love marks

Chapter [-], I will never leave you again.

I really could hide from the first day of the junior high school but not the fifteenth day. I couldn't stand my mother's urging, so I had to go home and go along with a so-called blind date she arranged. Fu Yu threatened to be with me.

"You are the general manager, there are still a lot of things waiting for you to deal with in the company, it is inappropriate to run back and forth with me," I declined.

In the end, she hit the nail on the head, "You are afraid that I will see your mother."

I am speechless.

"Then you arrange the blind date outside, or I will go to your house." She said.

I was surprised, "You really want to follow?!"

"Don't worry, your mother won't find me." She vowed, and then said, "But you have to come back after the blind date is over, I don't want to stay in a hotel."

Feeling like you are being watched.

I can only agree.

Later, I saw Qi Meng again, who had already turned out to be a good-looking talent, and it was obvious that he was really putting his heart into this meeting, and he was well-dressed.

"Wear upright." I boasted.It's useless to dress up beautifully, he should know that I have never meant anything to him.

"Out of politeness," he replied softly.

The location was set at a restaurant. Originally, my mother meant to eat at home, but Fu Yu would disagree if this was the case. It was because I had a guilty conscience, so I naturally followed her.

The meal was quite satisfactory. At the beginning, my mother asked some traditional questions that Chinese parents would be involved in. She was also very satisfied with Qi Meng's answer, so she withdrew in the middle of the conversation, leaving it to me to "exchange feelings" with him time.

Originally, this meeting was very perfunctory, I didn't wash my hair, I just put on a coat and came here. There is no need to carry it when my mother is gone, and I said straight to the point: "Don't think too much, I just give it to you. For the sake of mother, you know there is no way for us."

He froze for a moment, his eyes dimmed, "Why?"

Still asking why?I just thought it was funny, "Do you need me to say the reason again, I'm not interested in boys."

"Maybe it's just you who think so..."

"What's the meaning."

"It's not that you're not interested in boys, it's just that you haven't met any boys you're attracted to," he said to himself, "plus you met Fu Yu before, so you think you like girls, or it's just your illusion."

"You're right about one thing, I haven't met the boy I'm attracted to," I looked at him, "this includes you."

"It doesn't matter if you don't feel tempted now, that's because you have been deliberately rejecting me before. You and Fu Yu separated eight years ago, which means that you are not so suitable. It has been so long, and you should give yourself another chance. Give me a chance too, if you get to know me better, you will know what kind of person I am, and your mother has no objection..."

"My mother doesn't represent my position," I immediately replied, "There is one thing you should understand, if you don't like it, you don't like it. It has nothing to do with time. I didn't accept you before, and I won't in the future either."

His face was very embarrassed, and then he was a little hurt and said: "Have you not forgotten Fu Yu?"

"Yes." I admitted generously, "She hasn't forgotten me, but we wouldn't be able to do it without her."

Although the words are a bit heavy, but to be honest, Qi Meng is very depressed, "Since you have been separated for so long, why can't you give me a chance, you know that I have always liked you for so many years, so you can't try to accept me what?"

"You also know that I have never liked you, so why bother..."

Before the words finished, another voice sounded, "Who said we broke up, I never said that from the beginning to the end!"

When I looked up, I saw Fu Yu coming over, hooked my chin teasingly, and said, "I've said enough, it's time to withdraw."

I stood up cooperatively and put my arm around her shoulder, "Withdraw."

"You," Qi Meng looked at Fu Yu in surprise, "Why are you here?"

"Why can't I be here," Fu Yu asked back, "How can I see your wickedness when I'm not here?"

Qi Meng was choked speechless, and we turned around and left.

I didn't stay any longer, and I had a phone call with my mother. Although I heard a few complaints, I flew back to the city where I worked.

"You said if your mother knew that we were together again, would she be mad?" Fu Yu seemed to be joking.

However, my attention was attracted by two pairs of strangers not far away: a middle-aged couple, a man unscrupulously licked oil and ate tofu on a woman in public, I felt nauseated, and something flashed in my mind The other pair is a pair of grandpa and grandson, the grandpa aggressively dragged the granddaughter forward, while the girl cried until Lihua rained on her face with grievance and unwillingness.

Suddenly, I felt like a hole had been poked in my brain, and something flowed out sporadically, but there was a feeling of enlightenment.

"Songzi, what are you looking at?" Fu Yu pulled my consciousness back and saw her suspicious and displeased face, "Did you hear me talking to you?"

"What?" I was a little dazed.

She angrily threw me away.

I smiled helplessly and followed.

That night in the bedroom, we lay facing each other. For a while, the air was so quiet that we could only hear the movement of the hands of the clock. After an unknown amount of time, someone behind me turned over and asked, "Songzi, are you asleep?" what?"

I wanted to answer her but still hesitated, and I didn't speak.

After a while, I put a hand on my waist, and then wrapped it around her to feel her warmth, and her breath was close to my ears.

My body was stiff for a while, and seeing that she didn't make any other movements, I just breathed a sigh of relief when I heard her say again: "I know you're not asleep."

At the end of the conversation, I had no choice but to turn around and meet her star-like eyes, but I still didn't speak, or I didn't know what to say.

She didn't say a word, she took my hand and fiddled with it gently, the warmth of her palm spread to me, slowly, her hand slid from my hand to my arm, shoulder, chest, and finally back to me. to the waist.

"Is there nothing you want to tell me?" she asked.

"No... I don't know how to say it." I replied like this.

Her hand went downstream again and stopped on my thigh, "Why did you leave eight years ago, because you broke a leg?"

"...Really." After all, she asked again, and this answer was considered correct.

"Where's your red bean bracelet?" She asked again.

Touching his empty wrist, he replied lightly, "It's broken, and I lost it too."

"Is it broken or lost." She pressed.

"Lost at the scene of a car accident eight years ago."

She stopped talking.Instead, he touched my chest with his hand, but luckily the red bean pendant is still there.

"You know, if I didn't see that you were still wearing it, I would almost have been deceived by your lies."

I did not speak.

She said again suddenly, "You don't know how to coax me when I'm angry."

"How to coax." I replied casually.

She was a little unhappy, "How did you coax me before?"

"Before... have I made you angry?" I was at a loss.

She was slightly startled, and then sighed, "I was the one who made you angry in the past... You still know that you made me angry, so how do you coax me now?"

"How do you want me to coax you." I said along the way.

She looked at me for a while, then pressed her lips together silently, her lips were two centimeters away from me, and then she stopped moving, waiting for my next words.

I obediently kissed her, then held her in my arms, "Go to sleep."

After a while she said, "I can't sleep."

"Then I'll tell you a story?"

"Ah."

I thought for a while and said: "Once upon a time there was a little girl who was as ignorant and innocent as other girls. Although her parents divorced, she had a mother and brother who loved her. She felt that she was the luckiest and happiest child in the world. , She thought her life would always be so carefree. Then one day, her mother brought home a strange uncle who seemed to have a good relationship with her. The uncle also brought her and her brother a lot of delicious food. But for some reason, she just doesn’t like that strange man. She thinks that the man will take her mother away, but the food he brought is really delicious. In this conflicting mood, the girl accidentally found the strange man and her mother in the room Doing that kind of thing, but the little girl was still young at that time, she didn't understand what adults were doing, she just felt that her mother was suffering, that the man was bullying her mother, but she was very scared, so she ran out secretly, and then... She met an old man who sold candied haws and wanted to buy candied haws, but because she had no change, she was bullied by the unkind grandpa when she went home with the old man to get money. Fortunately, another little boy came forward to interrupt the old man. Later, when the girl wanted to escape, she accidentally fell down the stairs. When she woke up, she found that she was locked in the sundry warehouse. I don’t know how long it took before she was let out by the little boy. After returning home, the girl didn’t say anything. But she knew that what the old man wanted to do was the same as what a strange man did to her mother, so she felt that girls would be bullied if they were too weak, so from that day on she stopped wearing girls' clothes, cut her hair short, and changed Dressed up like a boy, just like her brother, being a man can protect her mother, and she began to hate the touch of outsiders, even simple physical contact would make her feel uncomfortable, but only her brother seemed to understand her psychology, Although she cares about her, she will not get too close to her. This kind of communication mode will make her feel comfortable, but it also makes her have no friends. It's like this until the girl goes to college and meets another...a girl with a story. What, she thought this girl was very kind, so she became good friends with her, but found out in the increasing contact..."

I paused for a moment, and Fu Yu answered knowingly: "I found out that their relationship is not friendship?"

"...Well," I replied, "this is a whirlpool, she can only fall into it."

"And that girl is also caught in it," Fu Yu said with affirmation, "The little girl you mentioned is yourself, and that girl is me."

"...um." I admitted.

She took a deep breath, reached out to hug me tightly, and then said: "That girl is also very tangled, because she is not sure what kind of feelings this handsome roommate has for her. If she rejects this kind of feeling, she can only use it Buried the feelings in the bottom of my heart, otherwise I would worry that if I didn’t handle it well, I wouldn’t even be able to be friends;”

"But she confessed anyway."

"That's no way, she doesn't want another person to take the lead," she sighed, "Who knew that he would start to touch her as soon as he came out, and he looked like he was going to win, so she could only crazily increase her favorability... Then While brushing up favorability, I was entangled."

I kissed her on the forehead, "Now she doesn't have to worry about it."

She raised her head and returned to the topic, "But you are not as considerate as before. You don't even know how to coax me when I'm angry."

I smiled wickedly, and pinched her dogwood, "For Fu Yu, this is enough, for Feng Jin... it doesn't matter if you don't coax her."

"Oh, it's so biased." She pretended to be unhappy, and moved her fingertips down again, "It's obvious that they are all alone, and the treatment is so bad."

"Obviously they are all alone, and their personalities are so different." I blocked her with words.

She suddenly smiled evilly, turned over and pressed on me, "Then tell me, am I Fu Yu or Feng Jin now?"

The light was dim, and I couldn't see clearly what was in her eyes. To be precise, even if I could see clearly, I might not be able to tell the difference between them.

Fu Yu and Feng Ji are getting closer.

But she suddenly became serious, looked at me for a long time, and suddenly said: "Let me wash your feet."

I froze for a moment, then replied, "No need, I've already washed it."

"That's different." After saying that, she really went down to the ground.

After a while she came back with a basin, turned on the light, and knelt down in front of me.

Looking at my empty left trouser leg, my expression became gloomy again.

"It's okay, it's easy to wash one less foot, but it's a waste of water..." I wanted to say a few words to ease the atmosphere, but it didn't have a good effect, but it was even worse.I can only shut up in embarrassment.

"I'm sorry..." Her voice suddenly choked up.

I quickly raised her face, and the eye sockets were wet.

"Don't cry, don't cry, it's all over, it's all over!" I comforted her lamely, but her tears came down.

"If I hadn't let you go, you wouldn't have had a car accident, and you wouldn't have..."

She couldn't go on, and I couldn't bear to listen any more, so I pulled her into my arms, stroked her hair gently and coaxed her, "It's okay, it's been fine for a long time, my life has not been affected by this, on the contrary, I I also met a noble person in my career, and my life will only get better and better in the future, so you don't have to feel guilty, this has nothing to do with you, it was caused by my own negligence..."

As I was talking, my nose couldn't help but get sore. When the accident happened, I would have no love for life. I was physically disabled, frustrated in love, and repeatedly encountered obstacles in finding a job. If it weren't for my mother and elder brother to take care of me, I don't know when I can get out of that shadow.

Fortunately, he came out, and from now on, the sun can only be good.

"I still have to bear the main responsibility," she was still serious, "If I hadn't let you go at that time, you wouldn't have had a car accident, and I wouldn't have been anxiously waiting, so I wouldn't have ignored Wan Jin's strangeness, let it go away from me like you..."

When I heard her mentioning Wan Jin suddenly, I was a little bit taken aback, but then I realized something was wrong, "What's wrong with Wan Jin?"

"Wanjin is dead."

This is normal, right? A dog's lifespan is only a short ten years, and it was already an old dog lingering on its last legs when it was in its senior year.

"On the third day after you left, it was hit by a car and died. The car ran over it directly, and its internal organs were ruptured." Her eyes were red, "I should have had a premonition. Its situation is similar to yours. It was so similar to the car accident that happened to me...but I just thought it was hit by a car because it was too old and slow, but in fact this is not a warning."

"That's really a pity..." I always thought that Wan Jin died of old age naturally, "Should I be glad that the car didn't directly crush my internal organs..."

But it's about the same, if the driver doesn't slow down and turn.And I still stayed in the hospital for a long time because of crushing.

And during those days in the hospital, I really missed her very much.

Special thought.

The painful period of falling out of love slowly faded away, and I finally stopped thinking about her all day long, and gradually returned to the right track of life. I used to think that I would continue to be alone like this until I died alone, but when I look at it again Only when I saw her did I realize that I still underestimated her obsession, and also underestimated my emotional sustenance to her.

I just knew that I was hurt and lived alone, how could I ignore that she was in a different city at that time, and she was also suffering from losing two true loves at the same time, and I was still disheartened and thought about not seeing each other again like this. , or be nice to each other...

Without her, how could it be good.

I hugged the person in my arms tightly again, and I solemnly promised: "This time, I will never leave you again."