love marks

Chapter 130, Control VS Understanding.

"If one day, I mean, if, if I do something that I'm sorry to you, what will you do?"

She actually asked this question.

Are you testing my attitude?

Thinking of the scene in the office, my hands and feet are cold.

After thinking about it, I decided to continue playing stupid, "What can you do to be sorry for me?"

I'm really speechless, we are not children anymore, once such a question is uttered, don't know what it means, and I have already seen it.

But I still choose to believe her, as long as she gives me an explanation, I will let the past go.

After a while she replied, "It's that aspect...for example, empathy."

She is straightforward.

"Will you," I asked back, "won't your conscience ache?"

After a long silence, she replied, "Most of the time, I can't help myself."

"So if you say cheating, someone will force you." I said.

After a while, she replied, "Maybe everyone has what they need..."

Her tone... "Don't say you are planning to cheat?"

Then he added, "If you can cheat...it means I still can't satisfy you."

"Are you talking about Fengji?"

I raised my finger and didn't type a word for a long time.

She sent another message, "You have to remember, no matter what happens in the future, I will always love you."

"Including leaving me?" I replied in a strange way.

Another half day passed, and I was about to get up and get out of bed, when she replied, asking rhetorically, "Do you want to separate from me?"

I have absolutely no idea what to say.I came to the living room and turned on the TV, watched the boring program, hesitated in the living room for a while, and then went to the window to light a cigarette.

I am not addicted to smoking, and it has been a long time since the last time I smoked. At this moment, smoke seems to relieve my mood and divert my attention.

Seeing the smoke dissipate little by little in the night, I suddenly thought about it, nothing is impossible.

Half of my life has passed, and there is still nothing to look away from.

Fu Yu may have her own reasons, even if she doesn't, it's just as I see...as long as she speaks, I won't say anything.

On the contrary, continue to be well and continue to love.

Yes, I still love her...

I guess I was a little self-hypnotized, but I was self-defeating as soon as the idea came up:

Absolutely fart!If she dares to cheat, I'll dump her right away, even Feng Ji can't stop her!

My heart was a little uncomfortable and stuffy, I snuffed out the cigarette butt on the windowsill, turned and went back to the room.

And there seemed to be a remnant of Fu Yufeng's breath in the bedroom.

I stayed up all night.

In the next period of time, I seem to have activated the model of a good wife. No matter how busy I am at work, I will spare time to make lunches and send them to her company. I am not afraid of being seen by others. Our relationship is no longer a secret, no matter what others think ;

Sometimes I will prepare some snacks or fruits, and kiss me in front of the people who eat melons. I also know that sometimes her boss will see it, and I let her see it on purpose. She intentionally left a meaningful look in her eyes. If she really had some nasty intentions, it could be regarded as a warning to her: I am not stupid and sweet, Fu Yu is mine, whoever you are, restrain yourself, or I will make you look good !

I would go to her company at night to wait for her to pick her up from get off work, and then go home together, never giving them a chance to be alone. Fu Yu's attitude seemed to be loose and dissatisfied, but he still held back and said nothing, which made me choose Believe her, but I still can't help worrying about gains and losses.

"Recently you talk less." I said.

She showed no expression, "You too."

"Can't you tell me what happened?" I asked again.

She hesitated for a while, "...I don't know how to tell you."

"Then say what comes to mind."

She looked at me for a while before saying anything, "Forget it, it's nothing."

I can only be silent.

"That..." She thought of something again, "From now on...you don't have to come to the company to see me every day, you are quite busy, and your legs and feet are not good..."

Is she really unhappy?

"I go every day, you are bored." I replied lightly.

"No," she denied, "I don't want you to push yourself."

"I am reluctant or you are reluctant," I was a little unhappy, "Stop saying high-sounding words!"

She was slightly taken aback, "Pine nuts..."

I also realized that my tone was heavy, so I sighed lightly and replied casually, "Sorry."

I don't want to see her face sinking in a blink of an eye, "What did you say?"

I was a little confused for a moment, "What did I say?"

"Are you apologizing to me?" She asked again... her tone should be exhausted.

I don't understand, "What's the problem?"

His eyes narrowed slightly, "Your tone has also changed."

"no change."

"changed."

I was ashamed, "What's the point of worrying about this." Then I turned around and left first.

After a while, I turned around, but I didn't see Feng Ji following up.

I suddenly felt depressed: As for what, I got angry like this.

Had to go back the same way.

After walking for a while, I didn't see someone, but was stopped by a female voice: "Hey, beauty~"

I heard the sound and looked, a white car stopped next to me, the window was rolled down, and a woman's face appeared in sight, it was Fu Yu's boss;

"Are you going home? Do you need me to send you a section?" She said.

"No, thank you." I didn't like her very much.

"We met before. In the company, I was Fu Yu's boss," she said, "Do you remember me?"

I responded and didn't say much.

"Looking at this relationship, I'll give you a break. Get in the car." The woman was wearing decent professional makeup, but her clothes were bright colors, which looked very abrupt in the dark night.

"No, we have nothing to do with each other." I corrected, then turned and continued walking.

She didn't feel embarrassed, and opened the car door while speaking, "Then let's get to know you formally. I've heard of you. You are a famous manager in the entertainment circle. My name is Wan Yan. Would you mind finding a place to sit?"

Naturally mind, "No, I'm not interested."

She was not annoyed either, "Sure enough, the words are as concise as the rumors say, and there is no chance for anyone to keep them."

I ignored her, and walked forward on my own, and heard her say, "Are you going home, this is the direction of the company."

I glanced at the distance and saw no familiar figure at all. After thinking about it, I turned around and went to the rented apartment.

"Are you waiting for someone, Fu Yu?" the woman continued to ask.

"It's getting late, the boss is still in the mood to drive outside if he doesn't hurry home." I replied lukewarmly.

"I'm waiting for someone," she said, looking at the time, "he's almost here."

I didn't care about her, and walked away involuntarily with two long legs.

She also said jokingly: "Have time to have a drink together."

In the early hours of the morning, Fu Yu finally came back, but smelled of alcohol, and slammed the door loudly, which also shocked me; I was still a little uneasy at first, but I didn't see her coming back after waiting at home for a long time, worried that she wouldn't come back. What happened to her, she called her but was told to turn off the phone, so she could only fidget and wait.

But looking at her drunken appearance right now, apart from being worried, she is also a little unhappy, knowing that she can't drink and still drinking so much, what if something happens to her.

"It's late at night, what kind of door should be slammed, and it will affect others' sleep." I was unhappy in my heart, and my tone of mouth was not gentle.

The latter looked at me with drunken eyes, as if a little dazed.

"What's the matter, you don't know me anymore? How much have you drank..."

Before I finished speaking, I was thrown down by him, and the smell of alcohol rushed to my face, and before I could react, his face was already covered with saliva: "Niuer, Niuer...you didn't leave."

I was at a loss, "Where am I going?"

He was still thinking to himself, "Don't go, don't leave me..."

"..." I came to my senses a little bit, did he think that he and I got angry and left first to get out of his rhythm?

This must be a bit glassy.

"I won't go, where can I go," I coaxed softly, "You get up first, the ground is strangely cold."

He was still muttering to himself, "I'm not trying to snub you, I'm already going crazy, don't like others..."

I couldn't laugh or cry, "When did I like someone else?"

"No matter what I do, you are not allowed to leave me, you are not allowed to betray me, otherwise..." Feng Jie panted heavily, his heavy alcohol-smelling breath hit my face, and his hands were already pulling at my crotch Out of clothes.

I came to my senses and pressed her hand, "You are planning to get drunk and have sex. Even if you plan to, don't stay on the ground. Seeing the smell of alcohol on your body, go take a bath first. I will wait for you on the bed."

the way he was deaf;

I pushed him away and wanted to get up, "Be obedient, go take a shower first..."

The wrist was clenched, and when I saw her blurred and drunken eyes in a blink of an eye, I couldn't help but want to laugh, "Look at you like this, you'll have to break up when you wake up tomorrow morning."

I was pushed down by him again, and the blunt and domineering kiss rushed forward. I was a little uncomfortable. He was not gentle at this time. He even took off his clothes in a merciless way. pain;

Is he angry?

"Hey, you, slow down, the clothes will be torn," she pressed the other hand in front of him, "Be gentle, are you going to force it?"

Originally, this sentence was just for fun or to adjust the atmosphere, but unexpectedly, it had the opposite effect. An inexplicable anger suddenly rose in Feng Jie's eyes that could not see the emotional fluctuations, and he turned my body over without any explanation. Face to face, and he raised my hands above his head, and after a while, a chill hit his wrists, and there was a soft sound of metal impact, and the two wrists were bound together.

When I saw the handcuffs glowing with silver light, I felt a chill in my heart: Feng Ji would only play Prison PLAY when he was furious. Only that time, since the reunion eight years later, he has not used those props again, but today Take out the handcuffs again!This is... what do you mean?

"Feng Ji, you... what's wrong?!"

At that time, I just took a step ahead in a fit of anger, so it shouldn't be so serious.

My body was cold, my pants were ripped off, someone's cold palm slid along my back and between my legs, and then my shoulders were exposed to the air, and he bit down hard in the next second.

"what!"

I was a little bit at a loss for a while when I was pinching up and down.

"Feng Ji, what are you doing!" I also became angry.

"It's called a mouse!" He corrected severely, and then his teeth were embedded in the flesh of my shoulder again, and the fishy-sweet heat flowed down the shoulder involuntarily, dripping all over the floor.

"Feng Ji, you...why are you so crazy!" I couldn't resist being handcuffed, and I could only let him do whatever he wanted.

"Niuer...what should I do with you..."

He pressed me from behind, with his arms tightly around my waist, completely blocking the possibility of me slipping away. I couldn't see his expression with my back turned to him, but I could feel a faint feeling from his tone of voice. pain of?

"Exhaustion..."

"It's called a mouse," he corrected again, sticking to his ear and nibbling my ear, "You can always call Yu by her nickname easily, but why do you always call me by her first name, so until now you Or do you love her more than me?"

"Are you taking Fu Yu's jealousy?" I couldn't laugh or cry, "You two are the same person."

"I'm not jealous of her, it's just..." Feng Ji denied it vehemently, and buried it in the pit of my neck, nibbling at my neck, his voice was low, "I really want to eat you."

I was ashamed, "You 'eat' less?"

He turned me over again, facing his indescribable eyes, and said inexplicably, "It hasn't been long, why are you getting tired of it?"

"Tired of what?" I was puzzled, and felt that he was abnormal, "What's the matter with you? What stimulated you again?"

He didn't speak anymore, I don't know if it was because of the alcohol or something, his eyes were red, and he stared at me firmly, staring straight at me made me feel apprehensive.

There was a soft "hiss", and the last piece of clothing was torn...

Then I passed the night in confusion and shame.

As I expected, on the second day, from the puzzled and surprised expression on Fu Yu's face, she knew without asking, she didn't know anything about what happened last night, and even if she "confronted" Feng Ji personally , he also looked at a loss.

Alcohol is a good thing, it is the best props for courage and fragmentation.

I didn't intend to blame him, but after waking up, he returned to his indifferent attitude. Even though the rich emotions were hidden in his eyes, he didn't express anything in his mouth or actions, and I was out of shape, so I wanted to talk to him The idea of ​​having a good talk has also come to naught.

After tossing on the floor all night, I was exhausted, and I couldn't adjust to work, so I asked for leave with my brother and Gu Chenghao, and then collapsed on the bed like a cripple, not wanting to say a word.

Fu Yu was a little worried and offered to stay at home with me, but I refused.

"You seem to be busy with a lot of things every day. If you don't go today, you will be even busier tomorrow. Go, I'm fine." I don't understand why she has so many jobs as a small employee, she always seems to be busy. It looks endless, but I don't want to delay her plan because of me, I don't want to, and I can't.

So she put a light kiss on my forehead, got up and went out.

I lay in the rented house for a day, and I was also hungry for a day, because I was too lazy to cook, and I changed my clothes and went out when I felt better.

I ate something casually at the snack street near the downstairs of Fu Yu's company, packed a portion and went upstairs.

No one in the company was off work, so I sat on a round chair in the waiting hall and waited.

I don't know how long it took, and from the corner of the eye, I felt that there was an extra person by the window not far away. I took a look, and it was a man who looked familiar. He saw me looking at him, he hesitated for a second, walked over, and said, " You are waiting for Fu Yu."

My relationship with Fu Yu is no longer a secret. Everyone in the company knows about it, but I don't remember any contact with this man.

"Fu Yu is a rare good employee." He sat down next to me and continued, "Every day she works overtime until the latest, and she will do what the boss orders very well. Even Manager Wan, that picky woman I can’t praise her enough, this person’s ability to work cannot be underestimated.”

Manager Wan, Wan Yan.

I didn't answer rashly, I always felt that there was something in his words.

Sure enough, the next sentence hit my sore spot:

"The manager likes her very much."

"It is every employee's dream to be appreciated and recognized by their superiors." I replied calmly.

"It stands to reason that is indeed the case," he said without denying it, "but sometimes it's not a good thing to be too emotional. In the workplace, it is most taboo to be emotional, which will put yourself in a dangerous situation."

I looked at him and found that he was looking at me with a deep look, and I didn't dare to speculate on what he meant, so I asked, "What do you mean?"

He didn't explain much, "It's literally, you don't need to think too much."

Isn't the intention of your words just to make me think more.

There was a momentary silence in the air, he glanced to the side, suddenly coughed lightly, and changed the subject, "Tell me about it, I suddenly have a question I want to ask you."

"what is the problem."

"Fu Yu, what attracts you."

What attracts me?

...I really thought about it carefully.

"Is it related to you?"

"Of course it doesn't matter. I was just curious for a moment. After all, the same sex is not like the opposite sex. They have the advantage of being attracted to each other. If they are of the same sex, they are basically for friendship... Of course, those who like the same sex are not included..." He A little embarrassing, "Then you are born to like it, or..."

"I don't know." I gave an ambiguous answer, "It doesn't make sense to say this now."

"She is excellent, and those who are capable will do more," he continued, "You have seen it too, it seems that she is always busy."

Speaking of this, I was a little unhappy, but I still said politely, "She is also completing the work assigned to her by your company."

He was surprised and didn't seem to agree, "I didn't know that Manager Wan assigned her an excessive amount of work. Every employee has their own amount of work. Others don't work overtime all day long."

I glanced at him, "What do you mean, she took other people's jobs?"

Instead of being annoyed, he said, "Your tone seems to mean that everyone in the company is bullying her."

I was noncommittal, and looked away, "I don't know about this."

After a while he asked again, "How long have you been together."

Seeing me, he added, "It's just curiosity, I want to gossip, if you don't want to say it, forget it."

I thought for a while and replied, "We've known each other for a long time."

"Acquaintance?" He seemed a little surprised by the word, "We've known each other for a long time, so have we been together for a long time after confirming the relationship?"

"Separated in the middle."

He seems to have understood, "After breaking up and getting back together, the feeling... will it change?"

I looked at his unpleasant face, and corrected after a moment of silence, "We have never broken up."

"Oh..." He seemed to understand, and repeated the question just now, "Will the feeling change after we get together again?"

I thought about it, but couldn't think of a reason for it, so I threw the words back, "You seem to be very interested in our affairs."

"You misunderstood," he explained, "just thinking about my experience with my girlfriend, I also separated from her, and although it is good now, sometimes she feels different from before, you all Women, so I think women will have something in common psychologically when dealing with feelings."

There are two points in what he said, but I can't define other people's psychology from my own point of view, not to mention others, even Fu Yu, I haven't figured it out yet, and I haven't thought of a solution to his problem. For a clear answer, I have to say ambiguously: "It varies from person to person, and the world is impermanent."

"That's true." He nodded thoughtfully, and then said tentatively, "But it is said that she sometimes has a bad temper and is very irritable. Of course, I didn't see it when I was working in the company." She lost her temper, but the rumors may not be groundless... We all know that this company was still owned by them three years ago. Now... there must be a gap in my heart. You have been with her for so long, and during that time there must be It's not easy either..."

My heart sank suddenly.

"You're talking about the incident three years ago, right?" Although he tried his best to say it tactfully, I still felt sensitively that he meant something and felt displeased, "I know what happened to her, and others take it for granted. "

"That thing, which thing?" I don't know if he didn't react or was just pretending to be stupid, and I didn't want to talk nonsense with him anymore, so I got up and walked to the side.

Three years ago, Fu Yu was found to have a dual personality because of his killing spree, so he was admitted to a mental hospital and lost his position as the general manager of the ZY branch;

The seven lives killed in a short period of time were not only in the entertainment circle, but also a vicious event that caused a sensation in the whole city. Although the police did not deliberately expose the identity of the murderer, and also refused the in-depth interview and follow-up of media reporters, there is no such thing in the world. The impenetrable wall and gossip leaked from nowhere still connected Fu Yu with the "devil" who killed seven people in a row.

When the news spread, people in the entertainment circle were shocked. They couldn't imagine that this beautiful manager who usually looks mature and intellectual would be the devil who kills without blinking an eye.

Colleagues engaged in the media are also skeptical, and have never dared to drop the hammer on the authenticity of this news;

But then Fu Yu disappeared from everyone's sight, and at that time, I was also lying unconscious on the bed, and the incident slowly subsided after boiling for a while.

But after thinking about it, everyone can definitely realize one point: that is, Fu Yu's temper is sometimes really irritable. She may be mature and intellectual, and she can act resolutely, but sometimes it is like a different person. She killed someone... It seemed possible.

It was because of such psychological preparation that everyone was afraid of Fu Yu's stepping into the media world again.

And it is precisely because of my relationship with her that even though I am still notorious in the circle, they dare not give me face. suffered her revenge.

Well, even if Fu Yu didn't kill anyone, she was famous for her vindictive character.

This man met me by accident, but he and Fu Yu are also considered colleagues. He probably knows what happened to Fu Yu three years ago, and if you think about it a little bit, it is very easy to think of it. I was implicated behind this case, after all, the indecent video about me also caused a commotion.

It has been three years since the incident, and everyone has almost avoided talking about it, so why would he want to bring up this incident, or in front of me, the client, what motive does he have?

No, he didn't directly say the words of the murder case three years ago, nor did he say any words about guessing whether Fu Yu was really the murderer, he just mentioned Fu Yu's bad temper, and the president who resigned three years ago As a manager, the ZY branch was acquired later...

Am I overthinking.

Wish...

But then I thought of another point, why was the ZY branch acquired? Is it just because Fu Yu is no longer the general manager?But even if Fu Yu doesn't want to be the general manager, Fu Zhe can find someone else to do it, and there's no need to give up the company.

I faintly feel that things here may not be that simple.

I glanced back at him subconsciously, and suddenly remembered where I had seen him before...

By the way, it was the middle-aged man I met at the door when I came here to see Fu Yufengji!

It was him.

The last time I saw him, his sinister eyes gave me a bad feeling, but this time I didn't notice it when I got close. Is it because I'm slow to react, or is he just pretending?

Anyway, my impression of him is even worse.

"Pine nuts." When a familiar voice came, it was Fu Yu.

"No smoking here," she added.

I froze for a moment, only to realize that I had already put the cigarette in my mouth at some point.

"Sorry." I withdrew the cigarette and put it back in the case.

Fu Yu's eyes darkened, "When did you learn to smoke?"

"It's been a long time, but I don't usually smoke, just occasionally." I have never smoked in front of Fu Yu, and she didn't know that I would smoke until today.

She didn't pursue it any further. She glanced at the man and said to me, "Let's go, go home."

I was a little surprised: "No need to work overtime today?"

"No." She hugged me and left.

I was still a little uncomfortable. Looking at the cold takeaway in my hand, I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart.

She also saw the fast food box in my hand, and asked casually, "Didn't I make the bento today?"

"Hmm..." I was a little shy, "I'm too tired to cook."

Someone understood and smiled meaningfully, "It seems that I have to be more restrained."

My face just got hotter.

"Niuer." He said again.

"Ok?"

"What attracts you to me?" he said.

I turned my head immediately and met his deep gaze.

She (he) heard it all.