give you a soft spot

"Brother Zhuo, why are you so reckless about the consequences? You were not like this before."

"No matter how bad the consequences can be, at worst, I will stop being an actor and go home and sell clothes to you."

"Your ambition is really great."

This is the conversation I had with Xi Zhuo after boarding the plane, and then we almost had a fight.

We sat there talking fast in low voices.

I said that he failed the hard-working team behind him, and he said that he had long been mentally prepared to bear the worst results.

I said he shouldn't suddenly go too far, and he said that deceiving the public is not the theme of our future life together.

Before the plane took off, a stewardess approached Xi Zhuo softly and asked for his autograph. Before turning around and leaving, she smiled and made a fist gesture to us as a cheering gesture.

What are you doing?Come on love or come on quarrel?

I was speechless and sat there without speaking.

It wasn't the first time I took the same flight with Xi Zhuo, but it was the first time I sat next to him.Maybe there was a small quarrel that caused me to be in a bad mood. I tried not to talk to him, and twisted my body to the other side, so I don't know what he was doing.

When I was bored, I sneaked a glance at him, and met his gaze. I felt embarrassed at the moment, and stared at him hard: "What are you looking at?"

He reached out and put his hand on the back of my neck, stroking me a bit like treating a puppy, and asked me very seriously: "You said that I have no hair style today and no makeup on my face, will they take pictures of me as ugly. "

He was actually worried about this problem, I opened his hand: "Can you not be so big-hearted, I bet when we land, there will be a lot of crazy people on the Internet."

Xi Zhuo leaned back into the seat and sighed softly: "I don't care about anyone except you, it doesn't matter to me what they do or say, whether they like me or hate me, I am the winner, because I already have you , nothing else matters."

I smiled and looked at him, this man can block the bullets of the whole world for me, and he can also give up the whole world for me.It was too extravagant to meet him in my first love, how could I let him go if he was not with me for the rest of my life.

I used to be stupid, always afraid of damaging his future, but when he said that there would be no future without me, I realized that he didn't want much, just a me, and he wanted a lot, because he regarded me as his worldwide.

Too many people give the word selfish a derogatory meaning, but I began to think it is a kind of supreme praise.Life is so short, why don't you live for yourself but for others? Since you don't want to be with others, why are you afraid of being different? I want to stand out from the shadows and live with him in the sun. Love hard, love boldly, Don't look at anyone's face.

With the buffer of the previous scandal, the shock this time was not as big as imagined. Instead, the public looked at the Xi Zhuo Airport hugging me openly showing affection with such an attitude.

Zeng Yuan's alleged drug use has been confirmed, but Xi Zhuo's public love affair was compared with it, but it was regarded as a trivial matter. Unfortunately, the crew of their co-stars was struggling on the cusp.

I think Bai Yang, who came to pick us up, wanted to curse, but he was holding back, maybe the consequences were not as bad as he imagined, and he couldn't cope for a while. He didn't say a word on the way back, and just stayed in the back seat and looked at his phone the whole time. .

And Xi Zhuo had nothing to say to Bai Yang, and turned his head to look at the scenery outside the window.

I sat between them, not even daring to move, looking straight at the road in front of the car.

Jia Xiao, the co-pilot, looked back from time to time to make sure that the three quiet people behind were lost.

I peeked at Bai Yang's phone screen. He was following the news on the Internet, holding his chin with a sad face, looking very distressed.

Xi Zhuo wanted to change the car back to the company in an underground garage, so he asked Xiao Gao to take me to the destination before getting off the car. I thought it was too late to refuse, so he closed the car door.

In the end, a paparazzi followed me all the way to Chen Zuoyi's house, and I was the only one who got off the car without Xi Zhuo. I thought they would leave, but I didn't expect this group of people not to trade at a loss.

Before I found out who the owner of the villa I entered was, I used to think that it was the private house where Xi Zhuo and I lived together. When I saw that news on the Internet, I was eating with Chen Zuoyi and Chen Anli, and I really choked. , After leaving the table and going to the bathroom, the nanny added new soup to me again.

I can feel that the other two people at the table know what happened to me and Xi Zhuo, but their quality is reflected in the fact that they don't ask too many questions or guess too much.

After the meal, Chen Zuoyi mentioned my studio and said he wanted to see the brand I run. I found out the interface of Kakang Siyao and showed it to him. He looked at it for more than half an hour before opening his mouth.

"All the new pictures are taken in the studio, right?"

I nodded, "Yeah."

"Standard," Chen Zuoyi continued after a pause, "Since the label is a high-street brand, how can there be no street photos? Mess and mess have affected the previous mainstream design. The most important thing to do a good brand is to highlight its characteristics, such as exclusive LOGO, the designer's expertise and craftsmanship. Bad street."

After listening to Chen Zuoyi's words, I really felt the discomfort of my child being pointed out by others. I answered, "Teacher, Kakang Siyao has only been established for more than a year. There are many things that need to be improved urgently, but it has already begun to take shape. ..."

"Absurdity," Chen Zuoyi interrupted me, "You are using a short period of time to subconsciously step yourself down. You think this running time is already very remarkable. It is because of your inflated psychology. Have you ever thought about it? Is it getting attention because it’s really famous or you’re more famous than it, is it getting attention because you’re a scandal-ridden person or because you’re genuinely talented.”

I was speechless when I was asked, and Chen Zuoyi pointed out a question that I had never dared to face.

"As a designer, you have to let your works override any other conditions of yours." Chen Zuoyi looked at me seriously, "How long has it been since you calmed down to design, your works are to cater to the rhythm of the market It is really out of inspiration that I have to write, you have too much energy being divided by this online store, and it is my advice to give you to break away from it properly."

That night was a new bottleneck in my entrepreneurial journey. I kept clamoring to study design but ignored the essence of design.

This is like the last question Chen Zuoyi asked me.

Do you want to do general design that serves the public or devote yourself to top trendy design?

Do you want to be a handful of ordinary folk designers or one of the few top designers in the world?

I didn't even think about it, so I hurried on my way, and I fell to the ground with a heavy burden, but I insisted on flying to the sky.

In Chen Zuoyi's view, Kakang Siyao is my burden.

As one of the world's top designers, he is too qualified to instill professional ideas and knowledge in me, but the choice has to be made by myself.

The most difficult choice to make is not either, but neither.

I don't want to give up Kakang Siyao, and I don't want to give up on myself who wants to stand on the top.

On sleepless nights, I sent voice messages to Xi Zhuo.

After telling him the problem that troubled me, he answered me like this.

"I can't control your choice. I said long ago that I will support you in whatever you do, so no matter which one you choose, I will accompany you. Choose with confidence. Don't put yourself in a dilemma for too long. It's very painful and laborious." .”

After I was silent, I asked him why he was still awake because he was thinking about something.

He chuckled: "I'm thinking about our cohabitation."

"You really want to do what they say."

"No, I just want to do it according to my heart," he affirmed, "I just want to live with you, and every time I go home, I can see your mood and now I think about it. .”

I sighed: "This time is good, originally I had a choice but didn't make it, and you threw me another one."

Xi Zhuo smiled: "I'm just giving you a hint, follow your heart, the two choices are not difficult."

I have selfish intentions, I want to move forward slowly and comfortably, I want to be my own boss and have the final say without being judged by anyone.

I am ambitious, I want to be recognized by the professional field, and I want to meet more outstanding people in the clothing design industry to broaden my horizons.

If you follow your heart, the latter is more.

"I prefer the latter."

Xi Zhuo laughed out loud: "I knew you would agree to live together."

"I'm talking about the first option, not about cohabitation."

"Then I don't care, I will treat you as finished."

Hey, this man is getting more and more unreasonable.