Snow scene

"Liu Feng..." I read her name.

A few seconds later, a soft "hmm." came from the other end of the phone.

"What's the matter?" I asked her, trying to sound as cool as possible.

"I went to your house to pay New Year's greetings during the Chinese New Year. My aunt said that you went to work at a distant relative's house. Isn't that the case? My aunt said sorry to me. Did something happen?"

Sure enough, the strange phone call she received that day was also from her.Yes, a lot of things happened.But, Liu Feng, why do you like me, why do you like me who is useless?After thinking about it, I Gu Zuo said to her coldly: "It's nothing, I'm working with a relative. Don't worry about my mother, she just loves to apologize."

"You're lying, Bai Yu." Her voice suddenly became sharp, and I haven't heard her speak like this for a long time.

I clenched my other fist to calm myself down, and I sneered at her, "So what? Didn't you break up with me?"

"I'm—"

I interrupted her, "Liu Feng, let's break up, it's not good to be too tired, is it?"

"Wait, Bai Yu, actually I—"

"Liu Feng, you are annoying."

This sentence successfully silenced her, and she said sorry and hung up the phone.I breathed a sigh of relief, there was a deep fingerprint on my palm, it was the first time I spoke to Liu Feng like this, now she should be able to give up on me.Great, really great.She will meet better people in the future, she will meet people who understand her better, she will meet people who like her more, she will not quarrel every day, she will not worry about the future every day, and she will not meet a bastard like me up.

That's great.

The windows of the room were not closed, and the wind brought snow in. It fell on the floor and turned into water, and it was snowing heavily outside.I sat on the edge of the bed and stared blankly out of the window. The wind was blowing slowly. I must be very cold. I felt that I had unloaded a heavy burden, but within this heavy burden was the most precious thing I have always had. I just lifted my The most precious things are thrown away.I feel sad, so sad that my heart hurts, I am so sad that I have trouble breathing, I am so sad that I can’t cry.

I have no right to cry, because I threw it away myself.

I didn't sleep that night, I stared out the window and watched the snow shrink from big to small, thinking I was pretty boring too.I accidentally broke the cup when I was doing things at noon. After learning that I hadn’t slept all night, I was scolded by Sister He. She gave me a pill, saying it would help me sleep, and forced me to hurry up. take a break.The medicine really worked. As soon as I lay on the bed, I felt dizzy and sleepy, and fell asleep quickly.

I dreamed again, and I clearly understood that I was in a dream.I went to mine with a big basket on my back, and there was a doll in the basket. I only knew that this doll was very important to me.I made my way through the cozy forest to a thorn forest, not knowing where I was going, nor why I was there.I sat on the soft ground in front of the thorn forest. I didn’t know how long I sat there until one day there was a roar of a wild animal in the distance. I hurriedly picked up the doll in the basket and ran into the thorn forest with it.Along the way, my clothes were punctured, my body was scratched, and the blood continued to stay. Even so, I still hugged the doll tightly to prevent it from being hurt.I don't know how long I've been running. At that time, I suddenly thought of Alice in Wonderland. I thought that there should be little rabbits. Thinking of this, an ocean appeared in front of me. I walked barefoot on the beach, and every step I took All left a bloodstain on the sand.The blood on my body has solidified, only the blood in my hand is still flowing.I found that the doll in my arms had rabbit ears, and it bit the scabbed wounds on my hands.It is a doll that can't speak, it smiled at me, I think it is very cute, but I looked at the sea in front of me, and threw it into the sea, it didn't sink into the water, but floated on the sea, very far Far, far away, where the water and the sky meet.With nowhere to go, I sat on the beach and waited for my wounds to heal.But after a long time, the scabbed wounds on his body cracked, and the blood continued to flow, from bright red to thick black, and finally his whole body turned into a puddle of black water, washed away by the seawater that hit the shore, and finally nothing was left .

I woke up.Was woken up by a phone call.I answered the phone in a daze, my mind was in a mess.

"Bai Yu! Are you there? Are you there! A major discovery!" It was Li Lulu's voice. I forgot to call back yesterday's missed call.

"what happened?"

"I've solved the puzzle!" Li Lulu was very excited, and she could feel her excitement through the screen. "Look at the pictures on those postcards again. Each picture has a code, one side is a letter code, and the other side is a number code. For example, the only letters that can be seen clearly in the newspaper and magazine I told you are FSI, it's like the abbreviation of 56, and a picture on the other side shows a square with flying white doves, I counted, and there are fourteen white doves in it. There are other puzzles like this, you said The picture with all the letters..."

Li Lulu talked a lot to herself, but I didn't really listen to it. I thought it was a bit ridiculous.After sleeping, I feel a lot more energetic, but it's not easy. I always feel that I just had a dream, but I can't remember the content of the dream.

"Hey, Bai Yu, did you hear what I said?"

"No." I said truthfully.

"Hey! Listen, these puzzles should be converted into a sentence. I think the answer lies in the book we found in Sister He's drawer that day. I checked the Internet, but there is no information about that book..."

"Then? What do you want me to do?" I probably already guessed what she was going to do.

"Don't you teach children lessons in the morning. You will hide the key for me in the snowdrift at the door later, and you will move away from Mujing for a while. I will go to Mujing's room to look at the contents of that book again. Check it out. Password." Li Lulu said it easily, but doing so is already breaking into a private house!

"Okay, I'll try to see."

"As expected of my good partner!" Li Lulu happily hung up the phone.

This kind of thing is very interesting, that's why I became friends with Li Lulu.

After hanging up the phone, I checked the time, it was past five in the morning.I have slept since noon yesterday, and the medicine given by Sister He is too effective.I tidied up my house and secretly put the spare key in the box and buried it in the snowdrift at the door. Sister He would not wake up so early. Sister He is out.

When Sister He got up, I sent a message to Li Lulu, and she said that she had been sneaking around for a long time, and I admired her a lot.Sister He ate breakfast, and I asked Sister He to accompany me on the grounds that I was going to the vegetable market to buy black-bone chicken, because I also wanted to buy some ingredients for stewing black-bone chicken, and it was a bit difficult for me to carry it alone.

"Why do you suddenly want to buy black-bone chicken?" Sister He walked on the snow, kicking the snow on the road bored.

"During the New Year, my mother called me, and she asked me to drink some black-bone chicken soup to replenish my body." I lowered my head, not lying, and added: "I see that the food in the refrigerator is almost finished. I just want to say that I will make black-bone chicken soup for a few days.”

"That's it." Sister He didn't notice the clue.

We walked slowly along the way, and it was past seven o'clock, which happened to be the peak time for those aunts to buy vegetables.I ran into a lot of acquaintances on the road, and a few greetings and a few chats would be enough to delay the time.In the end, it was really time. Mrs. Liu next door wanted to enroll her son in a hobby class, so she asked Sister He for consultation.

"Xiao He, do you think it would be better for my Xiaojun to learn piano?"

"You mean Xiaojun, doesn't he like playing the piano? Last year, I learned it for a day and couldn't finish it."

They chatted on their own.

"If there is, he was not sensible before. Isn't he in the third grade now? The children around him are either dancing or learning the piano. He has to catch up with them. Otherwise, when the class performances come, he will take every one of them." If you don't make a move, it would be a disgrace to the child."

Mrs. Liu's words made people very uncomfortable.

"I remember Xiaojun said that he likes to draw... The child can learn to draw systematically when he is nine years old, and it can cultivate children's emotional intelligence."

"Anyone can draw. My child's skills are too much to overwhelm. Let him learn the piano now. Aren't you teaching the piano this afternoon? I'll send the child there in the afternoon. If he really can't do it, it's okay not to learn."

"OK then."

Looking at Mrs. Liu's back, Sister He smacked her lips irritably, muttering about the silly parents and striding forward.

This scolding is too much, sister He!

"Are you angry?" I was curious about her reaction.

"That's right." Her frown could catch flies, "That Mrs. Liu enrolls her son in cram school every day. Her child is young, and she still needs to learn Mathematical Olympiad and English after school. She spends all her time playing. No more, I enrolled my child in swimming classes and calligraphy classes on weekends, it’s really hard for the child. The child obviously likes to draw, but she insists on forcing the child to learn something that the child doesn’t want to learn.”

"That's it." I also felt that this Mrs. Liu was going too far, "That Xiaojun is so cute..."

Afterwards, we went to the vegetable market to pick out the black-bone chicken and bought the ingredients. On the way back, I sent a message to Li Lulu, and she asked me to pretend to wrestle and wait a little longer.She really deserves a beating.

I sighed, thought for a while, hesitated for a long time, but finally couldn't open my mouth.

"what happened?"

"...It's nothing." I wanted to tell her that I broke up with Liu Feng the day before yesterday, but I obviously broke up with her a long time ago, so I don't feel like I have anything to say.

"Do you want to talk about what happened the day before yesterday?"

I nodded and shook my head.

"Sister He, I might really be shaking M..." I bit my lower lip, "We obviously like each other and we can be together, but I pushed her away, am I stupid..."

"Yes." Sister He stopped in the park, "Let's go in and sit for a while."

"it is good."

We sat down at a random place, and Sister He looked at the rare blue sky, "You just feel that you are not good enough for her, because she is too good, and you have a sense of inferiority. You are afraid, because she You are better than you every time. Coupled with such things happening in your family, you feel that you are even more unqualified to stand in front of her. This is also a pain for you, so you choose this method to escape .”

"..." She was right, I am such a selfish person.

"But what's wrong with escaping." Sister He patted my hat, "People are selfish, and it's not bad to live as you please."

"..." It's good to live as you wish, but it's wrong to hurt others.

"If you think you did something wrong, you are wrong; if you want to apologize to her one day, then apologize; if you want to get hurt again, that's not bad. If you are told, you will be told, as long as you Just don’t do things you regret. If you are indecisive and don’t know what to do, just go with your heart. You should make some mistakes when you are young.”

"This is too self-centered..."

"So what?" Sister He patted me on the shoulder, "You are a kind child, it's okay to be selfish."

"But I hurt Liu Feng like this..." I said a lot of things to her and hurt her many times, obviously she was always thinking of me.

"You have been hurt, and you have been punished. That is the pain now." Sister He stood up, put her hands on my shoulders, with a serious expression, "If the purpose of your apology is to get her to beat or scold me or Excuse me, will you go?"

"Of course not, it's just self-satisfaction."

"That's why I said that you are a kind child. It doesn't matter if you are selfish once this time." She breathed a sigh of relief and smiled, "Actually, it doesn't matter if you are more selfish..."

"Sister He, thank you for your comfort."

I stood up and shaded the sun's rays with my hands, the sky is blue today.

When we got home, Li Lulu also finished her work smoothly. I made black-bone chicken and prepared lunch at noon.During the period, Li Lulu called again, but I didn't answer, she called again, but I finally answered.

"What's wrong?" I said, thinking that there is nothing wrong with it.

"I've unlocked the code!" Li Lulu's voice was as loud as ever, "After a few times of queuing, I finally got it done. There are three sentences in these sentences. The first sentence translated is 'If you still love me, then the game will be released in December 2014. 12th', the second sentence is 'No. 24, the largest Chinatown in New York', and the third sentence is 'In midsummer, we met for the first time'."

"Then?" I thought it was interesting.

"Of course I'm going to New York! I..." She danced so excitedly that she didn't notice the phone was far away from her. I couldn't hear what she was talking about, and I didn't want to complain about whether she forgot to work. up.

"Then you go, why did you tell me?" I was sitting at the dining table, it's not time to cook yet, the chicken soup is also being stewed, I can hang out with Li Lulu for a while.

"How could I forget my partner! It's only fun to call a partner for this kind of thing!"

"How could I go." I saw that she was so carried away that she forgot the most important thing, "I don't have a visa, big sister." And there is no money.

"Ah?" She was dumbfounded, "Damn! Forget about this kind of thing!"

I hurriedly took the phone away, and as expected, Li Lulu's yelling came out, and when she calmed down, I said to her: "You and your dear, go find it, I'm waiting here."

"You...what are you talking about! You can apply for a visa..."

Sure enough, when it came to her partner, she immediately became shy.

I decided to tell her the truth, "I'm too lazy to go, I'm in trouble, and I don't have money."

"you--"

"Have you forgotten that I am a girl who ran away from home?"

"Fuck! I forgot about this setting!"

This is not a setting!

I chatted with Li Lulu for a few more words, hung up the phone, and started making lunch.

During this period, there seemed to be a guest at the door, and Sister He was there to pick him up.When I finished my lunch, Sister He said she didn't want to eat, and she went out on business and asked me to take care of the children for dinner. I was so confused.Child?Where did the child come from?

"Ms. Liu has something to do today, and Xiaojun just happened to have no class in the afternoon, so he sent it to me to watch those children learn piano."

I tilted my head and saw the little boy sitting on the sofa reading a book quietly.

"Then when will you come back?" I asked, to be honest, I can't handle a kid like Xiaojun.

"Go out for a meal and then come back, don't worry, Xiaojun is very good."

After Sister He left, I set the dishes on the table, and Xiaojun had already stood at the door and stared at me for a while.I knelt down and looked at Xiaojun at the same level, "Xiaojun, shall we wash our hands and go to eat?"

His dark eyes stared at me for a few seconds, then glanced at me from top to bottom. Facing my puzzled gaze, he said in a childish accent, "Are you useless?"

What?

He repeated again, "Are you useless?"

ah?What?