Every day begging to let go

On the morning of the first day of the new year, Shi Wenbo's mother drove back to her hometown to accompany her parents after preparing lunch.Before leaving, he repeatedly asked Shi Wenbo to take good care of Tian Xilei, and when he was free, the two of them would go back to their hometown together, so that grandma and grandpa, who were inconvenient to travel far away, could also see Tian Xilei.

Although it may be a polite remark, the heart of the listener is always warm.

Tian Xilei was in a good mood. After bidding farewell to Shi Wenbo's mother, she curled up contentedly on the bed, nestling in Shi Wenbo's arms like an old married couple.

"Your mother is so kind." Compared with his mother who abandoned him and his sister many years ago, Tian Xilei is very envious of Shi Wenbo's maternal love.

"It's because she left my father that she has the strength to love me." Shi Wenbo hugged Tian Xilei tightly, with a faint smile on his face, as if enjoying the sweet time between the two of them, "I still remember that she didn't Before the divorce, I was tortured by my father and was about to collapse. Fortunately, my grandparents are very powerful, and brought a group of local hooligans to discuss divorce with my father..."

Compared with the previous cloudy and uncertain, Shi Wenbo really calmed down.Even when talking about the unpleasant or even painful past, he can face it calmly and talk freely.

"Don't you hate your mother? When your mother threw you down, didn't you hate her at all?"

Tian Xilei never dared to ask such sensitive questions before, for fear of touching Shi Wenbo's pain and his own pain.But now he was able to ask such a small talk like this, even he himself couldn't believe it.

This change is obviously related to Shi Wenbo's mother.

Shi Wenbo's mother, Tian Xilei's mother, both had the misdeeds of abandoning their own flesh and blood.But compared to Shi Wenbo's mother who gave people the warmth and kindness like a spring breeze, what Tian Xilei's mother did was like a biting cold wind blowing on the siblings, leaving nothing but pain and hatred.

Tian Xilei sometimes thinks that if his mother had existed like a warm spring day and helped them when they were most helpless, he and his sister might not hate her as much as they do now.At least my sister won't be under the knife directly from her company...

"When I was ignorant, I hated it. Later, when I became sensible, I stopped hating..." Thinking of those rebellious years, Shi Wenbo wanted to laugh and cry, "In the years when my mother just divorced my father, I never Visited me, never... My grandma told me that your mother doesn't want you anymore, she doesn't want you anymore... Grandma nagging a lot, I took it seriously, and started to hate my mother from the bottom of my heart... Later My mother came to see me at school, but I ignored her..."

Shi Wenbo's eye circles were red, and his voice trembled slightly.Tian Xilei turned around, put his arms around his head, and stroked him gently, "After my father died, that woman never came to see my sister and me, even if she came back, it was because of that legacy...but she came back I'm still very happy to greet you at the door of my house early..."

Contrary to Shi Wenbo, when talking about his mother's past, Tian Xilei was so cold, as if he was telling a story about someone else's family in another city, without any emotion.

If there is, it's just the lingering hatred that survived after she was imprisoned!

"... Later, when I went to university, I found out by accident that it was not my mother who refused to visit me, but my father and my grandmother forbade my mother to visit me... They not only deprived a mother of legal visits to her children power, and maliciously slandered this mother in front of this ignorant child..."

Shi Wenbo can't remember how he heard the news at that time, and how he accepted the fact that both he and his mother were victims of this failed marriage under the coercion and lure of his father and grandma.But he still clearly remembers, in order to prevent him from reconciling with his mother, the ugly appearance of grandma rolling over for the old disrespect...

As a grandson, perhaps he shouldn't speak ill of his grandma.But unfortunately, compared with the grandma and grandpa who are the descendants of landlords, the proletarian-born grandma is really like a clown. She has to take three points for her reasons, and she has the face of a vicious woman left over from feudalism.

Shi Wenbo has seen through this family and has had enough of this family. While slowly accepting his mother, the relationship with them is naturally becoming more and more distant...

Tian Xilei lay flat on the bed, letting Shi Wenbo pillow on his chest, "... Speaking of which, that woman also secretly approached me several times, and took me to my favorite ice cream shop to eat ice cream , and then asked me gently about the division of the inheritance..."

"You must have been in pain, right?"

Tian Xilei shook her head, "I was not very sensible at that time, and I couldn't even talk about suffering."

Shi Wenbo turned over and lay on Tian Xilei's body, so that he could see the changes in his expression with the naked eye at any time, "...but your relationship with her seems to be very stiff, what happened later? ?"

Tian Xilei swallowed and did not speak for a long time.It can be guessed that this is a memory that I don't want to be awakened.Shi Wenbo reached out and stroked his cheek, "It's fine if you don't want to say it, it's over anyway..."

"On the first anniversary of my father's death, my sister took me to visit my father's grave. As soon as I left the flower shop, I met that woman. She was standing at the intersection with her new husband, smiling at me and my sister. ..." Having said that, Tian Xilei paused, and then took a deep breath, "I, I thought she was also here to see my father. I couldn't even mention how happy she was at that time, and I just wanted to jump around. Go over... my sister grabbed me, threw the flowers in her hand on the ground and trampled them to pieces, and ordered me to buy them again...I, this is the first time I saw such a scary sister..."

"That's because she's never been mean to you. I've learned it a long time ago." Shi Wenbo put his face in front of Tian Xilei, and lightly touched his nose with his forehead, "When I was in high school with you , I have been beaten by her a lot..."

Tian Xilei raised his chin slightly, and kissed Shi Wenbo's forehead, "It's different, playing tricks is different from looking fierce."

"So, our sister actually doesn't hate me that much." Shi Wenbo happily stroked Tian Xilei's face as if he had been appreciated by an important person, making him smile happily all at once.

"It's really the same thing when you say that..."

"That's right! Maybe my sister already knew about us, but she just didn't care about it, and let us go with one eye closed..."

"I hope so, otherwise she will definitely chase you and beat her again after giving birth."

"If the price of being with you is domestic violence in disguise, I am willing to be beaten for the rest of my life..."

Shi Wenbo's tenderness shattered Tian Xilei's strength of loneliness all the time, and tears rolled in his eyes uncontrollably.He hides the past in his heart and does not tell others, living in a lonely, self-restraining, harmless appearance for self-protection.

Whether it was the woman's departure or the unhappiness or hatred between his sister and her, he chose to remain silent and let it develop... As for the relationship between him and Shi Wenbo, he would not give up easily, but if If it was Shi Wenbo who wanted to leave because of his sister's objection, he would not keep him...

It was painful, but it was his way of life!

"What's wrong? Why are you crying..." Tian Xilei's tears dripped on Shi Wenbo's face, so frightened that he quickly sat up from the bed, and wiped away the two lines of tears with distress, "Don't cry, don't cry Well, although I used to say that my sister is a bad woman, judging from what happened recently, my sister still has a clear sense of grievances and grievances, love and righteousness... As long as my sister agrees to us being together, she can punish me in any way... ..."

"What if she puts you in jail?"

"If you go to jail, you can go to jail. Don't forget to visit the prison... Also, don't cheat on me with other men..."

"Then I'll take the man to prison, in front of you..."

"How dare you... I'll abolish him..."

Come on, Shi Wenbo hugged Tian Xilei, making a fierce look of gnashing his teeth.It's just that the big bad wolf that lost its fangs bared its mouth not only without any threat, but on the contrary, it gave birth to a somewhat powerless cuteness, which was very cute.

It can be said that the current Shi Wenbo has made Tian Xilei, who had a psychological shadow in the past, fall in love with him!Not to mention letting him go to jail, Tian Xilei would probably be reluctant to just be scolded by others.

But it was such a man who was no longer strong, but he slowly opened his heart, revealing the true emotions buried in his heart.

"Okay, stop crying. Be good..."

Tian Xilei nodded and buried his head in Shi Wenbo's arms, "I don't want to cry either, but I can't help it..."

Shi Wenbo held back his laughter, "Then cry out loud..."

Now that his lover had spoken, Tian Xilei naturally stopped being polite, and burst into tears with a "wow", venting all the grievances and unwillingness accumulated over the past few years.

After crying for a while, Tian Xilei suddenly bounced away from Shi Wenbo's arms, and while wiping away tears, he muttered, "Isn't it unlucky to cry on the first day of the new year?"

The crying boy is so cute, Shi Wenbo couldn't help but say: "Well, it seems so! I heard from my mother that if you cry on the first day of the new year, you will be unhappy for a whole year. .”

Tian Xilei sobbed, "I...I don't want...don't...for a whole year...to be...unhappy..."

"But you already cried on New Year's Day?"

"No...don't...don't be unhappy all year..."

"..." Shi Wenbo suppressed a smile.

"Don't...don't..."

"...then propose to me..."

Tian Xilei suddenly stopped sobbing, "?"

"I'm happy to propose marriage! This is the secret patriarchal clan that has been passed down to this day after being continuously verified by the ancestors..."

"..."