Heart Medicine

"Liusheng, in fact, you can try wearing a skirt next time to be a more authentic self."

After hearing Xu Mingyan's words, the corners of Song Liusheng's mouth rose slightly.When walking all the way dressed like this today, Song Liusheng was very nervous the whole way, but he kept cheering himself up, forcing himself to ignore the strange eyes of passers-by.

He has always wanted to cure his illness. If Xu Mingyan said that it is wrong to blindly escape, choose to suppress his heart, and pretend to be his true self, then he is willing to work hard to become brave and more honest.

When one day he can wear a skirt and walk on the street with his head held high, when he has so much courage and self-confidence, he should also be able to be frank about his feelings.

At that time, he would boldly tell You Jingxing, express his true heart, and seek an exact answer from You Jingxing.

At this time, Song Liusheng put away his faint smile, and suddenly lowered his head: "Doctor Xu, Doctor Sheng, I'm sorry, I want to admit my mistake to you."

Xu Mingyan was puzzled: "What did you do wrong?"

"I secretly took medicine without telling you."

"Why are you taking medicine again?" Xu Mingyan became impatient when he heard it, "Liu Sheng, I told you that you don't need to take any more medicine, it's not good if you take too much, stop taking medicine immediately!"

Sheng Hui, who was at the side, looked calm and composed: "Since you have confessed now, Liu Sheng, then I guess you should realize that something is wrong and you have stopped eating, right?"

Song Liusheng nodded slightly.

Sheng Hui smiled with satisfaction: "Liu Sheng, your situation has indeed improved a lot now. I remember when I first met you, you were too sensitive and closed. Dr. Xu and I talked to you. If I want to ask you anything, I always ask you Spend some time and find some topics to pave the way before entering the topic, lest it irritate you, and now, in my eyes, you are a very normal person."

"Thank you! Dr. Sheng, thank you and Dr. Xu for taking care of me all the time."

"Actually, taking care is not really a matter of duty. We doctors do what we should do. Later, I was busy and didn't care too much about you. Thanks to Dr. Xu, he often guides you."

After finishing speaking, Sheng Hui smiled at Xu Mingyan, there was still a bit of anger in the smile, but Xu Mingyan gave him a cold sideways glance.

When Xu Mingyan turned his head to look at Song Liusheng, his expression instantly softened: "Liusheng, you have made great progress, and now you are willing to actively communicate with me and confess to me, but there is still the most important point, please obey your heart. "

"I have said many times, whether it is sexual orientation or some special preferences, existence is reasonable. Only when you accept yourself first, will others accept and respect you."

As Song Liusheng's psychiatrist, Xu Mingyan told him a lot later.

When Xu Mingyan was talking, Sheng Hui, who was sitting next to him, stared straight at him the whole time, and sometimes before Song Liusheng could respond, Sheng Hui would keep nodding, like "Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes." He's right in everything he says!" The sense of sight.

It was almost time. Before Song Liusheng got up to leave, Xu Mingyan, who had been stared at for a long time, glared at Sheng Hui: "Doctor Sheng, have you seen enough?"

Then Sheng Hui withdrew his eyes, touched his nose, smiled and pretended to be stupid.

"Dr. Sheng, Liu Sheng is also your patient. He is leaving soon. Don't you want to explain something?"

Hearing this, Sheng Hui immediately cleared his throat, with a serious face: "Liu Sheng, did you hear clearly what Dr. Xu said just now?"

"En." Song Liusheng nodded.

"Just listen clearly. When you go back and think about what Dr. Xu said, they are all equivalent to wise words. I agree with them [-]%. You have to listen to him carefully."

Song Liusheng: "..."

Xu Mingyan: "..."

Later, after Song Liusheng walked out of the room, he heard Sheng Hui's apologetic laughter: "I... I was wrong! Yanyan, everything you say is right, and everything I say is wrong, okay?"

"Not good! Dr. Sheng, please don't disturb my work."

"Yanyan, don't be angry, if you keep a straight face, I'll kiss you."

"You! Rogue... Get lost!"

Song Liusheng couldn't help smiling, sometimes he really envied these two doctors.

Last week, Bai Wannan, a cousin from Youjingxing, came to play, and then the little girl asked for a photo, so the three of them took a group photo.Later, You Jingxing sent this photo to Song Liusheng via WeChat. He also said that he hoped that Song Liusheng would laugh happily next time he took a photo.

Song Liusheng was lying on the bed tonight, staring at the photo on his phone. On the left and right sides of the photo were You Jingxing and him, and his little cousin Bai Wannan was in the middle of them.

Apart from the high school graduation photo, this is the second time he and You Jingxing have been photographed together. When will there be a real photo of the two of them together?

Song Liusheng didn't know that if he wanted to take a step closer to You Jingxing and develop a closer relationship, there was still a dangerous red line between them. Once crossed the line, he didn't know whether the ending would be good or bad?

Since it was during the summer vacation, Bai Wannan would always come over in the last few weekends whenever Youjinghang was free.

Sometimes You Jingxing can't deal with this clever cousin, so he will bring along Song Liusheng, and Bai Wannan has gradually become obsessed with Song Liusheng's cooking.

On this day, Bai Wannan brought a yoga mat here to practice splits and stretching, and also wanted to show off her dancing in front of You Jingxing.

After she bent back and did the splits, Bai Wannan suddenly rolled her eyes, and smiled at You Jingxing, "Brother Jing, why don't you try it too?"

"Try what? I'm okay with lowering my waist. As for the split, Xiao Nan, please forgive me." After finishing speaking, You Jingxing stepped back.

Bai Wannan grabbed the hem of his clothes all of a sudden, blinked and said, "Maybe you can, Brother Xiao Jing, even if you can't chop it off, you can still stretch the ligaments and move your muscles and bones, which is good for your body."

Seeing Bai Wannan start acting cute and coquettish again, You Jingxing, who always doted on her, knew that he couldn't escape, but he winked at Song Liusheng next to him: "Song Liusheng, we are so close, and we are also good friends, right? You also come with me Well."

You Jingxing was stunned for a moment, but was successfully dragged into the water by You Jingxing.

However, You Jingxing was only halfway through the split, and he shook his head and gave up with a painful expression on his face, while Song Liusheng easily completed the "one-character horse".

The cousins ​​were stunned, You Jingxing's eyes flashed, and he said with a smile, "Song Liusheng, you are not only light, but your body is also so soft, you have great flexibility."

Bai Wannan sensed something, and asked, "Brother Liusheng, have you also learned dancing? Or martial arts, gymnastics?"

Thinking of what Dr. Xu said before, Song Liusheng didn't want to hide it anymore, so he admitted: "Well, I learned to dance when I was young."

"That's right! Brother Liusheng, I feel that your basic dance skills are very solid."

After hearing this, You Jingxing gave a thumbs up: "You are really hiding your secrets! Song Liusheng, I feel that you have ordered a lot of skill points, and you clearly have so many advantages. You were really too humble before."

You Jingxing's praise always makes Song Liusheng's heart beat faster, and he can't help but smile.

Time passed quickly, and in a blink of an eye, the next weekend came. On Saturday evening, You Jingxing knocked on the door of Song Liusheng's house again: "Song Liusheng, Xiao Nan wants to invite you to her house tomorrow."

Song Liusheng was taken aback after hearing this, and hesitated: "This...isn't appropriate."

"What's inappropriate? Song Liusheng, you are not going alone, and I am. Tomorrow, uncle and aunt are not at home. Xiao Nan's house has a lot of delicious food and fun, and there is also a dancing machine. She plans to let you accompany her Let's dance and sing together."

Song Liusheng thought for a moment, then nodded in agreement.

On Sunday morning, You Jingxing drove Song Liusheng to Bai Wannan's house.

This is different from their remote community, it is a high-end community in the third ring area, Song Liusheng inevitably feels uncomfortable walking in it, You Jingxing smiled and patted him: "It's okay, everything is up to me."

Both parents are out, so Bai Wannan is really the only one at home. She is still dressed up today, wearing a very beautiful pink princess dress.

Song Liusheng and You Jingxing stayed here until the afternoon. Since Song Liusheng came only as guests, although You Jingxing didn't know how to cook, but he had learned how to make tea, he discussed with his cousin how to prepare afternoon tea and pastries for Song Liusheng.

When You Jingxing was busy making tea in the kitchen, Bai Wannan was a little curious and anxious, so she ran over to check the situation first, so at this moment, only Song Liusheng was left in her room.

Bai Wannan's room is also very beautiful, the wallpaper is pink, there are a bunch of dolls and cute cat, dog and rabbit dolls on the bed, and the floral pattern on the carpet is also very delicate.As soon as the lights on the ceiling were turned on, the whole room immediately became dotted and dreamlike, completely in line with Song Liusheng's aesthetics.

Because there was nothing to do for the time being, Song Liusheng observed the room, and unconsciously, his eyes became intoxicated and envious.

Suddenly, Bai Wannan's little hat hanging on the wall fell off, and Song Liusheng bent down to help pick it up, and happened to find the hairpin that had fallen on the ground before.

This small and exquisite strawberry hairpin, Song Liusheng guessed at once that it should be given by You Jingxing. He was even more envious in his heart, moved his hands unconsciously, and secretly put the hairpin on his head in front of the mirror .

Then, Song Liusheng's eyes fell on the white tutu on the hanger.

This kind of dance skirt is too familiar, and it immediately brought back too many memories in him, including the beautiful and happy parts, but also the painful and desperate ones.In Song Liusheng's memory, there is his mother dancing gracefully in a dance skirt, and there is also himself, being whipped again and again, crying and dancing...

Song Liusheng stretched out his arms and couldn't help touching the white dance dress.

At this moment, the sound of footsteps gradually became clear, and Bai Wannan's voice came from behind: "Brother Liusheng..."

Song Liusheng trembled all over, immediately withdrew his hand, and hurriedly took off the strawberry hairpin on his head.But Bai Wannan's gaze had already fallen on the hairpin Song Liusheng was holding in his hand.

Song Liusheng panicked, and put the hairpin on the table: "Yes... I'm sorry, Xiao Nan, I saw it fell on the ground just now, so I picked it up for you."

Bai Wannan's gaze became sharper, and her voice was also cold: "Apart from me picking up hairpins, brother Liusheng, what else did you do?"

Before her words fell, Song Liu's voice became dull, and the air seemed to freeze at this moment.

"Don't pretend anymore, I just saw everything you did."

Her good impression of Song Liusheng before was completely disintegrated in an instant, falling apart, and Bai Wannan also thought of a pussy boy in her elementary school class who stole her things.

Bai Wannan frowned deeply, and a look of disgust appeared on his face: "Brother Liusheng, you...you are so weird! Aren't you a man? Brother Xiaojing, he...does he know that you are so weird and disgusting? "

At this moment, Song Liusheng's brain slammed, and the confidence he had just built collapsed.He felt that he couldn't move his whole body, it was clearly summer, but his limbs and bones felt chilly, and those embarrassing memories that he desperately wanted to forget, and the terrifying shadows that he wished to be completely wiped out all emerged.

Because of his strange clothes and abnormal behavior, Song Liusheng was an outlier in the eyes of his peers, so he was excluded and bullied since he was a child.Some boys beat him, scolded him, teased and molested him; girls didn't want to talk to him and hold hands, their eyes were full of disgust and contempt.

At this time, many voices came out of Song Liusheng's head, and many people were laughing at him, calling him a lunatic just like his mother!It's all crazy!

Now, the eyes of Bai Wannan in front of him are also similar, Song Liusheng, who couldn't take it anymore, pressed his temple and ran out in a hurry.

You Jingxing, who was still in the kitchen, was at a loss when he heard the noise. When he was about to chase him out, he was stopped by Bai Wannan. She shook her head: "Brother Xiaojing, he lied to us. In fact, he...he is very strange, really It's weird..."

Later, Bai Wannan explained to You Jingxing what she had witnessed, and You Jingxing was silent for a long time, before saying: "Anyway, I sincerely regard Liu Sheng as a friend, Xiao Nan, when I bring him back, you must apologize."

Seeing that You Jingxing seemed to be angry, Bai Wannan's face turned pale, and she gave a weak "hmm".

That night, Song Liusheng didn't come home because You Jingxing rang the doorbell and knocked frantically at the door of his house again, but no one responded for a long time, and he didn't answer his phone, and then turned it off directly.

You Jingxing became more and more impatient, and then he jumped from his balcony to the next door. After confirming that Song Liusheng was really not at home, he hurried out to look around.

Except for normal work, during the weekends and weekends, Song Liusheng basically hangs out near his home, and there are few entertainment activities. He will go out to eat and watch movies with You Jingxing until You Jingxing moves here.

You Jingxing's mind was in a mess, he searched all the places he could think of, but he couldn't see Song Liusheng.It was already late at night, around eleven o'clock, Youjing walked into a bar.

He once brought Song Liusheng in. At that time, they were sitting on the far right, a position against the wall.Tonight, You Jingxing saw a person in that same position.

This person's back looks strange, but inexplicably familiar.

Wearing a long red dress, with long black hair and a shawl, this man holds a wine glass in his hand, with a red string tied around his wrist, and red nail polish on his five fingers.

Is this person...