Heart Medicine

Since joining the company last year, Song Liusheng has been working in this listed company for more than a year. Although his work performance is not outstanding, he has always been diligent and diligent, and he is an employee who is willing to endure hardships and do practical things.

Everyone clocks in regularly from [-] to [-] every day. There are several departments in the company, adding up to two to three hundred people. Every day, among the top ten in the early arrival list, there is always the voice of Song Liu from the operation department.

Song Liusheng can get the perfect attendance award almost every month. He rarely asks for leave, whether it is personal leave or sick leave. During the holidays, he is not in a hurry to buy a ticket to go home. , If it wasn't for the kind reminder from his colleagues, he would have forgotten to apply, so Director Sun of the department always praised Song Liusheng for his hard work and asked everyone to learn from Song Liusheng.

But Director Sun, who is stingy and narrow-minded, always talks about it. He has never really promoted Song Liusheng, and his salary has never been raised.

This afternoon, it was rare for Song Liusheng to ask for leave because he had an appointment with Dr. Xu.

"Like chlorpromazine, haloperidol, and risperidone, you don't take them anymore, right?" Xu Mingyan asked, looking through the medical records brought by Song Liusheng, and browsing his previous medical records.

Listening to these familiar drug names, Song Liusheng nodded: "Well, I stopped the drug a long time ago."

"How long did you stop?"

Song Liusheng thought for a while, then slowly said: "From March last year, the doses of these medicines were gradually reduced. Later, Dr. Sheng told me that I don't need to take them anymore. If I take too much, there will be side effects. Up to now, I have almost Stopped for almost half a year."

Xu Mingyan also nodded to express his understanding, but when Song Liusheng mentioned a certain doctor, his brows still frowned involuntarily.

"Liusheng, stretch your arm over here." Xu Mingyan said again, although Song Liusheng didn't understand why for a while, he still obediently obeyed.

Song Liusheng has been ill for a long time, and he had been suffering from depression before, and he had the courage to treat it after graduating from university, using drugs to suppress the disease, and corresponding psychological counseling.

In the past few years of treatment, Song Liusheng got to know Dr. Xu Mingyan Xu, and he trusted the young and handsome psychiatrist in front of him, and another psychiatrist, Dr. Sheng.

Xu Mingyan rolled up Song Liusheng's sleeves and checked his arms. The wrists and arms that were once covered with scratches and knife wounds of various sizes and shades were now smooth and intact, without any ugly scars.

Xu Mingyan held Song Liusheng's wrist, and weighed it twice: "Why are you still so thin? Liusheng, didn't I ask you to eat more?"

Song Liusheng smiled bitterly, but did not speak.

He doesn't have a big appetite. Sometimes he is too busy and tired at work, and he often loses his appetite and eats even less.

Xu Mingyan sighed, and his good-looking eyebrows frowned again. He has been in contact with Song Liusheng for almost three years, and he has a little bit of love and compassion.

If Song Liusheng was willing to communicate with him more and really open up his heart, maybe the two of them would have become friends long ago.

"Liusheng, then will you still..." Xu Mingyan didn't continue, but from his eyes and tone, Song Liusheng had already guessed the second half of the sentence and knew what he wanted to ask.

Song Liusheng nodded helplessly: "Sometimes, Dr. Xu, you said it's been so many years, can I still cure it?"

Xu Mingyan hesitated for a moment, then rubbed the center of his brows: "You should have asked Sheng Hui, what did he say?"

"Doctor Sheng keeps saying that I have a heart disease."

"Heh..." Xu Mingyan sneered suddenly, and then changed the topic, "Don't listen to him! I don't think this is a disease at all, Liu Sheng, your mental state is relatively stable now, as for that aspect The habit of... is actually nothing.

There are many cases like yours in the world. Whether it is a different sexual orientation or some special hobbies, you should respect it. After all, you have done nothing wrong, and you have never hurt anyone. "

Hearing this, Song Liusheng's heart trembled, and then he responded with a polite smile: "Thank you, Dr. Xu."

The thanks on his lips are sincere, but those indelible shadows and deep-rooted knots in his heart are not easily untied.

Afterwards, Xu Mingyan added a few notes to the medical record and wrote some notes. When he caught a glimpse of Song Liusheng's personal information by accident, he raised his glasses and said, "Liusheng, today is your birthday."

Song Liusheng was stunned for a moment, and then he nodded slowly after a moment of reaction: "...Well, it seems so."

"What is 'as if'?" Xu Mingyan was startled, "Liu Sheng, you...haven't you even forgotten your own birthday?"

Song Liusheng acquiesced.

After graduating from high school, he left his hometown to go to university in other places. Since then, he has never had family and friends to celebrate his birthday, and he himself is too lazy to celebrate his birthday.

Over time, Song Liusheng even forgot when his birthday was.

For his bank card password, mobile phone unlock code, and account passwords on some entertainment platforms and apps, Song Liusheng used either his grandma's birthday number or that person's.

After leaving the psychological clinic, Song Liusheng stopped by a cake shop.

He didn't have any favorite flavors, but he knew that person liked fruit cakes, especially strawberry cakes, so Song Liusheng bought one and took it home.

Why do you still remember it so clearly?Song Liusheng laughed at himself, many years have passed, maybe some of that person's preferences have long since changed.

When I met that person, Song Liusheng was only 16 years old, just a freshman in high school, and now he will be 27 after his birthday.

From the age of 16 to 26, ten years seem to be fleeting. The great ideals I talked about when I was young, I want to be a policeman, an astronaut and a scientist, and I want to be a hero who saves the world, and those compositions written in immature words , are all fairy tales weaved for themselves when they were young, and eventually they will grow up and become ordinary office workers.

Like most people, Song Liusheng squeezes into the noisy bus and subway every day, commutes on time, has no extra social activities, goes back and forth between the company and home, and repeats the life of two points and one line.

As for the good memories left in your youth?If you think about it suddenly, you may not think of anything for a while, but occasionally, you may think of two or three past events inadvertently.

And Song Liusheng could always think of that person.

Even if it's not his birthday, Song Liusheng has a wish every year.The wishes accumulated over the past ten years are the same every year, and they are all wishful thinking and cannot be realized.

This year Song Liusheng changed to another one, hoping that his illness can be completely cured.

Song Liusheng wasn't used to sweet and greasy food, so he didn't eat a few bites of the cake, but he drank a lot tonight, enjoying himself alone.

After a while Song Liusheng became drunk, and then fell asleep in a daze.

His dream was not beautiful, and many fragments flashed intermittently, seemingly unconnected, but wonderfully connected together.

The butterfly, which was flying lightly, suddenly had its wings broken, and all its brilliance faded away. It fell into the mud. It hated so much, and its remorse gradually became a morbid sustenance, and it was transferred to its own child...

The grass in the crevices of the rocks lives in narrow and cold places, and can only absorb meager nutrients and struggle to survive.It is trying to grow upwards, trying desperately to push away the stone, but the boulder pressing on it is too heavy.

When Xiaocao was about to give up, someone moved the stone and called Xiaocao's name——

"Song Liusheng."

Xiaocao greeted the sun, looked up at the strong green tree in front of her, and the flowers in her heart bloomed...

At dawn, Song Liusheng woke up from his dream, his eyes were slightly red, and there were tears in the corners of his eyes.The room was full of alcohol, and Song Liusheng also noticed that his clothes had changed. He was actually wearing a dress? !

Song Liusheng was startled, fully awake, and hastily changed into a normal shirt and trousers.

too disgusting!

Song Liusheng hated this kind of himself very much, because he would always change into skirts unconsciously, and even put on makeup and a woman's wig.

This is a disease, and it is also an addiction that cannot be quit gradually.

After washing up in the morning, Song Liusheng arrived at the company, and his colleague, Sister Liu, hurriedly gossiped with him, saying that the department had a new leader.

The former Director Sun of their operations department had just left the job not long ago, and everyone hadn't had a leisurely two days. They didn't expect the new boss to take office so soon. I don't know what a powerful role he is.

While talking, several other colleagues gathered together to discuss whether the new leader is a man or a woman?How do you look?Is it because there is something to do with the money in the family, so you came in so soon?

Song Liusheng just listened quietly and never discussed these things in private.

Sister Liu saw that Song Liusheng's expression was flat and didn't respond much, so she gave Song Liusheng a few more words of advice. She told Song Liusheng to be mentally prepared to greet people with a smile instead of crying all day long.

Song Liusheng was slightly taken aback, and then forced a smile.

Sister Liu waved her hand, saying forget it, he laughed uglier than crying.

At the company's morning meeting, Manager Su personally introduced the new director of the operation department. Amid the applause and welcome of everyone, Song Liusheng's eyes were fixed on the director for a long time.

His pair of peach blossom eyes are naturally affectionate, and there is still a familiar smile on the corners of his eyes and brows. When this man smiles, two small dimples will appear on his cheeks.

I haven't seen him for many years, but now his entire face has become more gentle and handsome, and his temperament has become much calmer.

Song Liusheng was in a trance, and the memories hidden deep in his heart were instantly awakened, as if many high school memories flashed before his eyes.

On the playground in the early morning, the kind reminder; in the classroom in the afternoon, the sleeping face of the man when he fell asleep; and on the basketball court in the evening, the man patted Song Liusheng on the shoulder and gave Song Liusheng a thumbs up...

In the three years of high school, Song Liusheng, like many boys and girls, often watched that person not far away, looking forward to such a slight intersection.

In the past, he could be found everywhere on the campus, but for many years, the world is so big and the world is so vast, but he can't be found anywhere.

Song Liusheng had already engraved his name in his heart.

The implication of the name is also very beautiful, the mountains stand upright, and the scenery stops.

You Jingxing, today's new Director You, is someone Song Liusheng has secretly liked for many years.

There was a polite smile on the corner of You Jingxing's mouth, his gentle eyes slowly swept across everyone in the conference room, and he also took a second look at the operation department that he was about to take over.

When his eyes touched Song Liusheng, his eyes moved and he paused for a while.

The morning meeting was over, and the assistant led You Jingxing to the office area of ​​the operation department.

I held a brief meeting with everyone in the department. You Jingxing introduced himself again, and changed some internal regulations, emphasizing the reward and punishment system. Finally, I hope that everyone can work together in the future to bring more benefits to the company.

In short, it was just some polite scene talk, and the tour didn't delay everyone for a long time. After about 10 minutes, he entered his supervisor's office.

But after a while, the assistant called Song Liusheng to the office.

Everyone in the department was shocked, and Song Liusheng's nerves tensed immediately, his heart hadn't been beating so fast for a long time.

Feeling anxious, Song Liusheng knocked on the door of the office, and after hearing the response from You Jingxing inside, he couldn't help but took two deep breaths before walking in slowly.

"I thought you looked familiar just now, but I didn't expect..." You Jingxing checked Song Liusheng's personal file, and smiled at him, "It really is you, Song Liusheng."

After many years, Song Liusheng couldn't help being in a trance when he heard the man call out his name again with a smile, he couldn't tell whether it was a dream or reality.

"How long have we not seen each other?" You Jingxing got up from his seat and approached Song Liusheng, "It seems to be four or five years, no, maybe more than that."

"Seven years." Song Liusheng said suddenly.

You Jingxing was taken aback for a moment, then smiled: "You remember it really clearly."

Song Liusheng remained silent...

He was in the same class as You Jingxing High School for three years, and then separated for seven years.

I thought that we would never have a chance to meet again, but unexpectedly we met again today, and they are in the same company, and have become superior-subordinate relationships.