Spectator

"You know about 'labor going to war' over a decade ago?"

Su Qingyi looked at Luo Zhitong quietly, his words were very calm, as if he was describing an ordinary thing.

More than ten years ago, government officials wanted to take advantage of the special opportunity of World War I to get rid of their weak position and the situation of being dominated by the world's powerful countries, so they proposed the method of "labor participation in the war".14 people in China were sent to Europe as laborers to do war service.These laborers dug trenches and repaired fortifications on the front line of the war every day. Nearly 2 people were killed by German artillery fire on the battlefield.

Su Qingyi continued: "I was only 11 years old that year, my mother was too sick to get out of bed, my grandparents were too old to do the work, and the family could only rely on my father to make ends meet, but it was because of that incident. , so that my father lost his life, and since then our family has been torn apart, and our family has been destroyed."

Luo Zhitong has been carefully watching Su Qingyi's face, but he found that the other party is too calm, even when he said the four words "family broken and dead", he didn't show any emotion at all.

"But...it wasn't the deputy commander and the officer who gave the order back then, why did you kill them both?" Luo Zhitong was still a little puzzled.

Su Qingyi sneered, looked up at Luo Zhitong in a daze, "But they are the executors."

"Because they are the executors, they must die?" Luo Zhitong shook his head in disapproval, and really couldn't understand Su Qingyi's thinking, "Although your father died because of participating in the labor force, they are just Is it just carrying out the orders from above, will Mr. Su be a little bit angry by doing this? And as far as I know, the matter of going to Europe to work as a laborer is voluntary—”

"Voluntary?" Su Qingyi interrupted her, as if she had heard some big joke, she bent down and laughed loudly, tears flowed from the laughter.He wiped his tears with one hand, and with the other hand, he clasped the railing of the prison door tightly. Because he was holding it too hard, his nails were embedded in the flesh, and there were faint traces of blood.

Luo Zhitong found that the man's usually indifferent face finally had a look of emotion at this moment, a little crazy and a little ferocious.She was slightly taken aback, and couldn't help but think of the man in her memory who looked like a banished fairy, the man who would hand her a handkerchief with a warm smile that made people get lost unconsciously.

Su Qingyi let go of his hand, watching the blood spread along the veins in his palm, he couldn't help laughing at himself, "Miss Luo, do you know how my father died? If he really died on the battlefield like others , it can be regarded as a contribution to the country. Unfortunately, my father did not die in the gunfire, but died in the hands of the people of the country. Don’t you think it’s ironic?”

"Our area is on the recruitment list. My father is reluctant to go because he can't let go of his family. Most people in the same town have wives, children and mothers to take care of. How many people are willing to go? What is required is the number. Who cares about the means used by the subordinates to achieve this number?"

Luo Zhitong's eyes widened, his face became a little ugly.

Su Qingyi continued: "Most of the people in our village are old, weak, sick and disabled. If all the young people leave, I'm afraid they really won't be able to survive. So no one was willing to take the initiative to go. As a result, this may be You angered those two people who carried out the order, and decided to kill chickens and monkeys. I also blamed my father for being unlucky, and it happened to be his turn. It was the two deputy commanders and officers who were "blamed by me" in your mouth, in front of the whole village He shot and killed my father in the face of a human being, thereby forcing other people to go to Europe." He looked up at Luo Zhitong's eyes, and said word by word: "This, is what you mean by voluntary?"

These beautiful eyes have fascinated her in the past, but this time she couldn't look directly at them, and for the first time had the idea of ​​dodging them.

Luo Zhitong murmured: "Stop talking, this, this is impossible..."

Su Qingyi still did not intend to stop, and continued: "Miss Luo, you high-class people are powerful and powerful, and you don't have to worry about food and clothing. How do you know the dangers and darkness of this world."

"You can tell the truth about the past... Why bother, why kill people?" Luo Zhitong's voice trembled, not only that, her whole body was trembling now.

Su Qingyi sneered and said: "Does anyone believe it? In this world, where corrupt officials rule, villains succeed, and officials protect each other, do you really think that for low-level actors like us, someone will make decisions for us? Miss Luo, do you know how many injustices there are every day? Are things happening? How many things have been forcibly suppressed by the above? People don’t fight with officials. Sometimes, a word from those in power can destroy the happiness of countless people. It may have been piled up by countless corpses."

Looking at Luo Zhitong's somewhat empty eyes and that pale face covered in cold sweat, Su Qingyi sighed softly, "Isn't it cruel?"

"But this is the fact that I have had to face since I was 11 years old, this cruel but extremely real reality."

"After I killed someone for the first time, I couldn't close my eyes properly for seven days. When I closed my eyes, my eyes were blood red. If the solution to the matter is really as simple as you said, why should I use this method to torture myself? ?”

"Ever since I saw my father being shot, I became very afraid of guns, but unexpectedly, I ended up killing my enemy with a gun. He killed my father with a gun more than ten years ago, and I killed him with a gun more than ten years later. Tell me, does this count as karma?"

Luo Zhitong's feet were a little weak, and his body took a few steps back uncontrollably, wanting to stay away from this place.Today's conversation was too sudden for her, and she couldn't accept it for a while.

Su Qingyi glanced at her, and said again: "I know that the fact that laborers go abroad to fight in the war is actually a good thing for you. You have stayed in school, and you have learned advanced ideas. You think this matter is open It is a good thing that China has entered the country and promoted the exchanges between China and the world. It is a good thing to sacrifice the small to get the big. But I am a narrow-minded person. In my eyes, such progress is achieved by stepping on the flesh and blood of my relatives. Yes, behind this, there are countless people whose families have been destroyed and their wives scattered."

Su Qingyi smiled, and continued: "Then let's talk about the two murder cases that I carried on my body. In your opinion, a senior military officer and an important deputy commander are important resources of the country. It took a lot of energy and time to cultivate it. It’s not worth it to die. You are thinking about the righteousness of the country. But I’m just a low-level actor, and I don’t understand your so-called great principles. I don’t have the awareness you have. I only know that since they ruined my family, I have the right to choose my own way of revenge.”

"You see, perhaps, this is the difference between us."

"So we, after all, think differently."

"Shen Yu and I are not the same people after all."

……

Luo Zhitong didn't know how she left, she just felt that there was a chill all over her body, from the outside to the inside, it was completely cold.

At the corner, she saw Shen Yu standing alone in the dark with his head up, covering his eyes with one hand, Luo Zhitong could clearly see the water stains on his hands and heard the slight shaking of his body when passing by him There was a choked sound.