dying person

[-]: At dusk, waves rise, and Chang'an Road is covered with snow

The day I left, the sky was cloudy, and it was a bit cold in early autumn.

There are too many people on the official road, and the capital is too lively, so I took a small road.

I'm going to Lincheng, I heard that Lou Li was buried there.

When walking in the direction of Lincheng, he suddenly remembered the Meng Mansion, which was against him.

I also remembered the morning when I promised Nie Yao to find Da Mo Xuerui, Meng Yi said to me: Brother, I have heard that Jinzhou's scabbards are very good, can you bring me one back when you go.

I smiled as a nod.

He picked up the sword in his hand and walked out the door.

Meng Yi also walked with me, and said again: "The trip to Yizhou before has been full for more than three months. Brother, you are always away from the Meng residence. How long will it take you to come back from this trip?"

I said: about January.

The footsteps paused, and he said: I'm not at home, you have to practice hard, and you can't give up writing, writing, swords and swords for a day. I... am not here, and you will persist like this every day from now on, so that a man can stand upright.

He pursed his lips, a mischievous look flashed across his eyes, and he muttered "I know, I know" while continuing to walk outside.

When I reached the door, I stopped and said, "Let's send it here."

Meng Yi seemed to have something to say, but seeing that I had mounted the horse with my sword, I opened and closed my mouth, and finally said only one sentence: Brother, be careful and come back as soon as possible.

I said: good.

A good word, the fate of the world is broken, this life... never see each other again.

The horse's hooves kicked up on the road, and then fell to kick up a cloud of dust.

I didn't tell him that I'm not going to Jinzhou, which is located in the rich and prosperous south of the Yangtze River, but Lincheng, which is extremely cold in the north, where the bones are buried.

I still vaguely remember Lou Li's appearance, I don't know if it's like this for everyone, the more you want to engrave something in your heart, the easier it is to blur.

Don't dare to forget.

If there is anyone who will let you down in this life, it must be Lou Li.

two

The Meng family has a high position and has always known how to weigh the pros and cons. The veterans of the three dynasties have already grown intricately in Da Chen's court.

The main family, Meng Kuo, has seven sons. The eldest son, Meng Hui, is Da Chen's prime minister.

Meng Hui had an only son, Meng Yu, who was handsome and elegant, proficient in strategy and capable of governing the country.

I can't forget everything that happened suddenly that afternoon.

I couldn't believe it until I couldn't move my body. My mother said: Changying, you have to be obedient. Your father took us back to Meng's house.

The hard times are finally over.

My mother said so at the time.

When she touched my head and changed me into clean clothes, I thought so too, because my mother had never been so gentle to me.

I don't know if it's like this when people are wrapped in warm and comfortable fabrics, but they also tremblingly believe that all embarrassing pasts can be left behind.

At that time, I was really happy. Although I didn't know who my father was, it seemed that I could really get out of the hardships, and I was no longer hungry, cold, or beaten.

There will be a father, a home, like all the kids on the street.

The sound of the clothes being torn was still in my ears, and there was a faint smell of blood on the tip of my nose.

I didn't have much strength, and I wondered a little bit blankly, who did I say the words that the hard days are over.

Mother is gone.

The officials on my body were so fat that I couldn't breathe under the pressure, and my strength was also great.

It starts at the thigh, slides down to the hollow of the knee, and flows down to the ankle.

my blood.

How long has it been, and the pain is numb.

Suddenly there was a scream, and the body suddenly became lighter, and the warm liquid spilled on the skin.

Turning his head with all his strength, he looked at him blankly, only to see that he was dressed in dark blue brocade clothes, the jade crown was slightly buttoned, his face was slightly cold, and there was a slight disgust in Wubo's pupils.

The man said: This is the third son of the fifth son of the Meng family?

The fifth child of the Meng family is Meng Hui's half-brother, born of a maidservant, and lustful for women.

That was my father, good for nothing, a failure of the Meng family.

same as me.

One person said: Back to my lord, yes.

Others asked: My lord, will you kill me?

He shook his lower jaw almost imperceptibly, his eyes were indifferent, but his tone was soft: keep it, it's also pitiful.

If the ear hadn't been injured by the official during the struggle just now, I would have heard him say: Although it is such a useless thing, it can still be used after training.The same Meng family, compared with Meng Yu, this difference is also interesting.

Unfortunately, I only heard that sentence: keep it.

Keep it, it's also pitiful.

I saw the moment when he smiled softly when he said a name.

I didn't understand it at the time and thought it was for me.

If it is the current self, it will be clear, and it will avoid being self-indulgent.

At that time, I didn't really want to die. Apart from hatred, there was also a sense of confusion coming from nowhere.

I don't know who to blame, the moment my mother pretended to be gentle and tricked me into the Meng Mansion, and my father sent me into the room with a sneer, I remembered their smiling faces outside the door.

Facing a box of gold, silver and jewelry.

At that time, I probably lost my parents and became an orphan.

That's fine, being alone and free.

From then on, I will never be hurt by my loved ones again, and I will never expect anything again.

The ridiculous thing is that I only remembered the one-sided illusion. Nie Yao killed the officials on my body, and Nie Yao left my life behind.

Nie Yao smiled at me.He pities me.

Began to fall into the hell of boundless bitter cold.

At that time, I didn't really want to die, but I also forgot that this was not a place for me to choose.

If I want to die, I probably can't help myself.

I just feel the boundless cold and pain, as if it has been like this from the beginning to the end.

The author has something to say: Changying: I heard you died?

Lou Li: ...I heard from someone, I will kill him.

Changying: I heard you like Meng Yu?

Nie Yao: Are you stupid? I like you!