The Taming of the Ruffian Hero

Zheng Ziheng didn't know why he didn't have a date.

The family panicked, and so did the work unit. How could such an outstanding young talent still be single?So the neighbors were eighteen miles away, and Zheng Ziheng read all the spring scenery in the world in a year, but couldn't pick out a suitable one.In the end, he saw the thousand love letters written to him by Guo Ciyun, a fellow countryman who had been chasing him since high school, and married her.

A few years later, Zheng Ziheng brought his wife and children into the city, and suddenly lost contact with Zhao Mingjiang. Soon after, he was dispatched to other counties alone. Soon after, he took his wife Guo Ciyun and son Zheng Kai abroad together. County, had completely severed contact with Zhao Mingjiang, and did not meet again until he heard that Zhao Mingjiang was down in the rivers and lakes, heavily in debt, and separated from Qikuo in [-].

"You guys, why haven't you been in touch for so many years?" Lin Wenxi asked with red eyes.

"I don't know." Zheng Ziheng replied sadly, draining a glass of white wine.

"When did you guys enter the city? How old was Kai at that time?" Lin Wenxi suddenly asked a seemingly irrelevant question.

"I don't really remember, maybe six or seven years old." Zheng Ziheng seemed to be still immersed in the memory, and did not answer Lin Wenxi in detail.

Lin Wenxi wanted to continue asking, but suddenly felt that there was no point. He thought of something again, blushing a little bit, and hesitantly asked: "Then...then if you like Uncle Zhao, why...you gave birth to Brother Kai."

Zheng Ziheng was a little surprised, he nodded and smiled and said: "In this day and age, the younger generations are really open." He also said: "At that time, the blood was young, and there was no idea about certain aspects at all. I only knew about that aspect, and I couldn't help it." But, in fact, when doing things, what is in my head is A Yuan's father, his smile, his frown..."

Lin Wenxi tilted his head to hide his panic, and asked, "What about now?" As he spoke, he turned his face away and secretly looked out the window.

Zheng Ziheng smiled without saying a word, Lin Wenxi felt like a light on his back at the moment.

Lin Wenxi thought of Hongyan, his parents, and he suddenly began to fear that one day, he and Zhao Yuan would be like this.

It is not easy to meet the same person now, and this person can pass on his marriage experience and life after marriage to him. Lin Wenxi is so curious that he can't extricate himself.

But the person in front of him and the story just now are exactly the same as Gu Xi's. The difference is that Zhao Mingjiang may not know Zheng Ziheng's thoughts until his death, and Zheng Ziheng may never confide his thoughts to the person he loves in his entire life.

How unimaginable and unacceptable it is to let this feeling be buried in the loess for the rest of the life of the past that is so purely in love, and that bears everything without affecting the lover's life.

And at least, Zheng Kai knows Gu Xi's feelings for him, at least because of this feeling, Zheng Kai will take pity on Gu Xi from time to time and understand Gu Xi.But also because of this feeling, Zheng Kai hated Gu Xi and rejected him.

Perhaps the luckier one is himself, Zhao Yuan has feelings for him to some extent, although Lin Wenxi can't measure the weight, but he knows it, and Zhao Yuan also knows that this has become an inseparable bond between them but also an insurmountable abyss for each other.Pushing one or the other, Lin Wenxi felt uncontrollably uncomfortable.The two emotions were intertwined in their hearts, and the competition became more and more fierce. Lin Wenxi could not express his discomfort, and could not overcome his surprise. His face turned pale and red, and after a long time, it turned into a long sigh. Accompanied by the white wine into his stomach, the white wine stirred Arouse the warmth in the blood to calm my chaotic mood.But Gu Xi already burst into tears.

Zheng Ziheng was like going back in time, when he was around him decades ago, he could see through everything about Lin Wenxi.He persuaded Lin Wenxi to drink the second glass of wine, saying: "If you don't love a woman, you should never marry her, it will ruin her."

"You have a child with her, and Brother Kai is so tough, shouldn't he be happy..." Lin Wenxi asked in a low voice.

"Whenever I'm with her, I always think about another person. After a long time, she will become suspicious. Gradually, she knows that person is not a woman, but a man." Zheng Ziheng said : "You guys, don't become people like me, harming others and yourself."

"Then what if the person you like also happens to like you? Isn't that all right?" Lin Wenxi asked.

"Will your parents agree? What will your relatives and friends think of you?" Zheng Ziheng said seriously.

"Then, what do you think of this matter itself? Is it a mental illness? Or is it brought in the blood?" Gu Xi asked.

"I have thought about it for a long time, thinking that the reason I like a man is that I am not strong enough. So I have been very strict with Akai since I was a child. He has never acted coquettishly in front of me and his mother. He has learned to use his fists to solve problems since he was a child. I Ask him to behave and behave like a real man! I even sent him to Greenfield Military Academy when I was 13 and left him almost alone for six years. Until now, I think he is better than all his peers Sensible, all men, I feel relieved, it seems that I have chosen the right path." Speaking of this, Zheng Ziheng couldn't help but feel a little proud.

Lin Wenxi only felt that he was holding back a wave of anger. All the things he had been strictly controlled by his father since he was a child were replaying before his eyes one by one. Those restraints and pains made him always feel that he was missing something since he was a child. Sometimes it can only be made up a little bit when the memory stays with Fang Fang.

But what kind of life did Zheng Kai live when he was a child?The image of Zheng Kai seems to have turned into that six or seven-year-old child, who has been rushing in front of him to protect him and love him. Behind him, maybe there is a whip that scars Zheng Kai, and the person who holds the whip thinks he is Proud, Zheng Ziheng who doesn't want Zheng Kai to have a hint of homosexuality.

Lin Wenxi thought again, no wonder Zheng Kai used to think he was not manly enough, no wonder Zheng Kai found it difficult to accept the intimacy between boys and boys, presumably Zheng Ziheng had instilled all kinds of thoughts in him since he was a child.

Lin Wenxi clenched his fists tightly, and finally turned his anger into sadness. He choked up and asked Zheng Ziheng: "You yourself, do you despise yourself?"

"No." Zheng Ziheng said.

"Then why do you want Zheng Kai to look down on people like you?"

"I'm just afraid that this psychological problem will be contagious, and that he will be affected when he meets someone like me in the future." Zheng Ziheng explained anxiously.

"Then you think I will infect him, right?" Lin Wenxi asked.

"Are you such a person?" Zheng Ziheng asked.

"You saw me and Zhao Yuan that day." Lin Wenxi said.

"Maybe, I don't know either. In short, I don't think A Yuan will be like this..." Zheng Ziheng muttered to himself.

"Brother Yuan, what will happen?"

"Student Wenxi, Ah Yuan should be like Old Zhao, he wouldn't like someone...he wouldn't like us, and besides, he is Old Zhao's only son, how could you turn him into such a person? "Zheng Ziheng said, suddenly realized that he was wrong, busy explaining, but didn't know how to explain, so he simply drank another glass of wine.

Lin Wenxi's silence made Zheng Ziheng even more embarrassed.

"No, that's not what I mean. I won't say that about you. I just think, Wenxi, this feels too painful. You know, it's too uncomfortable. I take care of him and I'm very happy, but human desires always have no upper limit. , After being with him for so long, I wished more than once that he could hold my hand, more than once that he could even kiss me, but when I think of that, it is a kind of blasphemy to him, I don't deserve it... I don't deserve it... ..." Zheng Ziheng was a little agitated, and his face became even more flushed due to the smell of alcohol.

"Is there something wrong with this kind of love?" Unknowingly, Lin Wenxi's big teardrops rolled down and fell into his wine glass. He picked up the wine and drank it, only feeling endless bitterness.

"Yes...is there something wrong?" Zheng Ziheng smiled suddenly, shook his head again, and sat down on the chair: "Wenxi, you are the only son in the family, your father has been clean and honest all his life, and is well-known, if your father knows you... What would he think? People live a lifetime, not for themselves."

"If I could change it, I would definitely change it. Can I choose?" Lin Wenxi asked back.

Zheng Ziheng shook his head in pain: "In the days before Ming Jiang left, I kept thinking about you and worrying about you. Often, I repeatedly asked A Yuan to show him your photo on his phone so that he could feel at ease. "

"I can feel it, I can feel his gratitude to my father, I can feel his expectation, but..." Lin Wenxi couldn't help but burst into tears.

"So, in the future, you should stop meddling in these matters. I also know about your being attacked. Akai protected you, protected that girl...you did a good job." Zheng Ziheng said.

"Thank you. Before Uncle was alive... I couldn't take care of him well. From now on, I will do my best!" Lin Wenxi said.

"No, he hopes, and I also hope that you don't interfere anymore. Let A Yuan handle it alone. He can do it. You also keep some distance from A Yuan. His identity, as far as you are concerned, Too dangerous."

"Thank you uncle for reminding me, I know it well."

Lin Wenxi turned and left. He really couldn't bear to stay by this poor man's side anymore. Maybe everyone has the imprint of the times, but that man locked himself in the 70s forever. in affection.

Before going out, Lin Wenxi turned around and asked Zheng Ziheng. His voice was trembling badly because of the cold or excitement, "Uncle Zheng, has Brother Kai cried in the past 20 years?" Lin Wenxi asked. The sun suddenly felt that no matter how bright the sun was, it could not illuminate a certain ruin that existed forever in this world.

Gu Xi burst into tears, and he suddenly understood why the Zheng Kai he met at the Lvye Military Academy was so taciturn, refused so much, and hated many things.But the instigator of all this is a person who should be able to experience and understand his pain best.

Inside, Zheng Ziheng buried his head on the table and muttered to himself: "I haven't cried... maybe... soon."