give you a soft spot

I desperately wanted to get out of Xi Zhuo's arms, but I couldn't break free. I pushed hard on his chest with both hands, crying: "Let me go."

He still pinched me firmly with his hands, and said in a deep voice, "You won't listen to anything I say, will you?"

What makes me sad may not be that he lied to me, but that I may no longer be able to trust him, sad to suffocate, but the words are very clear: "I can listen, but I can't believe it, not a word. "

He lowered his head and looked at me sadly: "Then I won't talk about it."

The arm controlling me suddenly lost its strength, I escaped from Xi Zhuo's arms, turned around and strode towards the door.I love him so carefully, for fear of mixing with any impurities that want to elevate him, but he still can't trust me.

Our relationship is like a building under construction. No matter how strong the upper floors are, if the foundation is not solid, it will collapse instantly when touched, and it will fail the countless hard-working bricks and tiles.

It turned out that he didn't trust me from the very beginning, thinking that I was trying to get his money and fame, trying to test me out and tricking me. The matter is so clear, why should I stay and listen to his explanation, I can't tell the truth from the fake , was played for a fool by him.

Even though I love him like my life, I also feel that we are really over this time.

At the same time as I touched the cold doorknob, the person following behind grabbed my wrist.He spoke quickly: "I want you to know that no matter what I do, I love you."

I didn't look back, and shook off his hand: "I don't want love that is adulterated."

The man strode between me and the door, preventing me from going out with his body.

There were still tears in my eyes, I looked down at the hem of his clothes and sniffed: "Can I go now?"

"I can't let you go in your current state..."

I don't know where the strength came from, I grabbed his arm and pulled him away from the door, pushed the doorknob and ran out.

"Cheng name!"

He chased me out to make me run faster. There were two people waiting at the elevator door. When I ran closer, I saw the floor that was too far away on the screen. I didn't stop but turned into the stairway.

I couldn't wait for a moment, I was in a hurry to leave, otherwise seeing his face, hearing his voice, and thinking of his deceit, I was afraid that I would not be able to bear the kind of heartbreak, I was afraid that I would go crazy.

Xi Zhuo's long legs had the upper hand, and the sound of his approaching footsteps was urging me. In order to escape quickly, I accelerated the speed of going downstairs, but stepped on the stairs in a hurry.

There was no time to react, the body leaned down, but the effect of inertia suddenly stopped.

I was dragged back by one hand. As I was sitting on the stairs with my buttocks, I watched helplessly as the person who dragged me seriously lost his balance and fell down in order to pull me back.

At a distance of more than ten steps, Xi Zhuo slid down quickly until he hit the wall at the corner, his muffled hum was covered by the impact.

I was terrified, and looked at the man sitting on the ground motionless, watching him slowly get up while propping himself up on the ground, his delicate facial features were tangled in pain. The first thing he did was to look up and ask if I was hurt.

I subverted his previous image in my heart, thinking that he was playing a show to keep me.He didn't answer, he stood up with his hand on the wall, backed up step by step, then turned around and ran straight to the stair passage on the other side.

I ran all the way downstairs, and when I walked out of the hotel lobby, I stopped and bent over and supported my knees to pant. The sound of wanting to cry but unable to cry in my throat was forcibly swallowed again and again.

I stopped the car by the side of the road, sat in the back seat of the car and said the destination. The driver heard my trembling voice crying, and kept looking at me from the rearview mirror.

In the night, the scenery outside the car window receded crazily, and my messy hair stuck to the side of my face. I couldn't see my appearance, but I knew it must be very decadent.

After returning to the hotel, I ignored He Liang who had already gone to bed to ask him to book a ticket immediately and return immediately.

Seeing that I was not in good condition, He Liang thought I was not feeling well and wanted to take me to the hospital.I, who was always good-tempered, got angry with him and yelled loudly: "I said to go to the airport! Don't you understand!"

He Liang was shocked by me, and stayed there for a long time before tremblingly obeying.

Xi Zhuo's phone has been calling since I was in the taxi, over and over again.Looking at our photos on the screen, I pressed the power off button for a long time.

I don't know how I left, but I followed He Liang the whole time, from boarding to landing, he never took his eyes off me for nearly three hours.Other than not wanting to talk, my other reactions were normal.

Coming out of the airport, He Liang wanted to take me back, but I stopped him, so he called a car for me before going back to the school dormitory, and repeatedly asked me to tell him when I got home.

Instead of going home, I went to the studio.

It was early in the morning, and the whole room was dark, only the computer screens in the customer service area were glowing with faint blue light.

I tried to speak as quietly as possible after entering the door. I wanted to go straight upstairs, but I still walked towards the light. Several customer service staff on the night shift were staggering or dozing off sitting or lying on their stomachs, completely unaware of my approach.

Tapping the tabletop wakes up those closest to me.She was obviously taken aback, and sat up straight in a panic to call the sleeping colleague next to her.

They mistakenly took me as someone who came to investigate the post, and they were a little nervous when they were caught being lazy.

I smiled weakly and said, "Go back and rest."

Then I turned and walked away, and there was the sound of them starting to pack their things, tired and excited.It was noisy for a long time, until I was the only one left in the whole studio.

It is best to tidy up when you are alone.

After brushing away the accumulated debris, I sat on the big desk downstairs, dangling my feet, looking around in the dark, unable to tell what mood I was in, the extreme silence did not make me sleepy, but made me sober.

Covering his face with his hands, he rubbed his face fiercely, sighed involuntarily, and when he closed his eyes, it was Xi Zhuo's face.

In my eyes, Xi Zhuo is an upright gentleman with the same appearance and appearance.

He is my hero, he is my God.

Now the hero has died in battle, the sky has collapsed, my heart is like stagnant water, and all thoughts are lost.

Anyone can lie to me, but he can't.He is the person I love with all my heart, he can not want my heart, but he can't pretend to like it very much but question my true feelings everywhere.

It's time to admit that I'm stupid and naive, thinking that I can manage the so-called love between me and him by giving it all, but after all, he is an existence that people like me can't get close to no matter how hard we try.

My mother was right, Xi Zhuo is the one I can't afford to love.

I have always held the banner of pursuing my dreams, but not to realize my self-worth in my own way, I just want to get closer to Xi Zhuo.

Rather than saying that he is my idol, it is better to say that he is my belief, and he appeared in too many moments when I couldn't go on the road of pursuing dreams.

I understand that no matter how luxuriant a tree is, there are dead branches and wormholes, but I thought I was different to him, and he didn't need to treat me with shameful means in those circles.

It's just me being self-indulgent.

He who said he loves me doesn't love me.