Whisper unintentionally

12.

The car stopped slowly downstairs.Xu Maimai in the passenger seat did not move, still looking sideways out of the car window, the entrance of the building was bright and cold.She didn't want to get out of the car, and she suddenly felt a deep sense of loneliness and sadness.

"Holidays are really annoying." Xu Xiaomai murmured, whether she was talking to herself or to Kou Yan'er, it was impossible to tell.

Kou Yan'er turned around and looked at Xu Xiaomai's profile.After Xu Xiaomai finished speaking, she pressed her lips tightly together and said nothing.Kou Yan'er did not break the silence, and waited quietly for Xu Xiaomai.

Xu Xiaomai continued, "I often go home at this time, but today I feel sad. These festivals seem to be specially designed to deal with those of us who refuse to surrender to the world, and isolate us. People use family fun to force us Surrender." At this point, Xu Maimai turned his head and looked at Kou Yaner, "Is that so?"

Kou Yan'er didn't look away, and asked instead, "I've always wanted to ask you, will you get married?"

Xu Maimai was a little surprised by this question and was stunned.

"You let Xiaokouzi call your sister, you said, you are not married yet." Kou Yaner has been wondering what this sentence means.

"Oh, my personal definition of marriage is a ceremony where two people decide to stay together forever, and it's not limited to men and women." Xu Maimai smiled frankly.

"Then get married quickly, and you will know whether the festival is specially used to deal with you." Kou Yan'er also smiled softly.

"Someone has to be willing to marry me." Xu Maimai's sadness was somewhat diluted by Kou Yaner's question.

"You don't even bother to fall in love, how can you have a chance to fall in love with someone?"

"Love is something you can meet, but you can't ask for it." Xu Xiaomai said guiltily, and she couldn't even convince herself of this reason.

"It's an excuse for passive lazy people."

"Okay, okay, even if I'm passive and lazy." Xu Xiaomai turned around and faced Kou Yan'er. "Yan'er, what did you mean just now that festivals are not for dealing with lonely people?"

"No, what I mean is that festivals are not designed to deal with you lonely people. Festivals are designed to combat loneliness and fear. Festivals give people a reason to be together, so that we can unite and fight our fears together , the fear of loneliness."

Xu Xiaomai thought for a while and asked, "You used two different words, loneliness and loneliness, aren't they the same thing?"

"Loneliness is a living state of active choice, while loneliness is a sad state of mind at a loss."

"Yan'er, will you be lonely?" Xu Xiaomai asked suddenly.

Kou Yan'er avoided Xu Maimai's probing eyes and stared straight ahead, "Everyone will be lonely."

Xu Xiaomai nodded with a serious expression, and said in a low tone, "So you will be lonely too." Then she approached Kou Yaner with a smile like a flower, "Why do I feel less lonely all of a sudden?!"

Facing Xu Xiaomai who suddenly changed his mood, Kou Yaner was speechless.

Xu Xiaomai glanced at the clock on the car, and it would be 12 o'clock in a few minutes. "Yan'er, count down with me. It's almost New Year's Eve."

"Okay." Kou Yan'er did not hesitate.

They sat quietly in the car without talking, and the time passed minute by minute.

When the pointer started to make the last circle, Kou Yan'er suddenly stretched out his right hand and held Xu Xiaomai's left hand.Xu Xiaomai hesitated for a moment, then added some strength, and took Kou Yaner's hand back.

They didn't count down loudly, but when the second hand skipped the last second, the two turned around at the same time, leaned forward, and embraced gently.

"Happy New Year!"

"Happy New Year!"

The two said this blessing in each other's ears almost at the same time.

Everything happened naturally.

After hugging for just a few seconds, Xu Maimai stepped back and let go of his left hand, "Thank you, Yan'er."

Kou Yan'er also naturally leaned back in the chair, "Okay, hurry up and go home and sleep."

"Hmm." Xu Maimai's expression was a little unnatural.

Xu Maimai pushed open the car door, stepped out with one leg, and then retracted, "I owe a favor to Little Button, what should I do?"

Kou Yan'er didn't speak, but his expression was quite calm.

"Ask Little Button for me, can you give me a chance, and I will invite her to play Chimelong Paradise." Xu Xiaomai said.

"Okay, I'll ask her for you." Kou Yan'er didn't knowingly ask what it means to owe a favor to Little Button.

At the moment, Little Button is sleeping at home alone.In any case, Xu Xiaomai occupied the New Year's moment that Kou Yaner should have been with Little Button.