give you a soft spot

It was already considered good luck, I stopped a taxi very quickly when I went out, and I didn't hang up on Chen Anli's phone all the way, I stayed with him in another way, I heard him cry, and I didn't even dare to comfort him.

When they arrived at Chen's villa, the ambulance was already there, and Chen Anli followed the medical staff to carry his father trot out, blood was all over the front of his clothes, his face was pale as if he had gone through a catastrophe of life and death.

After getting into the ambulance, he hugged me, clasped his arms tightly, and trembled without saying anything.

I kept staring at Chen Zuoyi's closed eyes and blood-stained face. I couldn't calm down. I kept urging the car to drive faster. The doctor who did the emergency rescue was very hard-working, nervous and chaotic. race.

The blood dripping from Chen Zuoyi's wrist gathered into small streams and dripped on the floor of the car, which was more shocking than all the reds I have ever seen.He finally came to this step, which was both expected and unexpected.How difficult is it to choose to end life in exchange for relief. YZZ

If God is really jealous of Yingcai, then it is.

The ambulance drove halfway, and Chen Zuoyi completely lost his vital signs.Chen Anli was such a polite child that he lost his composure to the point where he hugged his father and cried loudly.

I sat there foolishly watching the doctor shake his head, tears rolled down uncontrollably, Teacher Chen really left.So fast, so relentless.

Around this time last year, I tried my best to find him, and then the twelve-month agreement between me and him came to two-thirds, just like his current life, it ended.

For the first time in my life, I felt a person's body temperature gradually getting colder at close range. Together with the surrounding air, the coolness penetrated into the bone marrow, until it was numb.

Xi Zhuo called repeatedly, and I didn't pick it up until I got off the car at the hospital. I couldn't control my emotions and cried even worse when I heard his voice.

"What's the matter? What's the matter?" Xi Zhuo asked anxiously, "Cheng Ming, where are you?"

"Brother Zhuo," I lowered my head and let tears fall to the ground, "Mr. Chen Zuoyi, he passed away."

What a difficult sentence, I said it intermittently, I don't want to admit that Chen Zuoyi left just like that, I wish he just went in for rescue.

When I walked into the hospital and found Chen Anli, the boy was standing there with his forehead against the wall and looked down at the ground. He was still crying, but he didn't make a sound.

He went to play football with two friends for a while, and he came back a bit late. When he got home, he called his dad and there was no response. When he went to the bedroom upstairs, he saw blood all over the bed, and the person lying there in a nightgown at every turn.It was the first time in his life that he felt the feeling of the sky falling, and it was also the last time.

"I've guessed that he would leave me one day, and I'm always afraid," Chen Anli sobbed, "but I didn't expect it to be so soon."

I hugged the boy's shoulder and patted him lightly, trying to stop him from crying, but I was still crying.

"Since my mother left, he has been in a bad condition. He has seen so many doctors and taken so many medicines, but nothing works. He has a heart disease. No one can cure him except himself, not even me," Chen Anli lost his voice. Wept bitterly, "He's so tired, he can finally rest, I don't blame him, really, I don't blame him at all."

The doctor came to fill in the form and go through the formalities. Chen Anli gradually calmed down and contacted his relatives abroad.

After a transoceanic phone call, he had stopped crying, but when he was told he needed to leave, he clung to the doorknob like crazy, his voice trembling and barely audible: "I can't leave him here by himself."

The medical staff couldn't look at me, so I reached out and touched Chen Anli's back: "That's right here, don't go, let's sit on the chair over there."

Chen Anli broke down in tears, and after a long time of mental struggle, he slowly let go of his hand and followed me.

I sat with Chen Anli on the chair in the corridor, he muttered expressionlessly, as if he was speaking to me or to himself.

"Every depressed patient has something that can calm him down. He likes to hear the sound of high heels stepping on the floor. Our nanny will clean up in high heels."

"He had already thought about where he would take me for my high school graduation trip, but he couldn't wait."

"He has even made a will, and the books to be published are all ready, so he has nothing to worry about."

......

Probably because he was tired from talking, after that Chen Anli stopped talking and crying, and just lay on the chair in a daze.

His bravery was exhausted the moment he saw his father lying in a pool of blood, followed by fear, endless fear, hunching his shoulders and hugging his legs like an unwanted doll.

Looking at the closed door, I feel sad.The man left without a sound, and was lying on the wall next to him, unable to open his eyes forever and ever.

Before he was far away, I began to miss him, his eccentric temper and his arrogance when he mocked my lack of skills.

Time passes by every minute and every second, and it will not stop because of anything. This world is still this world, but I am sad for this world, because a generation of legends has left.

Life carries many things and is very complicated.

Most people do not refuse anyone who comes, accepting both joy and sorrow, taking pleasure in suffering, and enjoying suffering in joy.Painful and happy at the same time, they despise death and think that whenever it is good to die, it is better to live.

A small number of people can't bear everything beyond their control, and they will take the initiative to end happiness and suffering.In their short lives, they live to enjoy themselves in a timely manner, free and easy without leaving any regrets.

What Chen Zuoyi chose was not what he had to choose, but what he was willing to choose. He would rather leave his back to the world than smile hypocritically.

For a full sixteen hours, I accompanied Chen Anli to wait for his aunt and uncle who rushed back from abroad.

After I left the boy to my family, I came out of the hospital. It was almost noon, and the cloudy sky was planning a heavy rain.

I don't know when I got blood on my clothes, and after drying, the rust-like color was firmly locked in the fabric.

The phone, which had been turned off long ago, was of no use except to reflect my tired and dry face on the screen.

Standing on the side of the road to stop the car, I passed several empty cars and chose not to take me, and finally waited for one to report the location and sat in.

There was rock music playing in the car, the rhythm was cheerful and strong, and the driver master hummed along.I became more and more troublesome, but I didn't let him turn it off. After all, I am sad and I don't have the right to deprive others of happiness.

Endless traffic jams, it started to rain heavily after I got off the car, as if someone was standing in the clouds and splashing water downwards, most passers-by with umbrellas couldn't compete with the wind, just like me, it was full The whole body is wet.

The security of the community should have gotten to know me well after going in and out for many days, and he didn't stop me when I entered the gate of the community with other residents.

The last time I got caught in the rain was with Chen Zuoyi. He told me that thinking in the rain is the most lucid.He taught me a lot, both academically and in life.It is rare for him to give me a lot of help, but he never asks for anything.I once thought about using my fame to prepare a big gift for him, but he never received it again.

I thought that Xi Zhuo would not be at home, and when I got upstairs, I only pressed two password keys and the door opened from the inside.

"You're back, your phone is off, I'm in a hurry."

When he pulled me in and wanted to turn around to get a towel, I grabbed him. I pulled him back and hugged him tightly despite being soaked.

The choking made the nasal voice very heavy: "Brother Zhuo, you won't leave me, right, you won't look normal but suddenly choose to leave, right, you won't leave me, right."

Xi Zhuo slowly raised his arms around my waist: "What are you thinking about, I will be where you are, we will not be separated from life to death, trust me."

I took the liberty to come to Xi Zhuo's world, stop and go along the way, sadness and joy, accidental and inevitable intertwined, mutual redemption.

Chen Zuoyi didn't wait for his redemption, the person who could save him had already gone before him, and it would be impossible to go forward or back from now on.

I hold the person in my arms tightly, feel his body temperature, breathe his smell, I am willing to be a layman, and I will believe that living is the best.