaching and hurting Xi Mohui, then he will die with regret.
Huge machines cast dark shadows.Just climb the stairs, jump in, and it's all over.
Standing by the lake, Huan Xiubai recalled the scene of their messing around in the car that night, turned around, and the hut in the mountain was no longer in sight.Facing the mixer, he took two steps back, and suddenly lost all superficial strength. In the last moment, he burst into tears unbearably, his chest rose and fell intermittently, like a lost child, scared and helpless, crying With tears in his eyes, he murmured and prayed: "I want to go home, I want to go home... Xi Mo, I want to go home..."
Perhaps it was because his will began to falter, and the main brain began to compete with him for control in the body again.
The mastermind seduced: Why do you have to die?Coexist with me, live as a god, and you will get everything you want.
Huan Xiubai took off the scarf, carefully folded it neatly and stuffed it into his arms, holding it and his indelible thoughts, he jumped into the blender without any hesitation.
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To my little lover:
There are some things I can't say to you, I want to write here.
Think about it, when did I start to be afraid of death?Let's start from the day I fell in love with you.After meeting you, I have never felt lonely again.Every day I want to live another day.Every day before I met you seemed to be wasted.It would be great if I met you earlier, only three months have passed, and it feels like several lifetimes have passed.I've never been this happy in my life.Thinking about it now, I still feel very happy. It’s great. I have a lover and a home.
I was not afraid of death before, never was.No one misses me and no one misses me.But then there was.During the days when you were waiting for me in the hut, every time I walked to the door, I was reluctant to enter.I see a light in the window, there is a person waiting for me at home, and I will have a baby with him soon, every time I think about it, I... (tears blurred the writing) So I stood outside, stood for a long time, trying to Remember what it feels like to be happy.You saw me from the window, opened the door, and reprimanded me pretending to be unhappy, but my heart was so warm.You dragged me to the stove, hugged me, and warmed me.I looked at you and suddenly felt very afraid of death.
I'm dead, what do you do?What if the next person treats you badly?If you play petty temper, he doesn’t know how to embarrass you, he doesn’t know that you have to comb your hair after taking a shower, doesn’t know that you like to eat grape ice cream, doesn’t know that you are afraid of pain, have a shallow throat, and only drink Warm water, what should I do?What if he doesn't pamper you, makes you sad, and you cry when you are wronged, and no one will vent your anger on you?When I think about it, I can't bear it at all, and I can't rest assured at all.
But I also know that you can attract better people than me, and maybe you will meet better people.You will also have children, a child, or many children, so that you will not be sad for our children anymore.
But our children should be cute too.He has such a good father, so it makes no sense not to be handsome, kind-hearted, and have beautiful eyes of the same color as yours. If you are so good, you will definitely like this child.If it's a girl, you braid her braids and I'll teach her how to fight.If it is a boy, I will take him to travel through the small world to catch monsters, and you will teach him the binding spell.When a child makes a mistake, when I discipline him, you will be soft-hearted, and you will remind me to pay attention to my temper afterwards, but I am still so happy, because this is the result of our joint love.
On weekends, our family of three, take Xiaolong, go to the amusement park together, and let me treat you to dessert, okay?When we are old and leave the child in the way to inherit the family business, the two of us will build a hut and live in it just like we do now.You became a pretty little old man with a bad temper, and I followed you on crutches, picking up the shoes you lost angrily, and persuading you to go home for dinner...
sorry I forgot.
I can't survive this winter.
I was thinking, if you think of me now and then, I'm not really dead.If only our child could be born, you can't help but think of this fool when you see him.
After all, we've only known each other for three months.Three months, said fast is really fast.Maybe in the future, after three or four years, you won't even remember what I look like.
So, I don't want you to bear my feelings for the rest of your life, just treat me as a dewy love affair, that's fine.
(continued later)
I'd love to say it, but I'm a selfish person.Perhaps what I am afraid of is not death, but being forgotten by you.Maybe it's not forgetting, but not caring, letting go.
I'm not here anymore, you should let it go.But I am very selfish, I don't want to leave traces in your heart and life all the time.You will remember the hairpin I gave you, how I bullied you, the smell of strawberries, and the quilt we slept together these days, and even when you smell smoke, you will think of me.
My road has come to an end, I have got the result, but your road is still very long.Maybe you will forget this fool in a blink of an eye, and you will meet more and better people, and find someone to spend your life with.
But I want to proudly say that absolutely no one can love you more than I love you.
Last night, I was out of my soul in the middle of the night and woke up with a start.I had a terrible dream. I dreamed that you forgot me. When I went to find you, the child died in my stomach. I begged you to touch my stomach. You refused and left with someone else.I took medicine and gave birth to a baby. There was a lot of blood and it hurt a lot, a hundred times and a thousand times more painful than when I had my glands cut.But it's useless, it won't grow anymore.
I buried the child in Wuliang Town, hiding it in the concrete crack of the stairs, hoping that when you pass by, it will see you and recognize you as its father.When I buried you, you were already here. You were very good. Although you didn’t recognize me, you helped me bury the child in the plastic bag. You were very gentle and reminded me to buy a cemetery for the child. Here, the corpses are dug up and eaten by wild dogs (this paragraph is crossed out).
But those are our children...
Why even wild dogs eat it.
Our child, it has no name.You haven't had time to give it a name yet.
I wish his father would have given him a name.It would be great if someone could give him deep expectations and love, and give him a meaningful name.
I tried my best to catch up with your footsteps, why, in the end, it was all in vain.
You are so good, so cute, but why, I just can't finally have you?
Every day I spend with you makes me hate fate more.The happier and happier I am, the more painful and regretful I am.I love you so much, every minute with you is worth it.If you could measure your goodness by money, I might be the richest person in the world.When I thought that I would never be able to live such a life again, there might be someone who would take my place, enjoy your beauty, comb your hair, kiss your cheeks, listen to your intimate calls, and occupy your heart And hug, I hurt so badly that I couldn't breathe.
Why can't it be me?
I have nothing but you.
In the past 20 days, I have been extremely happy.
Thank you, Seamus.You love me so much and I am so grateful.
This letter will not come into your hands, I will burn it when I finish writing it, and you will never see it.
I hope you... remember me.Not as Huan Xiubai, but as a foreigner who loves you to death.
lied to you.
You still forget me, let go of me, and live a happy life.
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After a night of wind and snow, when I woke up in the morning, the weather was exceptionally fine.
Simo sat up from the bed, hugged his knees drowsily, and waited for a long time, but no one came in through the door.
Even breakfast was not prepared.
He sensitively sensed something was wrong, and suddenly remembered that they should have set off to return to the boundless world last night.He got out of bed immediately, stepped on something on the floor for the first time, took a step back, and picked it up. It was a small piece of paper the size of a fingernail, with burnt marks on the edge, and only the unburnt side could be discerned. Two words: happiness.
As he held it, his breathing became short of breath, and the terrible truth was about to unfold before his eyes. He should have dropped the piece of paper and ignored it, but a force pushed him to use the law of time, and the shape of the piece of paper grew and spread across his fingertips , the burnt yellow color faded, revealing the original state of a piece of paper before it was thrown into the stove.
He wriggled his lips soundlessly, read the content on it, and ran to the stove again, recovering the remaining two sheets of paper from the ashes.They were wet and blurred, and many characters were unclear. Looking at them, more characters were wet with tears. After looking back for a while, Simo realized that the tears were dripping from his eye sockets. of.
"Liar... Liar!!" Simo rushed out the door, but Luoxue stopped him.
He could clearly clear a path with a spell, but he forgot to use it. He walked in the snow by instinct and shouted hoarsely around: "Ah Huan...Ah Huan... Come out now, I won't let you go!" Angry, you come out, I forgive you..."
He searched all the way to the lake, and the first warm wind after winter stirred his silver hair.Spring seems to be coming.
There is a strange machine by the lake, Simo recalls that it was not there before.He didn't know the usefulness of the machine, so he wandered around the grove by the lake, trying to find some traces of omega, so that he could catch this villain and punish him.
At this time, a hungry bird happened to pass by, its wings lost power, and it fell into the big mouth of the machine. When it came out of the other mouth, it turned into powder, floated into the lake, and merged with the water.
Simo understood.
From choking, to sobbing unconsciously, to crying suddenly.
Holding the three pieces of paper full of confessions, he could barely stand up: "How dare you abandon me...you left me and left...why...you left, who will spoil me...there is no one left ..."
He walked to the lake, picked up a handful of water with the palm of his hand, tears dripped on the water, and drank his lover's ashes and his tears coldly.
On the vast snowy field, a person walked alone. There were two people when he came, and he was the only one left when he returned.
The ethereal and mournful singing reverberated intermittently, like weeping and complaining, singing a mourning song for his lover...
"...through me, into the city of pain and suffering;
"Through me, enter into the good and the good;
"The power of the Holy Spirit, the highest wisdom and supreme love, together with you, will last forever and last forever, escape from the abyss of evil for eternity..."
Finally, he whispered to himself: "I sang the song you wanted to hear...Why don't you come out? Did you not listen to me?"
After speaking, he finally exhausted himself, facing the sunny sky, and fell down.
What he didn't know was that in a place he couldn't see, a mass of mourning souls stretched out their hands, trying to embrace his body, but empty hands passed through him and stopped in a void.
Huan Xiubai looked at his hands, helpless, and knelt down beside him.
I can't hug Simo back anymore.
The figure of Jimin appeared in front of the snow.When the woman saw her son fainting, she was not overly anxious, and walked over calmly to take him away.
Before breaking through the space to transfer, Xi Min turned his head and glanced at the original place.
The lonely and dead Huan Xiubai stood there.
"Let it all go." She said to the space.
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The cod went away, peacefully, wrapped in three layers of bread crumbs, cut into countless portions, and each of the fairy godmothers forked a piece
In fact, this paragraph was almost written a long time ago. I originally wanted to delete it, but after reading it repeatedly, I still think, um, it’s so good! !Mei Meihuan is too cute, the bad one is Cod (covering the blood in his mouth) Let alone, I have cried countless times, my little lover woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
After this period, it will be all sugar for married life.The next chapter will directly change the body.
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Xi Meimei: You can't have a man who loves to lie.I have to break up even if I live!
Huan Erbai: We can break up.How many times to chase you.I didn't stop after chasing you to call the police
Xi Meimei: Who are you?i lost my memory
Huan Erbai:! ! ! !Very good! ! !Then can I replay the way you were when I marked you! !I'm so excited!
Xi Meimei angrily smashed it with a pillow: You bastard!Big bastard! ! !Don't tag me!
Huan Erbai grabbed him and pressed his head on his neck: Then you mark me?
Xi Meimei sneered: In the next life
Huan Erbai: Well, it’s my next life for me
Just get knocked down by the bastard omega, eat it and wipe it off
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I dare not thank the fairy godmother for not killing me anymore, I think you have already prepared your own kitchen utensils
感谢在2019-12-1811:52:07~2019-12-1821:59:53期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmines: 1 piece of sweet wine jam and meatballs;
Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: the mountains and the sea are not in 5 bottles;
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!
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