Anan

The most important encounter in Feng An's life happened in the spring of that year.

At that time, he was standing in front of his grandma's grave, holding an unused bottle of pesticide in his hand, and was about to commit suicide, when he suddenly caught a glimpse of someone standing on the steps obliquely in front of him. he.

In South China in April, the weather was not cold for a long time, but the man was fully armed, wearing a black baseball cap, wide sunglasses and a mask on his face, which almost covered his entire face, as if very The look of fear of the wind.Feng An had lived in the village since he was a child, so he could be sure that the other party was definitely not from the village, so he couldn't help but look at him twice.And the man obviously noticed his gaze, immediately subconsciously pushed down the brim of his hat again, and then turned his back.

Feng An felt that this person was behaving strangely, so he couldn't help becoming nervous, and he hesitated when he twisted the bottle cap—he didn't know how long it would take for this pesticide to take effect. It becomes a waste of effort.And things like suicide can only be taken by surprise. If Feng Jiaguang finds out, then he may not even be able to ask for death in the future.

And just when Feng An was hesitating, the strangely dressed man had folded his hands and bowed three times, and walked over from the front with his head bowed.

In the very remote countryside, there is no formal cemetery like in the city, but an open space is opened up in the mountain depression near the village to bury the dead.Feng An's grandma, like all the deceased old people in the village, is buried here.Feng An saw the person's movements clearly, and finally heaved a sigh of relief in his heart. He thought that the Qingming Festival had passed not long ago, and the other party was probably a young man who went out to work, and he went back to his hometown to pay homage to the ancestors. Now that the worship is over, he should also leave up.

Grandma Feng An's grave is located outside, and as long as I turn another corner, I can see a small road leading to the village.

When the man passed by, Feng An nervously squeezed the pesticide bottle in his hand, bowed deeply to his grandma's tombstone, and pretended to bow and pay respects, for fear that others would notice his abnormality.However, the sky failed to fulfill his wish, and before he raised his head, he heard an uncertain question from above: "Are you... Feng An?"

Feng An straightened up with a stiff posture, and turned to look at him.

The man stared at Feng An for a few seconds, then glanced at the tombstone in front of Feng An, then raised his hand and took off his sunglasses with certainty: "I'm Ji Chunshen, don't you recognize me?"

Feng An opened his mouth slightly, and stared at him blankly.

Ji Chunshen seemed very proud, and patted Feng An's shoulder: "Hey! Did you get scared when you saw such a big star?"

Ji Chunshen is the child of Feng An's neighbor, three years older than Feng An. When Feng An first entered the county middle school, he was still in the second year of middle school. Because of his poor grades, he was kept in the second grade for two consecutive years.At that time, Ji Chunshen was still Ji Chunsheng, the brother Chunsheng who would take Feng An to school every day, until he left the village to go to Shenzhen City and was discovered by scouts, so he changed his name to Ji Chunshen.

Feng An didn't expect to meet Ji Chunshen at this time, he was stunned and asked him stammeringly: "I recognize you, I saw you on TV...how did you come back?"

Ji Chunshen also took off the mask, stuffed it together with the sunglasses into the jacket pocket: "The company is on annual leave, come back to see my dad."

"Oh..." Feng An turned his hands away in a panic, hiding the pesticide bottle behind his back: "I, I'm going to see my grandma too."

Ji Chunshen's eyes are very sharp, and he has seen something in Feng An's hand for a long time, so he half-jokingly leaned over to look at it: "What are you hiding? Can't you show it to me?"

Feng An took a big step back in fright: "No, it's nothing..."

Ji Chun looked at him mysteriously, and became more and more curious. He took a step to the side and went directly to snatch it: "It's nothing, why can't you show it to me?"

Feng An has been malnourished for a long time, and his body is thin and weak. How can he be as strong as Ji Chunshen?Ji Chunshen snatched the bottle before he could dodge a few times.

Ji Chunshen also grew up in the countryside. He lowered his head to see the packaging on the bottle, and he understood it all at once, and the smile on his face disappeared immediately.

"Are you going to commit suicide?" He frowned and stared at Feng An.

Feng An lowered his head resignedly, and pursed the corners of his mouth in silence.

Ji Chunshen was just standing far away just now, and didn't see clearly whether Feng An had really drank it. At this moment, he saw that there was only half of the liquid in the bottle, and he really panicked. He pressed Feng An's shoulder and shook violently. He: "Have you drunk? Talk!"

Feng An grabbed Ji Chunshen's arm and was almost unable to stand when he shook him. He said helplessly, "No, I haven't had a drink yet..."

Only then did Ji Chunshen let go of his hand.

After smashing the half bottle of pesticides on the ground, Ji Chunshen gave Feng An a hard look: "People can be stupid, but they can't be stupid. What's the big deal, you have to commit suicide?"

Feng An looked around anxiously: "Keep your voice down."

Ji Chunshen folded his arms on his chest, and said in a bad tone, "Oh, you have the guts to commit suicide, are you afraid that the dead body will scare people?"

Ji Chunshen was really annoyed, not just because he didn't like this cowardly suicide.He managed to apply for annual leave with the company and went back to his hometown. He originally wanted to calm down and think about his future, but he didn't know that Feng An committed suicide in the cemetery by such a coincidence. It was really unlucky.

Ji Chun pressed Feng An's shoulder deeply, and escorted him into his car.

Ji Chunshen's father died in a factory accident when Ji Chunshen was in high school, and his mother remarried soon. Now his hometown has no relatives, so when he came back this time, he didn't plan to spend the night in the old house, and the car was always on the road. Park on the side of the road.At this time, after Feng An buckled up his seat belt, he started the car directly out of the village, and drove along the road to the county town.

"Tell me, what's going on?" Ji Chunshen parked the car on the side of the road in the county seat, and took Feng An into a decent-looking restaurant.

Sitting in the closed box, Feng An probably finally realized the safety of the environment, and finally opened his mouth to explain the reason.

"My father is in debt again, 3 yuan. The family can't get it out, and the creditor comes to smash things every day." Feng An lowered his head listlessly, and his bangs, which had not been trimmed for a long time, covered his eyes.

Ji Chunshen really almost rolled his eyes.Picking up the kettle and pouring half a cup of boiling water into his cup, he put the chopsticks in it to rinse: "It's only 3 yuan. Now working in the factory costs [-] to [-] yuan a month. As for suicide?"

Feng An shook his head: "That's in a big city, and our wages here are not so high."

Ji Chun washed the chopsticks thoroughly, and poured the water in the cup on the ground: "Then you won't go out to work? Didn't many people in our village go out?"

Feng An said in a low voice: "I don't have an ID card...he has pressed the household registration book with the creditor, so I can't get an ID card, and now trains and buses require real names, so I can't buy a ticket..."

This time Ji Chunshen finally couldn't hold back and scolded: "Your dad is out of his mind, right? It's a shame he figured out how to use the household register as collateral!"

Feng An lowered his head and remained silent.

Ji Chun frowned deeply, took a bite of the food, and then asked, "What about your mother? Haven't you been back in the past few years?"

Feng An shook his head again.

Ji Chunshen was completely speechless.In their village, the old Feng's family has always been a hot topic in gossip, because Feng Jiaguang is a useless wimp who spends his days doing nothing, going out early and returning late, playing cards with friends or borrowing money to buy lottery tickets, spending unrealistic days Dream.The whole Feng family depended on Feng An's mother's part-time job for support, so the men in the village looked down on Feng Jiaguang, thinking that he was worthless and that he would eat soft food from women.On the other hand, Feng An's mother was not honest, she had an affair with a man in the part-time factory.Rumors and rumors spread to Feng Jiaguang's ears, and the Feng family never had an Ansheng life. Neighbors around could always hear the sound of cursing and beating coming from Feng's house at night, and the next morning, they could see Feng An's mother being beaten all over her body. , with bloodstains and bruises on his face and arms.

Ji Chunshen still has the memory of one evening, Feng An's mother was disheveled and ran out of the house screaming all the way with her daughter in her arms like crazy.At that time, Ji Chunshen had just returned home from school, and standing beside the field ridge pushing his bicycle, he thought he had seen a mental illness.

This situation lasted for nearly a year, and then Feng An's mother finally couldn't bear her husband's beating, and ran away with Feng An's sister one winter night-only the youngest daughter, but not the son, which was even more embarrassing. It confirmed the green hat on Feng Jiaguang's head.From then on, the people in the village pointed and pointed more and more, and Feng Jiaguang's temper became even more irritable.Grandma Feng An is over 80 years old, how can she bear such pressure?He died of a heart attack within a few months.Feng An was so young at that time, while he was studying, he had to take care of the family and take care of his father. Ji Chunshen's mother looked pitiful, and sometimes invited Feng An to come to eat at home, and said to Ji Chunshen: "An An is with you School, take care of him more in the future, don't let him be bullied at school."

Ji Chunshen thought he took good care of Feng An, took him with him to and from school, and would treat Feng An to snacks when he received the protection fee.

After eating two mouthfuls of food silently, Ji Chunshen knew that Feng An's past few years must have been difficult, and it was rare for him to come back, so if he could help, he would do something good, so he put down his chopsticks and asked him, "What are you doing?" Is dad home today?"

Feng An shook his head: "He came back yesterday."

In fact, when Feng Jiaguang came back yesterday, he just informed Feng An that he owed a sum of money outside, and asked Feng An to pay attention to it these two days.Feng Jiaguang has no parental heart at all, and the role of his son is nothing more than making money for him to pay off his debts, and he went out again after explaining the debts.

Ji Chunshen also knew what kind of virtue Feng Jiaguang was, so he put two pieces of meat in Feng An's bowl, and said, "Then I'll get a room in the hotel, and you don't go back these two days, just stay in the hotel."

Feng An looked up at him, but there was no anger in his voice: "What about you?"

"Me? I don't have a few days off. I'll go back after you settle down."

Feng An suddenly lowered his head again, hesitant to speak: "Brother Chunsheng, I..."

He couldn't finish his sentence because Ji Chunshen's cell phone rang suddenly.Ji Chunshen put down his chopsticks and glanced at the screen. It was the call from his manager Liu Bin.

"Chunshen, where are you now?"

Ji Chunshen replied impatiently: "In my hometown! Didn't I tell Xiao Zhang?"

Liu Bin's tone was calm: "I just want to confirm again, you are different now, you should pay attention to safety."

Now Ji Chunshen was annoyed when he heard Liu Bin's voice, so he simply snorted through his nostrils.

"Have you called Mr. Wu?"

"I didn't hit it yet." Ji Chunshen turned his body a little and began to take out a cigarette from his trousers pocket.

There was a pause on the other end of the phone, and then Liu Bin's voice rang again, with a hint of persuasion: "Chunshen, Tianzhiyao is the most popular IP this year, and Su Xinxin is also one of the top traffic florets now, if you can get If you play the second male lead and play opposite her, then your popularity in the first half of the year will be guaranteed—Chunshen, you have been in the industry for several years, don’t you have any thoughts about the future? So much, if you can't keep the topic high, you will soon be caught by this circle..."

"——I know all of this!" Ji Chunshen interrupted the other party irritably, took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth: "But that Wu named Wu is almost 50 years old, and there are so many investors, you have to let me Are you looking for him?!"

"Chunshen, you've been in the industry for so long, why don't you understand? Now it's a world controlled by capital, and Wu is always the biggest investor in this show. If you don't contact him, why don't you ask the director and producer? They Can it be counted? Both Qian Jue and Chen Chen are backed by financial masters, but you have no backing at all..." Liu Bin lowered his voice: "If you don't ask Mr. Wu, do you think you have a chance of winning?"

Ji Chunshen lit the lighter with one hand, and remained silent without speaking.

Liu Bin said again: "Chunshen, I know you are not gay, it must be difficult to accept this kind of thing. The company also has its articles of association. If you don't want to, no one will force you. But from a personal point of view, I still hope you You can think about it again, after all, this opportunity is really rare, if you miss it, you don’t know when the next time will be.”

Ji Chunshen hadn't lit the lighter all the time, and when he heard this, he threw the lighter out angrily: "I know! I'll call him when I get back to Shenzhen City!"

Then he hung up and threw the phone on the table.

Feng An sat opposite him, although he didn't know the inside story of the call, he could tell that Ji Chunshen was in a bad mood.Bending down to pick up the lighter in the corner, he silently put the lighter back on the table next to Ji Chunshen.

"Eat, hurry up!" Ji Chunshen answered the phone call from his manager, feeling extremely irritable, and no longer in the mood to think about Feng An's family shit: "I'll take you to the hotel after eating!"

Feng An has no appetite at all, and he doesn't want to go to the hotel, because he knows that hiding in the hotel is just a temporary escape, and it can't fundamentally solve Feng Jiaguang's debt problem, and since he can't commit suicide this time, he still has to go home sooner or later.What should we do then?

But looking up at Ji Chunshen's face, he didn't dare to say anything after all.