Heart Medicine

"Song Liusheng, what do you want?" You Jingxing asked.

And Song Liusheng looked into his eyes and didn't speak for a long time.

I met You Jingxing when I was a freshman in high school, and I was lucky enough to be in the same class with him for three years, but after that they separated for seven years. Song Liusheng thought he would never see him again, but unexpectedly met again.In the past ten years of his life, Song Liusheng's eyes and heart were almost full of You Jingxing.

It's just that Youjingxing never knew.

What does Song Liusheng want?

He can blurt out the answer, but he may keep it in his heart all his life.

In fact, Song Liusheng desperately wanted to reach out to touch You Jingxing, hug him, kiss him, and even do more intimate things with him, but Song Liusheng was afraid of being rejected, and worried that You Jingxing would feel sick and scared, and then fled in a hurry.

After a long silence, Song Liusheng said lightly: "Director, there are still many things I don't understand that I need to learn from Sister Liu and the others. They are not doing well enough. You don't need to raise my salary, and I don't want to change teams. Keep the status quo." That's it."

You Jingxing was slightly stunned. Although he was a little puzzled, he still respected Song Liusheng's decision: "Okay, I see."

Then he changed the subject and smiled again: "Song Liusheng, after get off work tonight, do you have time? Come play with me again."

Compared with talking to Song Liusheng in the tone of a boss, You Jingxing seems to prefer to get along with him like a friend.

Song Liusheng nodded: "Okay."

Song Liusheng didn't raise his salary or transfer jobs. Many people in the operation department looked calm and didn't say anything, but they were more or less puzzled in private.

After all, You Jingxing not only personally drove Song Liusheng to the company, but also called him into the office alone over and over again. Didn't he take special care of Song Liusheng?

Afterwards, some gossip people got all kinds of well-informed gossip, and they found out that Song Liusheng and You Jingxing were in the same high school, and they were classmates for three years.

After hearing the news, many people suddenly understood and figured out some things.

This Sunday, Song Liusheng took the time to visit Dr. Xu's psychological clinic.He currently comes to see Xu Mingyan about once every two weeks, and the frequency of his visits is getting lower and lower, far less frequent than half a year ago.

Every time Xu Mingyan finds some topics, chats with Song Liusheng for a while, and listens to his thoughts. Although the chat time is not long, Xu Mingyan can clearly feel the change of Song Liusheng. His heart is no longer depressed and gloomy. gradually stabilized.

Song Liusheng himself said that the number of nightmares has decreased recently, and even when he is down, he will not be particularly depressed, or even commit excessive self-harm.

Xu Mingyan smiled, and joked: "Liu Sheng, it seems that you have been doing well recently, are you in love, and a happy event is coming soon?"

Before the words finished, Song Liusheng shook his hands awkwardly: "Doctor Xu, don't make fun of me, I just..."

"Just what?"

"I... I seem to have a friend."

"Like? Liusheng, if the other party really regards you as a friend, they will be sad to hear this." Xu Mingyan said again, he hoped that Song Liusheng would be more confident.

His speaking speed slowly slowed down, and his tone was very sincere: "Liusheng, you can definitely make a lot of new friends, don't be afraid, in fact, I would be very happy to be your friend."

"Thank you." Song Liusheng was still very polite, he really didn't need too many friends, otherwise he would definitely cause trouble to his friends.

"Doctor Xu, but I still can't change some habits."

When Song Liusheng was a child, he was forced by his mother to do too many things he didn't want to do, and he was influenced by it day by day. Some things have been deeply rooted in his bones now, and it is difficult to change.

Xu Mingyan frowned: "Why do you have to change? I still say the same thing, Liu Sheng, you didn't do anything wrong. If you really can't change, then try to accept it, face your heart directly, maybe You will gradually like yourself like this.”

Song Liusheng was stunned when he heard the words, just at that moment there was a knock on the door, and another psychiatrist, Dr. Sheng, appeared with a smile on his face.

Sheng Hui is also a doctor that Song Liusheng is familiar with. He went to the hospital to see a doctor more than a year ago. He met Sheng Hui first, and then met the current Xu Mingyan through his introduction.

Sheng Hui and Xu Mingyan have known each other for many years, they were classmates before, and they worked together after graduation, but they separated later, and the relationship between the two in private was also ups and downs.

Sheng Hui obviously came here specially to find Xu Mingyan today, after Song Liusheng greeted him, he took his leave first.

Knowing that they had something to discuss, Song Liusheng gently closed the door before leaving, but before he could go far, he heard the sound of arguing from the room.

"Get out! Don't touch me." Xu Mingyan's voice was obviously angry. This good-looking beauty doctor was always calm, but today he lost his temper.

"Delay..."

"Don't call me that again! Sheng Hui, we've broken up a long time ago, and what you like to do has nothing to do with me."

Just after hearing these few lines of dialogue, Song Liusheng became more certain about their previous relationship, but it was someone else's private matter after all. Since they never took the initiative to mention it in front of him, Song Liusheng also felt that he could not interfere too much.

Whenever he was free, Song Liusheng would play basketball with You Jingxing. After get off work on Friday, the two went to the gymnasium near the company together.

After several rounds, Song Liusheng wiped the sweat from his forehead, and his panting became louder. His physical strength was not as strong as that of You Jingxing, and he was already tired.

Seeing this, You Jingxing planned to tell Song Liusheng to go to rest first, but at this moment his eyes glanced inadvertently, and happened to notice Song Liusheng's feet.

You Jingxing pointed and reminded: "Song Liusheng, your shoelaces are loose."

Song Liusheng looked down at his feet, he didn't bend down to fasten them again immediately, but just stood there in a daze.

This scene is so similar that Song Liusheng seems to have returned to ten years ago in an instant, on the playground of the high school campus.

Fifteen or sixteen is the age of ignorance and innocence, and Song Liusheng has just stepped into high school.

The new semester has just started, and everyone is a freshman in high school, from different junior high schools, and they don't know each other, unless they were in the same junior high school before.

One morning, when everyone was queuing up to do exercises, Song Liusheng suddenly heard a voice from the crowd, and You Jingxing not far away took the initiative to shout to Song Liusheng: "Student, your shoelaces are untied."

Song Liusheng was startled, and hastily bent down to tie it again. For the first time, he even forgot to say "thank you", and then Song Liusheng's shoelaces came loose again, and it was You Jingxing who kindly reminded him.

Song Liusheng's way of tying shoelaces is relatively common and clumsy. When You Jingxing saw him, he smiled and taught him another way. Wrap the two shoelaces around the left and right fingers respectively, then hook the shoelace of the right hand with the left hand, and hook the left hand with the right hand The one you want is just a light pull, simple and fast.

You Jingxing spoke patiently, and even knelt down, and tied Song Liusheng himself.

At that moment Song Liusheng was overwhelmed by flattery, and he was extremely embarrassed, and even said "thank you" several times.

From then on, Song Liusheng began to pay attention to You Jingxing.But You Jingxing, who has always been enthusiastic about helping others, has helped many people conveniently, so he has no special impression of him at all.

At this time, You Jingxing walked towards Song Liusheng with a smile like in high school: "Why are you in a daze again? Do you want me to help you?"

Song Liusheng quickly shook his head, squatted down and hastily tied his shoelaces.

"Song Liusheng, I found that not only do you tie your shoelaces in the same way as me, but when you wind the earphone cable, you and I stretch out the index finger and little finger first, and use the figure-of-eight method to wind it quickly and easily. tie."

Song Liusheng gave a faint "hmm".

The "coincidences" that You Jingxing thought were not in fact, they were all secretly observed by You Jingxing in the past few years, and he learned from them.

A week later, when You Jingxing's birthday was approaching, Song Liusheng prepared several birthday gifts in advance, one of which was a blue sports bracelet.

As a result, when they were playing basketball together that day, Song Liusheng discovered that You Jingxing had already worn it on his wrist, and it was exactly the same as the bracelet he had chosen, with the same color, brand and type.

Song Liusheng couldn't help being stunned: "Jing Xing, what's on your wrist is..."

You Jingxing smiled: "Haha, isn't my birthday coming soon? This is a gift from Xiao Nan in advance. She said that she will give me another big gift on my birthday."

Song Liusheng was stunned again, "Xiao Nan" is obviously an affectionate name for girls, who is she?Who is it from Youjingxing again?