Whisper unintentionally

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Xu Xiaomai stayed up almost all night. When she kissed Kou Yaner's lips, she didn't think so much, but she couldn't think about it when she was lying on the bed alone.

"Don't compete with men for a woman." She told herself repeatedly over the years.The implication of this statement is not that she is afraid of men, or has no confidence in herself.What she has no confidence in is the woman who is between a man and a woman, how easy it is to fall to a man, it meets all the evaluation standards and expectations of the family and society, and also meets the expectation of maximizing personal interests.In today's era, taking "love" seriously does not impress people at all, on the contrary it often becomes a joke.Outsiders will think you are pretending, and the parties will think you are hypocritical or hypocritical.

So in these years, Xu Xiaomai never provoked any married women, not even single women of unknown sexual orientation.She was fed up with this unfair competition that had no chance of winning and ended in a sudden and humiliating death.

But she was easily disarmed by Kou Yaner's erratic emotions.

Xu Mai attributed it to her recent loneliness and frustration.In addition, Kou Yaner is just the woman, apart from her married status, she is Xu Maimai's cup of tea.

Xu Xiaomai didn't want to use "her food" to describe Kou Yan'er. Although Kou Yan'er cooked good dishes, the interesting thing is that Xu Xiaomai never felt the smell of oily smoke from her body. More accurately, there was no smell of marriage. .Even with Xiao Button, she is more like a friend than a mother, neither nagging about everything, nor giving admonitions from above.

Kou Yan'er is like tea, which can be tasted slowly, slightly bitter but full of flavor.

In fact, sometimes, Kou Yaner is like wine, stimulating but interesting.

Both tea and wine require training to be liked by people's palate.Children can't accept it, they will hate the bitterness of tea and the strongness of wine.These are drinks that adults will slowly fall in love with after they have had a lot of experience.

When you have eaten too much greasy food and drank too many sweet drinks and cannot digest it, maybe one day, you suddenly drink a cup of slightly bitter green tea, and you will understand the warm but not greasy flavor from then on.

When I was a child, I took the risk to taste the wine that adults drank, and then I was so hot that I cried, crying and vowing never to drink this ghost thing again.But when you grow up and fall out of love one day, you suddenly feel the need for a glass of wine, and then you feel a certain kind of stimulation and hot flow through your throat and into your stomach, you will be dizzy and floaty, So you often have a drink to find these feelings.

In the eyes of Xu Maimai, being coquettish and cute is completely boring.Xu Xiaomai couldn't tolerate trivial chatter.

Xu Xiaomai felt that she was becoming more and more picky, mainly targeting her lover.She can tolerate colleagues and friends, but if they want to enter her life, she can't help being picky.

Pick and choose, and finally fell in love with a woman with a family.Xu Maimai was very depressed, but she felt like she was a little addicted.

Kou Yan'er is different from the people around her. She never shows personal ambition, but she is obviously very pursuing and tasteful; she has a very well-proportioned figure, but she rarely wears famous brands; Xu Xiaomai thought the speech was very interesting, nutritious and full of content.What's even more strange is that Luo Xue said that she has a very happy marriage, but Xu Xiaomai can't feel the existence of another person at all.She saw men's shoes in the foyer of Kou Yan'er's house, that's all.Xu Xiaomai never asked, and Kou Yaner never mentioned this man.

But no matter how low-key Kou Yaner is, it is an indisputable fact that she is married.

Xu Mai, what do you think?

Xu Mai, what can you do?

These are the two questions that Xu Xiaomai asked himself repeatedly.She asked herself all night, but there was still no answer at dawn.

Take it one step at a time.

When Xu Maimai first joined the company early in the morning, he was a little tired and frustrated.Because she didn't sleep all night and couldn't see her future.

But at the moment I am in a good mood.The first email she opened was a notice from the general manager telling her to go to Malaysia for a meeting.

Xu Xiaomai doesn't care about Malaysia, but she knows that this is a global meeting about their upcoming huge project, and she is the representative of the Chinese department to participate in this project.

This didn't make her the happiest either. The happiest thing was that she suddenly had a plan. She would use this excuse to take Kou Yan'er and Xiaokouzi to Malaysia for vacation.She was busy all morning with the meeting time and hotel arrangements, as well as the visa situation.She needs to be fully prepared for the invitation, she cannot give Kou Yaner a chance to refuse.

It would be too abrupt if she invited Kou Yaner and Xiao Button to travel in private, but now everything is natural, she not only needs to give herself a reason, but also give Kou Yaner a reasonable reason to explain to her family.