i think i still love you

Gu Yifei painted on the wound with his hand, and said on his mouth while painting, "I admit that I am responsible for your lover's death. I have been very guilty this year. I delivered 103 babies this year and performed 112 implants. Surgery, nursed 317 patients, I did not make a single mistake, not even a crooked needle! I did not give him a skin test, but even if the cephalosporin skin test is done, there may be a false negative. I am a cure, you It can be said that I am not good at skills, but if you want to say that your lover was caused by me, I will not admit it! I don't!"

Gu Yifei was a little confused by Xiao Yifan's flowing movements, and after Xiao Yifan finished speaking, a band-aid had already been pasted on the wound.Xiao Yifan raised his head, his eyes were red, he felt that he was really wronged this year, he worked an average of 10 or 12 hours a day, and he always had to read books for ten minutes when he came back from get off work. [-] points concentrate on doing it.

The corner of Gu Yifei's mouth twitched, he frowned and said, "Are you a woman? Why are there so many tears?"

Xiao Yifan blinked subconsciously, and quickly pulled his sleeves to wipe it off.

Gu Yifei sneered, still acting like nothing happened.

"Sorry, I'm going back first." Xiao Yifan took his things and left.

Gu Yifei looked out the window, the events of a year ago were still vivid in his mind, he was going crazy when he said he missed him, every night when he closed his eyes, the past between him and Chen Xing was like a slideshow, even in the first few months of nights he was I sat in front of Xu Chenxing's tomb in the cemetery.But speaking of hating Xiao Yifan, he really didn't have time to hate him this year.And the only fragment left for Xiao Yifan is the scene of him squatting on the ground and crying loudly.

Gu Yifei raised his hand and glanced at the row of Band-Aids on the back of his hand, "It's so ugly," he cursed, then pulled down the visor and closed his eyes.

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After getting off the plane, Xiao Yifan said that he needed to go to the bathroom, but Xiao Zhengyan complained, "Didn't you get on the plane, the total journey is only two hours."

Xiao Yifan didn't tell Xiao Zhengyan that he was looking for Gu Yifei, so he would also hesitate.

Xiao Zhengyan's expression changed suddenly and he said, "Don't tell me you are too busy to go to the bathroom and have something wrong? Don't dare, you are still young and have not married a wife."

"Old Xiao you you you..." Xiao Yifan was speechless, he threw the bag into Xiao Zhengyan's arms and went to the bathroom.

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Everything about grandma's funeral and the funeral Xiao Zhengyan and Xiao Yifan were more like guests, Xiao Yifan accompanied Xiao Zhengyan to work silently, and in three days it was only my aunt who was said to have come to give them two watermelons.The son was supposed to stand in the first row at the burial, but Xiao Zhengyan and Xiao Yifan stood behind the grandson. That day Xiao Zhengyan cried, Xiao Yifan also cried, and Xiao Zhengyan cried for his mother. After that, he may really not have any entanglements with this place anymore.Xiao Yifan cried because he really loved his father.

After the funeral, Xiao Zhengyan didn't take Xiao Yifan home again, but went directly to the hotel.In the past few days, Xiao Yifan went back to the hotel to sleep at night, Xiao Zhengyan had to keep his filial piety at night, and had to keep adding oil to the lamp, so he hardly closed his eyes for a few days.

Xiao Zhengyan asked his subordinates to book the hotel. He probably thought he was alone, so he booked a room with a big bed.After taking off his clothes, Xiao Zhengyan was paralyzed on the bed, really paralyzed, after all, he was over 50 years old.Xiao Yifan lay next to him and booked a plane ticket.

"Shall we book tomorrow morning or tomorrow night?" Xiao Yifan asked with a pillow on his neck and his phone.

"Look at your time." Xiao Zhengyan replied with his eyes closed.

"I don't care, I'll work the night shift the day after tomorrow." Xiao Yifan raised his eyebrows and said.

"Then let's go to bed at night. I will sleep with Dad tomorrow. I miss you." After Xiao Zhengyan finished speaking, he turned sideways and put his head on Xiao Yifan's arm.

Xiao Yifan was taken aback for a moment, and then said, "Hey, you gays are so nasty."

Xiao Zhengyan didn't speak, Xiao Yifan looked at Xiao Zhengyan with a sullen mouth, and was shocked that his sleeves got wet.

"What...how...what's wrong?"

"I'm glad you're straight." Xiao Zhengyan lay flat, closed his eyes, and rested his arms on them.

Xiao Yifan was a little confused, this was the first time Xiao Zhengyan said that.

"I..." Xiao Yifan didn't know what to say, and when he was searching his brain for some comforting words, Xiao Zhengyan turned around again, and this time he really pulled Xiao Yifan into his arms tightly.

Xiao Yifan's body was stiff, and he had never been hugged by a man like this since he was an adult.

Xiao Zhengyan said in a low voice with his irritated splitting voice, "You have to be good, Dad is the only family member like you."

For a while, Xiao Yifan didn't feel embarrassed anymore, he patted Xiao Zhengyan's back naturally to comfort him, and after a while he said, "Old Xiao, you have to be well, I'm just like you, and you're the only family member. "

Xiao Zhengyan wiped away his tears and said, "What nonsense, you will marry a wife and have children in the future."

Xiao Yifan also smiled and said, "Isn't this quite clear? You will have a grandson in the future, so I will be the only one left. If you find another young man now, maybe you can give me a younger brother." "

"The more you talk, the more out of shape you are." Xiao Zhengyan pushed Xiao Yifan's head.

"In the first place, I delivered my brother with my own hands, hahahaha," Xiao Yifan said more and more enthusiastically.

"Don't worry about my younger brother, just take care of yourself, every day is so day and night, which girl would like to be with you!" Xiao Zhengyan sneered.

"Hey Dad, how do you judge whether you are gay or straight?" Xiao Yifan didn't bother at all.

"Then if a man wants to kiss you now, will you reject it?" Xiao Zhengyan asked.

Xiao Yifan was stunned for a moment, and suddenly an enlarged version of Gu Yifei's face was getting closer and closer, and it was about to touch "Damn!" Xiao Yifan shouted loudly, and he could feel his ears It started to get hot, and I don't know if Xiao Zhengyan saw it.

"I can't stand it, I can't accept women either." Xiao Zhengyan had such an expression on his face.

Xiao Yifan swallowed his saliva in a panic, cleared his throat and said "ohhh" twice.Picking up the phone and continuing to fill in the information, one ID number was filled out and deleted, and it was not correct after filling it out several times. My OS is a lot of shit!Why would the first reaction be that person, no matter what, it should be Yuan Ya!Fuck, Fuck, Fuck... I'm straight, straight! !

"That... Dad, will you still fall in love with someone else now?" After finally booking the ticket, Xiao Yifan asked this question out of nowhere.

"Huh?" Xiao Zhengyan didn't understand.

Xiao Yifan explained, "Apart from Uncle Xiaodong, would he fall in love with someone else?"

Xiao Zhengyan raised the corners of his mouth and smiled and said, "Yes, and no. It is because people cannot completely control their emotions and desires. There must be several people who attract you in a person's life. This is a person's rational control. I can't. But I won't, because although I can't control falling in love, I can control not being with him, because of responsibility, although it may be difficult."

"So, have you ever met someone you fell in love with again?" Xiao Yifan asked.

Xiao Zhengyan didn't answer.

"Huh? Really?" Xiao Yifan got up on his stomach and propped his hands on his face to gossip.

"I go to the cemetery to talk to him every week. Sometimes it's not because I miss him too much, but because I'm afraid of forgetting. As time goes on, the memory becomes blurred, and the details are a little less each time... He left, There is no responsibility for me, so I have to remind myself all the time. Lust, sexual desire, is too difficult to restrain, maybe the sexual desire will gradually decrease when I get older, but the lust will not disappear until death." Xiao Zhengyan did not answer directly.

Xiao Yifan listened very seriously, nodded his head thoughtfully and said, "So Dad, are you dying now? Feeling helpless? You're over 50, it's time for some symptoms, have you had a bad temper this year? Suffering from sweating.... Men also have earlier symptoms, do you know..." Xiao Yifan said a lot.

After hearing his first sentence, Xiao Zhengyan rolled his eyes and turned his back to sleep.

Xiao Yifan talked for a long time without responding, and felt that it was boring. He lay flat on the bed and looked at the ceiling, not knowing what he was thinking.

(six)

After resting for four days and sleeping for two days, Xiao Yifan felt as if he had taken a elixir, and he was as light as a swallow. He even suspected that he was probably a link creature, and his self-healing ability was too strong.

Xiao Yifan has been inexplicably excited for a week since he came back, but there are no patients in Corey these days.Mr. Zhang leaned against a chair with a teacup and drank tea, meditating.Xiao Yifan wiped the table and cabinet with a rag.

"Your dopamine secretion is too strong, don't dazzle in front of my eyes, it makes you dizzy." Zhang Lao put down his teacup and said to Xiao Yifan.

"Uh..." Xiao Yifan froze on the spot with a rag in his hand.

"It's really free to go to the database to read the medical records, don't harm these innocent little bacteria." Zhang Lao took another sip from his teacup and said.

"Okay, I'll go right away." Xiao Yifan immediately threw down the rag, washed his hands, and habitually rubbed his wet hands on the white coat.

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The department has not been established for a long time, and there are not many video materials or paper materials.Xiao Yifan paced back and forth and scanned the medical records.Stopped walking, "Xu Chenxing" three words.Xiao Yifan stretched out his hand, but stopped in mid-air for about half a minute.

Xiao Yifan returned to the office with the materials, and the top one had the words Xu Chenxing written on it, Xiao Yifan looked at it in a daze.

Mr. Zhang took the teacup to pick up the water, saw him come back and asked, "Did you borrow it?"

Xiao Yifan moved his eyes from the medical records to Mr. Zhang, smiled and said, "Yes."

"Let me see what you have borrowed." Mr. Zhang is considered a veteran of innovation and technology, and he is familiar with the materials inside.

Xiao Yi